Moment 135: Master The Art Of Controlling That Negative Voice: Yung Pueblo

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0:40When you look at the body of work you've produced, and you look specifically at the writing, the content that you've put out into the world, what mission are you on? What is it you're trying to do? What effect you're trying to have on society at large? I think the mission is really hoping to raise self -awareness around the fact that healing and letting go are possible. So, I got into this world really early on. I think it was 2011 when I started realizing that healing was even possible. This was before wellness was even a giant sort of this giant world that it is today. And to me it was a shock.

1:22When I grew up I thought that if you were sick physically or mentally in some manner, you just had to deal with that for the rest of your life. You couldn't really fix that in any way. And when I started changing my habits, when I started changing what I was eating, when I started reassessing my friend group, and then eventually when I started meditating, the changes were so massive that I was so shocked by them that I wanted to really check in with myself and see that is this real and it was real. So, that just kind of pushed me into writing where I felt this sort of creative pull to share the little bit of that I know.

2:02You know, it was interesting because I know that I don't know everything. I'm not fully healed. I'm not fully wise. I have a long way to go. But hopefully some of the things that I'm reflecting on could inspire other people to do this serious work as well. And why? Why does it matter that we heal? Why does it matter? I think it's because it's pretty necessary to live a better life. Like I think whether you've experienced serious trauma or not, you've definitely had hard moments in your life. And those hard moments get accumulated into the mind. They literally, you know, the times when you react very intensely with anger, with sadness, with whatever emotion it is, that reaction gets accumulated in your mind and predisposes you to feeling that same thing again.

2:46And oftentimes we don't quite realize that we're sort of like trapped in this tight little bubble by our past. And we're thinking the same things, saying the same things, making the same actions. And it keeps us in a loop. But if you start healing, you can basically get access to your freedom. So thinking about what you said there about your own healing journey where you couldn't believe the results were real and true. What did you heal from? I think a lot of it was anxiety and stress. And this sort of scarcity mindset. So I was born in Ecuador in the city called Waikiel. I came to the United States when I was about four years old with my parents.

3:29When we got to the United States, it was incredibly difficult. Like we were stuck in the classic American poverty trap. My mom, she worked cleaning houses, my dad, he worked at a supermarket. So there was no upward mobility for us. They didn't know English. We went through a really difficult time. So as I was growing up, I didn't notice how that was affecting me until I got to college where I had so much anxiety and stress about, I would see my parents fight constantly about how they were going to pay the rent, how they were going to get more groceries. I experienced multiple times where I was eight -year -old child and I'm so hungry because there wasn't enough food in the fridge.

4:14And this all got accumulated over time and never really properly processed. I didn't have access to a therapist back then, meditating back then. It was sort of just coping mechanisms. And when I got to university, I hit this breaking point where I didn't want to admit to myself that I didn't feel good. I was constantly trying to cope myself in pleasure by drinking as much as possible, smoking as much as possible, always with friends, never alone. And I ended up just like building all these bad habits where I was partying constantly, doing tons of drugs and eventually hit that breaking point in the summer of 2011 where I almost lost my life.

5:01I talked to a doctor afterwards and described to them what happened. And they were like, oh, yeah, it sounds like a mild heart attack where I had just taken way too many drugs one night, was on the floor crying, basically, you know, praying begging for my life because I didn't want to go out like that. And going through that experience and then basically taking a different route into the life that I have now, I think I'm really grateful that I had that strength. And I want other people to know that they have that strength too. So, you're assuming on that moment then, when you go off to college, you find yourself in addictive cycles with drugs and alcohol and cocaine, I believe.

5:39You have that miniature heart attack. And then at that point, you make a decision that you're not going to let this thing kill you. What is the next step in your journey towards healing? Walking. Walking. I mean, I was incredibly unhealthy. I was definitely overweight at the time, but internally, I had an exercise probably in like four years, four or five years. And so I knew I took the drugs through them away. I'm home and I'm like, okay, how do I like revamp my life? And I remember seeing some YouTube video or stumble upon, or I saw something back then where it was talking about how important it is to have more nutrition.

6:26So I ended up buying a huge tub of barley grass. You know, barley grass used to be really hip back then. And I needed some type of super food because I knew every day I'm just eating rice and meat, rice and meat, just like a very South American diet. And I was like, okay, let me get some nutrition. Let me get this barley grass stuff. I can put it in my orange juice and just knock it back. And I was like, I got to do something. Like, I have to go outside and I just started walking. And I remember I was so unhealthy, started walking lightly jogging that I got the worst shin splints. Like, I literally my legs hurt so bad that I was having trouble going up the stairs, but I kept going and I kept going.

7:07And like, you know, even this morning, this morning I ran four miles, no problem. And thinking about that time, it's, yeah, I've come a long way. I was thinking as you were speaking about the catalyst of change in people's lives. Like that moment where they hit rock bottom and they say enough is enough. And what it takes for them to make a meaningful sustained change in any element of their life, whether it's their relationships and leaving and going finding a better situation or a job or just life in general, like you're describing where you realize you're on the wrong track and you make the decision to go in a new direction.

7:45Two questions there. What do you think it is that from your experience that starts that journey of change for people? And the second thing is when we often speak to people who have changed, the process seems to be really linear and quick. Like, I made the decision to change, then I changed. I think people doubt their power. Honestly, man, I've seen that happen time and time again, where people don't quite understand their capacity, and especially when the situation gets severe. And of course, like, you know, not everybody makes it. Like some people get destroyed by the process of hitting rock bottom.

8:22But other people stand up, it's almost like a Phoenix. I remember writing a poem called Phoenix in my first book, Inward. And I think that, you know, it's pretty personalized. Like, I really don't think everybody has to hit rock bottom. And I think I like having that point of view, because I think people want to like go to extremes often and kind of dramatize things, but you don't need to hit rock bottom to be the best version of yourself. I think that's kind of the situation that I was personally in. But for me, man, I remember when I was on the floor, and I kept thinking about, I was like, man, I feel my life, like, you know, it's running out.

8:59Like, I felt it running out. And I kept thinking about my parents. And I was like, they worked so hard. Like, you know, I wasn't even mad at them. They didn't have time for me because I knew they're struggling. Like, I understood, like, I got it. You, they rolled the dice by coming to the United States because everybody doesn't win here. The other major, major, major thing. Like, when I, you know, the few days after where I almost lost my life, I remember sitting in my room at my mom and dad's house. And this was, you know, I had just graduated from college. It was 2011. The economy was, was pretty bad.

9:37It was hard to get a job at the time. And I remember sitting in the room and I was like, okay, I was like, what's the problem here? Like, how did this almost happen? And it hit me. It was like, oh, is it because you didn't want to admit that you didn't feel good? Now, if that's what got you here, what can get you out of this? And it's, oh, it's telling yourself the truth. And this was, you know, before I had learned how to meditate or anything, but I would just sit in my bed, and I would challenge myself to stay with the feelings that I used to run away from. So like, I like to call it radical honesty with yourself.

10:13Like, it's not, it's not really about other people, but it's between you and yourself. And when those heavy emotions would come up, normally I would just roll a joint, smoke, and just, you know, it'd help cover whatever was there. But when the anxiety would arise, when the stress would arise, when those feelings of worthlessness would arise, I would just sit with them. And, you know, first it was a few minutes, then 10 minutes, 15 minutes. And I was like, okay, like, and I learned a lot, you know, I learned that these little storms that come up, like, they don't need to blow you over. They don't need to totally overwhelm you.

10:49They don't even need to govern your actions. If you just sit there and feel them, you realize they're totally temporary, and it's going to be okay. You know, and I didn't know that before until I started challenging myself to just be with that. And I don't really know where that came from, you know, like I hadn't really I hadn't really read self -improvement books or seeing these things online or anything like that. But I think instinctually I was like, okay, if you were lying to yourself before, now tell yourself the truth. And what does that look like a lot of the time? It looks like feeling your emotions and not running from them.

11:25We don't do that, do we? We, um, we distract ourselves. Constantly, constantly. Yeah. It's, I was just thinking then, how many of us really know how we're feeling? Like, how many of us really know how we ourselves are feeling? Truly. Like, when was the last time, I think for most people listening to this, have you really sat there on the end of your bed or wherever, and asked yourself how you're actually feeling? All things considered. What's out of balance? It's rare, but I think it's becoming more popular. I'm pretty inspired by what's happening now. I've, um, I've been watching this whole wellness world brew and grow and develop, and obviously it has, it has, it has a lot of consumerism around it, but there are a lot of positives.

12:14And there are just millions and millions of people who are seeing therapists now. There's millions and millions of people who are meditating. And there are millions and millions more journaling, reflecting, building self -awareness, building language around these, you know, newer ideas. I mean, actually, old ideas, but that have, you know, come back around. Is that also slightly concerning? What do you mean? Because it's, it's a sign that there is a increasing demand potentially. For, you know what I mean? If it's, if there's more fire extinguishes being solved. Right, right, right. There's more fire extinguishing.

12:53Totally concerning. I think, um, it's concerning, but I think to me, it gives, it gives us, gives me hope, honestly, because of course the world is incredibly challenging. You know, the advent of technology, especially with social media, the increases in loneliness, like we know, we know. Like the cause and effect, they're very clear, right? But these tools have been around for like, you know, the Western tools of therapy, what, 150 years, the Eastern tools of different forms of meditation, indigenous healing practices, these things have been around for millennia. And now that the world is globalized, people in major cities, especially have access to them.

13:34Like you can type in like, what can, what can I do to deal with my anxiety? And you have like, you know, things from, from psychiatrist, like, you know, you can go to your like local meditation center. There are tons of things that you can do now. And what you just have to do is find something that meets you where you're at. So you do see these two things rise together where the demand for your attention is through the roof now. From the media, from tech, from everything that's happening around you, family and friends. But at the same time, here are a bunch of tools for you to get your mind right, so that you can not be overwhelmed by these demands.

14:10I am certainly guilty of using screens and other means to distract myself from how I'm feeling. In fact, you know, when I'm feeling tired or, you know, bothered in some way or a little bit agitated and whatever it might be, my way of dealing with that is to pick up a screen. Yeah. That's good to be honest. Pick up a screen. And either watch something on YouTube, distract myself from the feeling, maybe watch some football. Or something else, you know, something else that's probably not so good for me. And I think that, you know, scrolling on my phone, for example, I think that represents the majority of people.

14:50We use distraction as a way to avoid confronting how we're feeling because confronting how we're feeling is can be uncomfortable. Absolutely. I mean, confronting how you're feeling for a lot of us, that's the gateway to growth. Right? So if you're going to be there and stand with your emotions, you either see so much that you want to keep running or you're like, okay, I'm going to accept this challenge. And let's see how I should grow next. So it is quite difficult. Is it called Vipinsana? Vipinsana. Vipinsana. Vipinsana. Vipinsana. There's a bunch of ways to say it. What is that? It's a meditation that's been around that originated from the Buddhist teaching.

15:31So, 2600 years, where you basically do your best to see reality as it really is. And it's very different from how we normally see reality, right? You and I are hanging out. We're talking, we're having this conversation. It feels like it's too individual speaking. But let's ask ourselves what's happening at the ultimate level, where, well, Diego and Steven, we're basically just these like bundles of atoms that are changing so incredibly rapidly. Trillions of times. And at the same time, it's just mental and physical phenomena interlocking at incredibly high speeds that makes the illusion that we're here.

16:11But in reality, are we real? No, not really. Why is that an important or valuable exercise? It's quite valuable. I think the sense of self, when it becomes overgrown, when it becomes highly traumatized, it creates a barrier to happiness. So, what I found through a positive meditation was that as I was observing the truth of impermanence, literally within the framework of the body, you know, when you start learning that everything that arises ultimately passes away, and you start understanding that change is, it exists within the fabric of every single thing in this universe, you start loosening up your identity.

16:52It's not as rigid as it was before. It's not like Diego always reads science fiction and he always loves blueberries. Actually, it's not true. Sometimes I love watermelon. Sometimes I love, you know, like reading fiction. So, you know, it allows this understanding of change to help you loosen up and really evolve. And I have found that quite beneficial to my personal joy and happiness and definitely in my relationships. Because if you embrace change, you're not going to be as attached. It's not going to be like, I want you to do this this way all the time. In fact, you're going to understand, oh no, different conditions create different situations.

17:30So, yes, I can have goals. But if they don't come about, I'm not going to be crying on the floor. I'm just going to try again.

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