If Paying Off Debt Is Taking Over Your Life: Listen To This (Bonus)

0:00If you're paying off debt and it feels like it's consuming your entire brain, your thoughts, your energy, your mood, you're not failing. You're exhausted. Because debt payoff isn't about money. It's about the mental load of carrying high interest debt every single day and owing somebody else money. That lack of control is the part that almost nobody talks about. This episode is for people who are technically managing it, but emotionally barely getting through. This is the pep talk you need to keep going.

0:45Tiffany Aliche:If you are new to Financial Feminist, welcome. My name is Tori. I am a multimillionaire. I'm a money expert, and I've helped over 5 million women be better with money. And before we get into the rest of the episode, we're going to do so many valuable things today, including talking about all of the emotions of debt because you already know this is not really about your money. This is not really about finances or numbers. This is about how you feel day to day. If you just want a resource right now, you can go to herfirst100k.com slash FFpod where we are doing a five-day debt payoff challenge. It is free.

1:17There's no reason every single person listening to this shouldn't sign up. Again, herfirst100k.com slash FFpod to sign up for our free five-day debt payoff challenge. Let's talk about it. Let's talk about debt as cognitive labor. Because as we've discussed many times on this show, money is not about numbers or about finances. It is about your emotions. It is about your psychology, right? And the truth is when you are in debt and especially high interest debt, meaning credit card debt or a high amount of debt,

1:52Tiffany Aliche:like most people have tens of thousands of dollars of student loans, it is very easy for this to no longer be a financial problem, but for this to be an emotional problem. The logic behind debt payoff is shockingly simple, but what actual debt payoff demands is tracking your balances, is remembering due dates. It's constantly watching your interest undo your progress, especially with debt that compounds, meaning that the interest on your loans then earns more interest. The cognitive labor of debt means constantly deciding what you can or can't afford or what feels worth it. It also demands replaying numbers in your head on a loop, which of course is bound to drive you insane.

2:41We also feel shame for taking out debt in the first place because we not only have a society and a system that makes us feel bad or wrong for being in debt, that it's somehow a moral failing, but we also have certain financial experts who are out here telling you that if you're in debt, it's your fault. You did something wrong. You personally failed. The last part of debt as cognitive labor is just trying to balance your everyday life, just trying to make everyday decisions while also managing your debt. All of this is work. This is unpaid, invisible, constant work. And it's also a constant negotiation with yourself and your brain.

3:25So no wonder it doesn't necessarily feel like a fun time to try to conquer your debt or to try to manage your budget because your brain is on a loop trying to just survive. And a lot of debt content that helps you, in theory, try to get out of debt actually makes this worse by implying that if you're doing it right, you should be thinking about it all the time. That if you are doing the debt payoff journey correctly, this should be an obsession. This should be the thing that you care about most, that you're focusing all of your time and energy towards. But hypervigilance is not healthy and it's definitely not discipline.

4:10Discipline is important, but discipline and hypervigilance are not the same thing. One is healthy, one is driven, one is focused, one is the exact opposite of that. It's spiraling thoughts, it's anxiety,

4:24Tiffany Aliche:It is burnout waiting to happen. So what do we do when we're not only in debt, but things feel bad right now? I am seeing so much content right now from people who are on debt payoff journeys because they've realized they need to get out of debt, but also because all of the world feels so tough right now. And therefore, debt has become their entire identity, right? Paying off debt, focusing with this hypervigilance has become their whole personality. And I don't blame them for this, right? This is what we're told to do. This is what we're told is healthy or smart or like how you actually get ahead financially.

5:10Tiffany Aliche:And sometimes that focus helps, especially at the beginning, but if you are feeling guilty for feeling joyful, if you're feeling like every purchase you make is a moral failure, and if you're feeling like every setback you have, even a minor one, is devastating and it's like blown your whole progress, that is not motivation. That's survival mode. And survival mode is not sustainable. The truth is you do not have to suffer to be responsible. I'm going to say that again. You do not have to suffer to be responsible. You do not have to be miserable to be good with money. In fact, you shouldn't be.

5:48You do not have to earn rest by hitting zero. And you definitely don't need to white knuckle your way to financial freedom. That is what people who have unresolved financial trauma do. They try to get their debt paid off and maybe they even succeed. But because they haven't gotten to the root of their financial trauma, of the way they view money, of their narratives around money, because they haven't done that work first, they've just been in hypervigilance, they've just been in beans and rice focus mode, they go back into debt almost every single time. Sometimes the most responsible question is not, how do I optimize more?

6:27But rather, how do I make this feel lighter? Ultimately, we have so many resources for you to learn how to pay off debt. We have a full episode we released back in August on YouTube and wherever you listen to podcasts called How to Pay Off Your Credit

6:42Tiffany Aliche:Card Debt Fast, breaking this down. And we also have that five-day debt challenge that's free that you can sign up for. Again, herfirst100k.com slash ffpod. Sign up for that five-day debt challenge. This episode is not for advice. This is not for a fix. This is to make you feel seen. If this sparks curiosity, if you want debt payoff to not feel like it's an all-consuming hyper-focus in your life, where you feel like you can actually pay off your debt in a sustainable way that doesn't force you to cut everything joyful and beat yourself up and live a half-life, great. We'll either see you in that episode and or at that five-day debt challenge.

7:28But ultimately, I need you to know that this episode and this pep talk is about the energy cost of debt. Because no matter how you're paying off debt, you are going to have some of your energy focused on it. I'm just asking that you don't put all of your energy toward it to the point where you're burning out. It becomes this unhealthy obsession and you haven't actually gotten to the root of what's going on, of why you got into the debt in the first place, of how you respond to setbacks when they inevitably happen, and learning how you can actually balance progressing towards your financial goals and doing the things you want to do right now.

8:10Tiffany Aliche:So no matter how you're paying off debt, here are a few ways to protect your energy. The first, automate. Automate more than you think you should. Perfect optimization is overrated. Research, more research is so overrated. Consistency is the thing that's not overrated. And if you can use a tool at your disposal, automation, to help automate your payments, automate your savings, automate every part of your financial life, you start creating systems. And systems are a way that you can build your savings, you can eliminate your debt, you can start progressing towards your financial goals without active energy.

8:52Tiffany Aliche:That's the goal here, is that you've built systems that help you grow your wealth, that help you protect your family and your financial future without a bunch of active emotional labor. The second way you can protect your energy, stop checking your accounts daily or even multiple times a day. You think it's helpful, right? You've heard me say, yeah, you need to know your money. You need to un-ostridge yourself. But you've gone the exact opposite way, right? We have people who either don't look at all, and then we have people who check every 10 minutes. That's not healthy either. Every week is a good amount of time, especially if you're on a debt payoff journey.

9:35We eventually want to get to monthly, but obsession, checking it every day, that doesn't speed it up. And every time you feel yourself wanting to check your debt balance, every time

9:45Tiffany Aliche:you feel yourself wanting to look at your bank account, especially multiple times a day or even multiple times a week, this is where you're going to stop yourself as you're going. Not with shame, not with beating yourself up, but just going, what am I trying to get right now? Am I trying to get reassurance? Okay, well, come listen to this episode, okay? Come plug Financial Feminist into YouTube or into your podcast player. If you're trying to feel like you're in control, it's probably because something else made you feel out of control. Is the news really bad right now? Of course it is, right?

10:20Tiffany Aliche:Of course it is. Is it something happened at work where your boss said something weird and now you're like, oh my God, am I going to lose my job? There are all of these things that allow us to feel out of control. So then you go look at your money because, oh, that's one thing I can control. So here's what's going to happen. You feel the urge to check your bank account balance. Okay. You need to put friction between yourself and the action. Maybe it is blocking the app on your phone. Maybe it is just sitting for a second and going, what am I trying to get out of this interaction? What am I looking at my balances for?

10:52Tiffany Aliche:And is there a healthier way to get what I'm looking for? The third way to protect your energy, give yourself permission to have a personality again. You're allowed to care about things other than debt. You're allowed to spend money while you're in debt. You're allowed to have the occasional nice thing because not only is that more fun, so therefore you're more likely to actually achieve your goals, but 99 % of diets don't work. If you try to put yourself on a very, very strict spending plan and tell yourself, these things I can spend money on are good. These things are evil or bad. that's not going to be sustainable.

11:29Tiffany Aliche:And finally, number four, slow progress beats burnout. Always. We are looking for progress over perfection here every single time. If you're tired, it doesn't mean you're weak. It means this is hard. And it is. It is hard to get out of debt. But debt payoff is not just financial. This is emotional endurance. This is being present even in your discomfort. And if you're still showing up, then you are doing better than you think you are. So if this episode made you feel seen, send it to somebody who's quietly carrying the weight of trying to do everything right. And if you want a deeper, more practical breakdown of how to pay off your debt faster, without shame, without hype, the other episode is in the show notes.

12:18Tiffany Aliche:And again, that debt payoff challenge, it is free. We built it for you. please take advantage of it. Only 1 % of our listeners on Financial Feminist actually take the resources that we give them. Only 1 % of people follow through past the listening of this episode to go consume the free resources we put out. I want that percentage to be higher this year. So again, herfirst100k.com slash FFpod. You do not have to destroy yourself to build a better financial future. You've got this. We'll see you back here soon.