In short
The episode centers on Molly Simpson’s account of becoming involved in occult “magic” and later a secretive, high-society “club” she describes as satanic/cult-like. She claims escalating rituals, demonic possession, and coercive initiation events tied to an industry network, culminating in what she says was a traumatic, possibly drugged experience involving a staged human body meal.
Guest backgrounds
Molly grew up with severe abuse and instability. She says her mother was a drug addict and abusive partner; she was beaten and drugged, and her grandmother helped care for her. She describes being bullied at school, leaving in year nine, then later returning for A-levels and earning a degree. She says she was introduced to “black magic” as a child through a pentagram ritual she claims involved killing a mouse to “save” a dog. She also describes hearing voices and seeing presences from childhood.
Key claims
Molly says she attempted rituals seeking money/love, including blood-based pentagram work inspired by occult texts. She claims a “demonic” presence took over her body, including writing unknown symbols, and that she later heard a low growly voice naming Belphegor (sloth/gluttony). She claims an agent in the modeling/porn-adjacent industry introduced her to parties, initiations, and a “club,” including rituals using a hexagram/unicursal hexagram, candles, cloaks, and blood.
Notable examples
an airport trip where she says she blacked out after being given tablets; a hotel shoot where she alleges sexual assault; an orgy event; a Berkshire dinner-party initiation with a knife, bleeding, and a bat-like “shadow” over the sigil; and a France event where she says she saw a human body on a platter and was possibly sedated via a pink drink, leading to an out-of-body experience and escape.
Guests
Molly Simpson (guest). The host is James English (mentioned), with no other guest present.
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Chapters
Tap a time to open that second in VOMolly's Troubled Childhood
4:23 to 5:10
Molly shares about her difficult upbringing and relationship with her family.
“You're involved in a satanic program, a satanic club that you call it.”
School Experience and Bullying
5:10 to 6:08
Molly discusses her experiences in school and the impact of bullying.
“and my mum knew she couldn't do anything to him.”
Escaping Through Fantasies
6:08 to 7:12
Molly explains how she coped with her troubled life through fantasy and horses.
“A couple of years ago, she made false allegations against me.”
Life Choices and Abuse
7:12 to 8:06
Molly recounts her choices in relationships and the abusive nature of them.
“My nan took my horse riding now and again.”
Introduction to Magic
8:06 to 9:24
Molly shares her first encounter with magic and its significance.
Ritual and Recovery of the Dog
9:24 to 10:59
Molly recounts a ritual involving her dog and its miraculous recovery.
“So my nan had bought me a puppy and it was a pretty expensive laser apso thing and my mum wasn't great with animals.”
Ritual and Recovery of the Dog
11:02 to 11:58
Molly recounts a ritual involving her dog and its miraculous recovery.
“You know how a mom's bag has everything?”
The Struggles of Youth and Early Drug Use
14:01 to 21:58
Learn about the speaker's challenging upbringing and early encounters with drugs and mental health issues.
“What did your friends say about hearing voices and seeing people?”
Sponsor: PayPal
22:01 to 22:26
Introduction to the new PayPal app, highlighting its features and benefits.
“The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money.”
The Dark Turns of the Modeling Industry
23:01 to 28:00
Explore the speaker's unsettling experiences in the modeling industry, including exploitation and shocking encounters.
“because I didn't want to take them until we'd gone through security because I didn't want to feel monged going through the airport.”
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The Chilling Ritual Experience
28:00 to 32:54
A firsthand account of a disturbing ritual involving blood and chanting.
“And I was like, what fucking club are you on about this?”
The Chilling Ritual Experience
33:01 to 33:28
A firsthand account of a disturbing ritual involving blood and chanting.
“The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money.”
The Initiation into a Secret World
33:28 to 42:01
An exploration of subsequent rituals and the author's growing involvement.
“And this girl next to me takes me hand, so I've got alls of her hand, but he doesn't take it.”
Descent into Darkness: Early Experiences
42:01 to 43:52
Explore the early signs of being drawn into a dark world and the desperation that led to it.
“Because the way she spoke and the way she looked and I thought you can tell when someone's got other interference going on around them.”
Descent into Darkness: Early Experiences
43:55 to 44:18
Explore the early signs of being drawn into a dark world and the desperation that led to it.
“The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money.”
A Disturbing Dinner Party
44:19 to 51:09
Listen to a chilling account of a ritualistic party that escalated into horror.
“Fall has never looked or tasted this good.”
Escaping the Dark Side
51:10 to 53:04
Hear about the journey of trying to escape from a sinister group and the threats faced.
Escaping the Dark Side
56:19 to 57:17
Hear about the journey of trying to escape from a sinister group and the threats faced.
“15 or more headache days a month, each lasting four hours or more, can make me feel like a spectator in my own life.”
An Unexpected Encounter
57:24 to 1:00:40
A chilling story of a strange encounter with a woman and a man in Manchester.
“You'll never work in this industry again.”
The Aftermath of the Stalking
1:00:41 to 1:05:08
Describes the escalating stalking incidents and a series of health issues that followed.
“And as I turns my engine on, he walks in front of my car, just fell in those leathers and puts another Starbucks cup on my bonnet.”
Descent into Illness
1:05:09 to 1:10:00
Detailing the speaker's struggle with a mysterious illness and medical negligence.
“And I walked through the front door and my mum had just got up with the kids and it must be about five, six o 'clock in the morning.”
Experiencing Possession and Seeking Help
1:10:00 to 1:11:32
The speaker shares a traumatic experience of possession while driving and describes their search for healing.
The Accountant and Healing Journey
1:11:32 to 1:14:05
The narrative continues with the speaker's encounter with a healer and an accountant who discussed their demonic contract.
“he gave me all kinds of herbal supplements and stuff like that and acupuncture treatments rife treatments but what he actually put me in touch with was an accountant in London who knew about all this stuff.”
Visions and Spiritual Encounters
1:14:05 to 1:16:19
The speaker recounts a transformative vision of Jesus and their emotional response to it.
“White blood cells, red blood cells, ferritin.”
Struggles with Mental Health and Reality
1:16:19 to 1:19:18
The discussion shifts to mental health, the fine line between sanity and spiritual experiences, and societal perceptions.
“showed us how to live and then went back to fucking heaven where we all returned to at one point were you taking any tablets or anything?”
Skepticism Towards Plant Medicines and Healing
1:19:18 to 1:22:14
The speakers debate the efficacy of plant medicines, societal trends, and the nature of spiritual healers.
“but they call it demon face syndrome or something like that.”
Personal Healing and Acceptance of Spirituality
1:22:14 to 1:24:01
The dialogue explores personal healing journeys, societal judgment, and the acceptance of one's spiritual abilities.
Facing Demons and Personal Contracts
1:24:01 to 1:25:56
Explore the speaker's experience with demonic encounters and breaking a contract with a dark realm.
The Dark Underbelly of Fame
1:25:57 to 1:27:56
Discuss the hidden practices within the entertainment industry and the influence of dark magic.
Manipulation and Control in Elite Circles
1:27:57 to 1:29:56
Delve into how individuals are manipulated within elite circles to maintain control and power.
“Sometimes you do get it wrong, but it's just those little tints in the glasses and the creepy face.”
Societal Brainwashing and Conditioning
1:29:57 to 1:31:24
Examine how societal structures condition individuals to conform and relinquish independent thinking.
“And like I say, not all Freemasons are bad.”
Returning to Spirituality and Healing
1:31:25 to 1:35:07
Learn about the journey back to spirituality and helping others through healing practices.
“Wait a minute, you're not well, take these tablets.”
The Complexity of Power and Fame
1:35:08 to 1:37:42
Investigate the nature of fame, power, and the psychological effects on those who achieve it.
“But, you know, to get into what I got into, I didn't do it.”
The Dark Side of High Society
1:37:43 to 1:38:00
Uncover the manipulation and exploitation present in high society and how power dynamics operate.
Exploring Power Dynamics
1:38:00 to 1:38:54
Discussing how wealth influences behavior and power relationships.
Cult Insights and Trafficking Theories
1:38:54 to 1:40:04
Insights on cult dynamics and theories on human trafficking.
The Dark Side of Celebratory Nights
1:40:04 to 1:41:02
Discussing the connection between Halloween, New Year’s Eve, and disappearances.
“when everyone's out and about to and what they wanted to he says that's when they came out Halloween and New Year's Eve that's when people go missing never to be seen again.”
Conspiracies and Hidden Forces
1:41:02 to 1:43:13
Speculating on the entities controlling world power.
“I mean, if you look at the numerology, the day will be a four.”
Existential Questions and Spiritual Insights
1:43:13 to 1:45:00
Questioning existence, the afterlife, and spiritual beliefs.
“Yeah, they're behind the smoke screen, but if you look at Bezos, if you look at Zuckerberg, if you look at Elon Musk, they've got alien tendencies.”
Societal Norms and the Illusion of Time
1:45:00 to 1:47:41
Debating the concept of time and societal conditioning.
“So the fact of the matter is it's not about like why would they do it, it's we're just fodder, we're just food for them to use for what they need to to get the power of the money.”
The Dark Side of Christmas Traditions
1:47:41 to 1:49:05
Examining the underlying messages of Christmas traditions.
Impact of Media on Children
1:49:05 to 1:50:13
Discussing the effects of media violence on children's perceptions.
“But everything in Disney was all kids being raised by single parents, grandparents, wicked uncles, aunties.”
Witchcraft and Spiritual Practices
1:50:13 to 1:51:33
Exploring personal experiences with witchcraft and spiritual healing.
“She went to character's eyes, doesn't it?”
Personal Journey into Witchcraft
1:51:33 to 1:52:00
A personal account of fascination with witchcraft and spiritual practices.
“How did you always have fascinations From that with your mum?”
Exploring Belief in Spells and Intuition
1:52:00 to 1:54:00
Discussion on personal experiences with spells, tarot cards, and intuition.
“Did you sleep with your cards under your pillow?”
The Reality of Exorcisms
1:54:00 to 1:55:58
Insights into the nature of exorcisms and their impact on mental health.
“These demonic entities in particular will influence, they'll ruin your mental health, they'll ruin your physical health as well and make you sick, the longer you're off them.”
Life After Death and Reincarnation
1:55:58 to 1:58:14
Discussion on beliefs surrounding reincarnation and the afterlife.
“There's something you can look into with numerology.”
Dark Rituals and Their Consequences
1:58:14 to 2:00:39
Examination of the implications of dark rituals and the nature of evil.
“See I think hell's just evil and I just think good is positive, it's just a positive and negative energy.”
Reflections on Mental Health and Survival
2:00:39 to 2:02:38
Personal reflections on mental health struggles and overcoming adversity.
“And I just think it's a coincidence that it's when everyone's 27.”
Voices and Intuition in Everyday Life
2:02:38 to 2:05:08
Discussion on the experience of hearing voices and tapping into intuition.
“Being a parent, that is a selfish thing to do.”
Empowerment Through Shared Experiences
2:05:08 to 2:06:00
A conversation about the importance of sharing experiences and support.
“But if you are going through that, there are real people out there that will help you.”
Reflections on a Challenging Experience
2:06:00 to 2:07:20
The guest shares their feelings and thoughts after discussing their past experiences.
“for people to get involved or maybe drop you a message and ask for advice?”
Reflections on a Challenging Experience
2:07:46 to 2:08:16
The guest shares their feelings and thoughts after discussing their past experiences.
“Afternoon glare totally ruined my watch party for the big game.”
Experiences with the Supernatural
2:08:41 to 2:09:32
Discussing common supernatural experiences and interpretations of sightings.
“If it's never happened to you, you'll know someone that has, or give it time, and you'll experience it yourself.”
Transcript
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3:07And boomer on And today's guest we've got Molly Simpson Molly how are we? I am very well thank you for having me Thanks for coming on the show I've seen you on my very good friends podcast Tony Morel The Good, The Bad, The Ugly How people go and check it out good friend of mine, great guy, great podcast. Yes. This episode is brought to you by PayPal. You know how a mom's bag has everything? Sunscreen, snacks, a stapler? The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money. Shop, pay, manage your account and earn rewards all in one place. And with purchase protection on eligible items, biometric security and pass keys, you're protected at every step.
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4:28You're involved in a satanic program, a satanic club that you call it. I call it the club, yeah. Yeah. A lot of death threats, a lot of madness. Photographs, messages, all kinds of stuff. And now here we are. Here we are. Hopefully I don't die. Yeah, well, don't be saying that shit. But before we get into all the madness, though, I always like to go back to the start with my guests. Okay. Get more of a bit of understanding about you, Molly, where you grew up and how it all began. So I didn't have a great child, wasn't I? My mum was a drug addict, very abusive relationship with my stepfather. I was treated very differently to my brother.
5:06My brother had quite a well-to-do dad. So he looked after him, basically, and my mum knew she couldn't do anything to him. So she took a lot of frustrations out on me. Really, we were beaten. I was drugged more than once, so she could party all night. Didn't really have birthdays, but I was quite lucky because my nan looked after me where she could. She couldn't take me to live with her because she already had one of my cousins, whose parent was not Grace. So she did. She looked after me and she fed me and stuff like that. And I suppose she was my saving grace, really. What were you like at school?
5:42Believe it or not. But I was always weird. I've always been the weird girl. You know what I mean? I thought I was a horse for the first 10 years of my life, that sort of stuff. Obviously, growing up, we didn't have meek trainers. Well, I didn't. My brother did. So I was always the target. I was always dirty. You know, collars on my shirt, school uniforms, filthy, because she was just off a barna 24-7. No relationship with your mum whatsoever? Not anymore, no. A couple of years ago, she made false allegations against me. where I lost everything, I lost my house, everything that I've worked for.
6:16And I've never had any contact with her since to the point where I've had to block people who live next door to her just in case she gets information because she's dangerous. She will just make ransom accusations. So what was it like going through school then, getting bullied? Yeah, it made me funny. You know, it gave me a sense of humour, but at the same time, it wasn't grace. And I think as well, as a child, you develop this sort of mask and you're like, it doesn't bother me and I'm fine. And, you know, you make fun of it and stuff like that. But it wasn't great. I ended up leaving school in year nine because it got that bad.
6:50I just used to get up and take me, me riding stuff. I had a pony at the time and I got changed to an entry behind the shop and I'd just get the bus or a walk to the farm and play with my horses all day. I did go back into my A-levels, got a degree. But obviously I took the hard roofs. So even you say you thought you were a horse for 10 years, they can escape to be something else because you didn't like the life you were in? Pretty much, yeah. It was like a fantasy. I'd always loved horses. My nan took my horse riding now and again. So it's one of them things. Every little bit of work or doing school, every drawing would be horses this, horses that.
7:24And I became obsessed with it because it was my escape. So what happened after school? So I left. I went back to college, got some more qualifications. And I ended up working in a restaurant not far from here. and I ended up in a relationship with my mum's drug dealer. As you do. As you do. And I ended up getting pregnant pretty young. I was 19 when I had my first child. How old was he? 30. Yeah, it's a bit old, isn't it? It's a bit old, yeah, I suppose. So, yeah. But that was a very, very abusive relationship. He wouldn't let me move. Couldn't do anything. I'd done a little bit of modelling just after I'd left school.
8:04But obviously once I got with him, that stopped. dad was put in into couldn't work couldn't move couldn't go out the house couldn't open a blinds very very paranoid fella and then he started getting into a lot of trouble with the police and i ended up leaving two weeks after i'd had my second child and i ended up back in my mum's with a windbag of stuff and it was then the i saw i got very suicidal i think because i'd grown up and I knew like I didn't want to give that life to them boys you know I brought them into the world the least I could have done is created a foundation for them that was secure and I couldn't do that so I felt guilty my mum was making me feel guilty you know so I became quite desperate in the end and I tried to get back into the modeling but I was being offered really like low-paid shitty publications like the daily sports and stuff like that and I just weren't willing to do it i suppose it wasn't worth the money for me if i was going to get take my clothes off for money it was going to be for good money so after a while i got that desperate and i knew about magic my mum was introduced me to magic when i was a kid she'd done a ritual to save the dog that we had that involved killing a mouse that she got me to help with when i was about seven and it worked so i thought well i'm at rock bottom what can i do i might as well try a bit of magic Tell me the story about the dog.
9:26So my nan had bought me a puppy and it was a pretty expensive laser apso thing and my mum wasn't great with animals. She just wouldn't feed them. She'd lose them. She'd sell them, if she could, to get money for drink, drugs, whatever. And it got ran over and it had a broken spine in multiple places and the vet said, look, it's going to cost thousands of pounds to do an operation on it. And she was with someone at the time that was a truck driver. So she was like, no, we'll pay, we'll pay, we'll pay. because she knew my dad was going to kill her because of it. And the dog's supposed to go in for this operation one night and she gets me out of bed in the middle of the night.
10:03And I was, what, seven? And she's done a pentagram on the living room floor made out of a beaded curtain that we had back in the day, you know, the fly curtains. And she said, you've got to take clothes off. She was naked. She got me undressed. And I had to follow her and walk around the pentagram. And after a minute, she said some words. she took the mouse out the mop bucket and smacked her on the edge with a rolling pin and killed her finished the ritual i can't remember much after that because i was pretty horrified and the day after we get a phone call from the vet that the dog had like miraculously recovered and i mean the vet was gobsmacked i remember being in in the room and she was like we've never seen a recovery like this from such a major operation never mind it's broken spine in multiple places and my mum was there with like cheesy grin she thought it was great brought the dog home And I suppose that lived with me ever since, really.
10:54That was my first introduction to black magic, because that's not like magic. This episode is brought to you by PayPal. You know how a mom's bag has everything? Sunscreen? Snacks? A stapler? The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money. Shop, pay, manage your account and earn rewards all in one place. And with purchase protection on eligible items, biometric security, and pass keys, you're protected at every step. Download the new PayPal app to get started. See paypal.com slash protection terms. Fall has never looked or tasted this good. Sweet Greens Fall Harvest Menu is back with seasonal favorites dressed to impress and made to be devoured.
11:39Warm roasted sweet potatoes, crisp apples, maple glazed Brussels, and crave-worthy flavors in the autumn harvest bowl, maple glazed salmon plate and roasted bacon brussel side the season's most desirable menu has returned to sweetgreen featuring fall's best dressed make your move order on the sweetgreen app did you ever ask any questions growing up about that not really no i mean she always had tarot cards she had a bottle of holy water we'd gone to glastonbury at some point on a bit of a camping trip and I'd always had experiences with hearing voices like everyone in the family thought I was absolutely mental because I'd always talk to this woman who was in my head to the point where like it'd stop me getting battered it'd say like don't go downstairs yet used to go downstairs and like try and steal something out the fridge or the cupboards whatever was there and it'd be like don't go yet I wouldn't so it'd keep me safe in one way or another and I suppose we'd had an experience in Glastonbury where I was playing with something it must have been a spirit and I'd said to my brother like come and play with us Rose her name was come and play with us and it was like there's no one there and shouting to my mum and my mum was taking drugs behind one of the gravestones and she was like yeah she is yeah she is I can see it I can see it I mean she might have just been hallucinating with what she was taking but I suppose that also made it normal but I remember of times as well going into school we've gone to colomendi on a trip and i must have been god in year four at this point so nine and i said oh my mum's a witch and one of the teachers was like yes how am i i've got crystals and cards and she was showing me the crystals so i thought it was dead normal having a professional echo that back that yeah that's i'm one of them as well do you know what I mean?
13:30did your mum tell you she was a witch? yeah yeah yeah she wasn't a very good one she didn't she didn't practice unless she really had to she'd read the cards now and again or she'd douse us all in holy water me in particular when I was being naughty for whatever reason but other than that that's all she seemed to do she'd do the odd little spells around the house she'd smell smoke and stuff like that when we were in bed but again it's usually when she was drunk she'd find something that she wanted to do does that make sense? Did you take any drugs? Did your mum give you any drugs as a kid? So when I was 16 she gave me my first bomber speed She wrapped it up in her skin and went to take that And my stepdad was living in Anfields at the time We lived in Wilton, which was quite far And she said, I'm jumping in a taxi You walk So I walked from Wilton to Anfields Obviously off my face at 16 But I think because I've got ADHD as well I always reacted badly from uppers so she gave me my first bottom of speed but obviously all the mates and stuff, we were in the pleasure rooms at 13 having, do you want a line, do you want an ecstasy tablets and stuff like that but they never agreed with me like I'll be up for a week not just a few hours off it so I preferred downers to be fair I was not very big on drugs, never drank neither, once I turned about 17 stopped drinking completely.
14:49What did your friends say about hearing voices and seeing people? well I didn't did you kill them as a child not so much no not so much they were more bothered about picking on me because like I was obsessed with horses so they used to call me like here's the horse girl like that sort of stuff obviously when I got older one of my child's friends I mean I was quite alone growing up anyway but one of my friends that I grew up with like she's very not into it at all very reality based and she was like I think you're around the bend so I suppose I kept it on the low you know what I mean it's not something And I openly express myself about or told people until I've got a bit older.
15:27So you're on your arse. You've got two kids. What's going through your mind then? Well, I was suicidal. I was just like, I can't do this. And I had pressure off my mum. I had pressure, obviously, just from being a single parent. He was nowhere to be seen. He ended up going away for one reason or another. And I was at rock bottom and I thought, I'll try some magic. So we did a bit of research and I was looking on the internet. to rant on the way and alistair crowley's sort of types of magic and i took exit of information and i ended up setting a ritual up it's basically a pentagram on the floor i had to cut myself and put blood on the points and say these words and they were english so i do i does this ritual goes to bed thinking i'm going to wake up in the morning and i'm going to be fucking a star or something because i didn't ask what a lot of people who do this type of stuff who go into making packs with demonics or the dark side will be specific and I wasn't I just wanted money I didn't care how it came so on the thing that I wrote I just wrote I just want money and love and that was that so it goes to bed I wakes up everything's normal and not on changes and left it for about a month and I was like that hasn't worked I haven't done it right so it does more research and I must have been researching God for about six months and I found bits and bobs did another ritual a few months later and it didn't work again and I was like I'm obviously really really crap at this and I'm not doing it right there was no doubt in my mind that it was possible it was just that I wasn't doing it the right way so after a while I did one spare at the moment in the middle of the night and in my house for whatever reason I just wasn't feeling great and I thought fuck it we'll try again so I did but this time something took over my body and I started writing these symbols in a pentagram symbols that I couldn't write to you now I couldn't tell you what they are or draw them i've never seen them again ever since apart from in a vision and yeah like i say something takes over my body i sliced my wrist completely and i'm dotting the blood everywhere and then i stand in the pentagram and this these words are coming out my mouth it's a foreign language something i've never understood it was a lot i know now looking back so i'm saying these words and all of a sudden does this like we have no doors in the house it's all being pulled off over the years and arguments and stuff like that so we have this curtain over the door on the top floor we had a three-story townhouse type of thing and this big gust of winds hits the curtain and blows in my face this ice cold and it fells the presence in the fence ground with me so I've shut my eyes panicked and I couldn't move it was like frozen for a little minute and then I jumped out jumped into bed through the quilt so it was made like a baby like you was when you're scared when you're a kid and I didn't move couldn't breathe and after a few hours these bells started but they were that loud it was that you could feel it in your chest and I'm thinking surely everyone can hear that there was a church in the village but it's never that loud it was like it was right next door to me and the whole night these bells were going on and on and on I falls asleep at some point and I wakes up in the morning again I'm like I feel normal don't feel anything and a couple of weeks I was applying for this and I did want to get back into the model and I'd sent my portfolio off to a few agencies always got a note well didn't reply because to be fair I wanted to go into fashion and I'm only five foot two you know I haven't got perfect skin I'm probably not the body for it but one day this this email comes back and they's invited me for a casting and I was like oh thank god I've made a type of thing and I went and they loved me and I was like wow this is this is quite surreal so they put me on the books and I think it was about three weeks after that casting that I went to I started hearing this thing with me talking to me it's like a low, very low, growly voice which was the demonic that I've made the pact with so I picked a very specific demonic to do it with called Belthegor a demon of sloth and gluttony and stuff like that and it's telling me, it's a name and it's speaking to me and I'm thinking I have to get frenic I'm hearing voices, this is peculiar, but at the same time I was like, maybe it's just because of what I've done maybe this is how it goes type of thing so I'm getting slow a bit to work I've got this thing in my ear now at this point as well, I'd always been able to hear other spirits my own spirit guides, other people's passed on loved ones, my own passed on family, and I got shut off and I couldn't hear nothing at all, and that was quite freaky so I've gone from hearing all these lovely things and lovely messages like you're safe and blah blah blah to this thing screaming at me and I think at some point as well you would be able to tap into the demonic realm and you'd hear these screams in your head 24-7 to the point where it's hard to concentrate on what you're doing so yeah carries on with that agency for a few months and after a while I was thinking like it's quite slow I was getting well-paid work and it was good but I was like it's quite slow and I ended up being introduced to an agent like a freelance agent and he was all over me at a party he knew someone that I knew and I hated them I didn't like him big egotistical fucking big I am you know what I mean thought it was great so I was dead like opposed to him and he gave me a business card that's come out the toilet and he was like I can help you in fact I think I can get you a lot of well-paid work and I was like oh okay alright takes the business card and I thought not an ovary and the work started drying up from this agency and I was like I'm getting a bit desperate I've got bills to pay so I sent him a message and he was like yeah if you let me come and take some photos of you I've got a private buyer who'll buy them off you and I was like okay what's your commission and I'm not taking them and I was like okay so it goes does this use you make me a fair bit of money off the photos and it was not a mess it was not on tights and it got I didn't speak to him very often he'd message me and say do you want this job and I'd be like no I don't fancy that or can't do that whatever and after a minute he said look I've got a really really well paid job it's international do you want to get it I'm going to send you a portfolio off if you want you we're going on Friday and I was like ok fab now I'm petrified flying I have to take the house plan to fly anyway he comes back and he's like, yeah, right, they want you.
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22:48The season's most desirable menu has returned to Sweetgreen, featuring fall's best dressed. Make your move. Order on the Sweetgreen app. So we go, and I was stressed on having the tablets in my bag because I didn't want to take them until we'd gone through security because I didn't want to feel monged going through the airport. And he was like, I'll carry them. And I was like, I don't want to get them to have me. I didn't want to think anything because they weren't on prescription or anything like that. So we put them in his bag and we go through, and for whatever reason, we were having a drink somewhere, and I go and give them tablets.
23:21So he passes me them and take one, and I blacked out, don't usually black out off, diaspan. And when I wakes up, we were in a cab, we'd flown, got out at the airport and we're in a cab on the way to this hotel. And we goes in and it was night time, by the time we'd arrived. And we've got separate rooms. I'm in my room and I'm sort of coming to a little bit, waking up a little bit. And there's a knock on the door and he was like, we need to take some contents. So he comes in with his camera and he was like, put this on. and show me like this black lacy lingerie bodysuit thing with some stockings and suspenders and he's taken photos of me but he's filming it as well and he's finished doing his content basically and I've leant over the desk to get me cigars and he's grabbed me from behind on video and I've jumped out my skin and gone oh what the fuck are you doing like you've sexually assaulted on me and he was like oh do you blame me you're gorgeous you know how do you expect me to keep your hands off i know this is you know this is part of the industry and to be fair i've seen a lot of people get groped i'd seen a lot of people being touched in ways that were inappropriate and stuff like that and it is a bit of a culture within that industry within a lot of industries the media industry is the same so i suppose i sort of just put it to the back of my mind and was like oh it's just a sleazebag it's just horrible and the day after we go as we do it It was a Tuesday shoot.
24:46And that night he said, we're going to an after party. And I was like, oh, what are you, fine, grace. I was knackered. And I remember I didn't want to go. We were flying out the next morning. And we goes anyway, we're in this party. And after the minute he comes over to me. I'm trying to leave him because he's getting on my nerves. They're close to me all the time. And I'm talking to these local girls, rants of girls. And he's like, come over. I've got someone I want you to meet. I've got someone I want you to meet. so he takes me like right to the back of this club through like a corridor that would lead to the toilet and in this back room with a black door and we goes through and there's three fellas sat there between the ages of 60 and probably 80 all dressed in suits, briefcases and one of them stands up, the other two stays sat down and he comes over and he was like I've been waiting to meet you and he shakes my hand and he's looking me up and down like I'm a piece of meat I was like come over so we sit down and we're having a drink and they're all talking and I'm just sort of don't know what to say and I was quite aware as well they were all very posh and I'm quite common and brassy so I was like I don't know what to say I don't know about wine I don't know about these things that these people are talking about stocks and shit and out of nowhere one of the other fellas just looks at me and went what's your party trick and I went what?
26:06What's your party trick? And I just went oh magic and just started laughing he went oh so you're one of us then and I was like oh do you do magic and he was like yeah and I'm thinking he thinks I've just meant drugs and I'm thinking he's probably thinking drugs and it wasn't until a little bit later on that that was the first time he'd let on that he so as I knew what I'd done and emms tonight flies home and I got invited to basically another what was called a party about two months later and it was an orgy basically there was girls there with not none loads of fellas all kinds of people but them three men were there and I went introduced to them I didn't see them initially as we went in I mean there's all kinds of stuff going on it was a proper full-on orgy literally there's people getting shagged everywhere and i'm looking at the agents and i'm like wait what is this what have you brought me to you know i get it that some girls might be into that in this industry but i'm not in fucking porn like what is this and i was i wasn't doing any like nude stuff modeling i was doing really tasteful nice stuff and he was like oh don't worry about it don't worry about this again you've got to come to these places you've got to get to know these people you've got to rub shoulders with the right people to get in in get your work basically and i was like this seems mad anyway the night goes on everyone's fucking off the faces pissed and this big fella walks in big beers with no t-shirt on with a pair of shorts on and this girl's linked in his arm she's fucked absolutely she barely walk he's holding her up and he brings it into like a table like this that's in the middle of like a hall and there's other bits of tables around it but this one has just been left empty no one touched it there was no drinks on it no nothing and as i've walked in he's picked her up and threw her on the table so she's sat on the table like this she's got all to the back side of it and her feet are hanging over the other side it's like a beveled glass table like a square and it spins and he starts spinning her until she's bleeding from holding onto it getting faster and faster and as he's spinning the table everyone starts gathering around in a circle so i naturally do i just follow the agents and he's saying this chant again it's a latin chant and i'm thinking oh this is fucking mad again there's all still people doing all kinds of weird stuff behind me that are on part of this circle and I had like this blood going everywhere I mean everywhere her hands of course her arms of course feet upper legs her ankles and after a minute he just stops it dead sudden picks her up throws her over her shoulder and walks out with her and here she goes come on with her and I'm in shock thinking this is fucking mad maybe this It's just what rich people do with their money.
29:06And we're in a cab on the way back. And I was like, what the fuck was that? What have you got me into an event? Are you in our club or what? And I was like, what fucking club are you on about this? It's mad. Like, what were they doing? What are you doing with it? But what was interesting is as we've come out, as you get into the cab, you can hear him fucking it. But he was saying something. And you can hear him, like, fucking going at it. You know what I mean? But every time you can hear a trust, he was saying something as he was doing it and like i was making like he must have seen how shocked i was the agent and he like he was making a joke of it together they're in a relationship stops sweating like you know people have got weird fantasies that they like to fulfill and i was like yeah but in front of everyone making a bleed like what's all that about and he's laughing and like laughing at me where i felt like very small at that point and i'm thinking oh i've got myself into some weird ass fucking shit here i just didn't think for one minute it was what it was i just thought these are all just weird people with too much money so you've got to do this stuff and the day after he sent me another message it was text message saying you're in our club or what and i just wrote back yeah this thing used to take over a little bit and every ounce of my body every cell in my body went no it's like i knew what i was getting myself into but it didn't and I just felt a surge to go yeah this is I'm all for it and then I started getting taken to dinner parties wasn't always a ritual but the people I was there with were all involved in it and the very very familiar faces that were in these places the next one I went to was down south in Berkshire and it was my initiation basically and I walked in and I'd basically been booked by this couple they're in this house, they had a business and they wanted me to model some lingerie, stocking type of thing, my face wouldn't be in it just my lower body, I was like yeah great, so they invited me down and as I walked in I remember having this feeling of dread there was a fucking crow just stood next to my car as I got out of the car and it was squawking at me and I remember thinking that's an omen and I walks in and they were all over me making a big fuss of me like oh here you are you're all new to all this aren't you and I was like yeah yeah I'm new to all this and she just looked at me in the most weirdest way like she just stopped suddenly speaking and stared at me and went up what are you going to take it easy on your mum and I was like okay so we had dinner and at one point the fella who owns this house the fella of the couple stood up at the end of the table and he did a toast and at the end of the toast he put his champagne flute down and went like that walked around the table and everyone was doing it and I'm going what and I didn't finish right and stops, picks up, cheers everyone chin chin and just carries on and at one point they go right should we go to the drawing room i think it was the drawing room some back room big double doors big wooden double doors massive house and it's like a games room there's books in there there's you know fucking board games drinks and stuff like that so everyone sits down and it's like these red velvet sofas that lines it and it's like an oblong sheep so everyone sits down on these sofas and we get to drink and they were like right let's play some games and I'm thinking I play fucking checkers chess you know what I mean maybe this is part and parcel of it because I've been immersed in a world at this point where I'm not used to it it's nothing that I've ever been used to it's all very much luxury high society type of stuff and he gets this gold mat off the shelf this episode is brought to you by paypal You know how a mom's bag has everything?
33:03Sunscreen. Snacks. A stapler? The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money. Shop, pay, manage your account, and earn rewards all in one place. And with purchase protection on eligible items, biometric security, and pass keys, you're protected at every step. Download the new PayPal app to get started. See paypal.com slash protection terms. Brussels clean up nicely at Sweetgreen Maple glazed, roasted and edges perfectly caramelised Sweetgreen's fall harvest is back on the menu and the season's most overlooked little green vegetable is dressed to be devoured. You know what to do. Order on the Sweetgreen app And they're spinning this mat and whoever it lands on, this woman's asking like a mad question to them and it ends up landing on me and I panicked I don't know why but I just panicked and she looked me right in the eye and she went once upon a time you did something really really naughty didn't you what was it Molly and I was like um I mean the wishing it come true and she just burst out laughing and went yeah spun the star again and I'm thinking this is fucking weird where's this going and after a while a couple of people left and there was me this couple around the house and two other people that have met out the industry that knew the agent the agent wasn't there at that one and as i've walked into another room we've come out the games room we've been taken into another room there's a checkerboard marble floor and in the floor is a big massive what is actually it's not a pentagram it's called a unicastle hexagram you've heard of it yeah yeah so it's something the crowley uses yeah freemasons yeah and there's one of them and they start putting on these cloaks the fellas the women don't put one on and they all stand in a circle and he's lighting these candles they were on like three candelabras in three points around this hexagram and he goes round and he's saying words and he's touching people on the head as he goes round does it to me and then everyone takes hands and I'm stood next to the fella of the couple who's leading this ritual.
35:22And this girl next to me takes me hand, so I've got alls of her hand, but he doesn't take it. And he walks into the middle, takes a knife out of his pocket, and it was, I can still remember it like it was yesterday, it had a deer horn as its handle. And he takes the knife out, and he nicks her on, he starts on that side on the left of me, touches her finger with the knife, just so it bleeds a little bit, and goes through each person, until he comes to me. and he says step forwards so he steps forwards into the pentagram and he's looking at me and i can't quite see his face because he's put a veil over it and i'm thinking but i can see these eyes and his eyes have gone black he had blue eyes initially and his eyes were black as nice and i'm thinking is it the light is it this is it that and then he turns us back to me and he blows out a couple of the candles and as he does you can see a very very blatant shape of baton's head appear over the hexagram from what he'd done with the light.
36:22He turns around to me. He cuts me behind my ear. He takes the blood drip that's on the end of his knife and he pops it directly in the middle of the hexagram where basically the middle of Fatima's head shadow is. And then he walks back to the edge of the circle. We all hold hands again. Everyone's stripping with blood. And I'm like this. and everyone's just stood there like saying these fucking words and i'm like and i'm panicked i'm shaking like fucking lifting going what the fuck is this this is mad am i getting sacrificed is it like is this where it's going and then out of nowhere hoods off like nothing had happened throws them back on the shelf to win my workout would attire them for bed and they just left me in the room and i go around and i'm blabbing the candles out like that's a fire hazard and grabbing through motions because i was in shock and i goes to bed does the shoe for their brand a couple of weeks later and i don't see them again never again this couple the other people that were involved in that ritual seen them multiple times but this couple that was the only time i ever seen them i mean i could describe them for you and everyone want to know exactly who they are and i can't do that you know what i mean is that the grandmasters do you think do you think that's the the top not quite top so the initial fella that i've met in the first uh when i've gone to that after party when we were abroad off that first very high paid job he ended up as the leader the fella with the crocodile skin shoes he always had a briefcase to match he always wore the same shoes very very old fella late 60s early 70s red shoes they weren't they weren't red res but you know that type of mahogany brand that's got a red tinge so that type like patent leather shoes well you're not excited though especially if you're going down the levee route of the satanic church because he started the satanic church did you know that yeah why did you go to that route is that because of your mum and what you've seen with her i think so yeah i mean to be fair you find the most information from the likes of anton lebay and Alistair Crowley, they had the most, even the lesser book of Solomon.
38:31But again, I'd used all of these things and I took processes, magical processes from these books when I'd done these rituals and they'd never worked. So I was half convinced, like, maybe it's bullshit. Maybe they just made it up. But clearly I never, clearly there was something, a step that I must have missed out in the initial rituals that I must have done in the third one for it to have happened. What's in these books? What are these books saying? I've never read that I've seen some interviews with LeVay though Yeah But before he died it was very interesting his last words oh no what have I done that was his last words on his death Because these things like they persecute you it's very you know you've got them with you you know you're about to die and you know I've seen LeVay's wife and their connection with the daughter to Blontair Taylor Swift Taylor Swift I've seen her So LeVay's wife they're saying or maybe LeVay's wife's daughter they're saying they spit an image of Liffey and Taylor Swift I'll put the photo up so people can see their resemblance they'll look like twins Look, these people follow bloodlines and they keep these bloodlines strong for a reason and it's to keep everything hush hush So what are you thinking when you're reading these books what is it actually saying, is it believing in magic and obviously they say panic cult and all the signs we're talking about about now I've got a lot more from the Lesser Book of Solomon because not only does it provide the sigils the sigils that you need to conjure these to monarchs but it gives you the power to command them and that's why I like that book whereas the rest of them it seems very what's the words I thought it was fake a lot of the stuff that I was reading in other books and even then like I found much more information off very very lesser known websites on the internet than it did in Anton LaVey's books or you know researching and Crowley and stuff like that.
40:20But I think it was an excitement for me. I'd made the decision spare. I can't say it was spare at the moment because it wasn't. But I think I'd made the decision. And I think the whole time my logical brain's saying to me, as if that worked, you've just got lucky. You've just got lucky type of thing. And I think if I'd have really gone into it, I probably would have lost my mind. So I am glad that I didn't quite go, oh yeah, this is grace. Yeah but everything's a cult Every religion's a cult Where you ever look at it Like you say You've went down that route People whether you're Christian Muslim You're believing in something That's not real It's an imaginary friend Now you talk about Having imaginary friends There's no difference I'm more disrespecting religions No absolutely Because it's great to have a belief It's great to believe in something I think the brain depends It's a control Yeah who says they're real We just believe in it You believed in that At one time thought You know what I don't fucking like my life I'm suicidal I need an escape Yeah Pretty much yeah No look I disagree with religion Completely and utterly But magic itself Is very very real Yeah we've all got magic How weird born is magic in itself You know Like everybody's got the source To tap into But there's so much static So much porn Drugs Bad foods Bad waters I mean We're not really connected The way we should be connected The education system You know like People might not believe in magic But how we're here How the body works How the brain functions The central nerves The heart The liver The kidneys Yes So that's magic in itself The way women can carry a baby Is magic the way I've said it like everything is magic everything is sparing and I say this sort of stuff like have belief and have goals of writing it down because you're putting spells into the universe that's why it's called sparing now for the mindset but to go down that satanic kind of cult route that's a very dark route to go around but I'd imagine you were young naive hearing voices probably an outsider desperate I was desperate at the end I didn't care about me I was like so you would have been an easy target though because you're looking for answers so you would have been easily groomed and that's only the way from what I can see it but you would have been a target of we can give you this like if you're buying into the bullshit but you need to do X, Y and Z so what happens then when you start kind of doing the rituals and what are you thinking then?
42:30So this thing was possessing me at this point like I'll show you the pictures it's not me and my modelling pictures don't look nothing like me and it took over in certain ways shapes and forms and um the next ritual that i went to after that was more like a dinner party but i got my first envelope without the agent so it's the agent at that point that was sort of connecting me and taking me to these things but i received this first envelope and it come under a hotel door and it had this tiny little black star in the corner and it just had an address on it a date a time see you there and you know i went and to be fair it wasn't a massive ritual we were having a dinner party there was girls there and while i'd gone on my own the agent had turned up with a blonde girl and and he was all over and i was like they're obviously shagging you know what i mean and i got quite pally with this girl she was she was lovely and i was half convinced she'd done what I'd done to get into it.
43:35Because the way she spoke and the way she looked and I thought you can tell when someone's got other interference going on around them. And we asked this to in a party and she's left with the agent and every time I've seen her again, she was with this agent. So I just assumed they were probably for shagging, whatever. This episode is brought to you by PayPal. You know how a mom's bag has everything? Sunscreen? Snacks? A stapler? The new PayPal app is like that, but for your money. Shop, pay, manage your account, and earn rewards all in one place. And with purchase protection on eligible items, biometric security, and pass keys, you're protected at every step.
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45:28I'd noticed him with her and I'd say, oh, where are you scaring after here? Do you want to go for a drink? Or something I'd invited her somewhere and she was like, no, no, no, we've got plans. And she had this dead cheesy grin and he's looking at me and she's looking at me and I'm thinking, all right. And they go, I leave. And that girl's never being seen again. Anyway, no one in the industry knows where she's gone. she disappeared off social media nothing did i think so i think so and i think so because of this so this went on for i was in i was in this club for about a year two years from the start of the process to sort of getting out really and at one of the last rituals that i went to is where i lost me i lost all beer and i'm fucking reality and i shit myself and uh it was in france and i'd done done a shoot and stopped going to an after party it was a huge event they had like acrobatics on fucking fire breathers it was boss and later on in the night bear in mind i do i'm drinking but i'm not drunk type of thing don't take any drugs nothing like that and later on in the night they're bringing out these platters and i comes back into like the main wasn't a hole but like the main room where everyone was and there's a body on a table just like this in fact this is round about the same size that it was like an overweight fella's body cut open with everything hanging out it's all being decorated with grapes and leaves and flowers and but like what i think was a kidney was hanging out his tongue had been cut out and it was on someone's plate who was just eating it his eyes had been pulled out but like they were still on the stalky thing so they were just hanging and i remember looking at it and panicking i just had a panic attack and i started screaming and i was like what the fuck what the fuck that's their body that and some fella comes behind me that had known i'd seen him but had never spoke to him at these places and he goes you're making a scene calm yourself down it's just dark molly and i was like this is an art and like the fucking Scouse Bear came out of me and I'm like fuck I lost my fucking shit and I'm running down this hall looking for the toilets and this fella comes behind me again and he grabs me and he throws me in this room and this room's pitch black absolutely pitch black and he gives me a drink and it's this pink fizzy drink and I'm like no I don't want a drink I don't want a drink and he's going you're going to have to calm down you need to calm down you're ruining the night for everyone do you not understand you're making a scene and you're frightening other people it's just art it's not real it's not really fucking was real i know what artist and that was a dead body that they were eating and he's like drink the drink drink the drink drink the drink drinks the drink and it goes all funny despite it with something and i ends up having basically this supernatural experience where i'm out of my body i'm dancing with this old man that had met in the beginning and in this experience that I have half of his face is demonic half of his face is human and as I've come out of that vision I'm still screaming and he's like finish your drink finish drink and I can't speak properly I think they give me like a date rape drug or something similar something very like a sedative of some kind so I'm knocking this drink back because I'm like I need to get out of here I need to get out of here and he ends up hooking me two people walking me out they had a cab waiting for me but they took me through to we've come in a front door and i've gone out the back door and we've gone through a tunnel like an underground tunnel and we had to walk up about six steps and i remember tripping on the stone steps i've still got scars on my knees off it now and they've picked me up put me in this car and i've woke up in a hotel flew home and i remember going in and saying to my mom they were eating a human being she knew what i'd done i told her everything and she knew all of these things that i was involved in and all stuff like that sometimes she'd be like yeah this is great another time she turned around to say to me i think you've lost the plot molly and i'd be like how can you fucking say that you know what i mean like how and i'm explaining all this stuff to her and she was she just looked at me and went I think we need to speak to the mental health services and I went oh shit I need to be fucking quiet but I can't go back can't go into that again I've got myself in too deep and it was at that point I was I was in proper fights or flights and I was scared for my life at that point because I thought it'll be me on there or I'll end up like Blondie and just disappear you know what I mean and like I say there was loads of girls that you'd see as these rituals and particularly like that dark hair girl that that fella has on that table you know i'd seen him again at other points in time she's never with him and i'm thinking you've sacrificed her just like you sacrificed a fella on the table just like you sacrificed a fucking blonde girl and i'll be next because you know that i'm rattled by it all but one thing i do think as well in that in that place where that fella's on the table he's being sacrificed in a different ritual I think I was kept very much on the outskirts so they could sort of ease me in to see how I would react does that make sense?
51:02and I feel like I was touching my toe into it really I think there's a lot more that went on with them within groups and within higher ups I was clearly very very low on the ladder I've interviewed people who expose paedophiles and what they do is they get the kids to watch porn get it normalised get it normalised do you know to accept the madness yeah like you say it's dipping your toe into scene and that's only people may think it's dark that's fucking level one that's the starter do you know what I'm saying I'd imagine these people would be high up and very protected where they don't let people in very easily especially if you're having panic attacks that's it that's it and from that moment I started ignoring the invitations and for about I think it was about four months it was quite a while I was like I've gone out of it fine i've done it not enough for them and all right the invites will come and little emails will come the agent was ringing me and ringing me and ringing me to the point i just blocked his number sends my message and i'm not doing this anymore if i owe you any money let me know blocked them and i was like i can't i can't have nothing to do with it and then after about four months i started getting these mad emails basically detailing where i'd be in that day who i was with my kids names didn't have my daughter at the time just me two boys my kids names then it'd be like photo attachments there was one that had been took in a park in Muttendill at Reynolds Park and it's a small park James like there's houses around in it there's no way on earth someone could have took a picture without me noticing and on the picture my kids are like that you know just smiling obviously my conversation I've got me back to the camera well at my side and I'm thinking there's no way there's no way they couldn't have done that without me seeing it like what the fuck and at that point obviously didn't get any more work i couldn't do anything to do with it because i was scared then and i thought as well if i go to a job and they know that i've just ran away and i'm fucking no contact with them i'm just going to get off am i just going to get kidnapped trafficked fuck knows what's going to happen to me so i thought i'll try a bit of glamour i'll get out the fashion and get into glamour so we did some low-paid jobs like fucking personal stuff and like I said that was sort of paying me bills and then I ended up doing a competition like swimsuit competition and I managed to get through and I got around to the semi-finals and the emails were coming through again constantly and then another handwritten letter got delivered to my mum's and I remember passing it to me and I thought not enough it wasn't a white envelope it was a brown one so I just thought so whatever opens it and he's asked to see me at a restaurant in Chester.
53:41And I thought, if I don't go, what's going to happen? And it was a public place. It wasn't a ritual. It was midday. And I thought, well, I'll be all right. I'll be all right. And I set my home with me. And she was like, no. No, I'm crying. So we're ghosts. And like, there's people in the restaurant eating their dinner. They're right far back on a table. Again, these three fellas, the agent wasn't there, just these three men. Three old fucking men. the same three men yeah yeah and I walks over and they were like oh we have missed your presence and I was like shaking his hands gives me a kiss on the cheek and I sit down and he went to the water for ya and I thought ya can she gonna fucking poison me anyway it comes they got me like a caprice salad or something like that I took a picture of it still got a picture on my phone and I'm eating and they're just talking about basic stuff like normal stuff how businesses are going and this that and the other and at one point I picks the cocktail up and I spills it on myself and the fella with the shoes stands up and he went to make a scene in here and I went to that I just spilt my drink sorry like I'm just clumsy and I'm dabbing myself and then he reaches in his bag and he gives me an envelope and he went look I know what your plan is I'd be following you and I was like I know because to be fair I did notice people and they were always in suits always and they'd be in the ransomous places where you just wouldn't see someone like that cause following me they'd be for too long where you know you're watching that type of stuff and obviously with the pictures and the emails detailing what it's done When you've got a job to do Lowe's knows how to help you keep it moving Milo's Pro Rewards members save more with member volume discounts on eligible orders to a quote of$2 ,000 or more.
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57:22And he said, look, I've got one last request for you and I'll leave you to it. You'll never work in this industry again. I was like, sounds okay, fabulous. And he said, you've got to deliver that. And I was like, where to? And he went, take it with you to the next round of this competition. Didn't take the competition, just to take it with you to the next round. They will come to you. I was like okay and I goes a few weeks later does this competition it all ends and I'm thinking no one's come up to me for this envelope and I'm walking around with her in my handbag and it just looks like the one that I used to give me white envelope black star in the corner and as I'm walking outside I've gone out for a ciggy and I'm stood outside and obviously people are leaving with their families the girls and stuff like that and this woman taps me on the shoulder and she went, have you got a light, love?
58:08So we give her a lighter and she went, I think you've got something for me, haven't you? And I went, no. Takes my lighter and I walks off because I'm looking at the daughter who had just done this competition with Lincoln fucking no, no, no. She was a young girl. She was about 18. They're obviously very naive and I thought, I can't do this. I can't do this to you. So we didn't, and I put it in my bag and I walked off and it was in Manchester and I parked three miles away in some car park and I'm walking back to my car with my bags and I was in one of the little back streets what's it called? It's a spittle fields or spinning fields.
58:50I don't know Manchester. Somewhere, spittle fields or spinning fields there's a little side like alleyway thing that leads you to other streets and this woman's crying her eyes out, she's like 40 yards crying her eyes and she's like help me please help me and I was like you're all right buff like you're okay and she was like phone the police and I was like all right there's my phone she went no I can't ring them I can't ring them and I was like oh you're pissed or something like something's gone on me she's had to domestic and she was like I don't feel safe and I went to her do you want to walk with me she's like can you give me a lift and I was like can't give you the lift love now but I'll walk with you to wherever you're going and we're walking up the streets and she's just sobbing and I can't speak to her she won't say nothing to me she won't tell me what happens and she's just like I'm not safe I'm not safe I'm not safe anyway we get to like a crossing like a pelican crossing and I press the button and I'm waiting for the traffic to stop and she's facing behind me and her face goes white and she's just in shock and she just starts screaming and fucking likes it like into traffic down some road and disappears so I turned around and this fella's like crossed the road behind me come and stood behind me smart fella grey suit he has on grey hair must have been 50 odd and I just laughed and I went fucking hell what have you done to me just making conversation and he went to don't know give me the envelope and I went what he went give me the envelope and then he said Molly give me the envelope and I'm stood there like that don't know what to say he just hit me back gives him the envelope get in my car, drive to him and that was the start of the proper stalking getting down off the road I was left alone for about 8 weeks 3 months, maybe even 4 months it was quite a while and I remember going to do an event, I think it was someone's birthday party, one of the girls advised me to stand in Essex and my idea was I'm going to drive down there because I don't drink go for the party, stay for a couple of hours and I'll drive back, same night and so it goes and it does and does this event not run towards and I'm in the car driving back and it's like early hours of the morning it's not a car on the road and this Mazda just appears behind me and I'm thinking that's weird to just sit behind me in the middle lane I'm obviously in the inside lane and I'm thinking terrible drive, terrible middle lane as I'm driving along and next minute he pulls next to me and then tries to swerve into me to the point where I've had to put my car on the other shoulder into a load of stones and I was like whoa what the fuck and he speeds off and I can see the Mazda sign at the back of his car and I'm thinking oh fucking F1 and Jeff knew he fucking bellends for that but that should nearly fucking killed me but I was quite panicked from it and I think fuck it I'll stop at the services so he stops at the services goes into a Starbucks gets a coffee and as I'm walking out I walks into someone and like a motorcycle rides a fella all in letters and my coffee went all over him and I've gone oh god I'm dead sorry I'm dead sorry I'm dead sorry and he was like oh don't worry about it but his accent was mad it was like South African or something he wasn't he was not English but it wasn't an accent the way I could go yeah I don't know what that is it was mad anyway get back in my car I didn't go back for another coffee I just got in the car and just carry it on.
1:02:18And as I turns my engine on, he walks in front of my car, just fell in those leathers and puts another Starbucks cup on my bonnet. And I was like, oh, thank you. I'm so sorry you threw that at you. It's a good job you had your leathers on and blah, blah, blah. And he didn't say a word. He has his helmet on all the time. And I was like, so I get out the car, takes the coffee, gets in. And I noticed my stomach had started swelling up a little bit. And I'm thinking, not you want. I'm saying, what's going on? and I'm drinking this coffee and I'm driving on the motorway and I get about halfway through this coffee and I feel woozy and I knew that feeling and I was like, it's poisoned.
1:02:55I know it's fucking poisoned. So I pulls over into the yard shoulder and I'm like trying to get myself together, but I can't stop. I'm like, I've got to get home. I've got to get home to my kids and blah, blah, blah. I can't fucking just pass out on the sides of the road. And I started driving again. Ended up taking a turn off the M6 somewhere and it took me through like Derbyshire I think it was on these back roads that was just surrounded by marshes and there's a fucking motorbike in front of me and I'm thinking that's a fella that's fucking poisoning me so I've stopped my car in the middle of these fields in the middle of nowhere like it's a single track road over these little mini bridges over these weird streams and I get out the car and I'm like trying to get a fresh air because I can't breathe properly I can't see properly I feel like I'm going to pass out and as I do I get out the car and I have this vision of this demonic that I knew that was with me basically killing me at the wheel like smacking my face off the wheel and then my car going off a cliff and all like mad shit like that so I get back in the car and I'm like oh my fucking god having a breakdown drives home again and I manage to get as far as the M62 and it was not far past Ikea when a motorbike comes round me does the exact same thing that that Mazda did but this time I've gone into the barrier on the edge and all my tyres were flat couldn't drive away could do nothing so I stopped my car I'm looking at it and I ended up ringing someone that I knew some lads said look I've had a bit of an accident but all my tyres have popped I can't drive and he was like don't worry I'll be there I'll be there and an hour or two later he pulls up and he went Molly you've got a black eye and I'm like looking in the mirror in the car I'm like fucking hell I have as well and it was like massive all the way down there and I'm thinking and he went did you bang your ass and I went no I said don't get me wrong I've hit the barrier a little bit I said but it's just all the outside of my tyres even like the car doors weren't scraped or anything and the tyres had just been fucked and I was like how did you get that and I was like I don't know but obviously it's from whatever's happened during that vision that I've had at the Monarch too and that in me has created something within the body and I get back to Liverpool and by the time I got back to Liverpool my stomach was out here and I felt really really poorly I was pouring with sweat, absolutely like dying.
1:05:10And I walked through the front door and my mum had just got up with the kids and it must be about five, six o 'clock in the morning. She went, you need to go to hospital. You do not look well. What happens? And when I see my stomach was out there, it was huge. So we go to the Royal. And they've got me in there. And they're asking me questions. Why are you in so much pain? I passed out on the A &E floor, like literally couldn't get up. and I was like I don't know but my stomach's here and I couldn't stand up straight couldn't lean over properly it wasn't good my whole body was in agony I'd gone white again pouring with sweat and they're asking me all these mad questions and they were like I think you're constipated and I was like I'm not fucking constipated my stomach wouldn't be that big and if it was that big I'd be fucking vomiting shit wouldn't I and I got pissed off at Dominions because I was thinking I know something else was going on so I ended up discharging myself because they were just trying to give me laxatives.
1:06:05So, I did. I went home and over the next week I got sicker and sicker and sicker to the point where I couldn't get out of bed. I couldn't wake up. My mum would wake me up by shaking me and I'd like crawl down the stairs and I'd be asleep on the couch. I'd literally sit on the couch and pass out again. And she ended up ringing an ambulance at one point because I stopped breathing. And they took me into Wiston this time. And again, they said the same thing. They took me for a scan and they said, nothing's shown up on your scan. We think you're all constant but it's not that bad so we can't understand why stomach's swelling and they did some blood tests and as they were drawing blood out my arm my blood was clear and they were like what's going on wrangled kinds of consultants i ended up passing out again and when i woke up i was on a wars and the consultant was at the end of my bed and he was like you are really really sick you've got no iron in your blood you've got no proper blood cells in there we don't know how you can breathe because there's nothing carrying the oxygen around your body we don't know how you're here they've given me a blood transfusion in the night so i was feeling a lot better when i woke up my stomach had gone down quite a lot and i started saying about the stomach and i was going well what's this swelling what is this swelling and they were like i don't know i don't know i don't know and after a couple of days i'd had two blood transfusions after 24 hours after each one my blood had gone back to baseline it's gone clear again so something was using up these products and they were gobsmacked they were like we don't know what the fuck's going on and i was in there for two weeks and they were trying all different things with me and it was working for a while and then I'd end up sick again and then at one point they got me well enough with they discharged me and I was coming into like an ambulatory clinic they called it and for whatever reason something else happened with my stomach it just wasn't right thing I was just in agony and stuff back in the royal A &E and they'd done a blood test and the blood was back clear again and I was like this happens and they're looking at my nose and they're like fucking hell yeah we can't understand what this is we've never seen this and I was like I'm thinking this is this fucking demonic drain in my body obviously I didn't know in what ways then and they end up keeping me in and for whatever reason some one of the nurses came and she was being a cunt to me an absolute cunt she was trying to give me antibiotics I had an infection and even antibiotics that I was allergic to and I kept saying so I'm allergic to them I'm just going to vomit them up you're going to make me sick I'm not taking them and she threw a file at me And it was my file.
1:08:31And when I'd gone through the file, there was no medical note of everything that had gone on, the blood transfusions, the iron infusions they'd give me. And I'm thinking, ah. And then, like, the old sister had come round and said, what are you doing with that file? And I kicked off her and went, your nurse has just threw that at me because I refused to take metronidol because I'm allergic to it. And she went, you shouldn't have access to them. And I was like, oh, OK. And it made me feel that uncomfortable that I discharged myself of still ill. and I'd gone back in for an iron infusion my GP had sent me for another iron infusion and I'm sat there, she's fixing the drip in my arm and it's a nurse I'd never seen before in my life with dark hair she was a lovely, lovely person and she just crouched down in front of me and she went Molly we can't help you any, you need to find a natural healer and I'm thinking you don't know nothing about me you don't know my story, you don't know how many times I've been in a lot of these hospitals on death's door and I thought maybe there's some truth maybe she knows something that I don't and I had that iron transfusion walked out the hospital and I started contacting people online exorcists healers hit what are they called naturopaths acupuncturists all kinds of people and I went to see all kinds of different people shamans all types of natural healers and every single one of them were like yeah yeah yeah yeah I can help you and I was dead open with what I've done I can help you we can do this we can do that took thousands of pounds off me and I was still sick I was getting sicker and sicker I still had this demonic with me to the point now where I couldn't think straight because it was telling me to do things it was controlling me as well like there was a time when I was driving I had the kids in the car and we were going to there's a water park in south port and I'm driving down the formby bypass and my hand just starts shaking on the wheel as if like I'm going to crash my own car here and I threw my foot on the brake and my hands are still moving on the wheel it was the maddest scenario and I was under possession and it was trying to make me kill myself while I had my kids in the car so to cut a long story short I've gone to see all these people and I'm not getting any better till I found a fella in crew and it was a really really old man and he was a natural part of herbalist and an acupuncturist and I remember ringing him and he was dead expensive it was like nearly 200 pound for your first consultation and I was skint at this point and I was like, I'll have to do it, books in and drives up to Crewe and as he goes to walk in the back door of his house where he had his clinic he looked above me and he went, you've brought a friend with you, you know and I thought, oh my god, he can see it he can actually see this, the monarch that I've got attached to me and I started laughing and I thought it was dead funny and I was like, I know how I knew you I sold my soul to the devil once upon a time and I've got this thing with me now that's killing me and he just looked at me and went, why are you laughing?
1:11:18and I was like and I'm explaining to him look I've been in a bar of hospital I've done this I've done that nothing's working I can't get rid of it I'm being chased by this club I'm being stalked and he was like I know someone that can help you I mean he did a rife machine on me he gave me all kinds of herbal supplements and stuff like that and acupuncture treatments rife treatments but what he actually put me in touch with was an accountant in London who knew about all this stuff. And I remember him ringing him in his office and this Irish fella answers the phone. And the way he spoke, I was thinking, you should have him be on.
1:11:59You should just, you should another pair of fucking groomers. You know what I mean? And he goes, so what's the matter, Molly? What can I help you with? And I was like, sold me sold to the devil. It's killing me. I've got out of the club, so I'm not upholding my part of the bargain and I'm going to die. And he went, yeah, you are. And I was like, so can you help me? and he went yeah give me a minute and he steps away from the phone and he starts toning do you know what toning is? what's hanging making noises? yeah basically yeah this really high pitched noise and after about 10 minutes I'm laughing I think it's fucking hysterical like I've never heard someone do it in my life and I'm looking at the healer and I'm giving us that fucking normal as he writes it and he is and he's like trust him, trust him comes back on the phone and he was like look I can get rid of your demonic but I can't get rid of your contract you've got to do that and I was like how?
1:12:45and he's like you'll be shown the way if you've made that decision to not go back they'll show you if you're meant to have it back and i was like so i'm stuck with it he's a fraudulently pretending to heal me yet again fucking accountant on the phone from london is removed his eamon and he was like yeah yeah yeah yeah so for about six months nothing happens obviously i'm getting emails and stuff like that emails that it come from would look like um it's like a russian language it was like letters numbers at like this mad email address but you couldn't send anything back to it it'd never be delivered that type of stuff still getting letters and stuff and pictures in the post hand delivers of course never through the fucking postal services and um i'd sat and i'd sat as a wannabe train as a blood nurse because i wanted to find out what had gone on got wrong with my blood there's definitely some truth in them adrenochrome theories if you had them.
1:13:42Yeah, there is some truth in it because that is the only thing that kept me alive. And now I decided I'm retiring. What kept you alive? Adrenichrome? Blood products. So they were giving me blood transfusion after blood transfusion. That was making me better for about 24 hours. Yeah, clean blood. Yeah. And then the blood would go clear again. And I couldn't reproduce my own blood anymore. White blood cells? White blood cells, red blood cells, ferritin. I had no iron. I shouldn't have been alive. Basically, is what they were saying to me. We don't even know how you're here talking to us. Just doesn't happen.
1:14:16You'd never seen her. And so, yeah, I decided I'm going to retrain as a blood nurse and I'm sat in my kitchen and I'd paid for this course to go and do it in Rodney Street. And my mum's talking to me. She's doing something in the kitchen fucking about, pissed. And I started having this vision of fucking Jesus with me. Now, I've been brought up very Catholic. I've always refuted religion. I don't agree with her. Never have. Went to a Catholic school run by nuns and everything. So the idea of Jesus to me was alien. And I was like, oh, we are. Here we go. Here's fucking Mad Molly coming back. But he comes towards me.
1:14:55He looks not unlike his depictions. He looks similar with his Jesus sandals. But that's the only really common thing that we can see in the depictions of him today. With this big cartoon fucking hair to look like a brat still. And he comes towards me and he puts his arms around me. And he went, your soul's yours, you know. And I was like, what the fuck? And I'm crying. I'm sat on a stool at the breakfast bar crying my eyes out of my umstead. And I'm talking to Jesus. And yeah, he puts his arms around me, says that, and he says, they're not on with you, but you're going to be all right, but you've got to pick your magic back up.
1:15:31And I'm thinking, I'm not here with magic again. And he starts sharing my pentagrams. And I'm thinking, I'm definitely not here with that again. and I have this big emotional experience and I'm like I've just had a vision of Jesus and she just looked at me as if like fucking hell you think I've lost the plot? you has and I'm thinking to myself no this is mad but it felt that emotional it felt that real there was no way I could deny it especially for someone like me I was a Muslim for a bit and everything the idea of Jesus just did not gel with me but after that experience I was like nah he's fucking king Jesus is king like if anything's real it's got to be Christ or the Christ consciousness you know I don't believe Jesus is a God I just believe Jesus was a human that came down here showed us how to live and then went back to fucking heaven where we all returned to at one point were you taking any tablets or anything?
1:16:26nothing weed? nothing? nothing did you do any mushrooms? ayahuasca? cambo? do you know I don't agree with plant medicines I don't think people should use them than I thought the worst. If we were supposed to have them, we would. We have mushrooms. Just use your native plants. I disagree with them. The only thing I've ever tried was CMT and that was three years ago. So that's recent. I'm one of them people. If I'm going to get high, I have to be in control of it so I won't take psychedelics because they frighten me. I was on nothing. I was sober as a fucking judge. And it came to me like that. Did you ever get psychiatric reports or anything or doctors trying to send you to?
1:17:02No. I was clever, me. I can't go to someone and go I'm hearing voices and what you have to remember as well growing up in my family my mum was diagnosed with bipolar my auntie had been diagnosed with all kinds of stuff everyone in our family had mental health problems they were all drug addicts so growing up I knew exactly what I weren't going to do and I knew as well while they used to say things to probably get like fucking sick pay and stuff like that the things that they used to say I remember thinking to myself at least I know not to say things like that I mean when I was a kid I think my mum had got me a psychiatric report at one point because I was seeing things all the time and just talking to things and even they came back and was like it's just normal kid stuff she's just got a vivid imagination type of thing but nothing was never under anything and even now like I see people who clearly come to me and they're like I've got a demon I need an exorcism and it's not they just need psychiatric help and I always direct and mental health services.
1:18:00But I think with me, I knew I weren't mad because I'd entered into this, I'd had all of these experiences, attended all of these things, got the work, got the money. I mean, I probably should have lost the plot when I came out of it, but I'm very strong-minded. I think everything that I went through as a kid... That's been a very thin line, though, from being psychotic to hearing voices to seeing people to maybe, maybe it's true that they're saying you know like like i say religion and that is no different from having an imaginary friend whether it's jesus or whoever it is like it's so it must be a very thin line to sign someone off as crazy to actually go wait a minute maybe we should listen to them imagine everything you're saying is legit and i'm not disputing that but imagine people who are in the psychiatric words who are seeing people oh yeah voices imagine they were actually saying and what they were saying is legit, but yet we just sign them off, not kiss.
1:18:58So it's easier. Don't forget, it was only a couple of years ago they came out with this demon face syndrome. What's that? Did you hear about that? No. It's where people have started seeing people's face changes into demons, basically. And it's a medical condition. Reptilians? Some people say they see a reptilian face, but they call it demon face syndrome or something like that. So that's an actual thing? Yeah, yeah, that's a legitimate condition. Do I think people's brains are just showing them demonic faces or reptilian faces? No, I don't. I think they're actually seeing demons on people. Yeah, did you ever see the women on the airplane with seeing that guy back there who's not real?
1:19:40Yes, yeah. But you'll see the videos, and again, I don't know if it's AI or if it's been manipulated, but you see their eyes twitching and changing, whether that's presidents and the queen. Like I said, I don't know. I wasn't there. I've never seen it with my own eyes but when you see those videos you go it fucking looks creepy you see their face kind of changing you've seen it with Elvis reptilians are frightening you can see the videos on internet you can watch them yourself and make your own or something oh yeah it is hard to believe if you've not seen it with your own eyes it is it is and I get that I do understand that there's a lot of people that have never had these types of experiences but there's a lot more people who have you know what I mean like the amount of people that have sent me messages going that's happened to make that happen all right none of them have ever been in a psych satanic club but they've all had these experiences they've all seen these things they've heard them they've had activity in the houses that type of stuff you never never had nothing no site supernatural experiences ever i smoked a lot of weed i took a lot of coke you know so there's a lot of times i was just tripping balls but i'm very in tune now obviously disconnecting from a lot of the negatives it's opened the doors for the positives so I'm very aware and I'm very open minded to your story, whoever's story whether people believe in shapeshifters shapeshifters are very real I don't know, unless I see it with one eye I'm always kind of on the fence with it but I never shoot down anybody's story because I don't know, I've done ayahuasca What did you see on ayahuasca?
1:21:10Hell, I was in hell where flames fire but I was trotting balls man for me it's another form of an escape all the answers are within when you start tapping into mushrooms ayahuasca and it's listen it was a great experience i met some great fucking people but a lot of these people now the thing about life we're all looking for guidance yeah all human beings want to be guided that's why they look at politics and prime minister look for their leaders to be guided we are all sheep majority of people the same as everybody's want answers towards life you know and i think a lot of these people are fucking creepy now because it's becoming so popularized it's becoming trendy and people follow trends people have ukraine flags up they'll have this like we follow sort of trends and i think there's a lot of these people manipulating energy like the sexual energy so a lot of these healers are becoming more creepier because these people are looking at them as gods you see these mormons in america and other people when they join these kilts and these people think they're gods and jesus's i just think a lot of people can there's a lot of great healers out there as well there's a lot of beautiful people i know you're not against reiki i believe in reiki i know a great woman um lorna mcclain who does reiki great women everything is energy and whether you gravitate towards something and it works for them by all means if you're not harming anyone i'm open to it but we're living in a day and age where everything's divide everybody's confused and we're looking to these spiritual healers as the answers and the majority of these people are nowhere fucking healed himself but it's like a deflection tactic but then to expect someone a human being to be fully healed is a very very high expectation it's never it's impossible especially in today's day and age we're not growing up in fields we're not on our own little tribe where it's family and friends and nature and on water and growing your own crops everything's toxic that's why I talk about static so it's hard to get answers that's why I've never really done therapy I've dipped my toe and I think you don't fucking know maybe that's just my ego thinking I can fix myself but I have but you can fix yourself yeah I have of course you can but a lot of people go to therapy and there's two guys who created therapy the one guy wanted the money for people to talk about their past experiences because he knows it'll be constant income coming back coming back facing it another guy was all about the present moment and the future but the majority of people went for the guy digging up the trauma because they feel as if they're facing it and it's a great thing to face trauma and hear that but you can't keep repeating it because it used to be a firm yeah you're fucking nuts and like I say we're all nuts pure crackers and crackers death crackers fucking everyone's mental I already said this to someone you'll decide people look at people it doesn't matter I'm professional I'm well put together they're all fucked up we're all struggling some people hide it better than others well yeah so when you're going through that process hospitals blood trying to get away from this cult what's happening then so at that point you had this account was he an accountant or was that his name he was an accountant I can't name him yeah but so he was an accountant just working a legit job because I'd imagine that side that job wouldn't be as busy you know maybe the odd phone call every other day it's not a steady income where there's phone calls every other this is it and I think a lot of people as well are not as open about it as I am you know Michael I'm an exorcist I'm a healer I do this I do that a lot of people don't want other people to know that they one believe in that sort of stuff or do that sort of stuff neither because of the reaction that you get you get judged by a lot of people a lot of people look at me and go she's around the fucking bends but then i think i'm one of the most normal spiritual people there is there's no fucking bells and whistles there's no woo-woo shit i'm not wearing tie-dye you know what i mean i'm just being me and doing what i can do what i was shown to do but i had so i asked this vision and from that moment i had to dream i was in hell and i was and i had to face this demonic and it was that fella i don't believe for one minute that that fella with the shoes was human i don't care what anyone says he can't have been not with the amount of experience that i had not with the amount of visions that i had with him changing and i ends up in this dream i'm in hell fucking running and running and running away from something and in the end i turn around and i faces it and it's this fella and her skin comes off and it looks like this demonic that i'd done the pact with and i walks towards it and I walk through it and that's when I stopped hearing it and that's clearly when I've faced up to something that I've done and for whatever reason it ends up nulling and voiding the contract that I've made with that realm.
1:25:45Do I think they'll just leave me be? No I still get all kinds of comebacks off it now not just from the club and to be fair until this morning when I showed you that message that they've sent me it's been about 18 months two years since I've from them but again there's always like without phone calls at silly hours of the morning there's always random emails and stuff like that not threatening me not saying anything not identify it but you just know that they're still creating a presence and from that moment on i start picking my magic up again because when i stopped hearing this demonic i started hearing the actual spiritual realm started hearing my spirit guides again stuff like that you talk about magic black magic white magic i'm talking about white magic so it's obviously you're not doing bad magic because there is a lot of powers there you're going to like africas and voodoo and there's a lot of dark stuff people might not understand it but again do your own research and whether people believes in it or not but there is people can put spells on people it's all intention if someone about the elites i'm talking about the people who control the world where they've got these people who can then put spells really people believe i don't even dirty big fashion houses have shamans on their payroll look at the photos and the videos that they were doing with kids and demonic stuff you know even the Beatles and I don't want all the Beatles fans to come after me here but if you look at the Beatles album or the photo when they had dead babies what the fuck has that got to do with music exactly Pink Floyd sing about all this stuff as well and you all see them covering the eye we all know those tactics now and just kind of promoting their own their own brand but to get to this elite level and to get to these clubs or those different levels you're either born into it and you're part of the bloodline or you can be recruited or you're recruited you know there's a high witch in Hollywood that's very open about what she does we see her in the pictures with A$AP Rocky and stuff like that she's very demonic looking that old woman with the black hair and the white face who runs the kind of but then you look at they say he was a wizard yeah he was and he looked like a fucking wizard but he was very demonic looking and it's mad how he flew under the radar.
1:27:54We've all got senses. He's a creepy bastard. Sometimes you do get it wrong, but it's just those little tints in the glasses and the creepy face. When you see these paedophile hunters, they do look non-say some of those, but there's higher up ones fly under the radar who wear this sort, so you would never judge. But like I say, with the Jimmy Savills and he was in with the Royals and how he flew under the radar is still beyond name. He didn't. But for the majority of the population who used to write to him every day, he had keys to morgues, he had keys to Broadmoor. The stories about fucking dead bodies and this all, like you say, dead bodies on the table.
1:28:35This is all part of their club. This is it. This is a satanic cult. This is what they do. This is what they believe in. And it's right to everyone's nose as well. It's right here. It's here in Liverpool. It was only last year. Two women also went. You know what I mean? what about the girl in Dubai Blonte woke up broken legs, broken back yep, exactly it's all over the place and it's just a thrill seeking thing, whether it's listen, everybody's got kinks or whatever I think a lot of them have to go through certain experiences that can be used to blackmail them as well though, just in case of course, Epstein diddy, what they're doing is putting people in compromised positions so if you're going to these parties and thinking yep this is good I'm making money before you notice an orgy over there camera listen why are you leaving you've just been fucking five guys here you can't leave and I'm putting this all over social media well wait a minute did you know she's underage maybe girls that are there as prostitutes well not prostitutes but you know what I'm saying girls who are there working 17 yeah wait a minute you've just slept with that girl in America do you know she's underage I've got you for life yeah pretty much you're my bitch now yeah and how is Epstein files not being released how has he not got a client list now but yet Glenn Maxwell's doing 20 years in prison hasn't she just offered to reveal it and everything, he has committed to his island and he's walking back on his island doing what he was doing in the first place Elon Musk though just put a tweet out a few weeks ago about Donald Trump that says he was on the list and now it's a case of Epstein's not got a list, so it is creepy what is covered up but like I say, it's all in your face you're a very, start at 11 or different levels I've interviewed men who've exposed Scientology and all the different levels it has.
1:30:18Everything's levels. And to get it... And like I say, not all Freemasons are bad. There's certain ones... Depends how fucking high up you are. It's not a case of the local community where there's a Freemason and somebody works for the council or somebody's maybe a fireman and opening doors. They do fantastic stuff for communities and stuff, you know, to keep that lovely little facade for the normal average-sized people. And the higher up you get, the more satanic it gets. I think that's like any level. Even Scientology, they use Crowley and Anthony some of their stuff as well but he says level 28 was the last one and it was basically satanic that's what it was all about the devil so they were going through Scientology and it's all about brainwashing it's all about manipulation tactics it's all about anybody can be brainwashed if we're a professional in here than now they can do certain techniques I think we're all already brainwashed what you have to remember is we go through the education system we go through so much conditioning that stops us being independent and thinkers no one knows how to codgetize anymore no one knows how to think for themselves it's again like that the sheep it's the right side of the brain it's free thinking it's a creativity and individuality but again yeah we're always getting told what to do we can't even fucking go to the toilet in school without asking permission so you're being programmed then to always ask what to do to always you're not being free thinker to figure it out for yourself yeah and that's where the control comes in sent to the desk and a few other women who was NHS whistleblower and she was just saying how backwards it is shame of life yeah fucking amazing you know what I'm saying that's what I'm all about it's just it's not to scare people just waking up what is certain things that you're putting into your kids what is certain things you're putting into your why are you giving birth on your back why are you cutting the umbilical cord get into these things exactly it's important they're offshad yeah and I'm not a fucking scientist I'm not giving you medical advice because it's not people are bad they're uneducated because they're believing in the system they're believing in the NHS, they're believing in the doctors.
1:32:15This is it. Wait a minute, you're not well, take these tablets. I don't really give a fuck if you die taking these tablets because I'm still getting paid so you need to be careful. Even your doctors have to sign a thing that basically says they'll do as they're told and they won't deviate from the textbooks they were taught and the standards that they're taught. Like it's everything is a cult in one way or another. The society that shapes us now is the most satanic to monarch horrific thing that there is. How did you get out When did you start becoming clear when you started getting back into magic?
1:32:47After I had that first year of my G's I was petrified to do magic so I didn't for a good few months. And I slowly started reading cards again and stuff like that. And I knew I had to do a pentagram and I had some girl come to me that I'd met while I was a board nurse. And she had a really serious illness. She was dying and I could still see this thing when I could always see them from that point moving forward. I didn't hear them but I could see them. and she was quite spiritual obviously she's got she's at she's near an end of life I think you do go a bit spiritual in any way and she was like I know that there's something attached to me can you try and help me and I'd explain everything that I'd gone through we were messaging on Facebook and she went will you see if you can remove it and I was like look I've been showing magic but I don't know whether I can do that and we just did it at the moment and I was like yeah come round and we'll have a cup of tea and I'll fucking exorcise your demons queen and she came round and it worked and I was like what I can fucking do this and I remember doing I was doing a healing on her so I can see auric fields yours is green and I'm doing like a hands on healing with her and it picks up this thing in her auric fields it's what I know now is a cancer marker so you can see certain illnesses within the auric fields on people before your doctors are likely to pick it up and i was like i don't know what i'm saying i mean she passed away before i understood what i'd seen god love her but um from that moment on i was like if i can do this i will help people and then i think i started trying to share a little bit of my story online it's always been i set up a little business doing tarot readings anyway that's how i sort of started getting back into this bit this side of life and um i started sharing a bit of my story on Instagram I was getting shadow bans none of my videos would be seen they'd be deleters all kinds of stuff and then it just snowballs from there more and more people have sort of heard my story or have come to me for various things and I've told them what I can do and they've wears them out go to Molly she'll sort you out and since then I've been living on the light side of life How's that feel?
1:34:59I feel lucky I feel grateful to be fair you know I was never a bad person in the beginning and I've always been a very, very... Nobody is. No, they're not. You're right. But, you know, to get into what I got into, I didn't do it. I was a creep. I didn't do it. Oh, I just want loads of money. It was because I wanted to give my kids, you know, a lovely life and I wanted to support my mum so she, you know, has all the drugs she wants us type of thing. And I think that's the only reason why I managed to, one, null and void the sole contract because I do think a lot of people go into this knowing what they're getting into.
1:35:37and I didn't quite know and I think that naivety that I had to me has probably been receiving grace for getting out of it but it feels good But that's why you see all these superstars breaking down You look at your Elvis, your Michael Jackson Elvis was a nonce anyway but you look at Michael Jackson Elvis kind of Whitney Houston Justin Bieber like it's not real, having an idol is not real, if you look at the word idol anyway it's not a good thing to idolise someone so when you kind of all these people on the casting couch and opening their legs male and female by the way and then what happens is they get to these certain heights and they realise what they've done to get to these heights their mental health breaks down because they have sold out they have sold their soul protect yourself no matter what's getting offered I rejected TV work because I thought nah I didn't say I was going to say a fuck off but I didn't I was very polite not bad rejected their kind of work and yeah over the last kind of 12 months mad shit's been happening but I just wanted to be freelance and interview who I want when I want because when the big offer comes in it was a case of where this say this you can only interview this and you're talking about the A-listers you're talking about the biggest celebrities on the planet and the doors that I would have opened and because of the kind of personality I am it's not hard for me to meet people it's not hard for me to build friendships and build rapport with people and build connections but I thought nah I'll stick to what I'm doing but the last 12 months have been kind of mad you know and I think is that because I've rejected their contract it will be you'll always get a knockback you'll always get some kind of come back off these people whenever they reach out to you every single time because at the end of the day they want you and it yeah you'll do great work for them you'll probably do fantastic interviews for them but they will want something on you and they will put you in a position to get something they can blackmail you with so that once you're in there you're not getting out Yeah And that's how people don't get out Look at Diddy He got already all his charges And I don't know Listen if he's having orgies And parties I'm not asked If people feel like drugs It's if you're fucking about with kids If you're drugging people That's a different story That's bad You know what I'm saying If you're having parties And every cunt's enjoying himself Free will Yeah absolutely It's a nice day fuck Absolutely It happens every fucking Nearly every door He doesn't have to be a celeb To be doing that I know do you know what I mean But to be getting away With all his charges And could he be Someone who's been Thrown under the bus I don't think so I think he is very dark I think I think when you have that much money you get a bit bored because you can do anything you want too much power I interviewed a man as well he was a mayor escort back in the day but he was doing it for the he was what?
1:38:13a mayor escort right he was doing it to a level he used to just go and massage this old woman at this castle and he says oh my friends would like it but then all of a sudden he'd get far in and then what happens is there was like masquerade balls they all had the masks on they would go into different rooms that one in France was and there were like a hundred of them in a room fit maybe a bit far fetched 50 and they're all just fucking each other it was dark and he says that's what it was like but then what happens is they just kind of bond him out once he got a bit older boom done they just kind of used him well yeah and they're no use to them then after men's a fucking z but he says these old women in their 60s and 70s all still look great looked after themselves but it was all about power the women just manipulated and controlled just as much as the men yeah absolutely i can imagine everything's power though everyone wants power over someone even fucking elder people walking down the street there that's what we're designed it's what we're conditioned to believe is to be all and end all how much money you've got how much power you've got what are you doing with it this whole fucking society keeping up with the joneses by the leadership do this do that it's all a way to keep us focused on things that we we shouldn't really be focused on they can do what they want with their subliminal messaging the propaganda the fucking weird messages the and other people like even now you see them one in two people are going to get cancer now they're not they're going to if you start making them fucking believe it and it's all we're all indoctrinators if a doctor tells you you've got cancer do you know your immune system drops 70 % instantly just for those words alone absolutely so like you say if you keep hearing that you're going to keep eventually repeating it but then again I don't know if all the vaccines and all the shit that they're putting water and foods maybe that is their plan to just half the population but the way things are going it is scary how many levels do you think there was to this cult that you joined do you believe there's many only about four yeah max maximum but again I think where I was obviously that's where they're initiating people in bringing people in but I think when you get to say a level above me I think that's where they're trafficking people kids and women across wherever they're using them tunnels as well this is what all these people go missing in the middle of cities there's no CCTV despite the fact there's a camera on every fucking corner but we never see these people they disappear without a trace and they're gone forever because they're taking them underground and trafficking on that way I interviewed a copper in New York and he says the biggest nights where people go missing is Halloween and New Year's Eve really?
1:40:48when everyone's out and about to and what they wanted to he says that's when they came out Halloween and New Year's Eve that's when people go missing never to be seen again. That's the two hot spots from trafficking and people disappearing. I wonder why. Yeah. I mean, if you look at the numerology, the day will be a four. It's a, it's a day. I'll look into that. Yeah. See what that is. That's what I'm saying. I was telling you the podcast. Yeah. Mike, he was in NYPD and he was just saying, I said, because he was interviewing a biker and there was a young kid who went missing from New York and the biker says it's me who was involved in the disappearance and he was speaking to this man but when this man walked in there was like a cold presence there was like a cold energy and he obviously got to know this man it's fucking a weird story so he walked in and says I've done this yes he wanted to speak to someone because he was exposing the church because he ended up, the biker ended up he ended up turning to God or whatever and he says they were in this church and they took this young boy off the street it's Halloween and it's one of the biggest like kind of Madeleine McCann but set to an America yeah and that's what it says the hot spots were Halloween and New Year's Eve where they just took people off the streets and never to be seen again I think it's a lot worse over in America that fucking country scares me it really does I think it's a lot worse doesn't it but there's underground tunnels in London as well there's a really literally here under the hotel for you can get from one half of the city to the other side and there's things that we're not going to know about let's be honest so who do you think operates the world I don't think they're human I think they're working with forces so a lot of people will say oh the Jews run every Zionists, let's not be anti-smittic the Zionists there's something that they're worshipping there's something that they're working with in order to have power here on earth because really whether you believe in God or the universe or whatever it has got to be a balance light doesn't exist without dark evil doesn't exist without good and there's got to be some kind of thing that's giving them that power.
1:42:57So it can't be human. So it's either an alien, probably across the reptilians, and that's probably why we see a lot of reptilian people high up in your royal family, not your politicians, I think they're quite low down. Really. I think as you get higher, it's people that you don't know. At all. Yeah, they're behind the smoke screen, but if you look at Bezos, if you look at Zuckerberg, if you look at Elon Musk, they've got alien tendencies. Yeah, they've got them in Mars. I don't know if there's transcripts I don't know if we're in a simulator Or some sort of game It doesn't feel real to me It's just I don't know if you kind of Astrology Astrology proves that we're in a simulation I know people might sound as weird But we don't ask enough questions How the fuck are we here?
1:43:40We've not just came here for a big bang Adam and Eve Who the fuck raised that baby? Who's fed that baby? If you come here with one baby Then how's it going to survive? Exactly How's the brain function? the central nervous system like there's something not quite right no they say when you die the brain's still active for seven minutes and it replays your life I don't know if it's replaying your life to see if you've done good or bad on this planet there's a book I always mention called Mini Lives Mini Masters they talk about if you don't sort your shit out in this life you come back again and plus they add another problem on so if you've got four or five fucking problems and you don't sort them out you're coming back again I must have not sort of shit in my past life you're coming back again whether this is just a test run a lot of religions believe this is hell as well it wouldn't surprise me more so because when you look into numerology so we have different dimensions don't we the bible says it even the quran says it seven seven levels the second dimension is what i would call a demonic realm so when i exercise demons or other kinds of entities i'll send them below there but where we are in the third dimension if you look into numerology three is the number of the criminals the number of trouble so i would say that as well i think we're on hell now and i think we just got well no i think the bible was written to confuse us to believe that there's some other kinds of purgatory we go to in order to be able to control us do what we're doing here harvest our energy and bank loads of money off us because people go well why would they do that to the populations they need us they need the money in order to continue with this weird fucking shit that they've got going on, they've got to keep sacrificing certain things whether it's people, life force energy, whatever in order to keep drawing down this power from whatever they're working with.
1:45:29So the fact of the matter is it's not about like why would they do it, it's we're just fodder, we're just food for them to use for what they need to to get the power of the money. See same things with the, I think there's just been scriptures, I don't know how long the universe has been here they could be here for 300 years 400 years i genuinely don't know i'm only on it for 41 years so how the fuck am i going to know but obviously you can speak to your mommy your grandparents and get information how long they've been here what was life like then but you don't really know how long it's actually been here they say billions of years that's a long time absolutely there must be transcripts you see videos as well where they say people are time traveling again i don't know but i don't believe in that yeah possibly listen it might not be but I think it was a Mike Tyson fight and he's seen someone that looks like they've had an iPhone.
1:46:17I genuinely don't know. Astro travel as well, people say they can do. I believe in that, yeah. So there's got to be an element of something and even when we talk about Jesus, a lot of people said that he was a spiritual teacher and that's why they killed him, same as the witches. They were all spiritual teachers where they just understood life and seen life different because they didn't follow the rules. They killed him off. A bit like now, the people who speak out against that, they end up getting fucking suicided or fucking poisoned. Oh yeah, absolutely. And you know, children framed, isn't it?
1:46:47But I think as well, when you look at history there was a lot of shit that went on that we've got proof and evidence of long before Jesus and stuff like that and I just think it's fake. It's all the timeline is fake. I don't even believe in time. I don't think time is concept. But it's 13 months of the year and not 12. Well that's it. They changed it, didn't they? They swapped it to fit in with some other kinds of ritualistic stuff, the Gregorian calendar or something like that, where we've got 28 days and none of it makes sense, but to them there'll be a purpose, there'll be a plan to it, there'll be a reason.
1:47:18But I think it's to age us as well. There's certain people who don't believe in time, who don't celebrate birthdays. I have stopped doing it. I won't celebrate a birthday, no. I'll have a party but I won't celebrate the age. And they look younger than the people who go, oh yeah, I'm 40 this year or I'm 50 this year, and they seem to age because I think they're manifesting it. Well, same as Christmas, Christmas is demonic when you actually look at it and down that looking this big fat man with the red suit because there's a photo of me and my daughter and the guy was saying oh come sit in my lap my daughter must have been about five and I'd done a fuck and I'd done it and you see him kneeling down and she was sitting in my knee because in my mind I'm thinking I don't know you and that's before I started researching and understanding people that could be anybody and I'm not saying every Santa is a nonce but if you are a nonce why would you want to be there sitting listening the fucking screaming kids every day to have them sit on your knee fat fucking greasy like I say I'm not shooting every Santa and I still do love Christmas even though I do understand it the values behind what it's supposed to be is great but it's never being about that it's being about what can you buy what can you do who's got the latest shit everyone's so fucking stressed they're at each other's throats and it's not really no one settles down until after Christmas once Boxing Day comes everyone goes oh can I be normal now once you're two stone over waiting ten grand in debt like everybody just well yeah live beyond their means but it is a good family time and I do love it because you're conditioned and programmed through the years but everything's been a lie to fairies fucking Easter bunnies Santa and then you're getting told it's all lies so you're always getting lied to and it's not a bad thing I understand parents are trying to do good but when you actually break it all down it's like constant big lies that are breaking your kids hearts absolutely absolutely I agree and I think as well it's just it's the way that they indoctrinate them as well I think again this fucking elf on the shelf I think we're breathing paranoid skitter for any kids with that there's an elf on the shelf telling a fucking strange man what you're doing is anyone looking at like the thought process behind that for a kid though and be inspired on and they're going to tell a strange man and they're going to bring me coal or they're not going to bring me anything at all what's that doing to a little kid's mind having those thoughts you look at all the Disney programmes there's sex everywhere yeah everywhere it's demonic and woke Disney woke Disney they say was a 33rd degree mason.
1:49:39Yeah. But everything in Disney was all kids being raised by single parents, grandparents, wicked uncles, aunties. Yeah, and people buy into it. I think by the time kids before the age of five they've seen 10 ,000 murders. Yeah. Because of all the deaths that are in these cartoons. Why the fuck are we showing kids death? This is it, but that's funny as well. I remember two of my boys are autistic. I mean, the brights as a button, do you know what I mean? the verbal and stuff like that. But my middle child was like, I want to kill you, so I want to kill myself and I want to kill you, so I'm going to be on the phone to the mental health crisis team and all that.
1:50:13And she went, does he play Mario? And I went, like, games, shouldn't you? And I was like, well, yeah. She went to character's eyes, doesn't it? And then it comes back to life. It'll just be that. And I thought, oh, fucking hell, yeah. But what's that teaching our kids as well? They don't understand it. Yeah, they're normalising it. Let's talk about the witch stuff. Witch bit. There's a lot that incorporates So obviously exorcisms and removing demons From people's souls But I know people who do that but they don't class themselves as a witch No maybe not They class it Usually it's usually like priests Religious people some mediums say they can do it But I suppose I'm probably people's last resort So they'll go and see priests They'll go to a church or they'll go and see mediums Who can talk to the dead and then they'll come to me Is that your real hair?
1:51:03it's not the length but the colour yeah because that's if I know about the thickness of it like you visualise a witcher seat you think the fucking hair must get thicker when you become a witch well it's all the fucking extensions I can't grow my hair I've got Aquarius in my chart so people who've got Aquarius placement struggle to grow hair so it's all extensions I'm Aquarius are you? I used to have a good head hair now it's just fucking thinning a wee baldy bit of the back very early we go grey early and we lose our hair early Right, so which stuff How did you always have fascinations From that with your mum?
1:51:38Yeah, pretty much, yeah That's what got me into it That's what got me started But I used to notice as well So she got this bottle of holy water From fucking Glastonbury somewhere I'm going to drink it, I feel better I don't know, I think it's a hub A lot of people, because the Stonehenge stand there There's ley lines underneath there Everyone just goes, oh it's the spiritual capital I think it's bollocks, the energy there is horrific not Glastonbury Festival even just the place itself I think it's just being infiltrators I don't think there's much behind it it's just a normal place it's no different than here really but yeah I drink this holy water and I feel that normal and I feel that good again being introduced to spells and stuff like that I used to struggle really because I wouldn't believe in it I'm one of them people I'm not very confident in myself well it weren't at the time or confident in my abilities to do things neither but I think you live and you learn as you go along and you're doing things and it's that and you'll do, you know, I can do spells for people that are awake like that, everything will come true even the insights that I get by doing it for myself is very different because again, that's one thing that I struggle with I can do a bit of hands-on healing with myself but that's it I can read my card vaguely but it's all because I don't quite believe that all these lovely things could happen to me, does that make sense?
1:52:55Did you sleep with your cards under your pillow? No way I don't know what they say sometimes and you get like tarot cards sleeping under your pillow and you grow a bigger connection no no I mean I think it's more because when you're using your intuition you know some people will look at a picture on a tarot card and go that's the meaning and they'll go to the book and use the book meaning but when you're actually reading you're creating a story through the pictures and you know the meanings for that card isn't going to be the meaning that your intuition is telling you so it's developing that sort of insight to be able to understand them but again if you look at So, like, I knew me, my dad, I'd never known him, never spoke to him since I was, about, three months old.
1:53:33I knew he was going to leave me an inheritance. And the cards kept showing it to me, and I'm thinking, who's going to leave me that? Like, I don't know anyone. I've got no family. All my family are fucking bagheads anyway. No one's got any money. And Levin Behold to get a letter, solicitor's looking for me because he's left me an inheritance. But does that disbelief, does that disconnect when it comes to yourself? It's very easy to read for someone else and go, this is going to happen, that's going to happen. and you need to take this advice because it's not you. There's no personal connection with it.
1:54:00And what about the exorcism stuff? How dark and how true is it all? How dark is it? It's not as bad as people think. It's not like the films. It's not. These demonic entities in particular will influence, they'll ruin your mental health, they'll ruin your physical health as well and make you sick, the longer you're off them. They give you an intrusive thoughts, they make you hear things, see things, but the most negative symptom of them is the mental health you just you start losing your grip on reality and you start being controlled and you get under possession and you ruin your life that's what it does it controls you to ruin your life and keep you negative because it can't feed off good emotions it's got to feed off your negative vibration to make itself powerful to stay here in this dimension but people will come to me and it's pretty it's a pretty easy process you know i'll go around them i'll burn some herbs i'll say a latin chant place the finger over the third die and take their hands as it starts to detach i mean i've got injuries i've got scars you know when i go into house clearance when there's poltergeist or other kinds of spirits in people's houses and they're aggressive they will throw things at you they'll injure because i had one of my clients put in hospital she was thrown out of the loft and she's a nurse she's a professional you know what i mean and she was like yeah that was a ghost but i think if you know how to do it right you're not at any risk and to be fair when I first started doing I was a bit like oh I'm going to come across as a monarch that probably knows me and it's going to go for me and they did you know I've got scars on my feet my arms my hands but it's part and parcel of it and after a while you get used to the fact that I don't think I've got any power over them I'm just a vessel for a higher power to work through me I don't see it as my personal power but after a while you do notice that they will subdue and go without much of a fight it's when you start showing fear that they start going to attack you and stuff like that what do you think life is a lesson it's all a lesson we're all just here to learn but i don't i don't know i don't know what life is i know there is an afterlife russia have proved that anyway steve tracked the frequency from someone when they were dead to another dimension somewhere not galaxy or something There's definitely life after death, and I do think we do reincarnate multiple times.
1:56:21There's something you can look into with numerology. Someone said, and struck a cause with me, that if you're on a number one life path, you've done a whole cycle, basically, and you're starting fresh on a next set of adventures. When you get to 33, you've finished your cycle, and you don't reincarnate again, and you've learnt all that you can from the earth plane so that you can then help humanity. but what's the purpose in it all I've got I don't know I won't know till I get there and I say what the fuck did you send me down there for what's the purpose of sacrificing people like what do they believe when you sacrifice kids or you sacrifice other humans like what do they believe I think it's so there's there's no coming backs from it once you do something like that and you do that with your own hands you can't just come out and go yes I've I've killed the kids or I've sacrificed the person but i'm not a bad person please forgive me no one's going to do that already and i think they get into the most darkest evilest type of activities one to fuck your mind up if you're just a normal human being like me and you but to it again so they've got something on you but on top of that as well they are they do need the adrenochrome so they're sacrificing people for that and to be fair when i first did the theory i thought no that's bullshit people are getting really fucking imaginative with these conspiracy theories but it wasn't until i had that experience with my own blood that i thought that makes total fucking sense it really does but as well by sacrificing things to the devil i don't think religion would say their soul will then go to hell and be stuck trapped with the devil i don't think it is i think it goes to the I don't think hell or any evil demonics or other kinds of higher power have any ability to take people's souls like that unless it's willingly given.
1:58:15See I think hell's just evil and I just think good is positive, it's just a positive and negative energy. That's all it's true. I don't think it's a guy with horns and down there with the pitchfork, I think it's good and I just think it's good and bad. I think you choose in life the what I've been the dark side or the light side but I think you've got to go through some dark to get to the light as well so at all. The yin and the yang, they say it's every seven years there's a different process of the good and the bad. But it's a tricky one life, especially with the people I interview. And it doesn't make you paranoid but it makes you more aware of what the fuck is going on, you know.
1:58:49You see the worst of the worst. Are you concerned for your life or anything if you're speaking out against these people? I am. You know, I've been in a nervous wreck the past three days. I ain't gonna do this, I'm gonna message you and then I thought I'll be coming from Scotland or London or somewhere and I thought I can't fucking do that I was checking my cards constantly like am I going to die? Are they going to get me? But I've been so on edge really over it, do I think I'm at risk? Yeah, I am, people keep saying to me oh you must be safe to share your story and I'm like I don't think I am and even with that warning that I showed you the way they've worded that is you better be careful what you say because if it becomes too believable you're fucked The bigger you are and I think the more you can influence people I think then you become a target yeah 100 % that's why these superstars and big names Michael Jackson's I don't know Michael Jackson whether he was a nonce or not I don't know I do find it creepy that he had kids in his room like that's not normal but then again I also think on the other side he was like a child himself he kind of missed his child I think he had a lot of trauma with his dad and I think he felt safer around kids and animals but it's fucking weird like sharing his room but his room is different from everybody else's room.
2:00:01I'm not excusing it, but there's an element, are these people being sick as well? Yeah. And I don't have all the information, but he says he was going to expose, because I think he owned half of Sony, and he was going to expose the producers of Sony, what they've done, and end up killing them off. And I think sometimes as well, once they stop paying them money, they're worth more dead than they are alive, because then they start Greatest Hits albums and the books and fucking documentaries about them and they make the money that way. I think that's what that 27 club is as well. I think certain artists get into it, they can't maintain it, they have a breakdown, so they're off them because they know too much.
2:00:39And I just think it's a coincidence that it's when everyone's 27. But I think that's usually your child stars, you've gone through all the organisations, your schools of music and stuff like that, they get all the way through and they can't cope with it. Yeah, but my spares. Amy Winehouse, they're all the fucking same, they're all the same. Yeah, my house was brilliant, man. She was amazing. Yes, she was. So what do you think looking back on your life so far? Has it scared you with the ups and the downs and the mental health and what you've been through? Everything can empower me, really. I have been in some dark, dark corners.
2:01:16You know, I could have offed myself and had the easy way out. I really felt like that a few times. I even felt like that after I'd come back onto a path of light because when you do that, everything that you've then worked for, everything that you've had attachments to, you lose and you end up at rock bottom and you've got to build yourself up again. And there were times where I was like, if I just get through the next 18 years, wait till my daughter's grown up, she'll be an adult, she can work after herself, and then I can go. And I was living like that for a while, like bargaining with myself to get myself to a point.
2:01:44But I think, given what I've been through, given what I've done, and still managed to pull it back and get out alive, it just empowers me it just keeps me going because I'm like all right I'm smashing my goals I've made a life for myself my kids are happy they've got a solid foundation but again as well I don't think I was ever of being able to get to the point where I am now without going through that I would not be able to help people the way that I do now without going through that and understanding it and I will yield the bits and bobs work you know what I mean but it's I'm proud I am proud of myself I shouldn't be here I should be an addict like me more more the rest of my family I should be you know with no education shouldn't be driving a nice car but I am does it ever try and take your own life No, not in London.
2:02:29I like to think I did by doing destructive behaviours. You know, there was a time when I really liked painkillers. And I was like, have I just taken another two? I probably wouldn't wake up. But I'd always stop myself. Being a parent, that is a selfish thing to do. And I get it, there's some people that can't cope and there is some people that see there's no help. But to me, I'd rather suffer than make them suffer. It's different when they're an adult. but to do that when the kids I couldn't bring myself to. But that's not to say I didn't destruct my life in other ways. I didn't, I mean, I've got a teardrop tattoo because I've killed part of myself many, many times over the years.
2:03:09And, you know, it symbolises that constant transformation and growth. What was it like hearing voices? I still heard them now, James. Yeah, I know, but obviously more controlled, you know. Yeah, not always, you know. Not always. sometimes things come in and i can't i'm not asking for it just it just happens you know i can be driving a faster drive i drove down my nan's street with Kevin the farm to see me pony and i was like you know instead and she was that sort of thing but it's it's scary i don't know i think the angelic voices i'm so used to it because i've heard it since they've lost and they've kept me safe over the years and it's never been wrong so it's not quite it's not scary and it's not weird it's normal but here in the demonic realm them screams and even just this demonic talking to me don't get me wrong at times it'd be to have funny the very very conscious beings they can crack jokes you know they used to make jokes about my mum all the time and it'd be funny and i'd be sat there and i'd be like sure right i'd be like people must be a woman i'd be like what the fuck but that was scary that was a scary bit but even then you get used to it and it does become normality but it's fucking boss being able to tap in like I believe women always say this shit but women are the source of the universe the world revolves around women it's because we're real bad the higher powers and the energy fields it's women who manipulate it like if you've got a partner how that energy is in that house is from the women yeah who wakes up she wakes up in the morning in a good mood everybody's in a good mood like women have that power yes to have that energy my mum's got it as well she's fucking nuts but she knows she sees things and she hears things when people are going to pass and she gets it instantly and I think fuck it she goes again the Grim Reaper but I think all women have that they all have that source I just don't think they tap into it enough to understand it and like I said I believe everything's energy I believe everything's frequency it is the world is still a great place there's so much beauty here even driving down here as I say to Steph it's just it's beautiful you know for anybody watching that's maybe in a life a struggle or it's maybe fucking hinking I feel like that I'm losing my mind I feel like I'm not case and I can't speak out because it's understandable listen yeah absolutely and you're going to speak to your friend or your neighbour they'll be thinking you're off to the loony bin the amount of people that have gone to a church or a priest and have entered up beyond sections and then you know spend their years as an impatient before they finally get out and come to me it's too too common far too common and they do they do look at you like your absolute round of end.
2:05:51But if you are going through that, there are real people out there that will help you. You've just got to read between the lines a little bit. Message me. What's all your social media links for people to get involved or maybe drop you a message and ask for advice? So it's just The Witch Assist on Instagram, TikTok, YouTube, Facebook. The Witch Assist. How are you feeling today? Good. I'm glad it's over. I'm not going to lie. Because I can relax now. Like the thing is, I've said what I've got to say. You know, I've tried not to be specific. I've not named any names so hopefully I haven't rubbed them up the wrong way and put myself in the fire online but at the end of the day am I going to skip out of here?
2:06:26Yeah and when the sun goes down later and I'm on mute and I'll be like that with my big dog going on if anyone comes through You'll be fine I think a lot of people now understand this kind of life and I think a lot of people now are gravitating I think if you spoke about it people were speaking about it five years ago twenty years ago But not on the levels Yeah Now I think more people are coming forward and speaking about this sort of sorcery it's so well known we had a kind of cult so well you look at who was American when they had the women killing for him I know who you're on about Charlie Manson but he says the guy I interviewed with Scientology says he had a bit of that kind of hypnotised where he can hypnotise people and people just gravitating towards it but like I say you've overcome your darkness hopefully now you're just going for the light and changing lives and being better Would you like to finish up on anything else?
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2:08:29Remember to grab a few extra napkins. For a limited time at participating McDonald's. Just listen with an open mind, because it's always until it happens to you. I'm not talking cults, I'm talking supernatural experience. If it's never happened to you, you'll know someone that has, or give it time, and you'll experience it yourself. a lot of people see things but they just think what was that? I get so many messages day by day what does this mean? I've seen a shadow out the corner of my eye or I've seen a symbol, people have seen God, what I would call a poltergeist, like a ball of energy pop up in the living room, they took pictures of it and sent them to me and gone that just appears in front of my eyes and disappears it's on film, there's the evidence but you don't understand it and I think, if you just dismiss it you'll probably get left alone, the more you look into these things the more you're more likely to have them the experiences seek you else as well molly i wish you nothing but the best in the future i look forward to seeing what you actually do but listen thanks for coming on today and thank you for having me take care and god bless take care
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Anything Goes with James English Ep 496
The Liverpool Witch Involved in Satanic CULT - Chilling Secrets Revealed
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