Winning the Lottery Destroyed My Life - Adam Lopez Tells All

44:48Yeah, I don't like to show weakness. People look at me and know they can sort of say you look soft or, you know. I'm glad I do, to be fair. Glad I do. Like us all are, we know a few people. I'm not fucking fighting anyone these days. Look at the size of me. I've got fucking blood clots in my leg and fucking both lungs. like it's that's just it's that's i ain't no scrapping no more do you know what i mean i didn't like it anyway didn't i just you know i just didn't like any of that i just need i think it was more i didn't want to worry my mum like with anything because because of how close we were i never took i was not scared but i sort of held back from anything like that and it was like obviously i've done you know we've all done little naughty things do you know what I mean but it's I try to sort of get away from it because I can't but once you realise you took a slap from somebody you realise you're not made a glass it's half fucking right game on do you know what I mean but I'll say now it's different and um what's happening with the blood clots yeah so it's um and by the way this is not a reflection on the lottery whatsoever this is me being a fucking selfish prick towards my mum's feelings disregard for my own health oh she's fucking shit I remember we getting wheeled out in the fucking trolley when I had these blood clots from the fucking paradise I'll never forget her face but um yeah so I won the money just went out every day every night after I won the money

46:23went out every day and night after I won the money partying just yeah just do you know what it was like I had a thing about going out and buying bottles of champagne everywhere and I was fucking like we cleared like pubs out left right and centre and it was just like it wasn't like a massive party every night but it was just like fuck it have another bottle 50 quid so it went bang and it was done it was like fucking sweat and every night it wasn't like every night we just champagne we'd have a few beers or we'd go and do something or like we'd go and do something or it'd always be we'd have a nice meal somewhere and we'd have a few drinks and then we'd just go on to the next one next one and then you wake up and you go for breakfast next thing you know it's half 11.

47:00Trancy a cheeky fucking pint or do you know what I mean and that was it and it was sort of like that for like three months how was the health before the lottery win it weren't bad I've always been a big big fella I'd swap the comments if you had the big but it ain't I've always been a big lad but the world record I'd done about 18 months ago on St George's Day I mean not last year the year before my health was good from that anyway what was the world record running the fastest mile through water like underwater or a thrub it. The pool was 1.25 metres high, so coming to like my nipple sort of height.

47:41And it was like a record, I think the record was like 39 minutes, 20 seconds of some feather in Baghdad. And just one night, this geezer said to me in the pool, he was following, it was just me and him in the pool at the gym in Norwich I go to. And he was just me and him in the pool, three lanes, and he was in the same lane about that far away from me. And I turned around and I kept feeling it. I said, are you fucking for real? I said, fuck off, will ya? I said, what do you want? I said, fuck it. I said, all this room and you're fucking trying to shag me in the pool. Fuck off. And he said, hold on.

48:13He went, hold on. I went, this better be good because you fucking, you're all going to get one. He went, you've been doing two lengths every 57, 58 seconds. I went, yeah. I said, so why are you trying to fuck me? Leave me alone. He went, mate, I'm not here for a round. I went, all right. I said, so what the fuck do you want? He said, that's quick. He said, there's got to be some sort of world record, innit? I went, it was very surreal when he said it. This geezer's a bit strange, right? And I've seen him a couple of times. And I got home and I went, yeah, sweet. I just fucking played it off. Now, I'm competitive, like I say, and I fucking, I was just like, I was like, I thought, is it a world record?

48:54And I fucking got on Guinness World Records, and it fucking was. And I was like, no way. and I thought so I worked it all out and I thought yeah I could probably do it in about 34 35 minutes the world record was um it was to be fundraised for a little girl called Grace my mum she's a reception manager I think or she was or still is I'm not quite sure um she's a receptionist at the reception manager at the gym and people at the gym it's a it's a lovely community at the gym I go to you know field health in Norwich um great staff great gym um and they they supported me through it and they're really good something we had to be we encountered a couple of like hurdles as you do you know you try and get everything set up there's so much to do you miss things but i'll say they um yeah we set that up done that as it fundraising for grace so we fundraised for little girl grace she's got a sma which is spinal muscular atrophy um i think it's a muscle wasting disease a muscle um i don't know how to describe it but her muscles deteriorate.

49:59I think we raised, I think it was 3 ,600 quid for just giving Paige. And I was so happy, Dad, Luke. All the lads on, I knew them as well. They went to school with them both. And there were some, there were some, there were some comments that went round and some cracks about that. But because Rebecca's quite fiery, bless her. But she's just, I respect it because there's no, she's like me there's no grey area when you talk to people like you want what you want and that's it do you know what I mean but they're lovely they're married they're lovely two little girls and so the world record was running a minute underwater and running he was running for a mile through water so the water came up to there and you couldn't use your arms so I had to run like that the whole time so is that just strength from the legs then yeah literally does the extra weight help though well yeah do you know what it was bad because I'm more water dynamic so still sitting here like that i'm on water dynamic apparently without anything it did so when you go into a run a water simulation machine you run so you get the treadmills in water now um one of them got analyzed and there was like a lot of athletes there i'm gonna say who it was um there was athletes there we knew them i knew who they were and they were running there was orange and red like arrows going around them on the end on the analysis i got in fucking all green not a specky yellow going around i said was that good she went yes perfect shape for running through water went no way and it was just like like aerodynamics it was just like they slide around you and it really was and it was just as i was training for it i learned ways of because i had to get to the end of the pool and turn but still keep the pace up but you had to touch a certain part of the pool and it was verified by two people by art even because we have the cameras that's why i'll go on to the bit of the verification bit um but you had to turn and it was just i was i found ways to stay like fluid through the before i'd say that about myself but fluid through the turns and i was i was like watching fucking gary lineker in the 1990s he was he was like fucking honestly i was turning it every turn was like more or less bang on and it was just it is i'll tell you what i did after the the morning of it i went in to do like an half hour warm-up before the tv and that got there and stuff like that.

52:25And I got back in the pool to actually do it and my feet wouldn't fucking, they wouldn't absorb the water. So for the first 20 lengths, I was slipping. I was like, fuck. By the time I got to 20 lengths, it felt like I'd done 60. And it was 64 and a half lengths or thereabout. And it was, by the time I'd done, I was fucking, I was knackered. But the adrenaline was like there because I knew I'd beat the record. then I had to go and get verified and all that but I got home and I was still buzzing there was loads of people at the house and I got home I couldn't relax and all of a sudden it just went boom I woke up like four hours later just gone and it was all just built up because I couldn't sleep right because my legs raking through training I put so much effort in like when I left work I was literally working two minutes away from the gym so it was easy to finish work go in the pool get the training done for four or five hours like literally running up and down like you know for just to get the stamina up so it's like you know doing that was like part of my health flight before this was i'll be honest with you weren't too bad but i've always been a big fella i'm not running marathons for fuck's sake you know what i mean but strength wise yeah my strength's there not at the minute but it was the strength was strength training with the weights as well i tried i tried high intensity but that's not for me like burpees and shit i'm still not that shape um it's just embarrassing how long it takes me to do one length to be fair but if you don't try you never know yeah it doesn't challenge you it doesn't change does it so why then you've got the weight lifted over your shoulder you've won a million quid you're pretty sweet yeah look why then just go because every time you speak about your mum you get emotional so you've let yourself slip you've got fucking blood clots you've not got a relationship with your mum like why are you going down that route when you know clearly what you should be doing I don't know I just I said I'm a very selfish man with a lot of things I was my only child I disregard that little fucking dickhead in America he's no family of mine but so I'm a single I'm not a only child and I guess I've like it's not like my mum's fault or no one's fault it's my own fault for just thinking that I don't know as a kid you felt untouchable because everyone was doing things for you and you look back on it and you think, fucking hell, I was properly sported like a little dickhead.

54:47Do you know what I mean? Everyone done everything for me. And I don't know. I feel like that, in essence, was the reason that I just went on a fucking mad one. It wasn't even a mad one. It was just the length of it. Like, it was just like... But that's a mad one. No matter what you sugarcoat it. No, it is. Yeah, it is. How long was that? It was around three months. so I got the money I need yeah it was mad that's a mad one there's no many I'm so sorry yeah I'm not here to shoot you down brother but that's a mad one I shouldn't be laughing when you're doing that your mother sees the leeches she sees the way you're going if you start putting on extra weight if you start getting blood clots if you start getting rushed into hospital the only person who sits at your hospital bed is your fucking mother yeah it wasn't all you know and you're trying to sugarcoat that it wasn't really a mad one you know deep inside what the fuck you've done I didn't cut off yeah but you know what I'm saying bro do you know what I mean like you're not daft either and like you said you were a bit selfish and it happens like one in a million quid listen if i end up winning a few million i could end up back in the sniff yeah because oh yeah that was that everybody thought it was but yeah the booze but i'm just talking about my own life i'm talking about you never know my life is going good drink free drug free smashing it yeah but i do that to work and try and provide for the people around me but if you end up getting that extra bit of money i might just go fuck this yeah because that booze and gear that takes me away there's no issues when i'm on that recession obviously when you sober up it's a different story but i didn't want to sober up so i would keep going so if you've got that constant funding for gear and booze and parties i don't know if i would ever stop so it's a dangerous game to be get money in such boat and a boat like that so it's understandable why you fucked it as well because you probably had that chase in this dream having no money in your bank working to then getting money and it's not as if you think oh i'm better than everybody now but there's a sense of fuck you i'm going to show you i'm the big man so yeah that's when you can completely lose yourself but when did you know that all right it was going a bit too far when my legs started hurting and it weren't and just to clear up like because you'll watch it right it that is what that was his story not mine it was me I'll have a drink right and last I was going out so that was my that's why I went on and a bit gambling rah rah whatever but you know now because I've spoke about the extra money so but because she'll worry about that I'll say listen to it listen to what he said you know but mummy's boy obviously I'm proud of it because I love her to death but how did the relationship break down with you and your mum it didn't really break down as such it was sort of It was my...

57:27It's not... Obviously, she tells me, she's not a drinker. My mum's done nothing bad. She's just so straight-laced. And I wish that I could take a leaf out of her book, but I live with so much from my childhood. And it's not an excuse. It's not her fault. Nothing. I'm not a prick like that. I take responsibility for my own actions, and that's the end of it, right? But I live with so much noise in my brain that when I'm on that, the noise stopped in the car that day, right? and it was like fucking hell like and the noise are completely stopped there was no fucking voice nothing i've got a little voice in me i have a chat with when i was in the forklift or when i'm in the car and it just helps me it's like i'm not you know nothing like that i start like you know but that's just i hear the i don't hear voices but i hear voice i hear that voice like the inner voice um and it just everything just went quiet and it just fell for fucking that's lovely and while it was quiet i just fucking enjoyed it i was having cocktails fucking champagne and ice and all that i was right fucking giving it the old roger moore weren't i but um there are pints of champagne with fucking i see it on the rise of the foot soldier films barman point you find his champagne but honestly i walked into the public senate and it just honestly it just it was it was mad but i got used to that the silence was lovely and it was just like fucking i went on and what was the question again i was going to break down with you and your mum that's it yeah so i carried on and she sort of said oh can you just slow down we drink you know you're drinking this and yeah yeah yeah and i just got the noise still didn't come back but i knew that that was someone warning me through my mum to fucking slow the fuck down you know i mean she can see it and it was it wasn't a breakdown as such it was just like a little a weakening of the of the connection because we'll never not be a strong team like a literally bulletproof team maybe

59:27And we always will. Yeah, we kissed and made up, kissed and cuddle, made up. Had a couple of rows.

59:38And I don't know, it just... I think that something... I feel like something from my dad. I'll tell you about the ambulance in a minute. I feel like my dad sent this money to me. Or sent me to go to scratch. He's guided me to the scratch guard. and I feel like he gave me a blood clot to stop me because he could see me and my mum were on a collision course. So I started getting this pain in my left hip. I felt my hip for years, but I felt my bones for years to be fair. But I started getting the pain. It travelled down the outside of my left leg, stopped at my knee, and then for like half a day, woke up and it was down like the bottom of the calf, and then it moved to my foot.

1:00:24but before I started getting like loads of cramps at night and it was both feet my toes were pointing I woke up fucking ah my toes were pointing in the middle of the night because my calves had cramped I didn't think nothing of it this was all going through the three-month party whatever you want to call it um so it went down the left side of the leg traveled up the inside of the right and then back it went and then come back up the outside of the left and then it started going down the right and I thought what the fuck is going on and then it come back went to the left and it started getting bad.

1:00:55So that was over like a three-day period, I think. I can't really remember. I suppose some clever bollocks and the good comments will remind me and all the rest of it. But it was just like it stopped. And I thought, oh, fucking hell. And every day after that, it got harder and harder to walk. And I remember by about, I think it was like seven days left, eight days. I was really bad. I didn't go out in the car the day before because I felt fucked. And I was like, hey. But obviously living at home at the time was the best thing for me because of the money. Rah, rah, rah. It was a conversation with my mum.

1:01:27So I stayed just so she didn't fucking cry and be upset. So I stayed there. And I remember getting up on this eighth day, seventh or eighth day, the last day I went to the hospital. And I sat up on the edge of my bed. I'm laying down. I sat up on the edge of my bed. And I was like, I was breathing. Like you can probably hear now on this, but I was breathing. And it wasn't working. but I could feel the deep breath but I couldn't it wasn't there was fuck all happening and I looked up with a skylight by my bed and I thought this might be it and I was gagging for a piss I sat up I thought right get up and go toilet fucking hell stood up and I was like it was like someone had pushed the air out through my feet out of my lungs and I was like should we kick his head in?

1:02:11no shit but um it was almost like someone as I stood up had pushed the air straight out down through my feet and I just I was like fucking hell, completely fucking like dizzy and sort of like empty, like sort of thing. I was like fucking hell. But I was absolutely gagging for a bit. So I got to the toilet. By the time I got to the toilet, I was like, like the shelf in front of the toilet. I stood there and it was like, just, I don't know how to. I was just like, just get home with it, job done. And that one, so I was like, yes, touch. But I fucking stood there and just like, and every fucking second that went by, I thought I'm going to fucking die.

1:02:49I can't breathe. As I fucking walked out of the bathroom, I had to rush. I looked in the mirror briefly and I could see I was like a pale white sort of yeller. I thought, fucking hell, and I got back from here to probably where he's sitting, back to my bed and just fucking slammed down about half ten in the morning, right? I thought, I'm not going to tell him I'll dig because he'll worry her at work. So I laid there, right? And I thought, wait, she gets back, then I'll tell her so she doesn't fucking worry her at work. don't know why I thought that didn't want to worry I thought she drives home she might crash so I just thought I'll wait the whole time I was waiting I didn't know the time was flying I didn't know it was flying

1:03:35yeah time was flying and it I didn't realise until I come out of hospital I was about an hour away from dying the nurse I said listen to me I said because I got in my way with this nurse Denny I said I said what I said how I said how no one's answered this question I said how bad were these blood clots and she said when you came to us we were told you was about an hour maybe two away from dying and she said if you'd have waited any longer you probably wouldn't be here and I was sat I went fuck I just thought fucking hell like Star Wars The Mandalorian and Grogu is now streaming on Disney Plus what are you waiting for hop on the must see galactic adventure comes home on Disney+.

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1:05:33Greater than 50 gigabytes may slow when network is busy. See terms. Unbelievable. So if any pains you're getting, you fucking ask to travel up and down your legs, I don't care how fucking small they are if they travel around your legs you can feel it travelling over a three four day period go to the fucking hospital and tell them you've probably got blood clots and describe your fucking symptoms and it came from the lifestyle that I chose after I won the money because like I said the lottery did not did one bit push me that way they looked after me with everything I could fucking ever ask for it was my own choice it was the selfishness that had come through from that untouchable feeling that I had growing up as a kid because every woman was nice to me.

1:06:14Like, everyone did got me stuff. I was spoiled. That's where it come from. And that's the thing what... It led to the bickering with my mum. Do you know what I mean? It led to the rouse. Because we never had rouse. We never had a... You know, when you... Have a little bit of a crack with her, but like... A bit of a banter, sort of like a serious banter sort of thing, but... Not like we had. So it's like, but she... Yeah. She gave me this one bollocking, though. 39 year old, got a monarchy. We get angry because we don't want to hear the truth. Yeah. And that's the fucking main ingredient. When you know you're fucking up, when you know you're basically killing yourself, when somebody gives you the few home truths, it's the, listen, the people you love the most, you can tell who loves you the most because they're the ones who tell you the fucking brutal honesty.

1:07:01You don't want to hear, listen, you're in a shite relationship or you're dying, you've got fucking problems here. A good person will just keep you smiling because they know they can keep taking. So these ones drinking champagne with you and whatever That's exactly what it is They're not friends They're just fucking not giving a fuck if you die It's the home truths come from the people who truly love you That's exactly it You know and once you get those home truths It's a bitter pill to swallow And sometimes that's why we stay alone Because we can do it all discreetly, secretly And nobody will know about people Like mums have got intuition Even when I was gambling, trying to stop gambling My mum knew you're gambling again I used to get angry because she was fucking right and I would say, oh, Mark, you're fucking doing us all the time.

1:07:43Sometimes she would get it wrong. The majority of times she would get it right though. Yeah, he didn't correct her. I'm getting it wrong. Yeah. But no, mine was, I went and started with crypto. So she thought it was drugs and it was gambling. Crypto is gambling, do you know what I mean? And you go into all these different, it was all sort of new when I was doing, that's why I was living like paycheck to paycheck when I was doing my job. And, you know, she'd guess, but she never guessed it. I probably just said, but it's just, everything's good now, but it's like she'll probably kick me fucking head when she hears this but end of the day it weren't like i thought i was going to be making the millions that i was always on course for i suppose so now it weren't i was trying to put all these fucking all this money into crypto i thought yeah i'm gonna be fucking a millionaire cash out fucking dubai wherever i'm dubai but wherever do you know what i mean just somewhere that fucking it was like an escape because i didn't like my life back then i just didn't like what well i didn't necessarily fucking like the life the money brought to be honest with you but it was just like i lost the structure when i want the money so it was just like i'm just i don't know how to describe it i don't know i didn't like the life before or necessarily hate it but i didn't necessarily like it and it's the same sort of thing with the with the money if i'm being honest it just makes everything a little there's just a little touches of like luxury there and just like you know it just do you think that's you though as a whole like no matter with the money or without it it's you who's battling it's yeah it's yeah so it's always going to be, it's always going to be, I'm always being me.

1:09:08People are expecting me to change and some people will still say that and these people are the ones I've said no to. And everyone's had their, trust me, everyone's had their fucking opinions, right, of what to do with a dough and you should be doing this and that. I mean, even I was speaking to my mum and she was, no, I didn't do that. And I thought, I don't even know why the fuck I'm asking anyone, like, even not in no disrespect, but even my mum and my step, I thought, I'll just go and do it. and we'll get into where I'm going after and all that, but it was like, I'm just going to stop asking people because some of the people that I'd fucking help tell were the ones that said, are you wasting your money?

1:09:45Are you doing that? And I'm like, I'm just, what? You didn't say anything when I was buying that. And I'm not going to say who it was, but it was fucking... It was just very hypocritical. And I was like, fucking cheeky bastard. But like I said, I'm not going to say who it was because I'll get a slap around the fucking head for it. but um i just thought fucking cheeky cat so i just started lying to people yeah i was doing this then someone said oh i bet you pissed that all at the morning i said yeah i've got five grand left coming back in february to work in the forklift what next thing you know text you're coming back to work february i went yeah i'll be back soon yeah so nearly done my last five grand just spread a little rumor people love to chat love to fucking chat but not like at one stage did anyone ever think adam might turn that around a little bit adam might actually do something with him adam might you know he's actually got something about him where he could do it and i've done it and yes i had the gambling bits and all that but i still invested into property but i did it in the way where i was it was educated whereas people's opinions are uneducated and it's the amount of times honestly if i could have pulled me ears off and filled it up with concrete I'd have fucking done it, because I was sick to death.

1:10:58I wish I had money. I don't know how much it would cost, but just to go and get switches on me ears. Even though, I don't know, my hearing aids or something, just to turn it off. I don't know how they work, but just... I was at the point, like, fucking, don't just get the scissors and just fucking cut them off so they don't work anymore. I was sick to death of people. They were trying to care and stuff like that, but it was almost like a backhanded, like, thing of, like, what they could get out of it. And it... I was so... I can't even give you an example, but... it was so annoying. It was just so...

1:11:27But that passed, and I started doing my own thing. I went quiet on socials for a little while, and just done my own thing, and just got a few little bits put in place. Just bring a nice little bit back in. I don't want to go too much in today, because people will start talking on none of that, but we're good. How bad was the gambling, or what were you betting on? It was crypto. So it's because you literally... Bitcoin. There's Bitcoin. It was LTE. XRP weren't too bad to be fair. I think it was the only one that I've made on, to be fair, but even that one a lot and the doge the dogecoin dogecoin come out in time as well just for I'll stop doing it for the win I've put nothing into crypto since I won the money it's all been that it's been online gambling what do you gamble on do you put horses on dogs I'll go on the online spinners or I'll go on the live roulette or something like that I don't really go to the bookies because it stinks of piss do you know what I mean I'm not asked about a bet I never seem to win in the bookies and I've not done since I was young so I was like I'll still go in there but I just don't like they're just like every time you go in somewhere I just I'll get a bad feeling so I'll go online excuse me

1:12:37so I'll go online and it's I'll put like it's between like 200 and 300 pound in and I'll go through and I know that the second time once I've done that I'll put a 200 pound in it seems to be 500 600 quid the sweets bar so i'm quite fucking the sweets bar i'm a gab but it's not and the things start spinning differently and i had a come in i had 120 grand come in i'm not going to say the website because it's not on gamestop and it's it'll it'll make people look at it i'm not going to do it i found it through a recommendation that's what i won't do that because it'd be very unfair with people. I scored 120 or 160 grand and then I had a 988 grand one but I'd only put in, for them two totals, I'm sure I'd put in, it was no more than like 1 ,500 quid but then you worked up the number.

1:13:39It was on two different games and you just worked up and all of a sudden, you was over 100 grand and I went, fucking hell. And I carried on spinning I've got four jackpots. You've got the Ultramax, Mid and Mini. And I spun. And it was like a spinner on the screen. There was four squares left. And on the last spin, all four came in. And I won£808 ,000 on that. I was like, fucking hell. And then the last one was like 1.4 million. It was like an Alice in Wonderland or something, like a bush. And it was the second biggest jackpot. I was like, fucking hell. It was English. It was based in England. it's registered in England, no tax.

1:14:20I was like, fucking hell. And I couldn't believe it. That's the first time my mum would know about it. I don't know anyone would know about it. And it's mad, but it's just been put away in other stuff. I won't say anything, but it's been put away in other stuff, all legal, all above board. There's people, there's accountants in place, everything else to get everything paid. So, and that makes me sleep well at night because people try and dodge everything like that. and fair enough but I want a fucking quiet after everything that's happened I want a quiet fucking life and do you know what after all the rows all the thing everything and just and then meeting my partner who I've loved since we grew up together and I finally got I'm getting that peace in my brain now again and do you know what without her I don't think I'd have got it to be fair but I'm alright with my mum me and my mum were alright I've always been all right.

1:15:18She knows I'd say, even any day. I'll always die for my mum, take bullets for my mum, or whatever you want to call it. She knows that. But we do bicker every now and then. But you're just speaking? I was speaking, yeah, yeah. We're good at going. Do you feel as if it can be better, though? Yeah, but then I like her because she's married. I just like her to, like, it's just nice for her to, I like them spending time together because she's never had a partner who's really cared about her. And now, like, her partner, like her husband now, my stepdad he does know they're like get honest it's lovely watching them sometimes they're they're like the old married couple if you like and they're all like every now and then a little bit of banter and he's like half muttering one ear she's half muttering the other ear so it's like it's listening to them they're like and sometimes they don't even know they're talking to each other and i stand in the kitchen pissing myself off what the fuck and someone just slipped me lsd do you know what i mean like what's going on in this fucking house and it just it's just there's this sound and it's nice just to see her happy and that's all i've ever wanted because i grew up seeing watching her not be happy and she didn't she wouldn't know she she wouldn't know that she i think i told her a couple times but it is i'll see her happy growing up but i saw her more unhappy and going through what she went through so it's um yeah so it's just i just try i would sit down with my many time and you know we'd have a chat we'd have a cup of tea we're best mate but it's just nice to be able to see her and watch her just just be happy and just be at peace with like you know she's she's such a beautiful woman inside and out and to be able to the man to be able to marry her I was always going to be a lucky man she's like I've got a lot of admiration love for me mum always will have always have done and she's a hell of the world mate she really does she serves the world and I tried to give it to her and I still would give it to her If I could find a way Giving the world And everything in it To her She knows I would But her world Is only seeing you happy Yeah She doesn't want fuck all Yeah That is it That's all she wants So for you to give her the world Is just to see you happy And like you say At peace But even Listen Looking from the outside I've got to be honest It looks as if You're struggling with shit bro Yeah what Also what do you think I feel as if You need to work on your health You are Because when you're walking And they're swimming and you're feeling good and just cutting away all the bullshit because everything's internal, you know?

1:17:45And I think you need to patch it up with your mum. I don't care. I think what you're saying about your mum, you still speak. I think there's something missing there. Yeah. I think there's something needs patched up. And listen, I'm not a therapist, but I've interviewed enough people to see, okay, listen, you're maybe battling here and you're very good at masking it all. The lottery's masked it because of the champagne lifestyle, but that's a fake lifestyle, that doesn't it? it is a fuck all that's so fake so for me the main one is to patch it up and be completely honest because there's no point in hiding because nothing changes from lies especially to yourself so if you just whatever it is you've got going on and try and patch it up I think that would really make the steps to find that piece because you're searching for it but you're not going to find it on a gambling fucking roulette machine or a nah that's all stopped now that's all stopped fucking I ain't going to push me not knowing what we're at but the biggest the biggest thing is you've just hit it on the head it's just it is I just I should make more time for my mum that's very selfish isn't it because the emotions are and obviously you're not what to speak on camera I don't know what it is but there's something deeper there you can see clearly see every time you speak about your mum you're ready to break down it's just I just because I've never really spoke to her about this like I never really spoke to her about the stuff that happened like what I remember from I've touched on it but it's like scared you it's this oh fucking massively yeah and it's just like I just remember like being scared of our partner but the man who was in my life and her life for 18 years when I was growing up he was just I remember like some of the rows they had and he used to fucking scare me and shit when I was like 6-7 years old didn't do nothing like mental like they'd ever beat you?

1:19:28no he'd come close though and she didn't know that but he's been dealt with since all this happened when I grew up and grew up hair bollocks another story for another time but it's i've just i've lived i've lived with it and i've tried to put even when i've opened up about it there's like she's still she's like no i don't remember that and i'm like and i don't mean she's lying but i'm like you do like but that shows that you both are similar then yeah very similar me and my mum like she's the she's the she's the woman version of me i'm the man version of her like it's just that that is that's it that's why we've always been a team that's why I always get emotional when I talk about her because she's like I'd do anything for her do you know what I mean it's like it does it hurts that we it hurts that we're good but it hurts that I shouldn't have fucking argued with her that was the fucking biggest I should never have done it right but it was like I went out I was at the house and I went out and I went out for an Uber it's cut me arse I had a couple of drinks well if you didn't have drink you should have wear in the car and got it yourself alright went out got a uber and we're back streaming on peacock may i present to you the award-winning staff of the toledo truth teller slap me let's jar something loose ay yes i like that the certified fresh series returns your boss you always like this or is this just an act oh no this is mad oysters everybody there's a certain satisfaction when you work with someone maybe we could be a family you sadistic pig The Paper.

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1:21:59Read real patient reviews, then book instantly. ZocDoc, ready to be seen? Left me wallet because I just stood in the car because it's a new development. It's hard to, the delivery, it's just not bullshit. The delivery drivers find the house hard to find. New developers, they're notorious for it. They don't show up on Maps or Uber Eats sometimes or whatever it is. Anyway, so I said, I'll stand outside. I said, I said, you'll see me. I left so I opened the car put the keys in my pocket after I got the Uber but I left my phone and my wallet in the car the wallet's got like fucking a grand in it or something and she said to me like numerous times don't leave the fucking wallet in the car because it'll get robbed the car will get robbed the place where we live we're not getting robbed do you know what I mean we're not getting fucking robbed but fair enough right went back down about 20 seconds later where are you going right from the snug right and I was like all right I was just fucking the red me I couldn't stop it but I went back I thought I'm not gonna kick off home we go upstairs I just texted her I said what the fuck you talked about for and that at that moment I was fucking disgusted with myself but I couldn't stop I could not stop and I always regret it went down I said sorry to her and she said that that she didn't like a few weeks later in front of me uncle she didn't trust me and I was like and it sort of all made sense and I thought well 40 million well you ain't really fucking act in any other way to make you think any different have you so it's your own fucking fault that's what my head said to me i thought fucking hell where's your support but i fucking need it do you know what i mean but it is and it's the selfish part of me again and it's the selfish part of me the self-awareness is the selfish part of me has made her feel like that and so it's my own fucking fault you know and you know we'll have a big we'll have a big cuddle after she sees this i know we will and it's just it will be all right we'll always be all right yeah I'm the fucking bodyguard do you know what I mean no one's fucking ever going to if they do this fucking magic phone call it wouldn't happen do you know what I mean I will always guard my mum with my life so yeah it's just it's more of the I allowed myself to fucking argue with my mum and have the disrespect for somebody who's always stood by me and then I had the fucking disrespect to go up there and question while she shouted because she didn't trust me once I found out a few weeks later.

1:24:25No, you fucking selfish prick. Your fucking actions have fucking made her feel that way. So change, sort yourself out. Change your fucking ways. Some things just want to tell you to stop being a cunt. Do you know what I mean? And that's the top and top of it. You first person is fucking missing you. When the body and that starts breaking down, that's when you need, that's warning shots. Sorry for the language. Yeah, that's okay. Listen, do what you want, bro. but when you were on your hospital bed who was the only one there? My mum came in, my stepdad, had a couple of mates come in. But a lot of people didn't come in.

1:24:59But then some people were due to come in but then, is it C. diff? The infection? We all got tested for that and someone had it. So fucking hell, they went from, if you want someone in, they've got to dress up like them doctors in E.T. when they went to get him out of the house. It was like hazmat suits everywhere. I was like, fuck. They shut it all off, and I was the last room there. Because I think the night before, two nights before, a patient had died in the ward. And you heard it. You heard him getting resussed. And all I heard was, I heard the first one, and I heard analysing. And I thought, that's got to be a defib.

1:25:35And there you were, it was boom. And you heard it again. And all the curtains went round. Because all the doctors were round this one bed. Curtains went round, and it was fucking, he woke up the next morning, and he was gone. And I thought, fuck, it was completely empty. And yeah, and apparently, it was him who had it. but it had spread, the doctors had touched, so we all had to get tested for it. I ended up in my own private room, and... Yeah, where was it going with that? I was just asking who was at your bedside, because I said, sure, it's always the family, it's always the close ones. We are there when the people you're partying with giving money to, they don't show, bro.

1:26:07Yeah. When you win the lottery, people might think life's changing, but what are the negatives of actually winning seven-figure sums? Just the leeches, just the people. Sorry, it was the leeches, the people. like um people that direct you towards a purchase they want to make or it was just as you as it as the days went on you sort of discovered the the methods that were using and i'll say that the the women that was doing it before um literally offering themselves out and i'm like you got some of them were like one of them was married the other one had fucking had a fella the other one was like oh come and meet the kids and all this and i was like i was like this is mad like this you're gonna fuck with your kids lives just because you want like two grand again it was between that little life it was between like a certain amount and i was just like and then i started i thought right i said i'm gonna do so I'm going to start testing so I'll show you the bill then I'll pay it none of them can produce a bill and it stopped it so it must have got round because people just stopped right and I'll just show you the bill and I can justify it to me accounts like oh just show it I can do it for you show me the bill oh no well I ain't got it in I was like well I said well fuck off then what are you going to do and you have to start being ruthless and it is horrible because I'm not like that necessarily like that being in the fort if you get a thick skin and you start sometimes you have to be a bit tasty sometimes it gets you in trouble and it helped with this, right?

1:27:45And it was... I had to be an arsehole sometimes. I don't like it, but then once you realise that it actively makes people fuck off and leave you, it becomes addictive. And then you go back to that, the addiction, like gambling or going on crypto, and you think, fucking hell. So next when I turned up, I forgot who it was now. And I was like, are you taking a fucking piss? What? I said, fuck off, will ya? I said, leave me alone. I'll tell your missus what you're fucking doing. I'll never fucking tell them. But they didn't know that. Oh, well, you're not like that. I said, fucking try me. Like, it was like, literally, I was just like, batting them people down.

1:28:25And it made me trust no one. And I'll come into like, like yesterday's meeting I told you about, and even them two, they supported me for fucking years with the Thought Lift videos and stuff. And even them, and I just apologised to them. I said to them, I said, there's nothing, i said i just didn't trust no and just like the negatives were the leeches were mad and then like my best mate i sent him like 1500 quid because my best mate i was best man at his wedding right and i love him to death with we've made up since i sent this money he's like i was skin and the kids need um uniforms two kids their uniforms and i said let me just send you 1500 quid sound you see what you do i said yeah sweet he's sitting there so i'm just sitting there drinking a warm you got a pint of champagne I went yeah well what are you going to do about it do you know what I mean like just have a laugh with him and it's I said give me some details I sent it over £1 ,500 and about two hours later he sent back just getting my priories right all of the case of virgin wines or naked wines 24 case the red classics it was or something and I went back I was like just told me about this fucking you just told me you're struggling in spit site you got fucking credit card bills pay the kids need things i was more asked about the kids because they need stuff to need whatever they need i wouldn't let them know because my best mate they're technically my kids if he dies i felt like killing him when he did it to be fair but he um and then he didn't mess his back i sent back i said you cheeky fucker like laughed i said good job you be best mate i thought i don't know if i can fucking accept that to be fair and i was like, like, if you, is, am I fucking seeing things here?

1:30:12Text back two hours later, I said, I said, you were right, is everything all right? He went, yeah, I'm just polishing off the Chinese that you brought me in the missus. And it was like a fucking 30 quid order. And I was like, I'm not arsed, like, you're eating, you're telling me that you're skint and people are never as skint as what they make out, ever, ever, ever. And, you know, I've looked after the people, that looked after me, sound. But there's some that I wish I'd just fucking literally... I didn't give loads away. Like, it's not loads, but even if it was like 20 quid and they're still cutting me off, it's still a liberty, isn't it?

1:30:50Do you know what I mean? Like, it's not... I would never disrespect him like that. And when I went on to see him on Sunday, after I finished, I'd left the missus. Left the missus. and went to me for a pint in Ketrin before I left for Norfolk. Met up and I remember him, he came in and I'd seen him for a few years. We just went back to normal again. I wanted to kick his head in before I saw him. And I thought he's going to come in here. I'm just going to stand there fucking whacking around the head just to fucking get me point across. But he's me brother at the end of the day. What's Lee Fleek new?

1:31:27It's getting a lot more quiet. And it's quiet, peaceful. i'm in love and it's just it's nice i've got businesses on track um so obviously said about investing in property and um yeah going in so technically entrepreneur don't know what i don't really got a title but i'm someone who wants to invest in a franchise um the norfolk trade center is the parent company or the trade group um the trade center group is the parent franchise company if you want um and they want to spread out and um yeah we offer everything from custom workwear and got my sticks and like high vis boots workwear all different specs and because it's all funneled back to the main hub it looks after the local area so norfolk's given me an extraordinary life as we know and it was an opportunity for me to give back so make everything that little bit better in price for the locals as much as we've had banter between us and there's been a few fall hours but i do love it around norfolk i love it i love living there it's got its own like it's got a character to it right and everyone will go now you're going into business because you want to earn money well yeah but if you wanted to do it you fucking do it then everyone who goes into business is taking a gamble but this one is a tried and tested um uh business model i can't go too far into it but it's it's it's there and it's with the two the two fellows who i'm going into with it our business potential business partners they believe in me they've made me um they've inspired me to come back to who i am like adam lopez the I miss and love and miss so much and I'm nearly there now.

1:33:25And if I put that together, I pair that with making up Fully in Love and this franchise takes off and I said, don't say a name, my partner with Fully in Love. Yeah, once they're all aligned, I'll be back, but a lot more defined version of what I want to be. But then I have to pair this all. None of this works without my health being where it needs to be. And you hit two very big things on the head there. You knew straight. You knew anyway. You know the score. Do you know what I mean? Don't take a rocket science. It's either snow. I know it's the blood clot, but I could do more to help them disappear.

1:34:08So I'm on warfarin, and warfarin helps the blood not stick, which allows the blood to remove the blood clots. And I could do a lot more. I could do a lot more. I could and he said I will now honestly I sat there and I listened to you and it was like another surreal moment of sitting here with you and I was like yeah he's bang on and he's like yeah he's saying everything right and I sat there and he was like yeah I fucking just listen there's someone else telling James to tell you to fucking sort yourself out so none of this works without my health but some things coming from people you don't really know helps more massively you know and it's not nice like when I was fucking bad on the gambling and the gear people told me all the time but I knew best I would just fuck them off I'd cause an argument that I didn't have to speak to them so like it's I've been there I've done it I wore the t-shirt and there's it's just the way you said it we're all the great pretenders no matter who it is you know and it's all about trying to find that sort of balance and enjoy life you know and you can see how emotional you are speaking about family but that's the key element of sorting things up and sometimes putting your hands up but we don't want to admit defeat of guilt sometimes but it's all I think that's when you've got that clean slate because our mums know everything no matter how much we hide no matter how much we lie they see through the bullshit would you ever change anything from the past if you could what would it be there's no point there's no point in changing from the past because I wouldn't be sitting here with her I can't lie like I've had I've not had a bad life I've always like being the I was brought up well like my uncle's in construction it was my uncle's company I was the fucking boss's I was the boss's nephew and as much as I grew up with the lads and I love you all before you fucking start and we had some laughs lodging away I was still growing up and I was very immature excuse me I was very immature and And I was annoying.

1:36:15I was annoying at school. But I was the little tanned Mexican kid in school when the racism was still there with a lot of people. So it was harder for me to fit in at primary school to going to secondary school. It was the same thing. It wasn't racism at work by any means, but it was the same sort of not fitting in feeling at work. But this time the problem was I was the boss's nephew. And then we got out on the piss. One of the best jobs in the world we've ever done, right? It was Livingston. and we stayed in Linlifco. There was a massive Tesco distribution warehouse they did in Livingston and we laid the concrete for her.

1:36:50And there was two gangs. There was the English gang and the Scottish gang. They said, which one do you want to go in? I said, yeah, we'll go to Scotland. We was lodging away in these little cabins in Linlifco, 50p in the metres and everything. It was like going back in time. But it created a fucking, like, it was like, fucking hell, just put us in a hotel. Do you know what I mean? I don't have to keep paying for electric. I'm lodging away to work for you. Do you know what I mean? and it just sort of like it was niggles and i tried going back to the english gang and then it was like oh yeah because you fucking his nephew you know you can just do what you want and it honestly i was fucking just had enough of it i love the lads we all still talk now they're they're my they're my elders and that's not a dig that way is a little bit but um i wouldn't change anything i would change sorry sorry i would change no i'm gonna stick with it i'm gonna stick with it because if you changed if you if you go back and change the past you you're never going to know you know things might not happen for you you don't know what's going to happen in the next fucking five minutes do you know what i mean so why i'd rather i'd be more excited about knowing obviously we're never going to know but i'm more excited about what's to come because of like there's there's factors in my life now that are changed and it's i mean i'm on the right tracks now so it's i know that there's once these these four key factors are all done and in place that my life is going to be where i want it to be again and it's not it will take literally it won't take many months of dedication to get that initial period out of the way to make them all connect but it's eliminating the negatives 100 yeah because when i opened the door to one everyone fucking came through not just the booze the gear the gambling it was it was five or six The overeating Everything came with it Fucking everything But when I started Eliminate one at a time Better things happened Yeah Less arguments Better father Better son Nobody else was to blame When there was disagreements It was either me Who was causing it So it was everything I eliminated all the negatives By eliminating the stuff That I was doing So everybody that's got Problems in life Is exactly them That's creating the problems No matter how many fingers We can point That's only From my own life You know everybody's different But you'll tend to see this 99.9 % spot on when everybody else is this and that and blaming we're the fucking issue you have to want to change yeah you have to want to change and it's the same if you help someone else they have to want to change and when they don't and you try and help you think you fucking wanker you're wasting me time you have to identify the people that have to want like they want to change so if they don't you fucking piss in the wind don't you know what i mean and it's that but it's like you say it's the self-awareness of yourself self-awareness and me of what now I know and I've been fucking honest with myself and even now 100 % after today after what you said to me about me mum and I appreciate it I really do and it's made me aware of that that you know get that right as well life's too short as well very short mate it's also a life of two halves mate because the first half weren't it wasn't shit but it wasn't easy but you know when I say it's a short life It's not a great life The streets are good But it's not a great life When you're You're dealing with So many different situations Internally Because you talk about Noises and voices That's just through Stresses and pressures And always trying to Make everybody else happy There's no point To try to make everybody else happy If you ain't happy yourself Certainly And that was me The loudest man in the room Bit of gear Booze Birds Yeah I thought I was the Billy Big Bollocks But nobody's seen me The Tuesday The Wednesday The Thursday When I was trying to recover Crying and depressed And thinking I was a failure You know and the sad thing is if you're winning lotteries and got a bit of dough when you're lying in hospital people are happy but they'll still text you hope you're okay deep inside they think fucking smug cunt buying cars and champagne who do you think you are?

1:40:40not many people want to see you win either and I am going through a bit of shit the now and you know who's wanting to ride that storm with you and you know who's wanting to run for cover the majority of fuckers run for cover but the beautiful thing is me, I'm very calculated I'll wait a year two years, five years you know and I think okay let's go now and it's it's never finished and they say silence is here which is it is important sometimes is to do it all behind the scenes and then pop up and say look I'm still doing it you know yeah what about where do you think your life would be if you never won the lottery I'd probably still be fucking driving the floor if doing the same shit being unhappy I'd still be going to the gym regular that's one thing it's the regularity with a gym because it'll be like every now and then do you know what I mean it's like going to the pool and there's no fucking effort there i know there isn't this being real myself um work made me go to the gym regular um it made me value my time better value my time more it made me use my time a lot more efficiently um by the end of the day i was still getting up for 45 hours a week for someone else's dream and if you're willing to do that then you should be willing to get up for the probably it doesn't matter how many hours it is because you're chasing your own dreams but if you're willing to do that for someone else you should be willing to do it for yourself and all and that's what takes me on to that's what took me on to you know uh potentially going to the this franchise so it's just like without the win i would never have been able to have these like the opportunities i've had and stuff like that but if not i was happy i was i was in a comfort zone for so i've been in comfort zone for fucking 39 years let's be honest 100 % of my life not so much at the minute probably last six months i haven't but up to the win yeah i was i was just happy oh sweet you got work having next couple of weeks sweet and that was it i was just working with day bang pub after work and and everything else it was just like yeah i'll probably still be doing the same thing because i wasn't a driven person i wasn't a driven person but it's the winning has made me realize how much you how much you like you can achieve with you don't even like you don't need the millions you literally if you learn excuse me if you learn how to how money works how economy works and how credit works um and how once you've righted them wrongs like righted your credit a credit's a big one once you've you've righted all them wrongs and you know got rid of all the black spots and your credit and learned a little bit about business and i've learned a lot It's been like a fucking intensive crash course over the last six months.

1:43:24Once you learn all that, it's not hard to like... It's not that hard to go and be your own boss and do your own thing. And, you know, a lot of people say, you know, you see all these people online, the property people online and YouTube on the reels and shorts and stuff like that. And they like, they make it sound so easy. And I used to think that. I was like, yeah, but it's all right for you because you're doing it. Yeah, but if you read up about this person, that's how they started. everybody thinks it's a scam but in reality all they're doing is giving you they're showing you what to do and they're showing you this it's showing you that these are the steps i started with 15 grand he said it didn't even involve luck and it was like some property my i've got his name they were there based in england but they um once you realize that you there's things to look for yes so there's not a scam or anything like that but once you realize what to do and it it's like a a blueprint that you can transfer to different things in business yeah it's palms Yeah.

1:44:19Think and grow rich. You interviewed the 500th most wealthy people in the world and they've kind of got the same patterns. Yep. All it is is seeing what you want, find that goal, find that vision and just work until you get it. Yep. Too many people struggle because they fail, but the failure is where the success is, that's where the goal is and it's pushing through that. That's exactly it. It's easy to be successful because nobody wants to carry through the pain or the journey or the hate or the negativity. One bit of negativity can put you back in your shell and that's where people live their whole life not really fulfilling the potential so life is a fucking beautiful thing and i always have to keep saying it because social media is making us feel as if it's in chaos sometimes i'm part of that by thinking that myself because social media kind of program me that way but you can get anything out of life it's just how much work you want to put into it how you feeling today adam mate honestly it's been an absolute pleasure being here today I apologise for the times the first time I couldn't help it was a bit of a blip and I do apologise about that but it's nice I respect one thing I've learned is I have to respect people's time and it's another self-awareness thing but time is a commodity we can't buy and honestly I appreciate it so much you come through the door earlier on I was like fucking hell James I was like a little fanboy I was like fucking hell honestly mate it's a pleasure meeting you it really is and an absolute honour to be on here.

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1:48:09And Carlton Leach, you know, you've had some, you've had some, and to be amongst that list, absolute honour and a privilege. It really has been. And I really appreciate his time as well. Yeah, well, likewise, listen, I appreciate everybody. Yes, thank you. I'll get a lot of chokes up a little bit. I really do appreciate it. About people's stories, I don't have the life that I've got, but I think it's a good exchange of people get the good exposure. to get other things but hopefully this can kickstart you into a cleaner chapter it's a new year just eliminate the negatives we don't need to speak about them on camera but you know it needs to be done yourself but I know whatever you're battling you're battling more than what you're putting out of cameras today but listen I appreciate the best Adam and like I say I'm always there if you need me you've got my number thank you very much yeah you know what needs to be done maybe get you back on when you've put all your fucking eggs I appreciate it I was left yeah we can talk about do you know what that was a day I think trying for the better right brah but listen would you like to finish up on anything else?

1:49:02um i'll see you and i'll see you in six months yeah let's do it we'll see how we get on yeah thank you very much