Breckie Hill Breaks Her Silence On Jynxzi, OnlyFans & The Hate She Gets Online

0:00Breckie Hill:Are you actually consciously doing podcasts right now for any reason? No, I honestly haven't done a podcast in like three years. The last one I did was Nelk Boys. That was the last one? Yeah. I watched that. Really? Yeah. With Steiny Kyle. With Steiny. Yeah. That was like the old Steiny though because he was like fat. And now he's like on Reddit and like... Is he? Yeah. I haven't seen him in a minute so I wouldn't know. He's trying his like sexy arc. Okay. He's finally actually doing what he needs to do to try to actually get girls. I feel like he's still memeing, though. He's always tried to get girls.

0:36Breckie Hill:So when you look at Stiney, you see more like a meme-style character. He's an emoji, not a human. Yeah. To me, he's like a teddy bear. He's so sweet. He hates that so much. Well, I tell him. He's like a teddy bear. He's getting the height surgery. Stop. What is the height surgery? Where you like you basically crack your leg bone and then you like get like a metal thing like a rod longer. And then it makes you like three or four inches taller. Yeah, he is pretty sure. I made that up. He's not really getting that. But that is a real surgery. I was going to say. That's crazy. OK, so you're from Minnesota, right?

1:18Originally, yes. OK, I was I grew up in Minnesota until I graduated high school and then I went to Miami and social media started doing well.

1:26Breckie Hill:for me um so i moved to la okay wait so minnesota like you you spent your whole childhood there yes what kind of upbringing well until i was five i lived in chicago oh then i went to minnesota okay um but yeah my parents were very strict with school at least and like drinking all of that you had brothers and sisters i have a younger brother yeah he's a year younger okay and your parents like were they religious yeah they are okay and they you're like no no they support me fully um oh well for the record like i'm the last person on earth that would ever look at you like you're doing anything questionable with your life with the whole only fans thing given some of the stuff that my wife and i do we do we do like the crazy version of it so it's like i look at you as like what you do is like nothing whereas to like the steiny of the world it's like lingerie pics Like she's not wifey material.

2:23Well, Stiney says that,

2:25Breckie Hill:but he doesn't mean it. Yeah. Because anytime I see him try to wife someone up, it's a different story. Right. With the, with the people he goes for. I mean, in the social scene that he and I are in, it's like pretty rare to meet a girl that hasn't gotten only fans, especially in LA. I feel like everyone does it. It's so different in LA versus anywhere else in the United States. Like it's very normalized here. Yeah. It's got like a crazy stigma everywhere. besides here and then obviously it does here like even you know i was having that conversation with my wife of like can you think of a girl who does porn they got wifed up by like a mainstream celebrity i'm talking like pro athlete actor superstar musician etc it's like that is a bridge that we just haven't really seen crossed and whenever you see something even close it usually is like um they do a lot to try to like separate it or whatever and make it like private yeah yeah at a certain point i think it should be that's a bridge that should be crossed though i would love to see that me too unfortunately maybe not for a little bit but could you imagine drake married to a woman who has like footage of her sleeping with men on the internet it's tough to imagine like no it's definitely the amount of jokes and scrutiny that he would go through i know it's not for a lot of people yes i mean i believe his baby mama used to do porn really i think but this is baby mama so it's not that bad and i think they scrubbed the internet of it like i'm pretty sure you can't find it if you wanted to yeah yeah anyway not to act like you're a porn star no i'm not i'm definitely not right when i first started though of my mom acted like i was a porn star she was like absolutely not you're not my daughter yeah she was very upset about it and then i showed her what i was posting and she was very supportive because i wasn't you know but also if you're gonna be a girl who's gonna start on only fans and not do do anything like fully nude or super sexual or whatever i mean you're just really gonna have to use a lot of determination and courage because you're gonna have hundreds of thousands of dudes telling you every day that they want nothing more in the whole world than for you to do stuff that's more sexual well yeah it's either that or i'm getting hate for posting the bare minimum yeah so I can't win at this point both of them want you to go in both directions like if you actually did a sex tape a huge percentage of the people that are fans of you would be so upset even though obviously it would be good for you in other ways you know for me I'm not hating on anyone that does it's just not my thing um that's not what I would ever want to post but right I don't discourage people that do it um but of course like being on only fans with creators like bonnie blue it's like it kind of it kind of damages my image which sucks that's what we're like polar opposites i post but that's what a lot of guys are here for is they just assume that you're gonna do some bonnie bush one day i will never just to let you know i I will never.

5:47I mean, she is so far.

5:49Breckie Hill:She's on the other end of the spectrum because she's the one that even within the porn community, we're grossed out by her. I'm grossed out. Very grossed out by her. And I don't even want to say it like that. There's still part of me that hopes that one day I will join the legions of men who have worked with her or whatever. But some of it is just so over the line, gross, weird to me. I don't know. Did you hear? She was like, yeah, I f***ed a thousand guys, but there was 57 people left. And I felt bad having them to leave when they were like waiting in line. So I'm going to the 57 left. Like that is so disgusting.

6:24That is so disgusting. And now she's pregnant. Right.

6:27Breckie Hill:Like you don't have to look at that from like a moral standpoint to say it's disgusting. You just have to look at it from like a hygienic perspective to be like, okay, yuck. I'm sorry. And her poor ex-husband like he's going through it, I'm sure. Yeah. It is weird too because it feels like the people who do the worst, most extremes, That basically like creates the impression to the mainstream of everybody. But she's banned from OnlyFans. But it's just like she became known as an OnlyFans creator. So then it's the people that aren't like that that are upset by it. Because it's like, oh, everyone assumes that I do some sort of thing like that.

7:05Whereas I've never posted a nude technically in my life.

7:09Breckie Hill:But it's the most famous girls or whatever. like it's the ruby roses who you know i'm i haven't like dug into her only fans ever but from what i understand she's not like butt naked on there or whatever she might she has an only fans yeah she's huge isn't she a uh rapper ruby rose yeah yeah she raps and stuff although i don't think she hasn't put out that much rap over the last she doesn't get hate for doing only fans she does for sure in like that in the hip-hop world for sure like she's she's kind of like one of the most well-known chicks who does only fans on there and it's like she doesn't do as far as i'm aware but she gets treated like she's doing like full-blown porn on there only fans just has that brand it's the it's the stigma for sure there's all these like weird competitors now for girls that don't want the stigma that's i used to do fanfics and i was like yeah i might as well just start an only fans because all of my fans on like tiktok and instagram were asking for it so i started it and i got so much hate but i'm like you know what i don't care i've never really cared much about hate i don't know what it is but like getting into social media i knew i was gonna get hate so i think i like mentally prepared for it yeah that's like an important uh thing these days because the average famous like million follower girl in 2026 is just receiving so much more like information in terms of what people think of her than anything you could have imagined like like movie stars when i was a kid in 1991 movie stars didn't really get to like know what the world thought about them really like exactly you read like a review and like a newspaper of the new movie you're in and then maybe you get to like read like a couple letters like what pamela anderson when she first started like nudes on play yeah and that was like the most controversial and she for sure would feel it when she would go outside and have people mobbing her and stuff like that but like really she like people like that were just not exposed to that much feedback versus like some guy with 50 000 followers now it has like hundreds and hundreds of messages that he could read every single day in terms of comments on his youtube instagram etc like we just get so much more feedback now a hundred percent and it's like i would say it's especially worse when you are associated with um creators or streamers that have a primary like male fan base that is against girls that do only fans you know that whole thing right um but i've never paid too much into it okay so what kind of kid were you in high school were you like a popular girl i was i mean i don't want to say that but um like i was a cheerleader but i was very studious i worked really hard in high school and i never i also used to like hate only fans girls really okay like i now that i'm more understanding of the whole industry now yeah 23 23 so like you're in high school and only fans is already like a whole thing so that's crazy to me as a person and found out about it in my mid-30s like i remember seeing karina cough and i was like oh my god that's disgusting really so bad to say but she's she's basically does what you do right like she doesn't do fully nude right she does okay she does like mass not no no boy girl content but yeah got it and so i was disgusted by that but like now that's why i i can't even be upset by the people that hate on me because it's like i didn't even know what she was posting you know right and now that i'm like more aware of the people that are in the industry i'm i know it's actually going on what they're actually posting and i have nothing bad to say other than like the bonnie blues of the world right um but yeah i was like so against that and so were my parents um but that was doing only fans was never even a thought in my mind right i went to college at umiami and i was going to be a doctor and so at no time during this is it like clear to you that you might be an influencer or become famous or anything like did you start to get followers in high school or anything no um it was at the very end of high school i posted a tiktok like a prom transition and it got like 30 000 likes but i didn't think anything of it i was like okay like one tiktok blew up right um but they kept going really and then yeah it kind of led into some drama with Libby Dunn.

11:38Breckie Hill:Because people said that you look like this famous person who, what is she, a soccer player or something? I don't even know. What was she? No, she, um. Gymnastics, right. Yeah, she was a gymnast. They said that you look like her, but with boobs. Yeah. Right. And I didn't start that. You didn't? She got very upset at me because I would, like, film videos replying or stitching the comments that said, like, Libby Dunn with boobs, Libby Dunn with cannons. cannons right and she took that very personally but i was blocked on every single platform before that even that whole thing even started really yeah and so the reason why this whole thing blew up was because i made a video um on tiktok showing that she blocked me on every platform and everyone was like at first against her i think because they were like why did you block this girl like she did nothing to you and then her friends started reaching out and they were being mean to me they were saying i'm the walmart version don't even try to try to compete right that kind of thing so i just i played into it a little bit right so did you was that like a decision to like troll like that because that is kind of like almost like one of the first steps oh at some point 100 at first i was like upset by it right um because her friends were like commenting on my posts dming me i was like her i i had never had social media like this before I think I had like 5 ,000 followers on Instagram.

13:05Like I was a nobody. Not a nobody, but you know, on social media, like influencer wise. But yeah, it got to a point where I was like, okay, I might as well just play along with it. If she's going to block me on everything, like her friends are going to be mean to me.

13:22Breckie Hill:And you already had OnlyFans at that point or no? No. Oh my gosh. That led into it. Got it. I didn't start an OnlyFans until my ex-boyfriend leaked a video of me. Right. Right. And this is not a famous ex-boyfriend. No, he got really upset that I was dating him when the whole Livy Dawn drama blew up. And this is just a local dude in Minnesota. Yeah, I met him in Minnesota. And then he went to ASU. I went to Miami. And he was really upset. He was the kind of jealous person that would be upset that I'm like, he was always very jealous. But when I started gaining followers. Yeah, that's got to be tough.

13:58Breckie Hill:You're a regular guy. you had this girl realistically you probably could have wifed her up you could have started a life with her in some way you could have followed her to college which i wouldn't really recommend that people do that sort of thing at such a young age but to then see her stock price go up and realize like oh no she's gonna date like jake paul or something like that's that's gotta be tough for that dude to take like you know you know he's telling every girl he talks to and this is my he's always been a very like angry jealous person and that's a bad combination too yeah 100 so he said you move to la your life is over yeah but like it was a threat and i was like what what and he showed all of his frat guys he sent all of his frat guys my nudes and then a week later it's all over yeah so i don't know if it's him that like leaked it but he was the one who you know showed it to everyone right and so i had this shower video it was like trending on twitter and everyone's like we've already seen you nude and i was so depressed like because i had never that was something very sacred to me i never intended on anyone else other than my boyfriend seeing that right at the time um but did that two months later that did that feel like okay it kind of like takes the pressure off in terms of like you know what fine i'll sell you guys maybe at some point but my it literally felt like the world was collapsing on me and my phone number got leaked my mom's phone number like everything terrible it was so bad i had to change my phone number change my email yeah um so it was a whole thing like once you get used to living in a world in which like everybody has been naked on the internet which is like kind of where i'm at it is kind of crazy to look at it and just realize like how much work and effort every other woman on earth has to put into like making sure that nobody ever sees them naked like no it takes yeah i've never seen beyonce's nipple and that's crazy because i'm sure she's taken nudes before like everyone in the world does but she must have like a fort knox level security on her iphone if i had to guess you know yeah but like all these women like work really hard for you to like never through their boob and then in the classic like traditional respectable world if you're an actress or whatever if you were to show your boobs in a in a movie that's like the biggest decision in the world but people respect you for it yeah you do it in this like artistic way that's my thing like i my idol is sydney sweeney but it's like she gets paid of course she's very talented with acting and everything else that she does right but it's like she is praised for showing her i feel like that's one of her biggest like right how she rose to fame that sounds terrible but it's just being like as hot as she is having as huge boobs as she is and then the fact that she's down to do nude scenes is and especially like in the euphoria context where it's like you're pretending to be a teenager i mean that's all like but i don't understand i don't understand the difference between that and then only fans like personally i don't do this but like post tit pictures um what's what's the difference of course she has talent with acting but why is she being praised for it versus someone is being slandered for it yeah but it is all about context because it's like look if you did and it's weird because like playboy is not like a thing anymore really in like a big sense or whatever but like if you did playboy and you like had like a spread in playboy that was like topless or whatever people would take that so differently than if you just started like posting naked photos on twitter or whatever like everything has a context that dictates how it's going to be interpreted maybe it's more like exclusive like it's harder to do versus anyone in the world can do only fans if they want yeah but like that's what's so upsetting to me like uh emily ratouse retajowski yeah yeah yeah she is like in restaurants and fully nude and people are like i'm obsessed with it versus if you were to see an only fans girl nude they're they're very hateful towards it okay i think at least part of the hate that the average guy now seems to feel towards only fans girls is not just the nudity angle okay sure sure okay jealousy might be their motive but part of it is not just the nudity it's the social media theatrics that go alongside almost every only fans girl and when i say that i'm saying that like how cringe it is when you watch a youtube or instagram video of a girl where she's like you know kind of bouncing up and down to make her boobs jiggle and then she's doing some stupid like game for a tiktok or whatever like some weird dance and like all this they're like you know leaving it's very cringy like the content that some only fans girls have to film it is cringy it's just like the average girl who starts doing only fans kind of also takes that as a license to start filming some of the most cringeworthy content to promote that as possible or like now you're on the whatever podcast and you're like arguing with some dude about like whatever so you can go viral so you can promote your or whatever never mind like the girls who post on instagram and leave comments like or leave captions that are like you know would do i look better from the front or the back and it's just like bro like i have posted that i know like every every girl or like you know oh it's the fourth of july so you do a photo shoot with the american flag bikini and like every single other girl does the same thing it's kind of like all these things together are like all parts of what makes dudes hate only fans girls you know but the girls that i've met that are posting that content they're like this isn't what i would want to post but it's like a business this is my business that i run and i guarantee if any of the guys that were hating were in their position they would be doing the same thing yeah and that is a big part of it too is that men just don't have this internal thing that makes them able to get that same guy if guys want to get 20 000 likes in their instagram photo you gotta i mean you could just go crazy in the gym and get on a bunch of drugs and just become hot as realistically even that's probably not gonna do it but you're gonna have to become friends with famous people or you're gonna have to become famous or you're gonna have to become like a fashion dude and have some like three thousand dollar pants or something like and then like meanwhile women if you're just like born with bigger than average boobs and your face is symmetrical and you like take time to like figure out how to do your makeup or whatever then you could be that you could become famous which yeah i mean it does seem kind of unfair but i never like thought about even becoming famous that was never a thought in my mind also i use the term famous lately i don't think i'm famous but like you're famous in a particular way but i was going to be a dermatologist so that never being on social media never crossed my mind right it just kind of happened so you lean into that whole Libby Dunn controversy and that kind of blows you up but then like at some point do you decide oh and so then you have the the leak of the shower video and then I still didn't so basically that whole Libby Dunn thing happened I was like I'm gonna play into it just because her friends are being mean to me she blocked me I have no way of contacting her like what why am I felt like I was being bullied honestly um so I played into it I'm like I'm gonna stand up for myself and then And one of the girls that I've met, like right before I moved to call or went to college, she asked me to move to L.A.

21:44with her. And I was because she was an influencer. I said no, because I was so studious. Like I really cared about getting a degree and everything. And when that whole thing happened, I was like, you know what, I'll take a gap year. So I went to L.A. for a year, just went inactive at U Miami.

21:59Breckie Hill:And what were you planning to do in L.A.? Just see how the people were, because she thought I had potential. my roommate at the time thought i was like able to blow up and i was like i could never see myself blowing up like blowing up as a what i didn't do just like just like an influencer yeah i didn't do only fans or anything at that time um and i went on a bunch of people or like a bunch of streamers reached out to me and asked me to be on their stream um but i didn't know who they were I've never watched. At that point, I had never watched streamers. And so I think I at first went on Aiden Ross's E-Date.

22:38Breckie Hill:And straight to the top, kind of just like skyrocket to like one of the bigger platforms you could go on. This is like my first month in L.A. So his I forgot his name, but he reached out to me. He was like, Aiden would love to have you on his E-Date. And I was like, I don't know who Aiden is. I didn't even know who Aiden Ross was at this point, which is crazy. but I went on his e-date and I think I, I think I did well because a lot of people were like, Oh, you did well on Aiden stream. And I, I gained a lot of followers and then clicks who was friends with my roommate or at that point was talking to my roommate.

23:14Um, he wanted me on his stream. So I went on his stream with my roommate and then everything kind of skyrocketed from there.

23:23Breckie Hill:And so at some point they're like, people start reaching out. Like we want to manage you. we want to like help you to yeah i had been getting like people wanting to manage me even before then right but like people would be saying the craziest things like we'll buy you a car we'll buy you whatever you want just to manage you like we'll buy you a ferrari and i was like that's just like so funny to to think that they're going to try to give you a ferrari rather than the money that you could then use to buy a ferrari or something else be my money yeah they would buy me that Ferrari. Like, am I, you really think I'm dumb enough to not know where the money for the Ferrari came from?

23:59Breckie Hill:But I would be getting bribed in my DMs. Like, before you even sign, we'll buy you a Ferrari. We'll buy you a Birkenback. And I'm like, I just didn't respond. It must be out of control because I feel like the average girl who has like 2 ,000 followers has people trying to manage their only fans at this point because it's just so flooded. It's so saturated. Oh, God, it's crazy. It sucks. Like, with the whole AI thing, it really sucks because... Oh, and that's... Oh, God, that's another one. I feel like it's really brought down everyone, like real people at least. Really? But it's, yeah, you don't think so?

24:28Breckie Hill:No, I agree. Like I don't mean Sophie Rain, like. Yeah. Not that we've been struggling, but it's like we definitely feel an impact with AI creators. They're not creators. They're like men behind the screen. Yeah. But it does impact because they're constantly posting these girls that are not real people that are literally just pixels on the screen. and it's just a matter of time they're just gonna keep getting better and better exactly it's just so wild yeah i mean i do think that there's like an extent to which they're probably never gonna get like that good but it does kind of also feel like they are it's not that they'll no it's not that they'll like these ai girls will make it to the top but it's just like it's so saturated they're like there's new account new ai accounts coming every single day and they're and even hosting 20 times a day and if they're making a couple thousand dollars each a month but then there's like a billion of them and then some of them are like i don't know i mean like when i walk when i scroll on i hate to say this in front of such a nice studious young lady but when i scroll on the hub it's like i'm not gonna click on an ai video when i see the ad and it's like crazy ai with like glistening boobs that are like the biggest thing ever i'm not gonna click on it but my brain does become drawn to that way more than the screenshot make it like the perfect image of what people would want to see right and i am stuck in my ways at 42 and there's just no way that i'm going to become an ai porn consumer but there just is like a younger generation out there that probably don't have that built into their head 100 and i'm i know a lot of people like don't aren't able to tell the difference between real creators and like ai creators because it's gotten so good honestly even now yeah like i don't know if you've ever seen those reels of girls that like have huge tits and they're not real people yeah and then they have a link and it's like that's not a real person i don't even know how this is allowed on of yeah and it's funny though because a lot of guys out there are still figuring out about like facetune and like like pulling the waist in and pulling the butt out and stuff like that like dudes are still like not really aware of that yeah and still even i i mean i meet girls all the time that i have seen their instagram games before and i'm just like jaw dropped like how the f*** is this real like what are you talking about yeah but like you know like we're barely even equipped to deal with that and now we have fully fake humans and that's just going to keep getting better and better it's insane it's scary very um but okay so you start leaning into you start going on these streams and stuff but is it like uh would you say that you were appreciating the attention and were you like prepared to deal with it at that point or was it overwhelming and shocking since you were such like a normal person it was very overwhelming and shocking for me but i didn't pay too much mind into it like i've always been i remember like my friends were saying how do you not care about the hate because at this point i was getting a lot of hate um when i went on clicks to stream which is a pretty big stream at that time when i went on it it was mostly negative comments towards me because my roommate liked him me and clicks were fighting on stream um but i've never like i've just been i've just been like my guy friends growing up they always made fun of me so i think i've just like became used to being made fun of so i i didn't care um that's a good uh skill set for streaming for sure because like stream and i've been on so many streams so i have to have the goal of streaming is basically to like create an argument if you really think about it you know and like the girls they have on stream what they want to do i feel like their main objective is to use that girl to get views so like if that means poking fun of her making her like a target yeah um for viewers to hate like that'll do better for them but i became used to that yeah for sure and that's why when somebody like me like i was at this uh bmx video premiere at like a art gallery a couple of months ago and i saw like a couple like we're all standing outside people are drinking and like that and like a couple different times like streamers walked by with the whole cameraman and they got a light on it and everything and like i'm just kind of like looking out the corner of my eye like oh my god i hope they don't recognize me because i just dread interacting with streamers because you just kind of know it's going to be a cliffharm but their compass is not like oh say what up and like meet somebody and maybe have a little conversation usually it's more like how can i make this situation crash out as much as possible and the chat is going to basically like assist you in that like everybody that you meet they're going to kind of like feed you the most offensive thing that you could say to them you know i would say that's 90 of streamers there's some streamers that i've met that like genuinely do care about not tearing you down but at first like when i was on some streams i was like i don't know if i can not that i couldn't deal with the hate but it was like i don't like how i'm being portrayed because i know that's not who i am right um because they're gonna try to draw you into a situation that makes you look like a thought and that's everyone was calling me a whore all this and that and that's when i came right out of you miami and i was like i've had two bodies like i don't know what you do at that point yeah wow yeah so at what point do you just say and just sleep with a streamer well i never was sleep i've never been the kind girl that sleeps around honestly no but like did you like it was jinxie the first one who actually like won you over um streamer wise yeah well that whole thing happened because i was on stream with clicks and jinxie saw clips of me and clicks but that's so crazy how all these dudes feed off each other that like the clicks dudes saw you on aiden and then because these are like the biggest names it's a domino effect but even if it's not them it's like their managers or whatever are basically doing the same no but jinxie like he ended up explaining it to me um i was on clicks's stream jinxie ended up seeing clicks's clips of me and he was like can you please give me brekkie's number i had a boyfriend at the time i was dating clicks's roommate and so clicks at first asked his roommate is it okay if i give um brekkie jinxie's number he's like yeah of course like i'd love for her to go on stream he was always rooting for me i i said who's jinxie i didn't know i don't I didn't pay like any attention to streamers.

30:50Breckie Hill:I didn't know about him until you started dating him. A lot of people say that. And it's not like I really knew about you, but it was like that's when I started to see clips. That's what people say. Like not that they knew of me or him, but like when we were together, a lot of people then got to know us. I always thought you were Australian. Really? Do I speak Australian? No, but because your name is Brecky and that's what they call breakfast. My real name is Brecken. Which doesn't really make sense though. Like why would you call, like why would a girl be named Brecky because that's what they call breakfast but for some reason i just always thought oh she's gotta be my real name's brecken my mom was obsessed with this model growing up named breck and she was like i want to name my daughter breck but she ended up naming me brecken okay and so i go by brecky for short so how do you transition from clicks's roommate to jinxie so i went on jinxie's stream and i had a boyfriend like going on that stream and we streamed whatever i had no clue who he was until I posted on my Snapchat and I was like, guess who stream I'm going on and everyone knew and I was like, who is Jinxy?

31:52I've never, apparently he was like a top streamer at the time.

31:55Breckie Hill:I mean, I'm pretty sure he still is. I think he still is, but like, I think at that point he was like above Kai. Like he was like number one. I mean, that's the irony of a dude like him is that he gets way more viewers than most of these IRL streamers who also have fake viewers, but then like it doesn't go viral the same way because he's just hanging out playing video games and The gamers will tune into streams versus the people that are watching IRL streams. They're probably also like living their life. Not to say that gamers aren't living their life. I also feel just like nobody's watching IRL streams.

32:27Breckie Hill:They're just watching the clips. Exactly. They use fake viewers to trick everybody. If you're tuning into a gaming stream, it's because you want to get to know the game versus IRL. Like, yeah, you're just going to see clips. Right. But he had been asking me for six months and I just never responded. And then he reached out to me on Twitter, Instagram, and I just never responded. did you get the idea that it was like i got the idea or just collab um content no he was never he was never like saying anything flirtatious no he was he was like i'd love to have you on stream i'll fly you out um and i saw those dms but i didn't respond for six months until clicks texted me and he was like you need to go on the stream i don't know what you're thinking it's a huge missed opportunity if you don't and so i was like okay you know what i'll just go and this is right like right before me and my ex-boyfriend had broken up like a day before um so i went on a stream why'd you break up um i hate to say this i hate to say this but um i don't care if a guy has money because i know there'll never probably never be a guy in my life maybe but like that has more that takes me seriously at least yeah that makes the same amount as me or more but it was like i I was giving him every single job he had.

33:45Breckie Hill:Yeah. And he wasn't taking the jobs I gave him seriously. He was like blowing them off. And I'm like, I can't, I'm not going to keep paying for your rent. Yeah. I'm not going to keep giving you these jobs. It creates a really weird imbalance. It's really weird. And especially like. I see it all the time. And he would get upset over it because I feel like a man needs to be like holding the power. Right. Right. So he wouldn't feel like he had the power just because of that. And it's not, it's not just the money difference that if you're making a couple hundred thousand a month and he's making a couple thousand a month like that in and of itself is weird but if the girl starts to feel like the dude isn't like hustling to make his situation better and isn't like like a girl in that situation i feel like could tolerate a dude who doesn't really have money as long as it feels like he's passionate about what he's doing and he really cares yeah he just like fully relied on me and i had tried to break up with him a few times and he would try to be like, like I feel like I felt very sympathetic towards him.

34:47So I would just be like, okay, yeah, it's fine. We'll stay together. But then I was like, all right, we have to be done. Like I'll help you move home. I'll pay for whatever you need. That's fine. But like we have to be done. I don't know how much longer I can deal with this. And he was a very nice guy. And then I went on Jinxie's stream and there was like a TTS donation that was like kiss him on the cheek.

35:08Breckie Hill:and he got so upset and that's why i got so much hate from lacy and clicks like fast forward because you wouldn't kiss him on the cheek because i kissed jinxie on the cheek before and lacy and were friends with my ex-boyfriends okay and so they were like that's so up you just broke up with him and now you're kissing him on the cheek jinxie on the cheek this is very junior high exactly i'm like i just want i want everything to be offline but like i was going to this jinx stream not knowing who jinx he was right and it was great he was super nice um we just like did the stream and then i left and had been broken up with my boyfriend but lacy and clicks were like ride or die for this guy okay so but okay so this is my question it was also i sorry to interrupt to you later found out they were fully doing it for clips they they did not so you can never trust these no no they just wanted views they were like this will because i've talked to them both right yeah i i lacy yeah like he's pretty transparent i see clips of him all the time where i'm like i just feel like this is just you doing a little too much here yeah it's just like feels very transparent but um okay i picture you mostly having dated chads i did yeah yeah okay like big strong pectoral base you know tall strong big old head of hair on him nice facial features no but so then jinxy though and i'm giving him his flowers because he's more of like a slouchy little like streamer guy or whatever at least from the way he comes up on stream but he's like unbelievably successful and popular and rich so that's like a very interesting type so first i up with i was not into him at all it was at first just for content um i thought he was nice but i was like i would i don't have feelings for him or not that i don't think he's attractive just wasn't my type right um and then we kept streaming he came to la we did a stream together for content and i think it went on for like three or four streams where it was just for content and he like he is the nicest guy ever i know we're broken up but he's so nice and so funny I'm such a personality girl where I'm like, I think I might like him.

37:33Breckie Hill:I have watched maybe like 10 minutes total of his content in my life. And I would say he does seem like a very nice guy. He's such a genuine guy. And he really, one thing, not that it ruined our relationship because that's not what it is. But I am so glad he's doing what he does because he's so passionate about streaming. It's like nothing else in the world matters to him. Really? Yeah. And so at first, I think like the first few months of our relationship, I was like, I feel like you care way more about streaming and not me, which, of course, I want you to succeed. But I feel like it's you don't care about me at all and you care so much about streaming.

38:12And so I was like, I'm not going to be with you if you don't care about me at all.

38:15Breckie Hill:So he streams what, like every day for eight hours or like I don't really tune into his streams. But yeah, I think so. When we were together. But were you trying to get him to take the weekend off? No, no, no. I never wanted him to take any days off. I wanted him to just, because he's constantly planning streams and like every single hour of every day, he wakes up and he's thinking about streams. Then he has to prepare for a stream. Like he goes into a stream with like, okay, I need to like mentally prepare for this, like drinking energy drinks, all that. Like he really, he puts his whole life into it.

38:49So I'm very glad he's successful.

38:51Breckie Hill:You felt like he didn't have any space for you? Like in terms of like the kind of stuff you actually wanted to do? He was a really good boyfriend when we were together. After I explained that to him, I'm like, I feel like I'm putting more into this relationship than you are. And he felt really bad. Do you think he had never had anybody who really like tried to get him to have a more balanced life? He didn't. I was his first kiss. So he didn't. First kiss. Yeah. Holy. And how old is he? Like. When we were dating, he was 20, about to turn 24. Okay. So maybe he's 26 now or something. All right, cool.

39:2425, 26. um so he had never had his first kiss which i didn't know at first because that's not what he he he never he never told me he had like but yeah he he just was like i'll tell you later like how

39:37Breckie Hill:many bodies i have whatever false claiming bodies is so fire that's amazing um but but was it like he's he's too focused on streaming but besides that would you say that the chemistry was like really on point or was it really was it was it like you're like clout brains sort of like like liking him more than you would otherwise i can do i would honestly say because when i was on of i made less money when i was with him than when i was without him and when i'm not with him now i'm making more really but i feel like so many his fans have got it but those are 12 year oh okay they are like actual a lot of them are below eight okay 18 i don't know what the age i think it's 18 for of yeah so a lot of them are younger that makes sense um and so those people that were like paying into our relation or like watching our relationship kind of fold or come to be right um they weren't the ones subscribing yeah and so i feel like a lot of people on of don't want me to be taken they don't want me to be in a relationship so i actually lost subscribers of course everything else on social media did well but like i i it's not like i can get really brand deals when i'm doing of because i'm technically not brand friendly so just being on of is going to keep like the makeup brands from with you for the most part there's got to be like makeup brands that will do it right i had a deal with celsius and then when i started of they dropped me they were like yeah you can't they don't associate I don't know what it is it's that's what's so upsetting to me because there's such a wide variety of what you can post on OF but it's like as soon as they see you have a link they don't it doesn't matter really yeah that's why it's you got to use like weird different sites now that have like but they still find out like I feel like I'm such a OF creator like oriented because you like went viral for it as if it was like crazier or worse than it was so therefore it's just it's a done deal exactly that's crazy um but yeah with the whole jinxy thing yeah when did it fall apart it would fell apart because of his streaming obsession or was it other stuff it so i talked to him about that like three months into the relationship and he completely fixed it he he was like i'm so sorry like i've never been in a relationship before i really didn't know how to navigate like yeah which is honestly it's understandable completely so i was like i understand you dedicated your whole life to this you're super successful he's very passionate about streaming so i was like i respect your passion so much and i don't want to interfere with that but if you can't have anything in your life without um like not even making sacrifices because i didn't want him to miss a single day of streaming that's his whole thing um but if you can't pay a little bit of attention to anything else in your life I don't think you should be in a relationship and he was like I'm so sorry like no of course I have time to um so he continued to stream but like he also found the time to you know make time for me um and it wasn't until like a week before where we started having issues um I don't want to get too much into it just because there's some things that aren't said online that he was a gooner i i don't want to say that he was addicted to only fans he said that right and he said he was addicted to porn which i don't like maybe he is but that's not even necessarily what i like i don't know that's not necessarily what i found i just but he was also there's something some things that i don't want you found gay porn no no no nothing like that Trans porn.

43:26Transparent.

43:27Breckie Hill:Wait, what? Oh, I said transparent. You said what? I said trans porn. Oh, no, no, no, no, no, no. No, no, no, no. Nothing like that. No. Okay, okay. There's just, there's some things that go on behind closed doors. He admitted to social media stalking as well. I don't want to give him too much of a hard time because I feel bad. But yeah, like he was looking up other girls while we were together. And that hurt me. um yeah right so that hurt me and he knew i was hurt and i don't think he's a bad guy because of it what did you do you hopped on his computer and checked out his search history um that's bold no it was more obvious than that what was i can't say too i can't say too much one time my wife i sent her a screenshot of something i saw on porn hub and in the screenshot it said recent searches and it was some girls that she's friends with well your guys's relationship is so different you're right any relationship i would consider myself but also it was just kind of like that i'm just saying that kind of thing happens you know like that so you and lena aren't broken up no we're good so that was just a whole yeah a whole she has a stalker who basically like forged our signatures and filed divorce paperwork against our will yeah i can't imagine i have crazy soccer so i can't even imagine how it is for you guys i think he's talking to like a catfish version of her who has convinced him yeah there's so many people that will impersonate like only fans creators that are on telegram or whatever and i'm like i don't know how to convince you guys that that's not me because i will say it on snapchat on instagram and like it's still they still are convincing people that this is i mean me who they're talking the kind of guy who's out there like talking to some account with 2 000 followers that he believes that it's you is just like not the kind of person who's probably smart enough to understand how stupid this is yeah yeah so there's no point and even it's just like what can you do you know yeah and i mean there's that i have never told the public about like weird stalker type stuff over the years yeah just like not like anything dangerous but just kind of like whoa like yeah this guy in particular is a lunatic I don't know.

45:44There are some crazy people out there.