Saweetie: Blocked Numbers & Birkin Bags

0:02What is up daddy gang? It is your founding father Alex Cooper with call her daddy. Saweetie, welcome to Call Her Daddy. Hey, girl. Finally. Finally. It's like inappropriate that it took this long for us. You know what I mean? You came to my tour and you went so fucking hard. The daddy gang was taking their tops off for you, screaming for you. Oh, you didn't see that? I didn't see that. Upper balcony titties. Really? I know that's my pretty titty committee. And I had the best time with you. and I was saying to you earlier like everyone was like so we don't get a fucking episode and I'm like it's coming it's coming it's coming how are you today I'm good you look amazing you look amazing can we talk about your nails I feel like you're like very known for going hard with your nails what inspired these nails today and when I say these I'm also talking about your toenails well I always get bling on my feet I've been wearing um white toenail polish since I don't know my 20s i need like a white polish nail deal any other color my feet look weird i do feel like no one can go wrong with white toenails but you have more than like white on your feet so weedy that's like glitter crystals i wouldn't be surprised if that's a motherfucking diamond down there it's chrome it's some diamond how long does it take to do these nails it can rain sometimes it's two hours sometimes it could be eight to ten hours if it's like freestyling like custom art paint and then jewels it takes time it's like drawing a mirror on your fingers what the fuck are you doing for 10 hours girl I try to have meetings I try to like multitask during my nail appointments just so I can like get things done I am like the opposite where I'm like if I'm putting on like a fake nail if it takes more than an hour I'm like I gotta go they're like but we haven't finished your last nail I'm like I don't care I have I am like so impatient when it comes to my nails and looking at you say I'm like and those are not press-ons but what inspired these is I shot two Christmas music videos and um I needed to get into the the holiday season so these actually have snowflakes on them and a reindeer we are you a big Christmas person yes I'm Filipino like Christmas is such a big deal in our culture okay because I always whenever someone's coming out with Christmas music I'm always like hold on are you as obsessed with christmas as me because i go so fucking hard like what do you do oh i turn to my husband every single year and i'm like it's september and he's like we are not getting a tree alex okay real trees are fake trees i have a real one in my living room and i go so fucking hard because like the minute fall happens i'm i'm ready for fucking christmas and i want to like edge towards Christmas I don't want just December to be Christmas like I want the whole fall experience to be leading up to the main event if that makes sense so my entire house I'm decorating but last year I didn't do the outside of my house like do you do your house um I just do inside my living room okay yes yeah you're like making it cozy yeah making it cozy what is your favorite Christmas tradition Christmas Eve with my family what do you do like we open up presents that night not on Christmas Day.

3:17Oh, but like my favorite childhood memories would be like my mom's mom cooking Filipino food, hella food, doing karaoke. And then at 12 o 'clock, we'd all open up our presents. I always used to be like, please let us open our presents on Christmas Eve. And my mom would be like one. And then I was always like the freak that was like trying to like open them and then rewrap them at night. No, I was like, so my mom was like, well, then you're not getting any your presence but i was like i'm obsessed and it's just like the best time wait speaking of food i'm swerving but i have heard that you like a lot of like different concoctions of food that maybe some people would be like wait that's gross can you talk to me about some of the things that you're pairing together that are like random but good in your opinion okay so do you like sushi of course okay so like for a tuna roll okay i'll get hot cheetos and i'll smush them up and then I'll drizzle them over the tuna roll that's fucking brilliant it's actually really good but are you bringing the Cheetos in no girl only if I like do some Postmates oh yeah you're not like smuggling in some hot Cheetos you got your big purse and you wait for the waiter to walk away and you're literally like sprinkling not no though like I'm not mad about it okay so cheetos on top of sushi i've read is this true spaghetti with ranch finally a rumor that's true stop when is the first time you tried that honestly i grew up doing that like that was so second natured to me so when i had posted it the first time online i thought nothing of it and then i was trending like an hour later and like why is this causing such a frenzy you're like i've been doing this since I was born yeah since I was born I think also when you're a child like you do some stuff that like people I don't know it's like I guess like however you grow up right but like this is kind of fucking disgusting and I wouldn't do it now but like I'm pretty sure when I was younger I put oh this is gross I'm pretty sure I put ketchup on my mashed potatoes wait but it's like a french fry that's where that's where it period wait would she want to hear something nasty yeah so when i was a little girl in the middle of the night i used to sneak into the fridge and eat butter by itself and one day i got caught by my mom like red-handed like with a whole bunch of butter girl she scared the crap out of me she was like if you continue to eat that butter by itself you're gonna turn into chucky i promise you i never touch butter again shut the fuck up no yes you're just raw dogging it like and biting into it sweetie i know so this wrong with me you're literally like like going in with your teeth yes would you ever smooth it out so no one saw it in the morning or were you just leaving it a little like i was i was going in in the middle of the night as a little kid i i mean listen butter is look at us just fully talking about food we're gonna talk about food the whole fucking episode no um okay your legal name is diamante yes girl does everyone in your life call you that or do they call you Saweetie um some people call me diamante what do your best friends call you it depends tell me it depends from what era they met me at okay so um my childhood best friends they'll call me Dee Dee Dee um my middle school friends will call me Saweetie because that was my myspace name and that's where I had got Saweetie from like my MySpace was so popping I'd be at like high school parties where I'd be at you know walking to school and they'd be like are you Saweetie from MySpace yes what the fuck were you doing on MySpace girl I was coding the fuck out of my page I was you know in the middle of the night sweaty finding all the codes girl I was a nerd so my MySpace was like very aesthetically freezing stop you were a coder from day one I was a coder from for that no gen z has no fucking idea like if you missed the myspace era changing the backgrounds getting your new song hiding your song or hiding your song that nobody knew about you know oh my god and so people literally just knew you because you were fucking cool i mean i guess okay wait but before now take me back before you start your myspace where do you get the name sweetie my grandma yeah how did she give you that name she would just call me her sweetie that's so fucking cute yeah and then i was signing up for myspace and at the time i didn't really like like my name how i love my name now um only because people wouldn't pronounce it right so i was like i don't want to like put it up and then people just don't know how to pronounce my name so i was like i need some fly shit but then i don't want it to be like basic so i put the a between the s and the w and the rest was history who knew then one day that would be like your global name that the entire world knows you as and not just like a MySpace community.

8:13What you want to know what was even crazier is I had started like a business, a hat and a t-shirt business. And my grandma was like, I know you're going to be a big businesswoman one day. I know that you're going to need your name. So she bought Saweetie. She bought me the website Saweetie. Like when I was like, I think I was like 18 years old, 17 or 18 years old. She was like, I know you're going to like do something. So let me just get this for you because as a businesswoman, you're going to need to trademark it. That like gives me chills just because like it seems like you obviously had like a pretty great relationship with your grandmother.

8:48Yeah, she's everything to me. Is she still with us? Yes. Girl, she's 70 going on 21. What does she think of your whole career now? She has mixed emotions. She loves it. But when she hears like the negative press, it stresses her out. But she's a preacher. So she goes to like war for me in prayer. She's like my prayer warrior. So she's constantly praying for me. What do you think stresses her out the most and like what could be negative about you? I think that the fact that she knows that some of the rumors aren't true. And she's just like, why don't you say anything? Like this isn't who you are.

9:21And I'm just like, it's just only going to make the story bigger. So I choose not to address certain things because I don't want to add fuel to the fire. And the best way to get rid of something is to ignore it. So she's just like, yeah, but you know, I know my baby and that's not my baby right there. So, yeah, she just be going through it sometimes. But how did you decide? Like, at what point in your career were you like, do not give a fuck what people say about me? Because it's easier said than done. I have two answers for this. Okay. So the first half, I would say in the earlier on in my career, I would say I would just disassociate myself from Saweetie.

9:55Because there's Diamante and there's Saweetie. I'm like, okay, if y 'all knew Diamante to know me and to love me, y 'all wouldn't be doing all this shitty stuff to me. um so at first it was disassociation but now i'm just so at peace with just who i am i'm like god knows my heart and as long as god knows my heart there's no problem sweetie why are you getting emotional because it took so long to get here tell me about that what do you mean like you're talking about like your journey to get here oh man you're making me cry girl should we take a we went from fucking cheetos and the motherfucking i don't know why that just made me feel that way because i think that when you are someone that is you know yourself like and what it took and everything and then you read like the bullshit and it's such bullshit you're like wait this is what i'm getting reduced to right now like i mean i could be speaking out of turn like i don't know if that's your experience but exactly it's hard to be like guys oh my god no i told myself i wasn't gonna do this today here we are one on a clock on a monday without getting too detailed i'm thinking obviously of like if someone is listening that's like becoming a new fan today or like knows you but it's a little like what the fuck are you guys talking about can you lightly just explain a little bit of what we're talking about like are we talking romantic are we talking friendship are we talking work beef like I think it's everything because as a public figure all parts of my life in those categories are exposed yeah but I think what I get the most sensitive about is my art so I'm like y 'all motherfuckers don't know how much I put into this shit you know I think it is important though to recognize like especially with artists so much goes into it because it's a huge part of you absolutely like you're clearly someone that's not just being handed a script and being like wear this dress like this sing like this like this is you yeah i'm very peculiar so i have to be very involved with everything otherwise i'll get the final product and be like we gotta change this this and that and then it takes away more time so i'd rather just be hands on from the jump

12:23when would you ever pop off on someone like when are you going to actually like what does it take never i never want to go off on somebody because the thoughts that i think are outrageous sweetie yes no my thoughts and i just did my like my vedic um astrology chart okay and then that um in that system my moon is a scorpio so it just lets you know like where my mind can go so i'm like don't fuck with me for real so you're always this calm i try to be because I just know I know myself I can like staring at you right now you're so like even keel like calm like it's nice it's like relaxing actually to like be around you but I'm trying to envision you like like what it takes for someone to like push you over the edge but you rarely let it get to that point no because then they also win yeah also yeah let's talk about that too it's an energy exchange and it's just like I'd rather alchemize the energy like take it and then use this energy for something else like I don't want to give that back to you I feel like that sometimes in romantic relationships it can be hard not to go tit for tat and be like you did this and I did this but it feel like you've kind of gotten to a place where clearly you're like um interestingly it's weird because um sometimes it's like they want a response out of you they don't even appreciate the um the growth and it like annoys them when you're like okay no when you're like okay and they're like wait what the fuck i literally just called you an xyz and your response is no you doing it right there i can only imagine yeah that must drive people insane i mean it's kind of a superpower i'm i'm not as strong as you i i like i I feel the same way sometimes with my words where I'm like I could kill you with my words and I I think I when I was younger in high school and in college if someone came for me or my friend I almost felt like worse when I would see my friend like someone coming for them and I knew they wouldn't speak up for themselves so then I was the friend that was like hold on let me get the fuck in here and I'm gonna say something but then I also realized like who is that helping in that moment like I don't know I feel like sometimes I felt like being like loud and taking charge and putting the person down would like make me feel better but like you're just getting riled up and they're just happy that you're engaging at the same level as them where really when you're like what are you doing they're literally like and they're screaming and they're being insane and you're like what are you good oh man they want to die they want to crawl into a hole they're like oh my god wait wait so I think it's I agree the energy level can be interesting in the way that you interact with someone can like heavily dictate also the way that you leave someone feeling about you absolutely and um it took me a while to get here yeah yeah it I wasn't always this like poised when it came to my reaction so trust me like if as long as you work on it like you'll see yourself evolve yeah yeah your career took off after you released the song icy girl yeah and it's all about wealth and luxury but obviously that's not how your life looked your whole life I remember reading you were saying you would go on Craigslist yes and stay how did that come to be so you know when you get an apartment you have to do first and last first months and last month's rent yes and I was like oh my god so I was like okay how do I how do I um find a loophole and the loophole was Craigslist because when you're running or subletting a room from somebody, you're only just paying for your portion of the rent and it's their name on the lease.

16:11So thankfully, I've had some cool roommates. My two favorite, oh my gosh, bless this old lady's heart. There was a, there was an older lady in Studio City and she had a guest house. And I stayed in, I stayed in her guest house. And then there was another woman who I stayed with in Sherman Oaks um her I think her roommate was had to go back and renew his visa so I had subleted his room and I was just like being blessed with all these good roommates that were clean nice respectful I was supposed to say you can have some like horror stories I feel like for roommates well honestly you have to trust your gut like I'd go see some places and I'd be I wouldn't like mess with the energy and I'd like I gotta go you like knew immediately I knew immediately and also a red flag um for any um people who do do it anybody who is super eager and pressing you to rent a room i wouldn't trust that yeah that is good advice yeah i don't know why but when you're when you're thirsty and eager to like have a stranger come rent a room like i don't trust that personality trait yeah you're like why are you desperate yeah why are you desperate like i i want i want to work for a little bit yeah i don't know that something just be off a little bit that is like beautiful to know though that you had like a positive experience with that because it's weird in life when you like get matched up with people that you would probably would have never met yeah and then that like has a lasting impact on you and at such like a pivotal time for you where you were like looking for a home and trying to get to the next step of your career and to have someone be so beautiful and like lovely towards you yeah that completely changes the dynamic as opposed to if you went with one of the fucking freaks that was like come on yeah come on exactly tonight exactly that's the vibe like where would i be if i took that offer um let's talk about your love life uh-huh what's happening are we seeing anybody are we in a relationship are we single i am seeing somebody yeah talk to me um their name starts with a c i thought you were gonna say their name you want to know their name kind of my career girl sweetie

18:26no not me being like oh my god fuck she's really down today you're like um christian damn okay you're dating your career yeah intentionally when did you get off the sauce what does that mean like when did you be like i'm not i'm i'm getting off of men for a second i'm not dating i just feel like i'm at a really special time in my career and i just have all these ideas and i want to channel my my energy in a way where i feel like i can make the steps to where I see myself going and you know I'm just really happy right now I'm happy where where my life is heading so I'm dating my career I love that answer I think that like needs to I I wish that was more of my answer when I was younger because I I think sometimes we've naturally feel like wait do I need to get back out there like is it weird that I'm not dating and it's like no I think you need to go through like long periods of time where you can decide what your focus is and i think that's like amazing that you're focusing on your career and then also let me say this i feel like some people who i've dated in the past we would have been better off as creative partners um there was this tiktok you know sometimes tiktok be having the information groom there's this woman and i wish i knew her handle because i'm so grateful for um this wisdom she had provided but she was basically saying that sexual energy and creative energy comes from the same place and when you confuse the energy you can sometimes you know make I wouldn't say the wrong decision but you can lean in more into the sexual energy but then that ruins the creative energy because you've already depleted the energy that's such a good point like anyone that ends up have even if you're not in your specific industry like people listening like I get it there's so many people that write into me about like work relationships and I get what you're saying and that's a great fucking tick tock because it's like the way that you can feel when you complete a project or you get to the next level of your career or you guys go to a fucking presentation and you crush it it's like that feeling of like oh we we have to rip our clothes off and it's like no it's a different way of finishing I fucking love you um what if we were dating uh-huh what is it like to date you well i don't know if all of your exes were in this room right now what would that nightmare i wonder what that conversation would be like what do you think they would all say is there a theme a theme oh my gosh girl you have to ask them would that be happy vibes or like bad vibes if exes were in this room i think happy vibes really yeah because like i don't really like no matter what happens i like girl i just be happy i'm a happy i'm naturally just a happy person so i'd be like damn you did some shady shit but i'm like my energy is so disconnected from you that i can i cannot associate myself with what happened between us and just look at you as a regular human being oh that's so nice i think a lot of people wish they could feel that way like they could not get so wrapped up in you hurt me and you did this to me and like how dare you like but also something we have to unpack too is a lot of men have unaddressed trauma that they don't face and they project it on their partners so sometimes I'd be thinking about stuff and I'd be like what happened to you in your childhood no actually no right so then it makes me look at what they did to me because I know that they really love me yeah like I know that so I'm just like you got some things to unpack you should probably handle that because if you were to handle that then we probably would have worked out it's such a mature way to look at things like essentially also what you're saying is like it has nothing to do with you and that's I think hard for people sometimes to accept like if someone is listening to this and just got cheated on and you can't help but sometimes think like what did I do wrong or what did I not give them or what and it's like most of the time it literally has nothing to do with you which is a weird thing because you almost like want to be able to pinpoint in yourself what you could change so it never happens again but half of the time it's literally on the other individual like you were doing fucking great yeah you were thriving sweetie right and I knew that I was a good girlfriend so it's like I'm like something wrong with you I like that answer okay in one of your songs you describe your type as someone who makes eight figures and is eight inches what other qualities do you look for in a partner somebody who has high emotional intelligence moment of silence for that

23:23we're like come to us we're summoning you

23:35but legit if they don't have that i agree with you but how do you even get to the point where you can figure out like are they a sweet talker or are they actually like with it emotionally that they can hang with me honestly just experience we have to experience a unique situation and that tells anybody how somebody is yeah that's true like the honeymoon stage can be so easy daddy gang like you can be like oh love the sex the conversations and then you hit like one bump in the road someone has a problem with family or finances or insecurity jealousy and all of a sudden how do you guys handle that right it's a good point okay it seems like you have a type do you um do you know what do you know what i'm gonna say what do you think your type is bro what's my type you said you brought it up you brought it up it's your show

24:40rappers okay let's talk about it okay okay so for example if you're at a high school right you tend to date i mean high school or whatever let's just call it whatever the proximity is Yes. You're going to date what you're around. Yes. And I think that's why I found myself in those situations, because these are the only people that I'm around. However, you know, I'd like to go to a new environment. Ain't no wrong with that. Do you think you would venture out? Well, me and my career is doing just fine right now. So, you know, I like that answer, though, because I think there's nothing wrong with a type.

25:20and I also think it's but I wouldn't even call it my like a type I think it's just because of the proximity of where I'm always at these are the people who I'm only engaging and seeing you know yes I remember like back in the day I would talk about how I had a pattern pattern is better than a type what can we be like no it was just like a little pattern I had a pattern of dating athletes how is that by the way so oh dating athletes yeah you know

25:55it's it'll fuck you up but it'll make you it's just it depends actually what sport too okay what's the difference so let's break it down for icy gang and daddy yeah yeah okay so baseball players okay i find that they are sometimes the sketchiest really because they're on the road they have 160 something games a year okay so they're on the road at all times okay and they're playing so many fucking games where as opposed to football it's like 16 fucking games and like they're not allowed to have girls in the hotel room it's super strict for football it's like we got 16 fucking games motherfucker bear down and focus right baseball it's like another day another game and so it's kind of more of like a relaxed environment so there's road beef in every fucking city we got minnesota road beef we've got miami road beef and they literally like call it road what's road beef women oh oh hell no so we're the like and i remember at least be some wagyu but just to confirm i am the wagyu ground beef taco meat no so in college I remember I was dating this guy and I would be around his single like baseball athletes and the way that they would talk about it was so concerning because it was just like every fucking city there was a different rotation because I think it's like they're just on the move and they're looking like it's almost like when you're in a bubble whether you're like it doesn't even feel like real life when I was like living that life with them like they're just every fucking day is this groundhog day they wake up they go to the field they come home they have a drink at the bar they meet the girl they go to sleep they do it the next day in the same fucking city so I would say baseball players are like lethal they seem so clean cut no um I never date soccer players because that didn't really do it for me and hockey players great great butts um no teeth great butts and they're kind of I thought they were better than baseball players really still players but like a little nicer i've never been attracted to athletes that's probably for the best but then again because like i come from a family full of athletes so it just always feels like like you my cousin like you know i don't want to fuck my cousin yeah so i've never because i've never talked to an athlete really never i think you also wouldn't have time for them it's so on their schedule and i think you have such a busy schedule you've got to be very available for an athlete like you got to be up and ready to pick up and go their life and you don't have time for that shit no girl i literally i mean you know this i shot into like four in the morning last night and now you're here and now i'm here

28:55are you typically making the first move are they um i have made the first move before and is that like you going up to them and approaching them or are you what's what are you walking up 10 toes down and what are you saying

29:12let's reenact it i mean it's just a mess okay okay it's like the vibe in the setting but you're totally down to go up someone yeah i love that yeah like if you see something go for it absolutely what is the boldest way that you've ever put yourself out there for a guy no okay this is high school okay high school okay actually in high school i talked to um an athlete yeah there we go but after high school no done i remember it was my senior year and i had a crush on this boy and i was like dang i only got one more year to see him on campus the clock is running out is running out you know he was like um i was big in volleyball i was doing my thing and he was playing football and we had a um like an athlete room where like the football players would come review their tapes and then we played during the same season so you know the volleyball girls would come in there and it felt like one big family how do I like get him because he was shy yeah girl so it's rush week so I go and I was like I have a plan so me and my plan get together and it's lunch and we're all sitting in the room and finally I'm like um I tap him I'm like um oh somebody wants to go speak to you outside he he was like who i was like you know like probably one of the organizations it is rush week and he was like oh okay because you know sometimes a recruit yeah and if you weren't an athlete you couldn't come into the the room yeah it was like taboo like heavily frowned upon so we walk outside and we start walking and he was like who was it and I was like me what did he say he started laughing it's kind of like really really forward and I love it he started laughing and he goes like why and I'm just like because I wanted to talk to you did you end up going on a date um hooking up we like falling in love we started to go to each other's games I mean everybody was already going to the football games because um They were winning that year.

31:17And then they were already coming to the volleyball games. Because you know how the football players got to practice? Yeah. But we intentionally started going to each other's games to support each other. And then we would go to In-N-Out afterwards. Because that was the high school club. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Open until 1 a.m. in the morning on the weekends. But yeah, I would go over to his house. And his family would cook for me. I would do my homework over there. So it worked out. Oh, well, not worked out. But I mean, like, oh, what happened? Did he cheat on you? No, I got bored. So I had to break up with him.

31:57You got bored? Yeah. And I was like, I think we'd be better off as friends. Shout out wherever you are today. We love you. But I was honest. You were? Yeah. I'm very straightforward. If I feel like something's not working out, like, I'll tell you. I feel like we're not working out. okay what is the craziest thing an ex has ever done to you give us a fucking story come on sweetie come on this is call her daddy bitch craziest thing go this actually has happened to me twice i don't know where men get their information but i've had like i've broken up with people and they found me what what does that mean we like they'll show up to my hotel and be like room service shut the fuck up yeah it's happened to me play room service yes and what the cherry on top is they try to make their voices high-pitched they go room service if only there was a fucking camera outside that room of them like girl but i know but but then it's like they cover the picot do you let them in i did i did i like and you found me you find me you're like somehow you're spinning it you're like kind of romantic you put in the work you found me how have you been someone to historically get back with exes or once you're done are you done um I feel like once I'm done I'm done except for when they show up to the hotel um I feel like those were like mini breakups okay like it was like we were going through something I might have blocked them classic it probably was like a couple days or a couple weeks yeah and i'm just like it's like a soft breakup you know not a hard break yeah yeah are you a big blocker i'm a big blocker send you a paragraph and block your ass and i want to see them bubbles popping up so i know that you try to get sick i'm obsessed how long because i'm assuming then you unblock i've unblocked before but there's people who are still on my block list it's been years oh and you don't even wonder no I don't because I think that I remember I had a friend that like we would always talk about this back in the day when I was in my blocking phase and she would always say like I don't know how you block people like I need to see what they're gonna say like it's so interesting to me and I'm like really like I kind of want it to just fade into the abyss I love that go to the abyss I kind of don't know what you're gonna say and like and then you can kind of like create what you think they would say in your head but I kind of don't want to know right okay wow you're hitting paragraph then blah you're a genius what is your stance on keeping gifts from an ex um it really just depends okay you know like if it's a custom one-on-one I'm keeping it custom one-on-one yeah like what is a custom one-on-one that you have you know it's a couple things

34:54jewelry jewelry purse purses what's the nicest bag of guys ever bought you i would say a customized birkin and he sent it to me before i met him

35:13what what i don't have what i'm i'm i'm a very talkative person i don't have words yeah it was like some player shit it was my birthday um i was single and um you know we were like casually talking and he was like um what's your address isn't your birthday coming up and i was like yeah like oh that's nice he's gonna send me flowers what's funny is so my birthday passes it's a week my maids have cleaned you know my condo and he hits me up and he's like um so did you like your birthday present and I'm like I never got it and he goes um it should have came in this kind of box so then I text my maids and they're like oh yeah we put the box in the um the guest room because we didn't know what it was so I open up the box bitch I hit that group chat you're like I was like It was nice.

36:06How long after then did you meet him in person? Oh, for a while. What? Yeah, I was working a lot. You had a whole ass Birkin before meeting a man? You have the voodoo clam.

36:22He didn't even meet you and he knew. But how long did that relationship go? Too long or short? I wouldn't even say it was a relationship. Interesting. no it was just like my player partner like did he gift you a lot of things yeah red flag no because like you own it no i think i think that might have been his love language you know interesting like i didn't see it as like oh he's a trick or he's yeah like i really appreciated his gifts they were very like thought out the amount of women watching this that are like note to self find a man whose love language is customized birkins um okay worst way that you found out that you've gotten cheated on before no she almost up and left the room she just got up oh my heart boss

37:21if you're listening to this not watching so we basically just levitated into the air and flipped off the chair i'm gonna take a little sippy sip oh my god no bad no oh my goodness gracious you i just spilled my water on me i need a napkin aaron can you please that reaction holy shit jesus jesus christ okay okay so i remember i was talking to this guy right okay and it was new year's and i was like oh my gosh like i'm just so happy to see this person and we go out for New Year's, it's a great night. And we go back to the hotel. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is the most perfect New Year's ever. Like we're out of town.

38:10It's just like the vibes were vibing. You could feel the energy in the streets. Like love was in the air. It's the new year, new me. It's like all these great things happening. And I'm just like, I felt like I was in a movie. So we get back to the hotel. and I remember I had got a call from like a childhood friend and when I had picked up the phone I put it on speaker because I had nothing to hide and I'm like oh happy new years he was like happy new years I love you like you've been killing this shit like keep going so I'm like you too like love you too happy new years I hang up he's so like drunk that he misinterprets the call and was like you like wow like okay like i know that y 'all be doing this this and that you know projecting like he couldn't believe that i had a plutonic relationship with this person and this person's my childhood friend okay nothing is going on okay um so he starts cussing me out he was like i would never do this to you he was like man you can go through my phone my code is and I go oh it's I put the code in my phone and I'm thinking he's probably just like drunk you know right it's not the real code so finally he goes to sleep so it's time to investigate investigate investigate investigate so I'm like okay so I saved the code girl I said and it goes you know it's like oh I'm like wow that easy girl this man has been playing me the whole time no but I knew it was like a sickness because it was like all types of women really yeah did you go for the iMessages first or the pictures um I went I went to the assistant group chat we I went to the assistant messages because you know the assistant set up everything for like the man oh oh and then i was typing in keywords like genius genius so it's pulling up all the receipts yeah girl and i remember i had got so sick but then so numb that i didn't care because it wasn't like it wasn't like one person you know you know like it's not you're not obsessing over one person it's like okay no you have a sickness right like this is you can't stop yourself you can't stop yourself what word did you type into the search bar girl anything that's used you're like you're like p-u-s-s-y thousand fucking jesus christ you're like no that's crazy and so when he wakes up in the morning what are we doing

41:13girl girl girl girl girl you know what time was had i'm like oh really you a tough guy stop so okay back to the beginning of these this episode when i was like what can get you on a different tilt did you enter that different tilt is what you're Girl, I went to a different dimension.

41:42Girl,

41:46craziest night of my life. My best friend was staying in the same hotel as us. I'm just like, I was like the audacity. And then what made me like, I always had add humor to like my pain. So I'm just kind of like, how did this boy get mad over a simple conversation? Yet here you are doing ABCDEFGXYZ, you know? No, that's when it's so crazy because I've had an ex like that where he was cheating and I, like he would always get so anxious and say things about me if it was like the most innocent, like we, I don't even know that person. Like, wait, what? Like, here's my phone. Like, I don't know. And when they're so hard on you for that shit, eventually you have to be like, well, what the fuck are you doing that your brain is even on that tilt?

42:32because I'm not even thinking. But it made me realize that when someone does that to you, it's because that's what they would do. So they're projecting from their experience. Yes. Yeah. How long did you stay in that situation? Then did you leave? Did you leave that day? It's okay if you didn't. No, but let's just say, yeah, girl. So we were out of town and yeah, girl.

43:15I have never had someone answer a question like that. And yet it says so many words.

43:30Okay, wow. So it ended eventually though. Yeah, it ended. Clearly.

43:51Where do you draw the line of forgiving someone when you find out they cheated? Honestly, I was younger. so like i um for me it was like oh this is definitely a deal breaker but you know when like you're in love with somebody it's just kind of like okay well i can't just delete you out of my life like this yeah um but right now like in my adult years like it's definitely a deal breaker for me and in that moment i think i would like tell that person like you probably have to figure out why you're doing this yeah you know that makes sense when it comes to your music what is fair game of like writing songs about people that have screwed you over or you've been in love with like where do you draw the line I think I keep it ambiguous okay yeah and I feel like from my album I am going into deeper subjects and I'm really excited about that I feel like I'm in my diamond era like I've what I came in as an icy girl but through all this pressure that I placed on myself and all the pressure that I've experienced with the industry I feel like it's pressurized me into this this diamond that's ready to shine I fucking love that for you obviously I know you have been teasing an album for a while when can people expect it to come out definitely next year okay yeah why was it so important for you to wait to release it i feel like i finally know myself like when i felt like i was constantly in this weird transition phase especially with recording like what am i even talking about but with who i am now i know what my public messaging is okay christmas songs we need to talk about this i'm in my car i'm like oh oh oh and like we said at the beginning of this episode i fucking love christmas you love christmas talk to me about deciding to do these two Christmas songs like how did you decide to do this well you know I love icy season because I'm an icy girl and it's just like I gotta give something to the icy gang this winter so I wanted to create like two songs or we spoke to the two different sides of Christmas I got big Santa where I'm like big daddy what you getting me and then my other Christmas song is a little bit more you know softer it's like catered to you vibes like not only like what can you give me but what can I give you oh my god so weedy it's good like everything that you do and put out all of your music is such a vibe and I think like again I'm happy I got to talk to you today for a longer period of time than just like meeting you on tour but like watching you on stage at my tour was such a spiritual experience truly all of us were like holding hands and gripping each other being like she's fucking insane even to the point where my team had texted me when you were in sound check being like oh this is gonna be the best yet like you guys don't even know you're so talented and you have such a presence on stage and just like as a person that I think is so exciting to see what you're going to obviously continue to do but like I'm obviously so excited for the album and you know we we want it sweetie we we want it um I want to ask just because I know obviously your fans are going to be watching this like what is one goal that you have for yourself coming up in this new year and like your career that you want to like share with your fans um i want to be in an action film like a tomb raider or like a like a colombiana oh something with just action because i really love like doing stunts and i'm a sporty girl right um but i love a good heroine That is the last thing I expected and yet like I can see it.

47:32Wait, are you like going to make that happen? I would like for it to happen. God, do you hear me? Yeah. Yeah. Like here we go. Anybody watching this in Hollywood? Hello. Wow. And I auditioned too. I'm not one of those people where I feel like I can just show up and get the role. Like I'll be sending in audition tapes. Yeah. I guess like last question is like, what do you think? What do you think is the biggest misunderstanding about you? I'm not sure what the collective thinks because everybody has their own opinion. But one thing that I do get a lot is that when people meet me, they say that they didn't expect this.

48:08I guess it's a common response that I get. But it's for the better because they'd be like, wow, the compliments are different. But for some reason, there's been a disconnect with who I am and what my perception to the world is. Yeah. That's interesting because I, I, I guess like I agree and disagree. Like when I listen to your music, it's so confident. Like you put this shit on and you're like, I'm going to fucking feel good when I'm listening to your music. And I think everyone feels that way. And it's, it's like a experience that you literally feel in your body where you're like, oh, fuck yes.

48:49Like I'm about to pop my pussy tonight. Let's fucking go. and then meeting you you are a multi-dimensional person like you're not just the person that's hyping everyone up like you have this like sweet sensitive side that I'm like meeting today and I met in Oakland and I think that's something that we don't get to see as often with artists because understandably like we're listening to music but when we are so fortunate to get to also get to know the personality behind the music. I have found through my job, and it's my favorite part of my job, when I meet someone and they are a little bit different than maybe the main public persona that's being pushed, because I think it's, again, just shows people, like, we don't know everything.

49:34Like, you can listen to a song and think that people know you. You can go listen to one of my episodes and be like, oh, she's this one way. But understandably, like I'm gonna be different when I'm having a fun episode versus when I'm talking about like trauma and shit you know what I mean like we show up in different ways for different moments of our life and I feel like you're such a beautiful person that I'm so happy that I got to sit with you because I didn't know as much about you as now I I'm happy to know and like I love you I think you're like such a great fucking vibe and I'm so happy that we've gotten to connect on this level because I don't I like sitting with people and getting to know them more and you're amazing no thank you and today like I realized why you're number one stop yes this was such a a comfortable safe and fun experience girl you almost had me crying in the beginning you almost had me crying I was heaving I was like hold on bitch don't drop a tear no I really appreciate you going there with me though because again like everything we see online it can come off as fake and i think when you get to do long form shit like this you actually get a chance to like start to finish like people now are going to understand you more not that you need to give that to them but like you're a great fucking person so why not so thank you oh my god sweetie we did it thanks for coming and call our daddy thank you

51:05Thank you.