NHS is a Cult - Children at Risk - Whistle-Blower Breaks Silence

42:24And what do you do? What happens if you don't follow their protocol? You refer to social services. They use that card on you and we know their corruption and we know their connection to the police and we know their connection to the council. So they're all connected. There's no impartiality in any of this. So why can they report you to social services? If they think that you've not followed and your baby's at risk, how is a mother and father saying no to a vaccine, a baby at risk or any of these things? I've seen it happen. I've recently just been contacted by a father up north who researched maternity services and was horrified by what the statistics in the newspaper were saying.

42:59And he was so upset that his partner had to be induced that he went to the midwives and he swore. And they referred him to social services and he's been suspended from his job. There's your masculine problem. He wants to be masculine. He wants to provide for his partner and be her voice. And what gets happened? Women shut him down. I was savage. I helped write him an email. it was strong I said do not sign anything do not do this do not do that because people don't realize the minute you put your signature on something you're conforming to their corporation when should people be in just there must be a risk after the 40 weeks of the 42 43 weeks how do people just give birth naturally at 43 43 weeks so but when is the point where you go okay maybe there is and why should why do they always say because a lot of females now are going for that option because they want to protect downstairs they want an easier option but is it an easier option and why why is it getting promoted so much and how long has this been around for so cesarean sections in 20 2001 when my son was born was about seven percent the lowest in the country in some places and up to 12 we're now at literally nearly 50 in the country to have a c-section cost up to about eight thousand pounds so think about that so you're being you're going to have a bed space at 305 pound a night which is going to be about two nights potentially you've got the baby that then you're making money from you've then got all the drugs you've then got the surgery you've then got the wages and you've got a whole theater of staff so Donna Ockenden who is an ex-midwife she um did an investigation into Nottingham Hospital which is now under a criminal manslaughter, corporation manslaughter, which we'll touch on later, and Shrewsbury and Telford Hospital.

44:49And it was from her recommendations that women weren't heard and wanted a cesarean section. And if they had have had it, their baby might have lived. I agree with that. I agree that there are some people that say that they knew instinctively they needed a section and their baby has died. So in that instance, yes. But she agreed that anybody could opt for a section, which has seen the rates rocket. We're seeing in some hospitals in Brazil at 90 % cesarean section rates. So we've got the population walking around with a scar on their uterus. Some young girls at 21 years old with a scar on their uterus for the rest of their life.

45:24So my concern here is that the majority of people will labour naturally and will have a normal birth. But the problem you've got is that people are now scared of the NHS and are making fear-based decisions about their care. and not in a heart space where they think, right, you were the vaccine, you instinctively knew, yeah? Whereas some women will go, I'm so frightened of the NHS and I'm so frightened of midwifery, I'm going to withdraw all care and not do anything and then their baby does die because they're running from the fear and they haven't made the right decision for them because they haven't connected in.

45:55Does that make sense? Whereas what you're seeing is women are now arguing a little bit and I think what's really important is anybody that goes into midwifery should say thank you for seeing me thank we should be changing their system they're there to serve us not the other way around midwives and the doctors are there to serve the public not the other way around and people need to get that in their head but what happens is as you've experienced you go in and you feel that they own you and you you've handed your whole control over and that's what needs to shift women should absolutely be using the only system they've got because it's dangerous if you don't because we've seen some terrible outcomes at home but i know someone that's that's labored at 43 and 3 and had a 10 pound baby at home beautifully because she trusted herself she didn't go i'm not doing it because i don't like the hospital she went no i know that me and my baby have made this decision and it's right and it was right but if people aren't making that decision from a place of love and they're doing it out of fear then that's when things are going to go wrong so we've got to get there's a huge systemic embedding of all of this indoctrination that we need to unpick and that's what's going to be very very difficult but Donna Ockingdon made I believe made the system worse now so many midwives and so many women out there are going to be like I can't believe she's just said that I'm not I don't know Donna Ockingdon but she's never contacted me she's been tagged in so many of my posts you've got a midwife out here talking about the system there's very few of us actually naming and talking about it as deeply as i am especially calling out the vaccines i'm calling out vitamin k as well now i didn't then i didn't know vitamin k was bad i've done my research and i'm like holy hell the high levels of mercury in that the links to leukemia as you say are huge and we're giving that to every single baby within a minute of being born so for me i think for the people that are are really have the have the volume of numbers and the funding would not speak to a midwife that's proved everything with documents i find that really alarming so is she part of the problem is she part of the system is she part of the agenda you've got to question it now i'm not saying she is but she's the one that that that has agreed that that c-sections should be agreed across the board if women want them so that's why we're seeing a huge increase.

48:13James, when I left, there was, we used to have a morning list for C-sections and you would have three women, sometimes two, and then the list would finish for the day. By the time I left, there was a morning and an afternoon list for C-sections. The hospital was not built for bed spaces that long a time. So you were then getting bed blocked, which then meant women were laboring for longer on their own in triage because there was no beds and no midwives. but I believe this is a perfectly planned assassination of the NHS it's done purposely so it's working perfectly it's a system you've got to ask the question how much is she getting paid?

48:50That's the bottom line it's all money. Look on company's house so see when people are getting C-sections are they getting pressured? We don't have enough beds you might not be in here it's too much, you might not even get a bed so it's quicker to do that, are they getting pressured to go down the C-section route? I wouldn't say that because I would say that doctors that I know and that I work with would try and talk women out of that. They do opt for vaginal birth. How is it then when you know now about the K vitamin booster and vaccines and you're so oblivious to then thinking that you've given kids that?

49:20You've then got blood in your hands. No disrespect, but that's the way you're programmed to think you're doing the right thing. I'm a good person, same as all the doctors. When you're in for depression, mental health, they don't need to ask the questions. How's your diet? Are you exercising? What are you struggling with trauma? you're getting out in nature what sort of water you drinking like it's important what's your job like they're not asking the questions of importance of daily life routine they're just saying do you know what there's a box of tablets which will tell you on the box that you can still be suicidal if not it'll make you worse there's no getting to the root cause we're numbing the pain like I say a lot of doctors have just went to university for seven years and they're following the book and they're just they're getting brainwashed to believe what they're getting taught so it's difficult but then when you start opening your eyes and start realising, shit all that stuff I've given these women all this stuff I've given these newborn babies it must be difficult for then what you've been sold to do and you think you're doing the right thing sometimes I question people maybe envious of people who are oblivious who are just going through their normal life and I think, lucky bastards how do they get to live like that and keep the wage but would you go back?

50:35absolutely not the rabbit hole is never ending it's infinity and it's just to question everything that they're doing even all the stuff that we're getting in shops and sugars and alcohol and cigarettes and everything just to dumb down the freedom of the mind and it's so full of static it's so full of noise including myself I still eat terribly even though I know what's in my foods even though I know what's in my waters but where can we go you know it'd be great and a perfect world to stay in a field and grow your own crops and have your own water and your own land and everything free and everybody's smiling and skipping every day I just don't see it being that way because it's too much hustle and bustle I prefer to be in the game trying to educate and still educate myself because I still get it wrong but how is it when you start questioning what you've done and who you've done it for you know when you think about all these innocent women and these innocent children who are innocent, basically.

51:34And they're just there because they believe in the system. They believe in the NHS. You believe in a doctor. But I think it's when a doctor tells you you've got cancer, your central nervous system drops 70 % instantly just by the words alone. Again, you mentioned Dr. Amoto, who used to video these crystals and take photos and how you are, what you speak. So words alone are powerful, but people gravitate towards the NHS. They gravitate towards your doctor. We've got trust in these people, but these people have got lack of knowledge because they're only following the textbooks that they've led. They don't really research where the drugs come from, who's behind the drugs.

52:12They're just getting their pay slap and thinking, do you know what? Great, but how is it for your mindset when you start questioning the things that you've done? I automatically went back to my drug calculation and drug module at uni and we only had to pick one drug to thoroughly research ourselves. Like one. I give them an array of drugs. So I actually wrote to the NMC after I left and they're my governing body, the Nursing and Midwifery Council, and I said, just so you know, I've inadvertently breached my code of practice every day because actually I didn't know all these drugs inside out. They weren't even interested.

52:46But if I'd done that when I was on the register, it would have struck me off. But they know that that's actually practice. So what midwives don't realize is, do they really know what they're giving? they're trusting the research that comes from the top so when i thought about that i thought oh my god i don't know all these drugs and i gave them all oh my god that is against the law that is against someone's human rights to a right to health and a right to a private life what what am i doing we know the law of the land is to do no harm to one another be honest be loving have integrity have authenticity i stripped myself of all of that when i became a midwife i became part of the system, part of the fundamental problems.

53:24And I think when I started realising how many vitamin K's I'd given to baby, it broke me. I was devastated. And then when the COVID came in, I had two vaccines because I trusted the system. But not only that, the Royal College of Midwives, our union, were pushing that if we didn't have it, we would be sacked. So many midwives had it and didn't want it. And who knows what that's going to do to their future and their health. I already know that there's midwives with cancer that have left my profession in my workplace that I worked in so I think for me finding out um the COVID the COVID baby deaths were what um I didn't quite figure it out straight away it took me a little while but what I was seeing was a trend because you when you've got quite a critical analytic mind you start picking up trends if you're in triage and someone's coming in with sickness and diarrhea and they live in Lara and then someone else comes in in Lara with sickness and diarrhea you're going to start thinking is the water contaminated or they live in the same street have they got a water contamination that's how my brain works so I don't just think oh they've got sickness and diarrhea I'm quite a helicopter view so when the COVID jabs came in and I then started seeing an increase in the baby deaths because I would only usually see maybe one baby death a month that's the truth like you would see it and you'd see room nine be filled with a name and it's always so heartbreaking but then that room was filled all the time and I was like what is happening so I'd be saying I used to say to my boss what's going on and no one really understood but it wasn't until one day we were sat at the desk you're gonna love this how stupid I'm sat at the desk in my chair there's a chair in between that's been removed and has a big cross on it we're not allowed to sit next to each other and then there's a chair at the end right we're all chatting with our masks on I obviously used to take it out from my nose because my glasses would steam so so then I couldn't wear my glasses in all the screens because my mask would steam them up so they were like your mask is better than your eyesight that's how much they cared but what was fascinating was the alarm would go off the emergency bell in a room and then you'd all run into this tiny doorway together in a room and there would be no social distancing and then you'd go back out and queue for the printer it's a my brain it never made sense in my brain none of it i was like this if this is an airborne virus this is crazy deadly virus this is crazy so then it all started piecing together and then when i just before i left i spoke to a whistleblowing doctor and when we pieced together what i was seeing and what he knew i was like oh my fucking god oh my god i was just i remember being sat on my stairs and again i had that second flood so not only did i have a first flood i had a second flood and it was you're ready you're receiving the information now and it all flooded in it was really horrific so I'd already written my notice and I was ready to go I hadn't talked about it with anybody because when I make a decision and it's my authentic decision I will do it and I don't have anybody say on that I will make that decision so I'd written my notice but I had also we'll go through that after but I'd written lots and lots of safety concerns before then so this wasn't just a multiple bang, I'm gone in the strop.

56:40It was warranted. And on my last shift, I was sent a lady and a baby and they were sent to me because we're very good friends now. And they were sent to me for a very, very, very good reason. And they were the reason that I had to go. What was that doctor saying? The doctor was so blah. That the vaccines were bioweapons. That was Dr. Cartland, who's just recently been struck off. and you know Dave's he's been a very good friend to me this year We all know now the rise in miscarriages the rise in turbo cancers the rise in heart attacks like something's not right and it's sad I mean I never gave a flu or a whooping cough or a Covid vaccine and that's the only blessing I can give myself yes I vaccinated babies with vitamin K but I never vaccinated anybody else and I've never pushed it because I was on labour ward so you didn't really talk about those things because it was a fleeting ward.

57:34You could go in and out. It wasn't a place for such education all the time. But I think when you start looking into the evidence, we are now sitting, James, on the worst fertility rates. 1.44 per woman has lost a child, which means in 100 years we will not have civilizations in the UK. And in Canada it's 1.2, and you need 2.1 to repopulate your population. It's diminishing and it will disappear. because I've just had a miscarriage recently, as you know. And you saw it again. Yeah, numb still. My baby was eight weeks old. So I spoke to Dr. Tess Laurie. I've spoken to a pathologist who's very good friends with Kate Shemarani.

58:16And she's told me that the actual COVID rates for miscarriage is around about the eight, nine weeks, which is where I'm at. We can't prove that. But I've also had a lot of stress with fighting the council tax because now I am in my sovereignty and none of them are going to get away with it with me now. so there's a lot going on but but i don't think midwives see it they don't see it because they've all got mortgages they've got cars they they've got they're working their bums off nine to five they can't even think straight because your email inbox is pinging at home they have no space they have no space to think about it whereas i decided to give myself space and i walked out and I never went back.

58:54How was that decision? Oh, so liberating. Best feeling ever. Sorry, just before we go on to the next topic, the K-Vetamin booster, what's the purpose that they say it's actually for? That babies are born with low clotting factors. So if you're being born through a birth canal and the baby's skull is crossing over to come out, you're at risk of having a hemorrhage. But Jamie Freeman, Ellie Gray, they've written some fantastic stuff on this and not even again i don't even believe i understand birth because the system's taught me i only know it as a woman i need to now go on a journey of understanding real doula the real birth keeper with herbs and and other things but there is a place for medicine i do agree with that there is a place for acute medicine i wouldn't have survived in september when my appendix ruptured well admittedly i hung off as long as possible because didn't want to go in there.

59:48I nearly died. But, um... But that's what it's pushing us to, to not trust in the system, to not trust our doctors. I had a police whistleblower on yesterday. She said she wouldn't even phone the police anymore. She was a call handler and a girl called, a rape victim called and the guy next to her said, slut. To the rape victim. That's Izzy, isn't it? Yeah. Yeah. I've seen her stuff. It's disgusting. What do you think? What the fuck? But I rang the police about this, about being told I was going to go missing. they said it wasn't a threat. Yeah, but it makes you angry. If you're oblivious, you're not angry because you think you're believing in everybody.

1:00:24But when you actually know it can make you angry and the streets should be packed for people want a revolution. Things need to change. The numbers are coming down for humanity. Everybody's fighting. People don't want to have kids anymore. The family system is broken down. Everything's backwards. We've got full of vaccines, we're full of germs, we're full of hate, we're full of rage. And it's difficult to then Will we ever see a better world Now that we're in it I don't know, I don't think so But if we can try and leave the blueprint And the understanding for the younger generation Well I'm saying that The younger generation is a bit fucked if I'm honest With the iPads and tablets I think people are waking up to How damaging it is, they call it popcorn brain For anybody watching or listening Look into that The attention span is coming down So our next generation are fucked so I can't really see who's going to really push through and make the changes you know because it's 95%, 99 % of the world is a big part of the population who just follow suit and want to be led and guided but we're being led and guided by the wrong people, the people who don't care, the people who are full of greed, the people who are full of hate themselves and we're believing in those people, we're believing in the schooling system, we're believing and vaccines were believing in our doctors, but really they're not creating healthier, more mature people, you know, with no creativity, there's no individuality.

1:01:46It's just shut down, memorise this, believe this, and you'll be a great little worker for our big corporations. So when you left then, how was the decision? When did you start really looking into it and start blowing the whistle on it all? Well, I had to be quite careful because they held me hostage in a way. So the NHS don't give you anything for free, apart from a COVID vaccine, of course. or a PCR test anything that's given for free you've got to question it porn is free vaccines are free why? and insulin is not free but it's my life saving treatment it's free for prescription but they still bill for it even when you go down a supermarket you'll tend to see there's an aisle healthy options but what the fuck does that say about 99 % of the other options in there why is it healthy?

1:02:29of course and then you've got all this shit everything you get into a petrol station it's all just it's like Vegas it's just all lights and cars and I still gravitate towards bar a chocolate packet of crisps and it's so wrong but it's just old learnt behaviours so you then seen the light you then decided enough's enough but they held you hostage how so? Because I walked out and I really didn't give any reason why I was going at that point but they still paid me my eight weeks pay and at the time I didn't understand why they did that but since I've received my data subject access request it now will make sense to piece that puzzle together so when I um left um I couldn't I had to be careful because what I didn't want was to have to go through a fitness to practice for whistleblowing because I was still on the register so I I started a movement called the with women movement on Facebook with a couple of witches I'm going to call them because they've obviously all turned on me now um because they had their own agenda on it and this is the worst thing women when they are together are evil to each other evil i mean i i've done some horrible things to some of my girlfriends in the past and you look back and you think oh my good god i was all through trauma i didn't take any responsibility but when you start looking through this whole whistleblowing process and unpicking it you realize that these people were either sent to disarm me or they generally were just egotistical and didn't they wanted the limelight but didn't want to actually take it to the extreme that i have and i can't work with people like that you have got to be out there that's the end of it you can't hold back because that's what this is about saving people's lives so I started a movement and um I had the BBC sky I was going to walk from Scotland to John O 'Groats with a beacon of light and I was going to take every story and I was going to publish it on YouTube and rumble and after again I say this because I can't remember which order they came in because I was quite traumatized at the time the baby killer stuff came out online but then I also got told by one of the directors at the hospital that people go missing overnight the whistleblow.

1:04:34And it disarmed me. I'm not going to lie. That would disarm anyone. But after a few months, I then tried to continue as if nothing had happened. And then I thought, I need some time. I've got some unresolved traumas here. Because if I'm going to go out there, I've got to get to a point where I love Katie Hopkins. She does not give a shit what anybody thinks about her. And that's the place I've got to. I'm not unkind about anybody, though. I wouldn't call people fat or, you know, that's her. Yeah, you'd like to be, yeah, yeah, yeah. That's her. Sometimes, I'm not going to lie, some of the stuff she says is hilarious.

1:05:06But we all saw a narrative of her before. And we all judged, oh, God. But would I have shared Katie Hopkins' stuff back then? No, because midwifery would have said, that's unethical. You shouldn't be doing that. But now I'm older and wiser. I realize there's something painted about you. And then you've got to look beyond it. so I knew there was something brewing within maternity against me and I went back into myself and did some inner work and I just shut everything down and then in November I opened Twitter because I knew that Elon had removed the censorship so I went on Twitter and I thought I'm going to be private for a minute and I'm just going to put some documents out and some bits and bobs and not make out it was me and then in the January when I actually decided to go live I think it was the 19th of Jan I thought right I'm gonna put my face to this now I'm ready and I didn't tell my husband again because I always know when I do something if I do it myself it's me it's all on me and I put up my my picture and I put that I'm a whistleblowing midwife and in not even 12 hours I had 16 ,000 followers it went mad so I knew I'd hit something at the right time and I wasn't in a group I wasn't in I didn't have a campaign I didn't have a website I was just being mean being authentic and it just went bang so obviously i'm only in july and i've got 32 000 followers and on twitter i've gone up to 12 000 in 10 days so it's that i've hit something and it isn't about the blame it's because i'm bringing the truth and i think when you start unpicking the fact that we've talked about the health and what that's done to women when i talk about this next bit which is the element of midwifery and the management you'll see how the two do not work in conjunction with each other midwifery management are against public safety they are there for the reputation of the hospital a bit like the police force a bit like any of them gp surgeries do not bring the trust into disrepute so the middle management are there to gatekeep against those that are trying to fight to say patients are dying this isn't okay and they're like no no no and that's these documents have shown me that now so how when you then go through that process and with the scaremongering as well everything's fear we don't speak out because of fear we don't do certain changes in life because of fear we're scared of the unknown we're scared of what if it doesn't work instead of the question what if it does work what if I'm right what if everything I've learnt is wrong everything I've learnt from a fucking young age is wrong anyway but when you're kind of going through that process was that when you started saying okay I've made the right decision when you started getting support when you start to put your face on it because I think it's important to put your face on it in case anything does go wrong because there's always going to be both sides of the fence there's always going to be lovers there's always going to be haters no matter what you do no matter if it's positive or negative you still get support but when you start going through the motions of it how damaging is it for the people around you as well because everybody only has their your best interests at heart because everybody else is scared you know but when you go fuck it i'm all in does it affect the people around you yeah yeah it's um it's not been easy for my family to see me because i'm the matriarch in the house i'm a strong presence you know my son calls me as queen and you know queenie or calls me marge like you know just a real loving home we're a very loving home and i think seeing me so broken over the last five years particularly but the right the demise of me was the rise of me now I think what I had to do and this is how sickening and I've never talked about this before I had to write down all the things that could happen to me and write them and journal them so when I'm running because I'm a runner when I'm running what if a black van comes along and you've got your headphones in and they pick you up what you're going to do so I did that I had to work through that what happens if they break my arms and legs what happens if they rape me what happens if they slice the necks of my children.

1:09:04I had to go through all of this deeply. My husband doesn't even know I'm probably even saying this. I've never had this conversation with anybody. And today I decided the whole truth was going to come out. So when you start writing, you're going to go missing. What does that look like? Does that look like when Wayne Cousins took that girl off the street, Sarah Everard? I went through every bit of detail. I went through every whistleblower death. I went through every whistleblower that had gone missing. And I started looking behind it. And I went into the place of, I visited death. What does it look like?

1:09:38Am I scared? No. Am I scared? No. Okay. I'm at the door of death. And I'm not frightened anymore. And I think that was what did it. I just said, humanity deserves to know the truth above my life. And that doesn't make me a martyr. That's just my authenticity and my integrity. And the amount of people that run, I don't blame them. And what is the truth? that the nhs is a cult that the nhs is run by the monsters above that have tried to assassinate us on every level whether it's through food water farming through vaccines schooling i mean they're all linked they're all interlinked the police the child sex scandals the child rape scandals they're all linked and nothing is ever resolved and and you find this when people do data subject access or they try to do freedom of information, you never get the truth.

1:10:41You get snippets of truth. What needs to change in the NHS then for more protection for human beings, more protection for women, more protection for men, more protection for kids, more protection for everyone? What needs to change? They do not serve us, we serve them. We are in control of the NHS, it's ours, it's our humanity is our health they don't own us that needs to change it needs to flip and the only way that's going to happen is when people wake up that the vaccines are not fully safe they're not evidenced go and do your research that will stop you and maybe start thinking about what other drugs you're giving to women and and other patients why do we need to give so many drugs look at the parameters of blood pressure the parameters have changed in 20 years Cheryl Granger and Debbie Evans talk about this a lot the NHS app do not digitalize your stuff do not engage or consent or give permission for digital ID CBDCs don't get involved with it but everybody is now going down this road and they're slowly sucking you into the next part of their agenda under the agenda 30 so for me patients need to have more autonomy more body autonomy, more choice, and that if it's emergencies, yes, you go.

1:12:00But if it's not and you need a simple fix, start looking at other people outside of the system. Asking people, you might have to invest money in looking at more private healthcare outside of the system. It's the only way. These middle managers are placed. They're not recruited. They're strategically placed like a chessboard that's why i never got a job as a manager my my colleague pulled me aside and said you you smash that interview but they will never give you the job it's the same as when lockdown said they said the hospitals were packed and nhs were struggling but they were empty they were empty they were all good enough to dance for tiktok and make videos and like they were all empty the streets are empty now so what's this paperwork here you've got let's go through every bit that you need to expose and get out there?

1:12:46What is it from the start? So I received on Friday, so the Nursing and Midwifery Council is the governing body that governs the midwifery practice and nurses. And last year, they were condemned by the BBC after a cultural investigation as toxic. So I've shared that post, I said that they were toxic. So, so did Sky TV. There were 16 nurses that committed suicide whilst pending investigations. Now we know that a lot of referrals to the NMC are malicious because they want to disarm the midwife that might be onto something or the nurse. So I've never been referred to a fitness to practice before because my career really is exemplary.

1:13:28I've had no patient complaints. I've had no staff complaints. I've had, I've never been made aware of them. If there are, I've never known about them. and I've never been had any sanctions placed on my practice so when I left I felt I'm a pretty decent person to be able to do this so when I left I did a data subject access to the nursing midwifery council which has taken over a year to receive be received in my hands and the only thing they sent me was this document which is a fitness to practice referral against me for whistleblowing so under the public interest disclosure you are allowed to whistleblow now just going to touch upon during my career I raised three grievances bullying harassment patient safety because they weren't treating me right in my with my diabetes I wasn't having any breaks so staff were having 12 and a half hour shifts with no breaks not a single bit of water and they took the cup of tea off us we weren't allowed to even drink tea at the desk anymore but managers can sit in their office overweight and stuff doughnuts in their trap while we're out there on the floor doing the grassroots hard work yeah funding their pockets on the worst wage 21 pound an hour i took home 1500 pound a month as a midwife 1500 pound my rent is 900 nearly so you're already talking that you're in a deficit once you've paid your council tax and everything else so i was quite um shocked because what I wanted to receive from the Nursing and Midwifery Council was everything about me that anyone had ever sent.

1:15:00But what they sent me was this one document, which implicates my head of midwifery, Charlotte Wilton. Now, Charlotte referred me to the NMC, and she's written in here that the reason why she's referring me is because I've commenced a few campaigns that undermined public confidence in the service at UHP, which is Derriford Hospital, and more generally about UK services. Are you aware that maternity services are in a bad state? Are you aware? Why are you referring me for that reason? That's not a reason to refer a midwife. If that makes you uncomfortable, that's not my problem. She also puts in here that it's upset colleagues.

1:15:37Colleagues are upset because I'm talking about patient safety online. Now, I want to just say one of the things I put up was why did I leave midwifery? Have your say on maternity services. I also put up UK nurse regulator condemned over toxic culture, BBC. I also put up NHS bosses destroy careers of whistleblowers who stood up to protect patient lives, The Telegraph. how is that me scaring the public these documents are live now what's interesting there's a midwife called midwife miller on tiktok tiktok star midwife miller pushed out of job by jealous colleagues bbc so they're referring me for whistleblowing which is against the law because i'm protected now the reason why i wanted to bring this to the highlight is because I raised concerns internally for the rights of the people.

1:16:36I'm also trying to get better working conditions for the midwife so they're not implicated, a bit like the Lucy Letby thing we're now on the fence about. Something's not right there. Because I've seen them destroy midwives' lives for one error, but they've done many errors themselves. So internally, I had raised three grievances. And on my appeal outcome, it said that maternity had a culture and that they were going to be undergoing an NHS England cultural investigation. So I was really proud of myself, although the bullying and everything else wasn't upheld. Now, inside that grievance, there was nothing about me as a midwife.

1:17:13There was nothing, no complaints. There was nothing that I'd been difficult because I, James, had been very poorly with my diabetes. And I'd gone from being on no meds to lots of meds to insulin, then learning how to use all the insulin titration and I had to change it every day depending on the ward I was on none of those midwives cared about that they still didn't give me breaks I had to fight to get an employment tribunal to get breaks it was ridiculous but not only that in that instance three other midwives had grievances for disability discrimination for no breaks and it's impacting patient safety so my boss from my data subject access request that came in from the hospital on friday when i sent her my grievance i'm going to read this out to the public on the 18th of october 2021 at 12 36 i emailed my boss charlotte wilton and my union representative sally freeland of the royal college of midwives and i submitted a formal grievance please find attached my formal grievance as per trust policy i provided shifts that i booked and paid for to pay child care this was i then mentioned about my case conference and the allocated shift and it was having a knock-on detrimental effect to my diabetes and attached to that was my grievance which outlined the staff and outlined all my concerns and this is the response that my boss sent to HR and this is HR who actually investigated me.

1:18:42This formal grievance has come in. I'm now on annual leave for two weeks but do not want to leave it sitting in my inbox. Can I have your advice on next steps? Unfortunately this will be a complex case as multiple counter allegations with multiple managers now not wishing to line manage Victoria Rickson. she later on went to reiterate um in her another email which i haven't brought with me i've realized it's over there uh saying do i get it no no no just reiterates it so i'm going to post it all online after you send this out anyway i thought i'd give you first tips thank you and it actually says again vr is a very complex character so she's defamed me to the very people that need to be non-bias to investigate this fairly to ensure that patients do not die.

1:19:29That was in 2021 on the 18th of October. Not long after this, a baby died and there was a huge investigation into it. My grievance and multiple grievances were ignored. So the managers at the top are then talking about you in emails to the very people that need to be non-bias to investigate fairly because their job is to make sure this doesn't go formal. They've even written they want it to go informal so it stays off the record and that patients, you're not allowed to talk about it with patients. So if you're trying to scramble at patient safety and make sure no one dies and you're in the middle of a pandemic, why is your first response not, my goodness, I'm ever so concerned that Victoria Rickson's not been eating and drinking and she's diabetic, which also means that patients are at risk because they're not she's not thinking straight she's not she might make a drug error that could be fatal i'm really concerned about this we need to address this immediately i have got dozens of emails that show and implicate they've even disclosed that the midwife ricky the male midwife in one of my documents that he was in some sort of investigation because they have to tell you when it's your data they have to provide it to you but they've talked about another midwife in my email.

1:20:46So it goes to show there is no transparency, that middle management are gatekeepers for the top dogs, that they will do anything to make sure patients are not safe. So these documents prove, and they've also proven here to breach my data. So under GDPR, data protection regulations, my employer, not long after I left, shared all my personal details with a debt collection agency and have written here that they're not willing to disclose who they disclosed it to and who did it. So they're actually denying under the GDPR law. So not only have they breached GDPR. Now going back to Charlotte Wilton, when she referred me, she actually disclosed my medical information.

1:21:23So she wasn't referring me about my poor practice or, and she's even written in here, did the midwife raise the concerns on a broad level? Yes. she also writes that has the midwife had any complaints no and the hardest bit about this James was my friend Kaylee who was at my home birth who I looked up to who she was my hero and she's a beautiful midwife she screenshotted my Facebook and sent it to my boss and is an has implicated me in this because her profile picture was never deleted. And that's my friend that speaks to me and has screenshotted. It doesn't matter. It's public document. This is what midwifery is like.

1:22:12So what did she do that for? Don't know. I don't care. She's gone. She's out. But this is what I'm talking about in midwifery. Why would they keep that and ensure you though? Because they've now implicated her. And why would they keep, why would they only send me Charlotte Wilton's document? because the NMC want me to take the pressure away from the public pressure I've been putting on them online to deal with the things I've been telling them about patient safety, about covering up baby deaths, about the incident reporting that I've done. And they hid and downgraded it internally, which should have gone to a full investigation.

1:22:48So they are now wanting me to take the pressure off the NMC by throwing someone else under the bus. And this is what happens. And this is really sad and I'm not doing this to make Charlotte or Kayleigh uncomfortable or anybody. This is the facts. This is the documentation. So not only are you talking about me internally and sabotaging any rights to patient safety, not long after that a baby died. And that's the baby I'm being implicated that I killed. They try to blame you for that? The, um, a, a ex Tory councillor did, yes. Not the family. How hard was that one? Brutal. That's the worst thing you can...

1:23:24I thought the police were coming for me, James. I really thought the police were coming. I actually, and I removed myself off the register because I thought they're going to throw me in prison. I was petrified. Petrified. Now that case is in a defamation and we're going to court because no one can provide any documents to say that, James, I wasn't even on shift. They've even put here, they can't even give me the off duty. I wasn't on shift when the baby died. I wasn't there at the birth. It is a mistaken identity or mistaken communication somewhere, but what's concerning is this is why nothing in midwifery will change if the public do not understand and do not see that management who are paid £80 ,000 a year are lying in emails but it's the assassination of character as well exactly because then when you do speak out people go that's the crazy woman that killed the baby yeah it's easy to deflect that's what they're very good at especially myself who's built the biggest independent podcast in the UK where people get a fair choice to say their side from their things without getting twisted nobody gets fucked over and then you become a target I always knew they would come anyway I just didn't think I wasn't at that level but fuck it I'm always ready for the fight anyway and it is what it is so how what happens now then with that how can they then put you throw you under the bus for something you weren't there with is that not good then for you to prove everything that you're saying is right absolutely and I think they've sent me this deliberately they've not redacted any of the names so where do you go with it the baby death oh that's that's a defamation that's in the high court we're just waiting i've got a solicitor and a barrister and they have been amazing because i didn't have any i don't have any money and they've done this no win no fee they have been amazing but that they're not arguing because the coroner has given his verdict so and i don't wish to to talk about the name because i don't believe the family need that they they need there is a there are two bereaved babies that we're talking about in regards to this case um but i think once that's through i then make decisions about how i then then talk about that next.

1:25:20I just need to wait to see of the outcomes. But you wouldn't believe that two of the people that called me a baby killer are midwives. Midwives writing online that I killed a baby. So I'm really highlighting to the NHS and the NMC publicly, I've got midwives over here calling me this that you're doing nothing about. I've got managers talking about me that have never prove that in any outcome that I have my complex character or what because I point at you, I point the mirror at you and say what's this bringing up in you because this is just highlighting the depths of systemic bullying within midwifery that everybody's been highlighting and I've now got documents to say that.

1:26:03This morning somebody told me something yesterday that a midwife in my hospital gave nail varnish remover to a woman thinking it was Gaviscon and she drank it.

1:26:18I've been told there have been complaints that the IV drip that's going into your vein was dropped in a cup of tea and the midwife shook it off and went to re-attach it. These things are what the public need to know. It's those small things that can kill you. Not necessarily the big things, it's the small things. It's the unsubtle near misses that create trauma. And what happens is the women are not getting their cases fully heard. Why? Because they're covering themselves under the corporate veil. So really what should happen if a baby has died at birth and you have caused that death in any way, shape or form, you should be talking about that in a courtroom with the family if that's what they want.

1:27:02I believe that. I truly believe that. And you shouldn't be able to hide under the corporate veil because what they do is their job James is to make most the least minimal reputational damage to the hospital their other problem is to have the minimal cost so what they do is they go through a line and they think right where's the easiest place to get out right we'll accept communication that we failed in communication and we'll pay that off that's how they get around it but no one really gets the truth the families still go on in their lives going and knowing in their heart something was else was wrong and they can never find it out.

1:27:36And until this all comes to the surface, I believe every case that's ever been heard needs rehearing. We can't trust our judicial system. We can't trust the coroners. We can't trust any of them. Do you believe there's been a lot of baby deaths and it's swept under the cap as if nothing's been wrong and the parents just got on with it believing in the system, believing in their doctors when really they're at fault? But not every baby death is to be blamed on doctors or nhs of course but do you believe there's a lot more darkness to it than what people think yeah how bad i've since learned about the placental costs fifty thousand dollars placental stem cells that makes sense to me now because during a birth on labor ward in i think it was 21 or 22 the family weren't allowed to have their own family with them because of social distancing in numbers but yet the stem cell researcher was allowed to come in stand outside the door and wait unbelievable unbelievable all makes sense so we're getting we get taught to cut the umbilical cord straight away why shouldn't people cut the umbilical cord well i've never cut it straight away you we're taught that you cut it when it stops pulsing but actually the more i look into it it should just be cut once the placenta is delivered because the body's not ready to there's a there's a signaling and anything isn't there's a signal for your cell to tell another cell to tell another cell to tell your lung to take oxygen and then breathe yeah so why are we interfering with an organ that has a job to do through the cord i'm wondering now and i'm thinking about this more is that why we've got more bleeding yes we've got the vaccines which of course bleeding but now i'm thinking are we cutting the cord for a ritualistic reason Yes, there is a ritualistic reason behind it.

1:29:22We don't know where these placentas go. Yeah, it's for our stem cells. I don't know where the placenta goes. Where's my placenta? Where did it get incinerated? Where's the record of it? My argument now is, holy hell, the amount of placentas I've delivered and put in an orange bag, where is it? Where did it go? Dunno. There's no trail. And under GDPR, I can't chase. Can't check it. Don't check up anyone's records. Surely there must be a trail of where the umbilical cord and placenta as everything goes no idea but that question but do you believe if babies are if babies are dead do you believe their organs could be took yes do you yes not seen it but spoken to people that have seen it john o 'looney being one of them what did they say john o 'looney told me that um so at the height of covid the babies that died during covid diverted away from the normal funeral directors.

1:30:17Did you know that? No. So normally what would happen is the funeral directors have a relationship with the hospital, they go to the mortuary and they take the baby or the person, or the man or woman, and they take them to the funeral director. In COVID, the babies were diverted away from all the normal funeral directors and they were diverted to a new man-made mortuary and funeral director which was under the nhs so when he went to a funeral uh he looked on the the board and it would say what funeral director is running the funeral and it was a hospital now how can a hospital run a funeral so when he was receiving babies back from parents their organs were missing and he didn't he said i couldn't believe it and the parents never ever consented it so we know from things like kate shimurani saying and other people that that now there is money in organ harvesting one of the reporters that reported on the london 2020 and did quite a lot of work around the um child sex trafficking behind the london 2020 they've just done a really good article um called not the settler i think they're called and the article came out i think it was late last year that 14 women had gone to turkey to have mum bods or whatever you call it and they came back with new organs died on the table and just went to have their tummy tuck so there's a lot going on here outside this this culturalistic this part so the people on the ground think they're doing everything right well actually you're making lots of mistakes and not realizing their mistakes and then you go up to the middle management and the middle management are no longer practicing they're now being fed from the top make sure nobody ever ever puts this trust in disrepute make sure you get the most minimalistic charge out of the cost of this case make sure you um pull together that all of this case is is never ever leaked to anybody else and then you go up another level and what the director's doing so my ex director shares freemason stuff on twitter now we know what the freemasons are so how what is it's it's dark i know it's dark and i know it feels scary to talk about it but we need to start having these conversations properly.

1:32:27Now, the one thing that I will say about the information that's come out of the case with, with the, you know, being held responsible for the death of a baby, I don't know if this is fully accurate yet, and I'm waiting on the documentation, but it looks like potentially a midwife has lied in their coroner's statement. Now, if you've lied under oath on a coroner's statement, that's perjury, and you perverted the course of justice. So once all this comes out in the case, if that is the case, I will be making sure that that midwife stands to account and I will be informing the coroner of a change in circumstances with regards to that case.

1:33:03There's a lot going on here that has been unearthed, which is why people say, Vic, stay safe, Vic, keep your family safe, Vic, this, don't do this, don't do this. I go back into my heart space and it tells me to keep going. Yeah. And the thing is about these podcasts as well, sometimes we aren't doctors, we aren't scientists. We can only go with information that we get, the jobs that you have worked but what is a perfect birth then what an ideal world what should it be because we don't want to give somebody the wrong information somebody then follows our advice something goes wrong before you know it we're on the front page these two have killed this they've done this and that's what they like to do discredit discharm destroy you so you don't have a voice but what is a natural birth for you what should be the perfect birth for a woman everybody's different everybody's bodies are different everybody's medical records are different but what should an ideal world, what is the perfect buff?

1:33:57I think that is, a hundred years ago, that would have been an easy answer. That you would, women would be laboring in the kitchen while they were making their pie with their pastry and they would have gone into the lounge and popped a beautiful baby out and continued breastfeeding and got on with her life. We aren't in that position anymore because we're sick. So I think I would like to highlight, I have done many elective C-sections and they have been beautiful. you know the doctors where i worked would go above and beyond to make sure that women had everything they wanted in that birth and i'm not saying that my doctors i've never seen malpractice that's the truth i've never seen a doctor harm anyone deliberately or do anything um but what what i think is important is anything that is harmed the patient under patient safety and and the truth that people should know what's happening so these things are learned from both angles so i think for me the perfect birth for me would be that i wouldn't have any scans I would have a scan potentially potentially to find out where my placenta is because if it's covering my cervix the os they call it then I would probably die in childbirth but I'm in the place now that if I die in childbirth that was my ending I'm not going to have a doctor sabotage me in labor and then kill me that's different I've chosen my birth so I think it's really important that we understand that for someone that says you know I don't want a vaginal birth I want a cesarean section that's her perfect birth but what I'm concerned about is that people are making fear-based decisions as you've even highlighted with your own pregnancy they're not making heartfelt decisions they're making fear-based which means are they really getting the birth that they want and now you're seeing a flood of women go to doulas and birth keepers who are picking up a hell of a lot of flack now they are picking up sick women they're even learning how to deliver dead babies because people don't want to go to the nhs this is what's happening and my worry is James but doulas and birth keepers do great work there is some people that are toxic in that and there's some people toxic in midwifery that aren't and some people are great and you find that in any walk of life in any profession but my concern is what's going to happen is the hospital are showing you we talk about karmic debt yeah if they show you they don't have to be repaid in any karmic way so they're showing the women and midwives that the NHS is done for in maternity it needs a full reform okay so what women are doing is they're going oh my god i can't go near the hospital i'm going to go and get a doula i'm paying a doula which is great but have they made that from a love space that they didn't want to do that no they've made it from a fear base they then go to a doula which is great and doulas will work with you to come out of that fear and then someone will go i want to go back to the hospital and that's brilliant but some people aren't doing that and what's happening is the statistics of home births are going to increase harm and outcome as bad because of vaccines and sickness and illness and the doulas are picking this up because there's not enough midwives to do this and what the government going to do the statistics have changed at home doulas aren't safe yeah and they're going to go back and they're going to go back to the system again and i can see it i can see it and and it's not even frustrating because we've got to just watch this pan out but I think it's really important that any woman that wants to have a birth of her choice she goes to the hospital and I say this to any woman go to the hospital talk to your doctor you will only be given a 15 minute slot and say thank you I'm going to take everything away and research and I'll come back they won't allow you to come back because there's no space but you are the person that they are serving so you demand your right under the human rights and say i want to come back and i want to speak to you about this to make the right decision and that's what needs to flip people need to start taking responsibility for their health their birth their children's birth their grandchildren's birth that's where it's that's where we need to start changing this at the grassroots down but it's a quick fix for people people caught up in their jobs caught up in the stresses they just want to make sure their kids safe which is totally understandable they go to their doctors they believe in their doctors If they get these certificates Or take these tablets I will give you this vaccine It just helps with this and that People are believing in it So it's sad But what should people really do To research and question the things that you're saying Question the things that I'm saying Just to gather as much information as you can So you can then make a better judgement On a better life for your kid Now if you want to be a good mother or a good father It's important that you look into this stuff Don't just listen to this podcast Or watch it and go Yeah whatever Listen, look into certain things, look what you're giving your kids, look at the vaccinations that are giving your kids the foods, the formulas that they're trying to give you like look into breastfeeding look into the umbilical cord, look into your placenta, just look into how things are naturally meant to be, look into dealers, look into water buffs, kids are born in water, they come out naturally I think kids can come out swimming I believe they can swim underwater because they're in water for nine months so it is important just to look into certain things and then question it and then if you want to go to the NHS, if you want to go Wherever you want That's your choice Nobody should be against that And if you feel safer With getting a vaccine By all means That's your choice I'm not a doctor I'm not a scientist But when you look into it And you look into the causes The rise in autism The rise in ADHD Autism wasn't around Many years ago It's just All of a sudden It's one of the most fucking Spoke about So sad Things do And You've got mercury In your vaccines And just certain things Just look into The rise in ADHD and autism and all these labels.

1:39:31Why is it around? Is it because we're getting more vaccines possibly? But they tell you not to have tuna because it's high mercury in tuna. And then they give you a vaccine at 28 weeks that's got high mercury in it. How many vaccines does a pregnant woman get? So what they're encouraging is that pregnant women through winter have a COVID booster before to get pregnant. It's still on the nhs website is horrific i feel i actually feel physically sick when i think about the harm to life and women and women think they're doing the right thing and then at 28 weeks which beautifully i have a book that i was given from an ex-lecturer and it's a 1938 midwifery book and it goes back to before the nhs so the wording and the language is absolutely beautiful in it and i'm don't listen to this, read this, because it's ancient, like old and midwifery.

1:40:25So at 28 weeks, that's when your baby is actually viable. The parasympathetic and the sympathetic heart sets in play. The baby's now got a fight or flight system. It could survive if it was born, mostly. So that's when they vaccinate you. That's when they vaccinate you. And they vaccinate you in the winter with COVID, flu, and whooping cough all in one go, in two arms. and I just think you know they've not given us the baby statistic deaths since 2023 they've hidden it because of the rise in it has to be anecdotally across the world we've all met so I met with Dr Kim Biss Dr James Thorpe I've met with Dr Tess Laurie we've all talked about this I know what I saw with the harm and the bleeding and the miscarriages and even scanning a saying I've spoken to somebody that works in stenography they've never seen so many miscarriages they've never seen so many strange brain abnormalities in babies in in the womb so now i know it's it's real so at 28 weeks you're giving all of that to that mom and it's crossing the placenta they know in mice now from the peter mcculloch foundation that mice are carrying baby mice are carrying the spike protein from their mother six at six months old what's the bbc done an article on not long ago vaccinate your baby at six months old what the hell.

1:41:46So I think for me now as a mother, I say to my older boy and my daughter-in-law who's thinking about having children, read everything. I'm not even going to tell you. I just want you to always think if there's this argument, where's the other side? A bit like politics at the minute. None of us know the bloody road to go down. None of us do. It's so conflicting. It's so confusing. And we're in an information war, aren't we? It's like, you get one article. I don't choose any of them. I just think they're all full of shit. Donald Trump's full of shit. Elon Musk is full of shit. They're all full of shit.

1:42:19They all work together. To get to that elite level, you've got to be all in the same club. But now how can you then say Epstein hasn't got any client list when Ghislaine Maxwell's doing 20 years in prison? If you look at the photos and the videos of him and Donald Trump, they're very close friends. It's all a big cover-up. They all work together. Zarensky, I spoke about it yesterday, he was just a gay dancer. just dance it's just fucking cringe that these people shouldn't be running the world they're not men Putin I actually think he is a man I think he's quite strong but again I don't trust any of them I just all think they work together they just all how do we then control the world at deeper levels deeper states keep the vibration down yeah we're like guinea pigs but the sad thing is we are easily to control we are easily led we're fucking we're suckers even though we know this information we're still part of the system we're still involved in it which is fucked up you know for anybody any midwife watching or listening who's maybe want to question what you're saying and look into it because obviously they don't want to lose their job they don't want death threats they don't want to be up on trial because that's what they do they try and silence you what would you then give information would you give them to kind of do their own secrets and look into it because if you're a midwife think you're doing a great job delivering babies giving vaccines and thinking this will protect you this is a K vitamin booster this is for X, Y and Z they believe in it and why should they question it because it's the NHS they're supposed to be saving lives and helping people but how can they look into it and then question it and what should they do if they start realising they've been fucked over well it's very difficult because most people won't will say oh you know she's crazy and she's a conspiracy theorist and I really you know that doesn't faze me because I'm true in my my positioning where I am.

1:44:12But I think if midwives are doing anything right now, they should absolutely find a solicitor and write a sworn affidavit statement of truth and have it signed that the conditions that they're working in are real, because that will cover them in years to come if they're the next victim. Because midwifery is changing rapidly, daily, and they are all vulnerable. So for that instance, I'd be explaining that. Secondly, they need a good union representative now most of them are with the royal college of midwives which is one of the most richest unions in the world and they never supported me through any of this in fact i found out they were all talking about me behind my back with the hospital that's another problem so you've got all these systems that are supposed to be put in place to help you those midwives have nowhere to go they really don't they have nowhere to go they are trapped in the system the only way to learn to get out of the system is to understand the system that you're in fully and understand what who is forcing all this evidence and who's forcing all of this stuff now evidence yes we use it and it does work but who's paid the evidence who's written the evidence a bit like the covid evidence who wrote it who funded it so you've got to look at those things so i think for me it's just making sure that midwives second think everything that they give i did a post on this recently if i were you i'd never pick up another covid vaccine and ever give it again or any vaccine you need to be very careful what you're putting in someone's arm But they'll lose their job And this is the society we're in There's still people who think like you But they'll still do what they're doing Because they're getting a wage This is a sick society Because the money is the root of all evil You take away the money You take away the greed You take away the power We kill for money We die for money But really there's no value to it We're conditioned to believe it's got so much power When really there's no power to it There's actually no power to a piece of paper But yet look at the stuff that we do We kill babies kill mothers, kill fathers destroying the universe, destroying the world we've created wars, we do all this destruction through money, the people who are behind the vaccines, the people who are behind the system it's all about greed, it's all about power and this is the sad truth of life this is the sad truth that we need to understand, not everybody's got our back not everybody's got our true intentions and like we says, people still do it because they're getting their pays, they've got their mortgage, they've got their kids to feed so they're willing to destroy all their lives just to benefit theirs I knew drug dealers I sold drugs back in the day I'd done bad stuff and yet I was destroying other people's lives to benefit my own these guys are at a deeper level than that they're at a bigger level with the suits on and the ties and like I said I took many drugs bought from drug dealers and done in my mind it was normal it was just survival mode but then once you start to understand it you go wait a minute you were bad then and you kind of have a dark period of your life but that's karma because when you do bad you will get bad.

1:47:02When you do good, you get good but you'll still be tested. That's life because you're strong enough to play those cards that you're dealt. But how can people then kind of question it all and look deeper into it without getting into trouble and without, it's difficult because you're either in or you're out. If you believe in that, what you're saying, then you shouldn't be in that job. Bottom line. But yet, what's people going to do? They're going to go homeless? Well, they can't. They can't. They have to do what their job is telling them to do and that's what that comes down to james is is your money is is this is how repulsed i felt when i left i had to change my bank account so i never saw the word nhs on my bank statement ever again because they repulsed me that much now people would be like she's that's really extreme but when you walk the path i've walked and you see what i've seen and understand what i've seen spoken to the people i've spoken to you don't make it on someone like your podcast without giving so much back to humanity doesn't work like that does it you know that i know that so i know that the paperwork that i've got and the the things that i'm seeing they're true and people either have to believe that or they don't now the people that do know me know that i always always thought people always said vic you always stick up for people i can't bear injustice but it's the problem that we've got is that the people in these systems are complicit to the problem and until they leave and speak up they'll always be part of the problem they are the problem what's the worst thing you've seen involved with the nhs

1:48:34um probably there's lots of different things isn't there there's practice outcomes but like i said i've never seen um and and i've never seen somebody harm someone i've seen midwives be bitches and spiteful backstabbing like taking pictures of your your social media and putting it under your boss's door that i i'm the kind of person that go you're an idiot why did you do that yeah it's all right you know have a rant about it but i think some of the worst practices i i'd seen and it came from a deep spitefulness within some of the staff towards each other it was never i never saw anything against patients it was always staff who were unhealed in those jobs who were then inflicting their pain onto other people or being impatient on patients.

1:49:21I think I'll talk about a couple of stories. There was a really young girl who was only 19 and had come into the hospital in COVID and she was on her own. And I remember opening the door and she was taller than me. And she was so frightened, James. She was shaking. And I was like, oh darling, come in. And I put her in a bay and we all had masks on and I went into the room and we took our masks off obviously took it down a bit and we chatted and she told me the saddest saddest story that her baby had died at 20 19 days old at home um and she was on the phone to the paramedics and they came and took her baby into the ambulance and the ambulance drivers weren't very they were they were rushing because they were doing their part but but the windows were all open and everyone could see them working on her little boy and he was tiny.

1:50:14And when she came back to hospital pregnant, she was in COVID and she wasn't allowed her partner with her. We put these women through that. She turned up at 19 years old at full term with no partner, petrified. She's never going to labour properly. She's never going to be able to cope with this because she's so traumatised by so much already. Now what happened was after she lost her son they arrested her and her partner thinking that they'd murdered their little boy they were thrown into a prison cell I get really emotional about this because that girl is so beautiful sorry she's such a beautiful mum like such a lovely mum and I've been involved with their family ever since and I don't just drop people I don't they stay with me in my heart.

1:51:06And she stayed with me. There's a couple of women that stayed with me in my heart. And when she was telling me this story, she said they made her, um, dress a doll, feed a dolly, and they were horrendous for hours, and hours and relentless. Nobody asked her how she was, or how her bleeding was. Was she breastfeeding? Nothing. They couldn't give a shit about her. And they did the same to her partner. Because they're young. They categorized them. dead baby young couple. And they put her through so much trauma. She never was able to tell anyone that her son died because she was so ashamed. So people just never knew.

1:51:48That's disgusting. Our own country. Our own policing. Our own social services. And when she came in and had her beautiful baby, I broke the rules. I hugged her. Don't care. Sack me. and I got her partner in. I thought, I said to my boss, I don't care, we're getting them in. And I brought her partner in and he stayed with her through the birth. And what was so heartbreaking was that they misdiagnosed how the baby died and then they changed their mind and never apologized to her or our family. And she only talked about him, baby Oscar, when I spoke out and she found me online. So that's one that really needs highlighting.

1:52:32And the other one is a beautiful friend of mine called Rebecca and her beautiful little girl who came in on the 5th of February to labor ward, having driven a mile apart from each other in the same village. We didn't know each other. By coincidence, we drove to the hospital at pretty much the same time and walked in there at the same time. And she came in because she was told to. My midwife said, if my waters break, I come to hospital, which she did. And she came in and she was, I could hear her and you, a bit like a father, you know your child's cry. You know, if it's a high pitch, if they hurt themselves, if they don't breathe between the crying, they've really hurt themselves.

1:53:13As a midwife, you start learning what these cries and wails mean. And you can hear a if she's about to have a baby you'll hear a scream if she's transitioning to from from 10 centimeters nine centimeters to fully to pushing she'll have a whole different innate primal noise and this lady james she labored behind a curtain in my hospital all day from 7 a.m to 5 p.m with absolutely no support and she was a second time mum and she was high risk she bled heavily previously so she had an IV access and the reason I want to highlight this is because it really matches in with some of the stuff I'm going to tell you about the management but this lady I went up there three times what's going on with this lady I'm nosy I don't just leave things and go that's someone else's problem you don't walk over water on the floor that someone could break their neck on that's I'm that person I'd put the drip sign up to say risk of slipping.

1:54:11And I kept saying to my manager, there's a lady up there that's laboring now. On this particular day, James, there was only two midwives on labor ward and it was heaving. Heaving. We would have had 10 normally, eight to 10. And the section list was double all day. So we had no staff. Community had no staff. Triage was staffed poorly. So I've now got a lady who's come in under the guise of safety. That's exactly why I talked about my ex. she believes she's coming into the place of safety so we had as staff had been escalating through our reporting system that it was low staffing and patients weren't safe and we got told off for doing that by our own managers patients need to know about that we don't they don't care about patients they portray that they do it's absolute bullshit from the bottom of my heart sorry they do not care about you you are just a number you are just a figure on a balance sheet end of story they don't care about you your name where you come from what you love what your deep passion is, what you want from your birth, they do not care.

1:55:09There's a system not built for that. So this lady laboured all day on her own and I got forced to go up when I had all my patients. I had my signature on everything, James. All the drugs, all the CTG monitoring, my name was everywhere. And my manager, Charlotte, used to call me the Wednesday wing woman because I was so supportive of my manager and would step up to the role of like a junior manager's role so this is the person that's referred me that then called me the wednesday wing woman and that was my nickname because i was so good at my job and i'm not just saying that but i was very good at my job i'm very methodical and i care about people you can see that i care And when I went up to get this lady, because it got to the point, I thought somebody's going to die in a minute.

1:55:54When I pulled this lady to the room, this is the last baby I was ever at a birth. And I pray on that because I'm glad it's over. I'm glad they came to me that I never have to be in that hole again. and this lady Rebecca was having an epidural very quickly because I knew we needed to relax her because she had been in such pain all day when I went into the bay she was biting the bed and she was bright red and I thought she looked like she had an infection so and women can become septic very quickly and die very quickly from sepsis as you probably know sepsis is a huge killer one of the biggest killers in women she said to me I'm gonna die Victoria I was like you're not going to die.

1:56:38And then something said, she might die. She might die. So I got my boss in and said, she says she's going to die. And I said that, whereas most people don't have the courage to say those types of things because it sounds extreme, but it's not extreme. We've got the worst death rates ever in maternity, in women and babies. So we need to be listening. Long story short, not long after her baby came out, absolutely so unwell. You know, she took a little weird yelp and then just was gone and and I couldn't get a heart rate I couldn't get anything it was awful James now I talked about astral rejection in my birth something happened to me in that room and I just I can watch myself in that room because I was so stressed from the trauma that this woman had been put through this and my boss is was amazing she's an amazing midwife and I've got so much respect for her but she's they'll be mad at me for doing this I get it I understand it because I'm poking at your profession.

1:57:33But she said to me after, you did nothing wrong. And I'm like, you're missing the point. You've missed the point. We failed these people. This can never happen again. So I day text, which is our internal reporting that that was a severe outcome with no staffing and a lady laboring. And now a baby's gone to NICU, which was on life support. They didn't know if that baby was going to live. And they told the family that it was awful. so the next day I handed in my notice now what happened was that incident should have been investigated thoroughly it was downgraded to a mild on the computer which meant it never got investigated that's how much they care about you so I encouraged Rebecca to contact Charlotte Wilton and see her which she did and Charlotte Wilton told her and her husband that she was in the safest place and that she had the best care and what Victoria did is what any midwife would do and also the fact that I whistleblown and Rebecca said if Victoria hadn't put this online I would never have known that I wasn't to blame because what do women do they blame themselves straight away which breaks down their relationships because their partners don't get it because they're not meant to because they haven't walked it in it but they have in a different way so my boss told my friend that she was in the safest place and that we don't we don't investigate these types of cases and that what victoria's done any midwife would do but yet wrote in the fitness to practice referral that no midwife would do what i've done and this is the corruption between midwives and women i'm not surprised there is a lack of confidence between midwives and women and these cases have destroyed just destroyed this woman's life like in so many ways and i'm helping her so much with so much healing but you can see the pain in her yeah fair play what about the nine month abortions where people can get abortions at 40 weeks i put a post out but i got a couple of things wrong so i had to delete it i hate deleting posts because normally the information i get is usually spot on and you kind of do your own research but there's a couple of things i got wrong so what is it with the 40 week abortion where people can start abort their babies they shouldn't be allowed in my eyes but what is it actually?

1:59:45Because people were saying it's a health and safety thing it can be a good thing but it's a fully grown baby at that point you know but what is the information worth it? Do you know what? I've realised my true sovereignty in the last 18 months and your sovereignty is to do no harm to you or anyone else I am not going to follow these politicians clown ways I refuse to give them my energy so for me I looked into it briefly I haven't fully looked into it but what I from understand from it is that they're saying that it's no longer a criminal offense if women abort a baby up to birth that's not saying that it will happen but why would you be bringing that in if the next step is not to do it how does a woman then abort a baby so my concern there is is that women of Ireland for instance would come to England for a termination of pregnancy because it was illegal in Ireland and if you've been raped or you know something awful has happened to you I do believe that women should have a choice is that my choice now as I've learned about life and what the meaning of life is a baby is an absolute divine blessing and whatever age you're at and it arrives it's meant to be there for whatever reason but my concern with the decriminalizing abortion up to nine months is what message does that send how is someone interpreting that because how you interpreted it which you're entitled to do by the way your interpretation of information is personal to you just because someone says that's not what it means doesn't mean it's not right for you so whilst a young girl at 17 has got pregnant and concealed her pregnancy from her family now knows to get an abortion at term is not she's not going to be penalized what message does that send how is that girl then what's she going to do next oh i might google how to to take a pill what pill do I need oh I can buy that on on TikTok I can buy that on eBay and take it she then thinks that might kill her baby now whilst that drug might kill a baby at 20 weeks potentially or and then have bring on labor and then a baby will be born and die that's not going to happen for a term baby so what happens to a live baby that then comes out what are we then going to start seeing that's my concern so there's a huge sadistic agenda that how can these people women sit in that parliament and agree that i understand that women shouldn't be criminalized for choices because that's not fair but like men when men become their masculine energy doesn't mean they're all murderers and this is the this is the message they're they're messing with all of our heads constantly.

2:02:22That agenda that day blew up on X. It went absolutely crazy. And I went on a six hour podcast about it and we talked about it and it's caused huge confusion. So this is why, James, I'm like you. I don't follow any of them. What we need to remember is we are sovereign and we have been brought into a corporation world, a clown world. And for us to remember exactly who we are, go and read your Magna Carta. Go and remember that the people overturned King John. And it's still not rebutted because you cannot rebut old law. And it stands today. Remember who you are. Remember where you came from. Doesn't mean you have to go out and riot and protest and cause harm.

2:03:01But we need to be remembering who we are. And the Irish are setting a massive president. And I think Scotland will be next because it's the Celtic deep blood within you all. I get it. I understand it. I don't condemn any harm of anybody. But I'm getting to the point, I think, we have forgotten who the hell we are because the corporation has stolen every bit of our lives. What did they say? You will have nothing and you will not be happy. And that's exactly what is happening. So remember your old laws, the Treason Act, the Coronation Act, they are still standing laws today and none of us know about them.

2:03:39I do. I know about them all, which is why I don't pay council tax, which is why I've just fought it in the courtroom with Jacobs, who bullied me every day for 14 days. And the judge turned out to still slap me with a five grand cost order, even though he admitted it was harassment. That's how corrupt this is. It runs deep. And people have forgotten who they are, because they're on a treadmill they've got a tell i vision tell a live vision on their head with their phone and they're on a treadmill walking into london you see it everywhere just stop and think and give your times give your give your space back to yourself honor yourself and remember who you are yeah and that's where i'm at we don't want free thinkers though we want people controlled we want people good little workers good boy do your work never complain we're just going to keep brainwashing you to then take this feel this we'll condition you how we want you to feel and think what sort of stats are scary for people to look into with child buffs and all the other stuff with the nhs is there any stats that are standing out where people need to look into and question it themselves yeah i think everybody should be reading all the inquiries bill kircup inquiry into morecambe bay uh donna ockingdon's reports they should all be read but then you should also go into your background what's behind it we all know when the when the agenda comes out there's always something behind it isn't there there's a there's no in with an out there's no ying with a yang law of physics there's always something on the opposite side so if they're giving you their narrative there is another narrative there's another road and i think everybody should be looking beyond the embrace reports which is is the reporting statistics of all the hospitals that then tell the public well where's the baby deaths through covid where are they why have we not got them we didn't get them last year it's the first time since time began though since they've been reporting it so i think everybody should just be looking behind their policies and questioning what does this mean why haven't we got some natural remedies in nhs why why can't we use medicines for bleeding which they use in doula work why not i know i'd rather have a plant medicine than have a bloody drug again it's not evidence-based it's not evidence practice james i I got diagnosed with type 1 diabetes in 2019 and they told me that I would be on insulin for the rest of my life.

2:06:05I was on a hundred units of insulin when I was a midwife a day. When I left, it went down to 33 % overnight because my body had rested. My body said no more. I honoured my truth because your body tells you before you spiritually catch up. Now, today, I've been off insulin for four months. I'm curing myself through honouring who I am and healing. The doctors agree that, excuse me, that I will probably be back on insulin at some point, my body will just snap. But for now, I'm just biding my time. But it is a mental game of, am I in fear of the doctors and what they say? And do I trust them? I've done everything opposite of what they told me.

2:06:46And I'm off all of the medication. I was on five meds at one point. Yeah, I believe everything can be reversed by just getting yourself in nature and just unwinding and coming back to your source, which is difficult, though. A lot of people don't believe in themselves. They don't believe in curing yourself. Joe Dispenza's massive as well. Well, he does say you can't cure type 1 diabetes. So that's a message just to say that I would never come off my insulin. But I don't believe I have type 1 diabetes. I think it's a misdiagnosis. Because true type 1 diabetes, you cannot cure. We know that. And it will kill you very quickly if you come off insulin.

2:07:18That's why I've questioned the doctors saying, well, do you know? And they've even admitted we don't really know. All right, you're 100 grand a year and you're just going to give me a prescription? No. so I've questioned the narrative on every area of my life and it's turned out to be true yeah how many misdiagnoses actually happen is it frequently than people think yeah type 2 type 1 now again I just skirting into the NHS statistics because they're the only statistics we have type 1 diabetes is always a misdiagnosis type 2 to start with especially in adulthood um so I was type 1 to start with but all my bloods came back as normal however I do have a very low level c-peptide level and beta cell in my pancreas so I kind of know I have to fast and not give my body too much stress and food they told me I've got an eating disorder because of that slap me in an eating disorder clinic no the stats now for fasting is unbelievable through your cells and current cancer cells and rejuvenating everything back in your body and aligning everything back in your body just look up a three day water fast and look at the the health benefits from it you don't need to do three days people do five days ten days some people do 24 hours just to kind of reset but 72 hours i believe is the perfect reset the mental clarity after two days is next level yes you get your cravings especially if you're so used to eating breakfast which is the the name is there it's breaking fast yeah but when you actually start looking into it and understanding the health benefits from it we're hunters we never ate every day we never ate every two three hours we're greedy bastards now because there's so much stuff there we can get at the touch of a button but just do your own research on it look at the health benefits and again it's the cravings the first and second day with the sugar and stuff but once you get past that sort of craving the clarity you feel is a different ball game and like I say with the health benefits and what it can do for you internally again is a different ballgame instead of people are dying with cancer but yet we'll give you bacon we'll give you all this other stuff that actually fucking causes cancer so but you also knew in your heart that fasting was right so i because i had space and time and quiet i was able to just sit in my heart and agree and say yeah i'm going to try fasting because it felt right for me but that's not going to be right for everybody and this is the point we always go to the external factor to feed ourselves go within uh who are you who i didn't know who i was until the last two years god i know who i am now let me tell you i feel amazing i've never felt so invigorated who are you you look for that for the external world foods games jobs cars houses sexual relationships family parties you know baby showers do nothing find out who you are and everything that you then make decisions on will be right for you because you will never get it wrong because you're so connected to intuition which is what they've tried to break good on you babe how you feeling today yeah i feel really good would you like to finish up on anything else what sort of information people can get working people get in contact with you just get it all out there yeah so i just want to say i'm a retired midwife now by the way the nmc put me on notice that i used the word ex midwife on my on my ex so i just want to put that out there and if you have to put me on notice you're clearly worried um just start little by little love yourself love every bit of you your mole your wonky nose your wonky teeth doesn't matter you were born that way you were perfectly formed and we have been told for so long that we are nothing and we are no one.

2:11:03I remember who I am and I love every bit of who I am. Even the bits that I've done terrible, I've learned to love them because they've made me who I am. If you don't start there with you and have a relationship with you, you will never have fulfilling things in your life. You will just feed them with the next holiday, living for the next Christmas. That's not life. I've got nothing, no job. I've got no car. I don't even own a car anymore. I've got nothing got no savings I've never ever been so happy with just my family and my closest friends around me because I have learned to love every bit of me and because of that the message that I bring to you and to Steve and to all these other people in the world is you do not have to make any choice until it feels right with you and if you are going to go into the NHS you take your time do not let the system speed you up and speed up your choices just step back take a moment and take your time and if it doesn't feel right write it down sleep on it and go and address it but until we start really educating the masses about the nhs and birth and connection to yourself because it's all interlinked everything's connected you'll never ever get it right I remember that's only a very small percentage of the NHS or what you're doing if there's a whole different ballgame but like it's not to shoot down everybody who works for the NHS there's some amazing people who do some amazing work like all walks of life but just certain things you must question how can people get in contact with you if they want to drop your message or maybe inquire about certain stuff how do they get in contact?

2:12:44Yes I'm on TikTok as Victoria Rickson I'm on X as Victoria underscore Rickson I'm doing some work with the World Council for Health with Dr. Tess Laurie. We're looking at how we bring in some sort of nursing and midwifery natural side in the southwest of England because that's where we all are. So we're working on that at the moment. I do the Jim Ferguson show on a Saturday night on X which is every week is a different topic. So I volunteer my time with this because I'm healing myself and having faith in something different so I'm there on a Saturday night with Jim and the team which is oh that has when I started that that the trolling stopped the trolling stopped because obviously my um awareness in the world went up and I just felt more protected so yeah follow us on there and you know by by Christmas I'd like to be able to drop the whistleblowing stuff because I can't really bring much more apart from updates on court cases um but I just think we all need to forgive each other send love to each other I send love to all of my colleagues and I hope one of them this just sparks in their brain and might change the trajectory of their life and patience as well so yeah that's why I'm doing this keep up the amazing work Vicky listen I wish you all the best for the future anything I can help with you know where I am but stay blessed and yeah good luck thank you so much take care