Part 2: Celebrity "Orgasm" Expert Force SA Victims To Recreate Their Original Assault To 'Heal'

27:35All eyes were downcast. Nobody was willing to stand up for me. I never spoke again about the other times he hit me or dragged me around. Looking back now, I can't believe I stuck through it. I so wanted to believe he would change. I was told that sometimes our soulmates must do violent things to help us grow. It was only a way to condone violence. They did not want me to, one, go to the authorities, two, have my boyfriend leave and take his money with him. This evening, this community member let his beast out. He picked me up, pinned my arms to the side, and began to shake me in front of everyone.

28:08Nobody did anything as he screamed at me how he would like to R-word me, beat me, use me, that he knew where I slept and he would find me in the night. I was reprimanded afterwards for showing fear in the face of a beast. a true turned on woman would have taken his beast cry for help with grace and love so what is this guy's behavior is this just a violent dude yeah i mean these are all so this wasn't part of the quote-unquote therapy that they are all doing together nicole had actually joined multiple cults before she started one taste so nicole was part of well okay you know what i don't think they're that litigious okay there's two cults there's morehouse and then there is another cult which seems a little bit scarier but both of them they were all doing deliberate o's so they did the thing before om like she took om from their practices remember she met up with the guy at the party before she wanted to become a buddhist apparently and then he was like let me teach you something and that was a deliberate o so that was the practice and both of these organizations were run by two different men and these men were just basically cult leaders.

29:17So they would have this thing where they would invite other men to join and then they would all just like beat the woman there, beat them into submission. And they would say things like, well, I'm only beating you because you're asking me for it. You didn't say it verbally, but whatever you did in your actions and the way that your energy is translating to me, you asked me to beat you and you can't get mad at me for doing what you asked. And Nicole, Oh, she's so psychotic. Okay. But apparently she took a lot of pride in the fact that no man ever beat her in these cults. She's special. Yeah. So she then puts this practice.

29:54I guess it attracts a lot of men and it keeps men staying because they feel like they're being seen as the masculine, violent criminals that they want to be. I'm sure it's not. I mean I'm not saying all men are attracted to this type of practice But I'm saying it's a very specific type of men Who are going to want to stay longer in environments like this So has she said anything to the men? Like what does she say to men who try to essay women? She thinks that they're all just big little crybabies What does that mean? Like if a man wants to essay a woman She thinks that they are dealing with a lot and that they probably have a beast in them that they were never allowed to express that caused them to do this.

30:43She thinks SA is very complicated. She thinks a lot of men have shitty times in society which lead them to SA people. That's freaking crazy. And you know what? Good for her. I hope she keeps this energy up at MDC Brooklyn because that's all I have to say, you know? In another situation, and this is confirmed to some degree by one taste, they've been aggressively denying all wrongdoing and everything else but there's this incident where one executive of One Taste just repeatedly started slapping his girlfriend in front of company employees over and over again during a fight he was fired and then promptly rehired One Taste says the incident itself was unacceptable however they rehired him because they believe in rehabilitation but they firmly stand that they do not promote or tolerate violence someone needs to send Nicole a fucking dictionary you'd have to send it to MDC Brooklyn because that's where she is but like I don't think she understands what words are Nicole didn't just hate the idea of victims being traumatized and not wanting to feel danger and having natural fear responses and PTSD of being put in unsafe situations she hates that we have this notion that perpetrators are bad people she says my experience is that when you get to the root of what's called a perpetrator.

31:59It's this unbearable desire to love through all of the terribly, terribly inaccurate methods that they've been given. Does that make sense? Like if you picture what, you know, those sticks in a river and it just keeps pummeling up against something, it doesn't have a natural way to flow. That's really the experience of what we call a perpetrator. My experience is that it's just pure love. My experience of what we call a victim is a desire for pure release, pure surrender, pure freedom. Also, if you just need another reason to not listen to Nicole, she says as proof that chaos is the only way to grow, that you have to be in a constant state of chaos to actually achieve a higher purpose.

32:40That's the key to enlightenment. Like this is an actually unhinged woman. One former member says that two members were caught fighting by the manager of the company who told them to leave and don't come back until they've both done it with each other. One former member says, I mean, the whole point was, quote, if you're having really very strong feelings, negative feelings about somebody, like have an OM with them. They say OM is very different from sex and that we don't wait until we're in the mood or turned on. Rather, we use OM to turn us on, to stroke our desire, to awaken our libido. So we take it on as a practice.

33:14We may set a regular time. We even OM in the middle of a fight because Because we know as much as we hate our partner right now and want nothing to do with them, 15 minutes from now, we're likely feeling a lot better and the conversation will go very differently. I genuinely think that she needed a way to control a lot of the members, but also up the ante non-stop. I think she got off on keeping people in a heightened state of anxiety and emotions. Her ex-husband, because she was married at one point, long ditched him before one taste becomes big. But the ex-husband says, Nicole actually had this thing where she was fascinated by what she could get people to do.

33:53Sometimes she just wanted people to do things just to see if she could get them to do it. Like she's not even getting anything out of it. But like if she's like, hey, go jump off the roof. She got pure joy, allegedly, from just watching someone listen to her like that. That's the control thing, right? It just loves the control because none of this makes sense. A lot of the times when you have traffickers, they either find a lot of sexual enjoyment in the exploitation or they get financial exploitation. Like this is eventually it does become financial for Nicole. But like all of this, it doesn't make any sense.

34:28Why spend so much energy and resources of all of these people doing these assignments, meeting people in hotels from Tinder, forcing them to do things with each other that they don't want to do? Is she also doing all of these things? as well oh no she's she probably said she is but she's not interesting yeah so she's not doing om or whatever as om gets bigger and bigger the more powerful one taste becomes she is the only female stroker she stops getting strokes in fact a lot of people who left said she used to om with them a lot and eventually she just stopped asking for om's huh why is that interesting like she's trying to set herself apart now.

35:10Yeah, she was told by a previous cult member or cult leader that the leader cannot be too close to the pack because that's how they get eaten alive. Yeah. No, she's very sick and twisted because the next thing that she starts encouraging people is to employ skillful violation. Members of OneTaste are taught that they need to learn how to discern when to push past someone's stated preferences for the sake of that person's growth, not even for yourself. If you had to be forced to make it sound legal, it would be, it's a moment of connection where you know that what this person deeply desires, they know what they deeply desire, but they're too ashamed or too scared or too nervous to tell you.

35:53So you just go ahead and do it to fulfill their greatest desire. One member describes it as you're not really violating what she wants. You're violating what she says she wants. So like full on essay. Yeah. Like a very roundabout way of just describing essay so what is consent is there consent to them no there's no such thing as consent it's not right now exactly oh there's this like this whole thing where if a guy is attracted to a woman she says no but he still feels attraction it's because she's putting out signals so she might not even know that she's attracted to him but he should keep trying because something is clearly there he would not feel attracted to a woman unless the woman is sending out these signals interesting yeah that's fucking interesting like so what if a person is quote unquote attracted to nicole then can she say no yeah yeah nothing ever applies to nicole that's crazy and she also is like sitting in there complaining about jail and i think that she should just work on staying connected with her fellow cellmates it's very weird of her This is all made even more tricky by the fact that Nicole says that the main difference is that a lot of men think that women don't want to have intimate activities.

37:12That's like a whole thing in society. It's like women always say, no, I have a headache. No, I don't want to do this. No, I'm tired. She says, do not believe us. If we say we don't want intimate relations, we want it more than you guys could possibly fathom. We are quite literally starved for the feeling of O's in our bodies, but we haven't been given permission to discover the unique sensations of our own O, so we don't know how to order what we desire. In this, we need your help. Skillful violation relies on at least three pillars of belief. The first being, the women are meant to explore and delight men.

37:46Nicole says, once you see that, everything changes. And the thing to understand is this, okay? I'm built for hospitality. I'm not built for submission, although I like to explore you know and I am not built to be a warrior I am built to delight and so my natural desire is to say yes I don't know what she's saying she's just saying that like women have a natural desire to please and to say yes and second that women have been suppressed for so long that they need men or other women who are more turned on to guide them to their deepest desires furthermore women are the ultimate responsibility for everything so this is where gets sick and twisted.

38:24Nicole realizes the past two cults that she was in, they never made it mainstream because a guy sitting there telling you about how women can be empowered is the dumbest thing alive. No one's going to buy it. Women aren't going to buy it. You're not going to end up on the cover of Forbes. You are only going to do that if you're a woman telling women what they need. So she sells this message that women are the most powerful beings on the planet. We're more powerful than men. Okay. But with power comes great responsibility. One former member says one taste was encouraging women to appreciate the predatorial nature of male sexuality.

39:02Because basically Nicole is saying women are the ones emitting these signals consciously, subconsciously. We are telling men to cat call us basically. We're like sending out the vibes. We're sending out our aura and our energy. And then they are acting on it because they can't resist the energy of women so she's saying anything everything is your fault basically yeah which is like not really female empowerment yeah she would say things like you know men are just responding it all starts with the woman they are the cause of everything and she would say things like we have to understand that with equal rights comes equal responsibility and women aren't willing to take equal responsibility.

39:47How is she like sharing these messages? She's so good about it. If she has a lot of new members and they're very basic, regular, smagular tech bros and tech couples that come in, it's very watered down. It's the PR package of, we just want women to feel connected to their partners, to achieve connectedness within and to feel empowered to do more exploratory things in the bedroom. And this is how we're going to reignite the steam in your relationship. And then once people get more and more in, she starts upping the ante. So aversion therapy, skillful violation. These are things that she would tell people that we know that this works, but it's like being a wizard, being a witch.

40:32That's what they called it. Okay. The muggles out there would want to burn us at the stake if they knew what we were doing, but that's the magic. Like only the people who know and see the magic have the magic. So we can't go out there and talk about it with the muggles. She said, you're listening to me, but don't tell this to anybody. And they're like, I mean, she's like, you can, but they're going to look at you like you're crazy because the muggles don't get it. They would also think that normal people who don't get it are zombies. They're asleep. They're coasting through life, watching TV on the weekends, being half alive, half connected, having no pure connections within themselves or with other people so it's like it depends on which tier of people that you're talking about and she's got a lot of podcasts i will say more so in the early years she was crazier what do you mean she was crazier yeah even just like publicly she was crazier she would just say things to bigger classes of just like but then as the world gets more mainstream yeah yeah she starts toning it down and everything becomes like wishy-washy connected with spiritualness like she she starts talking about eros like what's eros it's like she pulls from buddhists and yogis and tantric teachers like she starts making it kind of you know like more spiritual but which i have nothing against spirituality.

42:01I think it's beautiful. It's just like hers is not spirituality. It's just like mashing together words. Like it doesn't make any sense. So she gets a little bit crazier. She has all of this hidden. And for the first time ever, they have their big inner circle scandal. It doesn't make it to the mainstream news outlets or even to the world outside of OneTaste. But this causes a huge rift inside the OneTaste community because at this point, It's, there's so many states that have OneTaste headquarters. There's so many different cities. They have this online hub that you go to with all the OneTaste members from New York, Los Angeles, San Francisco, Atlanta, Texas, and they all start writing.

42:39And there's this one post that starts going viral. She is a student who bought into the coaching program. She's probably already spent like$10 ,000. She's going to stay at the communal residence until she finishes the coaching program. And she's there in Texas training for the course that she paid for. she's in her assigned bedroom working on her laptop when a trained coach not even a fellow trainee a trained coach slams open the door without knocking walks up to her bed and just starts grabbing her chest she tells him i'm working i don't want this stop he tells her quote i bet this isn't the worst interruption from work you've had he leaves but then he promptly returns waving his finger in front of her face i don't know asking like she's like what are you doing?

43:25Seeing if you'll touch my finger, this is the beginning of your turn on. She tells him no, eventually he leaves again and she goes to try and lock the door, but there's no lock. She's of course terrified and she writes on the forum, this is not a safe place, which is absolutely valid. One day seemingly was not a safe place. I mean, they have shared living spaces, communal living, and it's been alleged where at one point a man who was convicted and let go of killing his girlfriend, somehow he's free, was allowed to join this communal living space. Another time a man accused of essaying children was allowed to be interviewed by One Taste.

43:59But this incident causes a huge stir in the Oum community, not in the outside world, but everyone. It's like a shakeup. You would think that Nicole and Oum, all the executives are like, we got to pump the brakes. But one of Nicole's inner circle executives. So why? Yes. Like, why is it a shakeup? Why are people reacting so aggressively even within the community? I think that it was a lot of newer people in the community that took it really seriously because of course they should. And then a lot of people that have been in One Taste for a really long time and Nicole's inner executives, they start adding fuel to the fire.

44:35They don't just say like, hey, guys, we're handling the situation. We got it under control. They start saying things like, look, as a woman, the easier thing for me to do is say I was violated. That way I don't have to look at my part in it. People love the story of violation. We drink it up like water. It keeps women broken. It allows everyone else to feel good because they want to rescue women. In the meantime, we shame and blame the men for showing any signs of desire for being creepy. It's not that men are bad and women are good. It's that I'm the one as a woman who knows how to tend to these unbelievably powerful forces that need incredible care, nurturance, strength, power, everything that a mother has.

45:17I'm the one who knows how to hold that power as a mother not as a father who's doing his thing but somebody who understands the ramifications of this power so a lot of like the younger one taste members younger as a newer they hear this and they're like okay I gotta go so before it was all like theoretical yes but when this actually happened within the community yeah they're like yeah and you have to remember that san francisco especially is a huge hub for freedom in that aspect so they had the lusty lady which is now defunct and actually nicole used to work there it's a strip club where it was the first unionized strip club in the u.s they also have kink.com headquartered on the same like street that all of the massive tech companies like uber and twitter are yeah so they have like a they have huge bdsm communities actually one of the communal living centers called the warehouse the original one in san francisco once one taste left it is now like a play dungeon where you can come in and like get strapped up to the crosses and like you know so they have like a so i think a lot of people went in thinking like oh this is kind of like role-playing maybe like okay yeah i don't want it but like you know like maybe it's that and like everybody is a consenting adult at the end of the day but so people are like experimenting and yeah learning and just yeah but instead they're like hey if you get groped that's your fault yeah yeah and then i think a lot of the newer members were like what yeah what do you mean yeah so there's no consent here yeah like i gotta go So then it caused this huge rift inside of the community.

47:01They also had something called going off the rails, which basically just means essay. And typically an older stroker will just use an OM with a younger woman as a way to just fully essay them. They promote that or they... No, but they would just call it instead of saying it's essay, you need to go to the police. They would just say, oh, he went off the rails. It's just you're going off the rails. And it's encouraged for guys to let their beast out. So women letting their beast out means having intimate relations with as many men as possible that they don't want to have intimate relations with.

47:36And for men, it's doing whatever the fuck they want, which is further evidenced by a male member. He's doing this introduction video for One Taste, and he's asked to describe his intimate life. And like, I think this is why a lot of Nicole's teachings start heavily leaning this way, because I think this is the community that is giving her money. He says, there's a lot of anger in my intimate life. And there's also a lot of sweetness. But with one taste, I'm hoping to bring in even more anger. And Nicole promotes that idea by saying, for us, pause and hesitation are the worst. Hesitation costs everything.

48:11And so is withdrawal during play. Withdrawal during play is cruel because it doesn't mean you can't pause. Pause is deliberate. Withdrawal just drags another person's nervous system around. So she's basically saying if you are in the midst of intimate relations and you're like, hey, I can't do this anymore I don't want to do this anymore. You are cruel Don't do that You can even just say if you get stuck you can say oh i'm stuck because my pride is here Oh i'm stuck because the next thing I would say or would do would make me far too vulnerable and i'm terrified of what it would mean So if you profoundly you know, if you want profound erotic play fast and smooth is the most fun and you can only get there by continuing to move through these blocks as you go boundaries are blocks that you have to push through and she says you know this is back when she was um in the adult entertainment industry right when she was working at like the lady she's i had a regular and he wanted to strangle me his beast was locked in there and it hadn't had a place for expression.

49:13And I just happened to love Beast. I had to surrender so deep that I could absorb him all the way in. And invariably, all of a sudden, it hit this point and he just started bawling. And that was all. And he paid me a lot of money to just come strangle me and cry. And that was it. And we think, you know, they're so tough, but they're just little love bugs they're crying they're just our little companions that want to love us is she the world's biggest pick me yeah i think so i hope she gets picked a lot at mdc brooklyn because she's so desperate to be picked that's crazy he wants to strangle women he is not a love bug he is hopefully just someone who is exploring intimate interests while practicing safely although i think that is too much benefit for the doubt.

50:01I think he could just be a criminal. Nicole continues, they're just tough because they're met with fear. Nicole's messaging is bluntly, a turned on woman says yes more often, and that's a good thing. And we know this because let's say a woman complains. She says, there's a secret. And it's this, behind every woman's complaint is a desire. The complaint is like this moat around her palace, her castle of hunger. No, she's crazy. I mean, Nicole may argue that my interpretation is incorrect, but those are ultimately the words coming out of her own mouth. And on that note, she even says in class that essay is a complex issue, not in the sense that essay culture exists.

50:47The justice system blames victims, that society at large blames victims. It's not complex in that way. It's complex because SA and assaulters are not just perpetrators. She says, there is a rage that lives. And so you see this rage that lives in women. And we all here are fairly familiar with it. But there's a rage that lives in men that you can't win the game. She says, they have no dignity. These men, they're groveling for sexless sex and groveling for a drop of anything. And that is humiliating. and that's why i say i say it's a very complex thing that's why it's complex you have to look at the conditions of a starving person being tricked by somebody selling food that doesn't nourish yet again wait she sounds just like one of those male podcasts yeah no like exactly yeah she's saying yeah she's like fuck the girl with the list like she sounds exactly like a male podcaster yeah and she also for someone who claims to be bisexual and i say claims not because i like to question people's sexuality but she claims this she fucking hates lesbians i don't know how else to put it one victim says she was told non-stop at one taste side note she's into women she's not into men she's a lesbian and they straight up tell her to her face if you're not hungry for COCK.

52:05You're not connected with your true inner self. All women are hungry for COCK. Even if you're gay, you're hungry for COCK.

52:17They start pressuring her to have intimate relations with men, encouraging her that if she can just contact the part of her that is hungry for the COCK, she will be unstoppable and truly powerful in this world. The stuff that is being taught and forced and pushed on vulnerable members at one taste are so confusing in the sense that, I mean, later it's going to make sense because Nicole will want these members to be intimately open so that she can exploit them and have them sleep with investors for the company. That's her ultimate aim, it seems. It's downright evil, but it makes sense in the traditional way of like, okay, that's usually how we see these things unfold.

52:54People start these organizations to essentially traffic women so that they can get financial gain. But as of right now, People are like, what is she even getting out of this? What the hell is wrong with Nicole? Do we know the investors? Yes. Yeah. And some of them are huge names. One of them that she was courting that I don't think did anything with any members of OneTaste, but she really, like they were in conversations with Nicole of investing in OneTaste or having some sort of partnership with OneTaste was the founder of Zappos, who sold Zappos for like a billion dollars or something crazy.

53:32to Amazon. Right. So he was talking about investing, but no allegation yet. No, there was no allegations that he essayed anyone in OneTaste. I don't know if he has any allegations. I wouldn't be surprised considering what's going on with Epstein's List. Everybody's in there. Wellness gurus are in there. Like everybody and their mom and dad is in there. So I don't know. But as of what I can see from OneTaste members, they were sent to Las Vegas to constantly court him and like having these business meetings and talking about the benefits of OM. but I don't think that he was catered to in that sense.

54:04And then ultimately he did not want to because he wanted to keep a squeaky clean image. Yeah. Really? That's his reason? Yeah, I think he was trying to do something with Vegas where he was going to, I don't know if he was trying to purchase, like do a development in Vegas, which it was crazy because he was basically saying that even one taste is too much for Vegas. We're talking about Vegas. Yeah, yeah, yeah. So he's like, I got to keep my image if I want to win this. I think he was like bidding for a development or something. Interesting. And a lot of this stuff is not even particularly marketable to the masses.

54:40Nobody's going to listen to a wellness podcast that talks like this. I would say maybe like 10 % of what Nicole says is like every other male podcaster. But like the other 90 % is kind of crazy. Yeah.

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57:33So people start digging. What the hell is wrong with Nicole? Nicole grew up in California with her mom and her dad left when she was very young, but he does make a reappearance in her life a bit later. By all reports, it seems like Nicole did well in school. She graduates, starts working at the Lusty Lady. And I will say a lot of Nicole's history is alleged. We don't know how much of it is accurate. She has a tendency to allegedly make up stories to fit her weird philosophies. You know, those people that are like, I am going to talk about how great of a parent I am. So I'm going to make up the craziest lesson in my head.

58:05And then my kid is going to ask me, mom, how come you gave money to that man without a house? And then you're like, I don't think your four-year-old asked you that that's nicole where i'm like i don't think that happened like i don't think the tomato thing happened the way that she's telling us the tomato thing happened but like who am i to say right maybe i was just a dumb illiterate 12 year old but weird okay such as remember the guy erwan that introduced her to dio the deliberate oh before she became a buddhist she also changes that story she's like you know what i think it's more mainstream to say that he was the buddhist so then she like starts changing it and it becomes more spiritual of like she met the buddhist yeah who was like let me rub you down there and it was a spiritual awakening so then she just i mean that is evidence enough for me to not believe a single thing that comes out of her mouth but it seems that she worked at the lusty lady for a little bit of time she starts picking up shifts and according to one ex-boyfriend of hers that was with her at the time she gets into high-end escorting where she bragged about how every time she was with a man, she would practice cold reading, aka trying to figure out quickly what the guy secretly wanted from her.

59:14Because when she first meets them, they would all act tough and they would all act like, you know, I'm just here because my buddy told me to be here. And she's trying to read, oh, like you want to be spanked. You want to be leashed up like a dog. She gathers, quote, I learned that my erotic power is the greatest resource that I have. Later, OneTaste members would learn cold reading they would stand in a circle with one person at the center and people would blurt out what they see trying to get a reaction such as I see somebody who has never felt turned on I see a 10 year old girl who's never loved like trying to cold read and practice what Nicole would do Nicole's ex-husband says she just would play around socially with people mess with their heads guys especially a friend of mine was like oh she's a monster she's a monster you stay away from her.

1:00:06And of course that led to him getting married to her because, you know, he found that very intriguing. Side note, I do think that their marriage was doomed for failure since the beginning. They get married when she's just starting One Taste and she doesn't even tell him that One Taste is based off of Oming. Like he has no clue. He thinks that she's just starting a wellness company and she would do these very weird things where she would just treat him like shit. She would get in a hot tub with a bunch of members and then just lead him around like a dog but the leash is the ding dong like just kind of like just very humiliating things other members eventually once he does find out what oming is they just saw him as disposable like he would walk into a room and there is his wife nicole just oming with other people and he doesn't really someone straight up called him a throwaway person and eventually they do get divorced but he does provide a lot of insight into her life reportedly from other sources she had her very first sugar daddy when she was 16 years old she had a strong liking for meth she would sprinkle meth into a tiny little square of tissue paper and then swallow the tissue paper whole i don't know how accurate that is but Another ex of hers says she just has this energy, good or bad, but she fills up the entire room.

1:01:29But probably the most enlightening part of Nicole's past is her relationship with her dad. Nicole's dad leaves the family when she's a few years old. He just like leaves Nicole and her mom to be a single mom. Nicole says during this lecture, you know, my dad was a child molester. He had experiences with young girls and he used me as bait. And so that exact behavior, like, whoa, me colluding with somebody who could cause harm. I got that seed out. I got free. I could forgive everybody in that whole experience. I don't know what she's saying, right? But I will say that Nicole probably has a lot of unresolved trauma in terms of her dad.

1:02:06Once he leaves the family, he starts a whole new family. He never comes to see Nicole. And she idolizes this man, thinks that her dad basically walks on water. She would do this thing where she would blast his favorite songs, sing them out loud because she thought that she could bewitch him to come drive around the corner and come visit her. He would visit very rarely, once in a while, occasionally. And at one point in college, she admits to her friends that he was essaying her when she was a child. And then eventually he was convicted of essaying other children that he had. And she says, you know, my dad died in prison for 52 counts of child molestation.

1:02:43and I never took on the idea that he was a bad person. I took on the idea that he was just so expansive and fourth dimensional that he couldn't confine himself into the arbitrary laws of the third dimension that his only crime in my mind, and now other people may have different ideas, is that he just was fourth dimensional. dimensional. She says she saw a married family guy cheating with a video actress. She saw a religious leader sleeping with, you know, his own students. And you would use the word, our word, but like she says F-U-C-K, right? And she's like, but really what I think is happening, it's just all nature.

1:03:34And maybe that's another shirt. Nature happens instead of saying like, wow these artificial constructs kind of suck ass and even the most excited people in our culture cannot abide by them maybe we should look at the laws we've created the laws were created against child essay right she also starts telling people that the child essay that happened to her as a child was her fault because she seduced her father she says that she was so hungry for his attention that when she was six years old she burst into the restroom when he was using it and declared that she loved him and wanted to marry him.

1:04:10And she would constantly sneak peeks at his private parts. Oh, she also says that as a young child, she would try to climb on her dad. And she felt exhilarated by the friction of things. And then she said that even as a teenager, all of her boyfriends that she would have intimate relations with, at the end of the day, she imagined them to be her father instead. That is some crazy stuff she's saying. Yeah. But somehow all of this gets buried. And all that makes it to the mainstream media is just Nicole's Looney Tunes teachings that seem mostly harmless. So like I said, she just knows her audience really well.

1:04:51So these are she told to her very inner, inner group. Yeah. Or like in the very beginning, she would say these things when she would just say all sorts of things. And then now it's like once she got the attention of the New York Times, once she got the attention of all these celebrities, she starts really toning it down. Wasn't she married to a very successful tech person in the beginning? They weren't married. They were just dating. And more on him later because he's in a lot of the court documents and we're going to go through the trial in part two. And the trial is crazy. She was charged in EDNY, which is in Brooklyn.

1:05:26And same time as Diddy's trial, she also is repped by really powerful attorneys. one of them who repped R. Kelly, Harvey Weinstein. She would say some crazy shit. She was just straight up victim blaming. She was testifying? No, the attorney was just victim blaming through her cross-examinations to the point where the judge was like, hey, so all of you guys are insane. They put like the DOJ symbol and put a swastika over it. Yeah, they're crazy. Not the attorneys. Don't sue me. not the attorneys but nicole's side okay yeah also also the nicole and rachel right now are trying to get part of the last pardons of when trump leaves office this time around they've been courting a lot of right-wing media sources and there they have connections to who is called the pardons are who is like the person closest to trump that's like in charge of all the pardons basically so um wow that's all gonna be in part two so she must make a lot of money right from hiring all these top attorneys yeah she cashed out on one taste before it went down she sold one taste to one taste members who are very wealthy and at one point the guy who married the heiress of the wrigley's chewing gum like the chewing gum that everybody chews uh-huh he was part of one taste like she was attracting a lot of wealthy people so i'm sure she has a lot of money and even during the trial it's just like diddy and the when i was reading it i was like oh this is so odd that it was happening at the same time she would do the exact same things that diddy would do she would turn to her supporters who are filling up the pews and she would put her hand on her chest and like bow at them and like mouth thank you thank you and i'm like oh so they're all the same okay what's happening she just knows her audience she knows exactly what to do if she gets a group of tech investors or tech people that want to join one taste but like she knows they're not here to connect okay so you've got the regular tech dudes who probably are not so great attracting companionship remember like i was talking about earlier so they pay and they want to see things happen they want to learn how to attract members of the opposite gender so that they can go on dates you've got that group and then you've got the tech bros that just want to see some nasty stuff and she would cater to them too she eventually starts hosting priest and priestess of orgasm rituals where quote it's described as this there was this ritual where seven highest ranking women in one taste got up on seven tables on a stage with only black veils on their faces they were totally unclothed from the head down which is not an om thing remember om you just take down your pants.

1:08:19And then seven men would come up and stroke the woman. And then every few minutes, they would all rotate. And the seven men were exalted as important men in the OM community. They were the priests of OM. Usually these guys had plenty of money. That's basically what it is. So it almost becomes like this ritualistic element that I guess a lot of people are into. They also called it magic school. You pay$15 ,000. And to put it lightly, some people said it's kind of more like a sex party you know you watch people become priestess and priests of Aum and those who know Nicole say you know ultimately she was a showman she would also like if she thinks you're into this there was one where they would have snakes they would bring in snakes and there would be a lot of women that were naked and the snakes would just like writhe on their bodies so really she caters she's doing whatever if you have money and you sit down, she's doing whatever she thinks that you like.

1:09:17Right. Huh. But all of this is hidden from mainstream journalists. To them, she just shows, I mean, she shows spiritual nothings. That's what I want to call it. This is a segment I like to call, do you know what she's talking about? Nicole says, I am of the belief that each one of us has a blueprint inside. What's the purpose of this life? The potential. the purpose of this life first is for you to learn to read your particular blueprint and then develop the courage to live that blueprint and then you become permission for everyone else to live their blueprint does that make sense no it doesn't nicole she says so i have a very deep embedded clear blueprint i talk about it i talk about all the crazy shit with pride in you know in the pride that i have is that that is me and then I'm going to live it out.

1:10:11In no way do I ever want you to believe that's a prescription for you. I'm much more interested in semantics. It's called description versus prescription. I'm much more interested in discovering what's in there than how do we have, you have that, whatever it is. I'm going into a coma. The One Taste website also says, learning to live unconditionally means learning to live without attachments to the form the energy wants to move in. I'm not saying that that is conceptually dumb. In fact, it's a beautiful concept derived from Buddhist values. I'm just saying, why would you take something so deep and regurgitate it in a way that is so dumb?

1:10:51Perhaps it exceeds my level of comprehension of the English language, even though I would like to say that I think I have a solid basic grasp. I've been mastering the art of talking for at least two decades. A better phrasing could have easily been living unconditionally means letting go of needing life to look a certain way. Instead, you allow experiences to flow naturally, however they manifest. That's it. Okay. Sense has re-entered our brains. And then of course, there are other things that I guess also just make sense, but it's goofy. The only way to build steady attention in the face of protest is to stay firmly rooted in power.

1:11:32Power is located in the neutral location of sensation between finger and clitoris we keep that spot open with our attention and relate to the spot not to the person we cannot afford to relate to the individual without the mediator of the in-between sensation or else we will fall into the personal which appears as doubt in ourselves that's crazy no yeah i those are literally i feel like you're having an awakening he says i'm suddenly english is my primary language now wow yeah in one article written by nicole it's called the poison to medicine list which i guess the whole thing that she's trying to say is go outside and do this you can get medicine out of poison it's just like random excerpts and again while the general message seems okay she seems unhinged she writes walk into a Safeway supermarket.

1:12:25Imagine that you've entered Nirvana and the name is code for refuge in the world. The great beyond is right there. The guy pricing the Cheerios, he is a deity. The oranges offer the nectar of the gods. The fluorescent lighting is pristine luminosity. You've entered the legendary palace. They've all been there all along and they are so happy to see you it's like a middle schooler writing a fanfic yeah this is so insane i don't even know what to say but somehow it works hiding the unhinged and selling spiritual nothings at this point it's gaining traction they have a following nicole has seduced powerful wealthy men to support one taste they have initially pretty horrendous non-existent earnings even with those non-existent earnings.

1:13:16They have the powerful backers. That's how they open up a yoga studio in San Francisco. That's like the first headquarters. It's a two-story building and it looks like, you know, those fancy concrete perfume shops in LA. You walk in, everything is concrete and wood, and then you have a display of like five glass bottles and it's all like$200 sandalwood scented eau de parfums. That's exactly what the space looks like. It's that feeling. It's airy, it's sunny, but then everybody just like gets naked and starts doing it. And then you just hear moaning, radiating, and echoing off the concrete walls.

1:13:47Welcome to the One Taste Urban Retreat Center. The grand opening, they have burlesque dancers. Maybe they're like performative, interpretive dancers because at one point they take off all their clothes and then they just start cutting into it with scissors. I don't know what that's supposed to mean. So it's like Sanctum the Club, but also meets Erewhon-esque smoothies and wheatgrass shots meets a yoga center, unclothed yoga, om sessions, poetry nights, workshops, community building events. They would have something called the Temple of Sirens, where it's a night you come in, you pay entrance fee.

1:14:23Female employees are going to dress up in hot outfits. You purchase a ticket at the door and they give you attention. They'll blindfold you, give you a food tasting experience. They have foot washing stations for these women to wash feet, which is kind of biblical, I guess. I don't know. She's like just going on FetLife and looking up the biggest K-I-N-Ks that exist. And just like, let me incorporate them to every single event. They do sushi on a nude woman. But because this is a full-fledged LLC, it doesn't meet the health code. So they had to completely saran wrap her body. Which I imagine looks even more sinister looking.

1:15:00So she's like completely saran wrapped. And then they put the sushi on top of the saran wrap. i'm like that they have an event called the joy of chest where it's just like hundreds of pictures of chests and topless hostesses walking around and this booth that you can walk up to where you can quote come on in and get felt up so i imagine they have employees that are that you can feel so like these things just attract all the the the rich tech founders and it seems like this attracts the okay earning tech people the tech founders it seems like nicole gets them and i will say nicole is charismatic and i think the thing that nicole has is probably what lauren sanchez has which is like i think that's what everyone says about lauren sanchez she's not what people think is the most attractive woman in the world and they think that jeff bezos can to have every woman in the world so why lauren sanchez i think both of them are very good at talking to guys but not in the like do whatever you want type of way i guess i think that she has some sort of allure with these tech founders yeah yeah yeah it's actually um you know back in the day they called them courtesans and i say that because nicole was very into the idea of being or having modern day courtesans so back in the day you have concubines concubines are just mistresses.

1:16:30Typically, they came from lower backgrounds. They would just live in a residence where a wealthy man would come in and you're like a mistress. Your duty is to bear children and be ready for this husband. But you're not like the wife. You're not the one living in the main house and living with jewels and all these things. And then you had courtesans. These women typically came from better backgrounds. They were typically highly educated. They were well-informed of the arts and they were essentially very very high-end yacht girls essentially so they know how to conversate they know how to go watch a play and talk about shakespearean ideologies and all these things and have these in-depth conversations with wealthy men they can be like intellectually stimulating but ultimately like there is a transaction happening right so i think nicole got a lot of inspiration from that.

1:17:29That's the vibe I get. But Nicole would say, this is why this place is called One Taste. Once you've tasted being inside of yourself and knowing yourself, there is some part of your soul that will always crawl to get back. But how do you make money from that? $10 for a guy to walk in and touch someone's chest and then walk out? You're not going to get massive conversions to even pay for this type of warehouse. Is she only going to sit there and gather all these tech founders and investors? Or is she going to do something else? According to one former member, they had a conversation with Nicole and they said, quote, I looked at her and I said, you're starting a religion, aren't you?

1:18:07And she goes, yeah, I want to start a religion. But the thing is, you can't sell God. You can get God on Amazon. What I'm selling is sex because you still can't get that. What does that mean? She is going to start using the members. And that is where I leave you with part one because the next step, she's going to up the ante. She's going to victimize the members even further. She's going to get a lot more investors. She's going to start making a lot of money. She's even going to move the headquarters of OneTaste right across the street from Uber, Twitter, and Dolby. It's going to get big and it's going to get bad.

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