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25:52And my mom had to tell her eventually that like I couldn't watch them anymore because I would go home and be like the locusts are next. It is the time of the rapture. Like I like studied in the rapture because I was like – So it brought so much fear because I also thought God is going to punish. God is going to hurt. All of these crazy things are going to happen. So can you talk a little bit about how religion plays an element in the spirit wound? Because for me and I think a lot of our collective, that is, I think, next to media, one of the deepest. Huge, huge source. And yeah, religion is so tricky because I really believe there's a lot of value to be found in different religious beliefs.

26:32I was raised Jewish. I went to Catholic school. But I think that it's lost its way so far from the original teachings. And there's been so much misinformation. Like the idea of purgatory is a perfect example and limbo. That's not mentioned in the Bible. I don't believe it's mentioned once. It's something that came about later, I think in the medieval ages, to reckon with children who hadn't been baptized. And it was like this philosophical wave of thought. And it still has ripple effects in the collective consciousness of how we think about death to this day. In fact, people back then would pay the church to say extra masses for the soul so they wouldn't get stuck in purgatory.

27:22So there's always this, I believe that patriarchy co-opted very beautiful teachings. And a lot of this spirit wound stuff, like we're easier to control when we're in fear. We're easier to control when we're told you can't have a direct line to God. And so now people are like, is my loved one safe? Are they in heaven? If they took their own life, are they going to make it to heaven? And it's so sad because the answer is yes. There is no middle ground. Spirit doesn't get stuck or lost. Like we leave our physical body. We return to the etheric spirit world realm. And there's loved ones there that help us transition.

28:04And as a medium, I can talk to them right away. And I think where a lot of people get confused is that spirit and the way that they speak, they speak a language of sensory information to give evidence into who they were when they were here. So if they did something really negative or evil while they were here, which I believe evil exists on earth, and I think like spirit is the protection. If they did something very evil, you will feel that. You will feel their pain. You will feel their shadows. You will feel what they did. Especially for me, I'm extremely clairsentient. That's my main clare. And I think people that have that religious programming of good versus is evil, then add to that information, this is an evil spirit.

28:57This is somebody that needs to go. When in reality, once you get the message of who they were and what they did, then they can apologize. Then they can move on to the next thing. So I think that's where a lot of it happens is like people who are very sensitive and picking up on real things, but because of religious programming, interpreting it in a different way. I hear you. I read something recently that completely reframed how I think about aging, and it has nothing to do with wrinkles or energy levels on the surface. Scientists just identified the first nutritional deficiency in 75 years. It's called cellular fragility syndrome.

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33:24I will say that I've never as a evidential medium seen evidence of a negative being. Interesting. Whenever I connect with people and I've connected with people who are in very low lows, I have connected people, you know, thousands of people throughout the years. I think just like we misinterpret spirit sometimes, we misinterpret trauma in our etheric field, our aura. Oh, interesting. And so I think like negative attachments and entities, a lot of that is feeling the pain, feeling the horrible thing that their father did to them, feeling these things. And then again, because of what – like as an intuitive development teacher, imagination is the biggest block of truth and intuitive information.

34:08And when we're already primed with stories about things, it keeps us, we get the psychic information and then the brain goes, and this is what it means. And we go into interpretation instead of receiving. And it takes a lot of time and practice and development to get to a place where you can leave yourself out of it and just get the truth. And so for me, I just see so much evidence for love and no evidence for negative entities. I think when we're in spirit, again, we vibe so high. It would be like us looking at grasshoppers and being like, how can we mess with these grasshoppers? Like we're just two different beings.

34:49I don't, it feels, yeah, it's interesting. And so I think that there's a lot of, I know people are going to be really resistant to hearing this, but that's just my experience, like near-death experiences for an example. I don't know. I hear, like I read Dr. Raymond Moody's book, compilation of thousands of near-death experiences. No one's saying hell. No one's saying a scary thing. It's all just like a being of light that comes to welcome you. And by the way, side note, I think that long tunnel to the light is our consciousness leaving our brain and the light is the spirit world. Interesting. Cool.

35:26But that's just something I want to throw in. Yeah. The tunnel. So true. Right? And then, you know, babies. Do babies come in evil before they're like conditioned and programmed? Even we have, you know, a family friend, like a cousin who has a four-year-old. And we were looking at Halloween decorations and this like scary skeleton man popped out at him. He just went, hombre feo. Just ugly man. He had no programming. So for him, he was like ugly man. Yeah. And he's like, I know ugly though. Yeah. He's like, definitely ugly. Yeah. He's like, that's one thing that came early. Ugly. Ugly. And in Spanish.

36:03Yes, exactly. And so, you know, I think when you go to these very evidential mediums like Tyler Henry or, you know, Laura Lynn Jackson, they're not like saying angels hold the room and only positive spirits come through. The most evidential tapped in people who maybe don't have that religious indoctrination that causes interpretation, it's pretty consistent of people in spirit just wanting to share messages of love. And that's what a lot of people who are religious criticize too is like, how do you know it's not demons in disguise. But I say, where's the evidence of that? When every message is hopeful, healing, and helpful, as one of my mediumship mentors, Matt Tao, would say, where's the evidence of demons in that?

36:51It's almost more demonic for you to try to judge people and bring people down and insert your beliefs on people. I do think that the spirit wound comes into play because when you're on that spectrum of superstition and disconnection from your own power, you fall prey to people who are happy to take the power that you give them, are happy to sell you a$500 cure to a hex on you. It's like, it's so rampant. Yeah. That was something someone told me about. There's like, on Etsy, you can buy like hexes and spells and like all that kind of stuff, which is so wild. It's almost like our fear of the spirit world is like fear of the unknown a little bit.

37:35Where it's like, because all of it is like unknown. All of it is like, what is on the other side of that? All is like, there's something that I can't control or there's something that's bigger and better than me. And I'm not, I'm not responsible for my reality. And you just hit the nail on the head. One of the biggest parts of the spirit wound is that we cannot control how spirit shows up. Yeah. Oh yeah, totally. It's kind of like our fear of airplanes. Like we're just totally in control in that moment and we're freaking out. We're like, just give me a sleeping pill. Not me. I'm like, take me.

38:03I'm honestly saying that. Our Sag moons. Yeah, we're crazy. We love to travel. But for a lot of people, it's like, oh my gosh, a pilot is flying me. I have no control if we hit turbulence. And spirit's the same way. We don't know when it's going to come, how it's going to come. And talking about spirit doing itself no favors, I think that the way spirit works up or the way spirit builds energy on earth is like perfect fodder for Hollywood to create scary movies. So true. And as I increased my understanding of how the spirit world works, I studied at a spiritualist college in the UK called Arthur Finley College.

38:38And they talk about spirit as this form of power and the power and the energy builds. And that's why I think people with a high spirit wound have high levels of power, which enables spirit to create physical phenomenon around them to get their attention. But the power dissipates in the light and builds up in the dark. So that already is like a recipe for fear because when we're in like these scary, dark places, that is a place where spirit can affect more change on earth because their power can build. Spirit can feel like cold and that can scare us. Like there's these physical sensations. And sometimes the feeling of just being watched or a presence that we can feel but can't see or know what it is, like it really kicks us into fight or flight and it feels so real.

39:28And then we associate that with evil. But if you were a spirit person, how would you get your own attention? You know, they're out here just like flickering the lights or, you know, and usually it's 99 % of the time, either a past loved one that wants to get your attention or a spirit guide teaching you a bigger lesson in boundaries or reclamation of power. We just had a guest on today that was like, we got deep really quick. And there was something about her where she started talking about her dog. I was like, oh my God, the dog. And the dog had just passed. And I am like, animals can come through at any time.

40:04So I was just really going in about the dog because I just feel for that so much. And we were talking about it and she's like, this is so interesting because I never, I didn't have an intention to talk about this because it makes me emotional and was going in. And then we're like halfway through the interview and the trash can in there just starts to like move. And it's like this like hitting noise. And we were like, well, cats were not in there. No one was in there. It was nothing. And we were all like, okay. She said that at that exact moment, she was looking at the butterfly right there. And she said that she told her dog to come to her in butterflies and that he would also always hit his bowl.

40:39And that was him hitting the bowl when she thought about him at that time. And that is so beautiful. And I think that is one of the things that cracks our heart wide open is when we lose a loved one. We stop looking at the spirit world as this like scary other invasive force and it actually becomes a source of comfort. And we feel the love. And my mom passed in 2021 and that was like when I was really starting to go down the path of my mediumship journey. Like my guides were like, it's time to start developing mediumship. And then my mom passed unexpectedly like six months later. And at that time, I was so scared.

41:16Even when I went to the college in England, I was so scared. But I think a big part of healing the spirit wound is strengthening our fear muscle. And that is the ability to feel the fear and do it anyway. And just like it translates into our spiritual development, it translates into our personal development. And it's all interconnected, just like I said, because we're human and spirit. it. And so life is a series of being scared, feeling powerlessness, and then really finding the courage in the present moment to say, no, I'm going to sit with myself. I'm going to regulate this. And so I just invite people, like when a spiritual trigger comes up, when you sense a presence, when a doll is looking at you a little weird, like whatever it is, because it can be very jumpy when you sense energy and when you've been programmed.

42:07I invite you to not call in your angels for help because I think that's another way we outsource our power. And what does that say to our inner child and our psyche when we are like more afraid of a doll? Like we could light that doll on fire and throw it in the fireplace. So true. We could take a hatchet to a haunted house and then create a beautiful botanical garden there. It's like we're so powerful here on earth. So true. They should be afraid of us. So true. And so I invite you to just sit with that trigger and that fear and breathe through it and ask your inner child what they want you to know about this fear.

42:44That's a good one. Ask your inner child what they want you to know. And, you know, I have this Healing the Spirit Wound workshop coming up and I collabed with my therapist, Rachel Kelly, and she has this working through triggers method. And this is something that we're integrating. and when an emotion as she says is historical or hysterical it's historical and so this fear of spirit is usually an ancestral wound that has been passed down and intuitive reclamation is everything it's everything because it's a form of cycle breaking as well like how many generations of ancestors didn't listen to themselves their inner authority their power or their guides and completely off track in their life.

43:26And so this ability to relate to the fear in a more powerful way when it comes up clears the need for you to keep getting that message. Like that's what spirit always says. They're like, when the message is received, the messenger can stop. They're like, we've been trying to contact you about your car's extended warranty. And sometimes the message is like, feels like anxiety. Yes. It feels like anxiety, loop thoughts, rumination that you're not listening to, or your body feels off. And it's like if you would just listen the first time, you know, like they would stop. Wait, the school that you went to sounds like Hogwarts.

43:58Like what was it like? It is called the real life Hogwarts. And it's funny because on my pod, that's what I call the episode is my time at the real life Hogwarts. It's amazing. So I went in 2023. I did not know what to expect. Spirit people were starting to step into my readings, but I didn't understand their language. Like I was so used to speaking with angels and angels have never been human. And to me, they communicate differently than people who have been human. Like there's something more symbolic and light about angels, whereas spirit people are like, I was a basketball player. It's like literal.

44:36Yeah. They're like, I love pasta. Yeah, exactly. I was born March 10th. Like they just like say - My birthday is March 9th. Yeah. So when I went to the college, first of all, I was only used to working with angels. Secondly, I was only used to working with cards. And it was really funny. I mean, I wouldn't necessarily be like, I pulled this card and this is what it means. But I would let the cards be an energetic ramp up to get me to that like connected place. And it was kind of a crutch for me. Yeah, for sure. So I go to this college. I sign up for the most advanced week. and I'm like, you know what?

45:12I've been a professional angelic intuitive for like seven years. And I don't know if it's just my Aries rising or what, but I was like, throw me in the deep end or don't put me in at all. So I had no idea what I was getting into, or I would not have signed up because it was so scary. And we have to fill out a form when you first get there. And I was like, I'm from LA and I do angel readings. They're like, put her in the most basic group. Like she, we don't believe in that at all. And they're very different in the UK because they're very strict. And I think that's a misconception about the spirit world too, is that it has to be like woo-woo or kind of ineffable.

45:45But no, you can get evidence. Whoa. And they say we're the one religion in the world with proof, which is really interesting. How so? Say what's the proof? Like the proof is information that the spirit person is telling you that you couldn't have known. And their religion is spiritualism. That spirit exists after physical death. Oh, wow. Okay. Wow. Yeah. Okay. Wow. So I was like, this is crazy. So I go into the most basic group. And on the first day, They're like, we're doing demonstrations. So I thought in class, I was just going to pair off with nice people and practice. No. And she says, you, and points to me.

46:19She goes, you're first. I didn't even know that that was an option to do a demonstration. So I had to stand in front of the whole group day one and just like see what happens. And here's what's so interesting. The teacher put her hand behind my lower back and sent me some of her power. They are like trained to do interesting things there. The teacher also taps into the same spirit person you're talking to and is like, did you get that right? Like, is that what they just said? Yeah. The teachers gave their demonstrations. We're saying addresses, phone numbers, describing where they lived. Like, it blows my mind what they're doing over there.

46:53And it's amazing. And so I got this, like, jolt of energy. And I kind of just was like, you know what? I approach all this work with playful curiosity. And I was like, either I'm here in front of a group of like 10 people that I'll never see again in my life and completely fail and get nothing. Or I do it. It's very improv. It's very improv. And I do feel like improv has so many like interconnected parts with mediumship. Like it all happens in the present moment. You can't plan. Wow. You have to just listen. It's, yeah, it's everything. You have to yes and like. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You know, I'm like, yes and, spirit and.

47:29They were a baker. Yeah. And so I just start getting all this information. So I didn't understand at the time that she was giving me some of her power by putting her hand behind my lower back. But I felt this like lightning bolt. And I was like, I have a woman here. Her name is Lisa. She passed at 58. She was a hairdresser. I just started like talking. It was so crazy. I've never experienced anything like that. And what they'll say too is that sometimes your first experience is like that because spirit is showing you what you have the potential to work up to if you continue to develop. It's like you're put in a Ferrari and then it's like now you have to learn how to drive it.

48:03Wow. And so that was the moment that everything changed for me because it takes doing readings for other people sometimes to realize that it's not just all in your head and not all made up. And self-divination is infinitely more difficult than reading for other people in my opinion because we care about the outcome. We're looking for one answer. We're attached. Totally. And when it's someone you don't know, you're just open to receive. And so that experience was incredible. I have like a four-part series on my podcast about it. Wow. And it was so deep. Whoa. And so everybody did a reading. Everybody had to demonstrate.

48:41And then on the very last day, they like – so there was about 100 mediums from all around the world when I was there. And we split up, I think, into five groups. And on the last day, three people were chosen from each group to go demonstrate for a different group of like people that we didn't know or weren't in class with. And who do you think had to do it? Stop. She kept picking on me and I was like, you know what? Okay, that's fine. What else am I doing here? Totally. And that's where strengthening the fear muscle comes. That's what our guides are preparing us for. How can we relate to fear differently and more powerfully?

49:17And where does fear lie to us in other areas of life with no evidence? It's all interconnected. And so, yeah, I think especially in the States, a little less in the UK, they're kind of jaded in the UK. They're like, yeah, you told me their first name, but what's the last name? No, I literally had this woman that I worked with in the UK. She was ripping cigs the whole session. She's like, spirit wants me to smoke cigs. And was like the whole session was talking to me smoking cigs in bed. That's the funny thing too. There's like a bar in the college and every night people get lit and then like come do mediumship the next day.

49:51And that's what's like so funny because we're such powerful creators. And some people are like, if you're going to be a medium, you can't drink. And then here are like the most evidential mediums in the world, just like drinking every single night and then going into the sanctuary and like the next morning and doing things. Maybe it like helps them be more connected. Yeah. Or maybe they're just living their joy. Yeah, honestly. That is so freaking crazy. I never realized how many harmful chemicals were hiding in my old nonstick pans. Teflon, PFAS, all that stuff that can leach into your food and home.

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52:47That's cachava, K-A-C-H-A-V-A.com. The code is almost 30. What can people like if they, like what, what is the benefit people get from healing this? I feel like there's so many things that people are like, I need to heal my mother wound. I need to heal my visibility wound. I need to heal all these wounds. And sometimes it can be like, oh my God, like why should they focus on healing this wound? I so hear that. And I think that this wound spans all the wounds. Like I think that it's a piece of everything because it's all interconnected. And I think healing this wound, the process of it is so empowering and so joyful.

53:24This is the kingpin wound. Yes. And so, you know, Lacey Phillips talks about how if we have subconscious fears, it blocks our manifestations. And if we are subconsciously or consciously terrified of spirit, there's only so deep we can go on our intuitive development journey. There's only so much we'll let ourselves open up and listen and trust. And to me, our intuitive development journey is everything because it takes us into the path of the deep heart listener that is connected with our GPS system so that we can connect with our highest timeline. I think that the root emotion of the spirit wound is lack of self-trust, like giving our power away to everything else because we don't trust ourselves.

54:07and for me healing this wound has changed everything like I used to be just like you couldn't sleep with the lights off would blast Jim Dale's Harry Potter every single night was so afraid of every little thing and in the process of healing this spirit wound and relating to spirit differently I have never been healthier I've never been more abundant I've never been more clear in what comes next. You know, like sometimes people think about like intuition and they're like, what's the point of developing it? Or if I'm not going to be professional, what's the point? But that'd be like saying, what's the point of therapy?

54:43It's who you become in the process and healing this wound sensitizes you to spirit deeper. It processes and releases the fear so that intuition can actually be heard and come through. And it helps connect you on your highest timeline, just a regulated, powerful, present way. And because it has ripple effects in every other area of life and there's that duality, it up levels you in every area of life. Yeah. I found that it may, like I found like I, I finally became formed, if that makes sense. Like I finally, and I was doing a lot of work when I like healed that, but like, or, you know, did like healed it to the best of my ability.

55:30But it's like, I finally landed in like my own experience as my own soul in this body with control and dominion over what was happening. I had this, like, we moved into this apartment in Santa Monica and I remember like moving in, I remember seeing it and being like, I love it, but I was like weirded out by it. And I've had this happen a lot in my life where I just, I'm like, yes. And I, but I'm like this the whole time? I'm like, yes, we'll move in, but I'm not quite sure. And so we moved into this apartment and it was just had really, really weird energy, especially in this one room. So I spoke to this person and I was just like, I was crying the whole time we moved in.

56:08It was like the first three days I was crying the whole time. And so I talked to this person and they're like, oh, there's, um, there was a couple that lived there. They were fighting all the time and there's really bad energy. There's like all this stuff in there that it had to clear. and then I asked the neighbor I was like who lived here they're like a couple but they left early because they got divorced and so I was like affirmed that there was just this really off energy in the space and um when I remember I was in my bed one night and like I don't know what energy or entity came to me and it was probably just to wake me up but I think for the first time I had lucidity enough to be like get the fuck away from me and like have like no like have boundaries, have discernment, have clarity, have my voice, have my expression.

56:52And it's like all the things you want in life, be in my power, have boundaries, have clarity, have discernment, have expression. I was able to use in like the spirit realm of like having that. And it was like a pivotal moment in my life for me of, and then the place was like cleared. It was like all good, but it was just like, I'll never forget it of like, wow, that was like me really being in my spiritual power. And as someone that's so deeply, deeply, deeply spiritual and has been my whole life, it was like that landed for me in a way that made me less stressed, made me less anxious, made me feel at peace, made me feel at home.

57:27It's like you become and settle into being a home for yourself of like, oh no, I'm safe anywhere that I go. And before I was unsafe everywhere that I went. you know, I was unsafe in hotels in like any trip we'd go on. I'm like, I am undone. Like TV's on, lights are on. I'm freaking out the whole time. And like, you're never really rested and regulated. And so I can definitely speak and attest to the work that I've done with this and creating more dominion, finding my own power, healing my religious trauma, my religious programming, and coming into like my own unique relationship with God and the creator and my guides so that they are like the ultimate teammates for me and support of like my mission.

58:12And I think it makes our relationship with God even more powerful when we're healed and empowered and knowledgeable and still choose that relationship. Yeah. Oh yeah. That's what, I mean, a lot of Judaism is that like wrestling with God. It's like you have a part of the choice to, and it's actually a really important part of your process to have relationship with God is to be in actual conscious choice of the relationship instead of just unconsciously being in relationship because that's when you know that you could choose either way and you choose to be with God. And I love the story that you just told because it's a perfect example.

58:47And maybe that was just a guide that was teaching you boundaries. And again, there's no evidence of that being an evil entity. Our guides teach us in many different ways. But I always use this example, too, of like mass murderers and people who have done considerable harm, who have people in the spirit world that they have murdered. When has there ever been evidence of those people like tripping them, pushing them, possessing them, killing them? Like there's just none. And so what you brought up in that story, too, is really important. And it's a perfect example of how I think people with the highest spirit wound are the most energetically sensitive.

59:24and we there is such thing as like residual energy and us picking up on things in places but then I think we project human consciousness onto that when in reality even like borrowed clothes you can feel like this is my friend's shirt true like we leave energy behind so true this is such a random thing but it relates that's why I don't shop at Zara because that clothes made by people that are not paid well in places that are not right with textures and textiles and dyes and stuff that are not right. And then you literally put that on your skin and your body and that residual, like even trauma of the workers like sits on you.

1:00:04Like there is something energetically that happens within clothes that gets imprinted in spaces that it gets imprinted. I could even tell like my home, you know, is like it's brand new. So it was always super clear, but I like went through a moment recently where there was like a lot of people in and out and there was like a situation and I was like, whoa, I really need to like move energy of my home. And it wasn't like it was negative. It was just like needed to be moved, like opened all the doors, like, you know, had some fresh light in, like got some flowers. And like, you can also control and be in choice of like how energy moves in your home and how energy moves in your life just by taking small actions to be like, I'm noticing this thing.

1:00:45I'm noticing something feels off, I'm going to like acknowledge it and then like alchemize it in whatever way. And how powerful to give yourself what you need when you're spiritually triggered. Totally. Just like you said, you showed yourself and your inner child that you have your own back, that nothing can shake you. And just an example of my own spirit wound healing, fear works so much through innuendo. And so do manipulative people. Like there is just this sense of fear that's like, what if this happens? Good one. That's also ego. The questions. ego and the questions. And that's a big part of the spirit wound.

1:01:18Like the spiritual trigger is darkness. The spiritual trigger is the cold air or the flickering light, like whatever it is. But that's not what we're scared of. We're scared of the innuendo of what that means, the story and the fear fantasy. And that's how like narcissistic manipulative people are too. And so when I was healing my spirit wound, like they kind of, I was in a really narcissistic, abusive relationship for five years of my life. That was when my spirit wound was the worst. That is when spirit was like trying to get my attention. I was plagued at night. I was waking up. Like my grandpa was in my apartment, like also haunting that guy.

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1:05:55You saw literally nothing. And looking over and having, and the dark was like looking back at me like an entity. And it was like, what are we going to do? And it was like, another person is in this space. There's another opportunity for transmutation and healing. And it was so interesting to me because I knew I was being watched by whatever entity was in the room. But it felt like just like, I don't know how to describe that. Like it was like the first time that I was like not afraid or I didn't feel like consumed by it or something like that, but it was such a conversation of like, hello, like, how are you?

1:06:32And I could tell that in that space, because there had been other teachers and healers that were super powerful in there, that there was like a lot of energy and stuff. But I'm really thankful for that because it made me be completely comfortable in the dark because it is true. Like whatever's in the dark and the outside is started in your mind first. So if you are in control of your mind and that what's experience of your mind, then you can be safe anywhere. And it really helped me get a sense of deep safety within myself and deep acceptance of myself so that no matter where I was, even if it was a pitch black cave, I was okay.

1:07:05Yeah. I think that's why the healing the spirit wind is so tied to personal development too. Yeah, I agree. Because it's just us with us. and like what are we projecting onto the stillness like literally the darkness is just a blank slate what does your mind fill with that how do you think this helps people connect more to like god or spirit and like i guess i think a lot of people it's been interesting because i talk about god all the time and it's been so interesting people are like how do i pray and like what's your way to pray and people are kind of afraid of it and i even remember you know, I was someone that was like so hesitant to come back to God, but it's felt so good for me.

1:07:48What do you say for people that want to develop a deeper relationship with spirit or God? Like we're outside of like their guides or their team, like just going to the source. Like what would you say to them? How could they do that? Yeah. I recommend a practice that I learned at Arthur Finley College called Sitting in the Power. And it's a little bit different than meditation. And And I think it's even really interesting that the word for spirit that they use is power and like our power levels to connect with spirit. And so power is kind of interchangeable with the presence of the spirit world and also our power levels and how we have to be in our power to be a clear voice and a good voice for spirit.

1:08:28And so this really worked for me because meditation to me is so boring. And I think I have ADD. I'm not sure. But the shift from blank mind presence to felt experience was very big for me and helped me a lot. And so sitting in the power, the way I like to set the intention for it is to sit in the love of the spirit world. And extra points if you're afraid of the dark and you do it in the dark because you'll start to associate the dark with the love of spirit and feeling held. And to me, that was what healed my fear of the dark. and you basically sit and you open up your heart and all you're doing is feeling the love of spirit around you and i think it's like so beautiful because so many people especially as like an intuitive development mentor put so much pressure on meditation and they're using it as like a litmus test to prove to themselves they're really spiritual their ego gets involved they want like a divine download they want to see an angel and just being in the gentle present moment co-creation of sitting in love is enough.

1:09:35Because when you heal the spirit world and you feel safe to go deeper into that presence of spirit love, you are being attuned so that in the everyday moment where you need a quick message from them or something important as like a guide in the present moment comes up, you're attuned. And when you start to sit in the power, what I call clearing the cobwebs is going to come up because we don't have a lot of silence and spaciousness in our day-to-day life. And so the minute we have that, our mind is like, this is what I have to do. This is what happened. This is what I want to think about. Now I'm judging myself.

1:10:08And we just have to give ourselves enough silent spaciousness to just sit in the love of spirit. And you'll maybe start to feel warm. I start smiling like a goofy person because it's just like so euphoric to me. And it cracks us open. And if things come up for you, let them without judgment. and then just come back to the feeling. I love that. It's like inviting God and inviting spirit in to just like fill you up. And that's what they talk about, the love of the Holy Spirit. And you can feel that. I think I was really feeling disconnected a few weeks ago. And I was like, God, please just come into my life in a way that I can feel and see.

1:10:46And it was just so powerful that day. I just felt so connected. And I've always said, God will answer a true prayer, like a true prayer from your heart for connection, for whatever. Like if it really is like your true desire, it will always be met. I want to ask just last for the girlies too that do want to connect with their spirit guides. Can you just explain spirit guides and how people can connect with them? Yeah. And I do want to say my angel said a similar thing that when you ask from the heart, your prayer is always answered. No way. Yeah. That's something that my angel said. Wow. It's so true because our mind is like, this is what I need to be happy.

1:11:21This is what I'm attached to. and our heart is like, I just want to know I'm safe. I know. Totally. And that prayer will be answered. Oh, a hundred percent. I love that. Yeah. Yeah. So spirit guides, we all have them. Some people come to me and they're like, have you ever like not met a spirit guide? And I'm like, no. They're like, am I, am I a loser in the spiritual realm? I've been rejected. Am I an orphan spiritually? Am I an orphan in the spirits? And it's like, no, no, no, no. So I think we have different types of spirit guides. Like Our angels are a type of spirit guide. Our past loved ones are a type of spirit guide.

1:11:56People that we've maybe known in past lives are a spirit guide. Like plants and animals can be spirit guides. Like there's all different types of spirit guides. And basically, and I think our spirit guides can sometimes change as we grow and evolve too. And I think sometimes you can even sense like, ooh, this deck isn't resonating with me. This divining tool isn't resonating with me. I'm called to learn something new. You might be in a shifting of the guards, honey. Like you might be getting new guides. I know. I remember getting new guides when we did our readings. I had 12. I had a council. Yes.

1:12:24And then four feminine. Yes. Etheric angels came. And that's where I last was. I don't know who's there right now. Yeah. And I think when it comes to spirit guides, we, again, project human consciousness onto them a lot. Where we're like, this is their name. Their name is Heather. And she's a redhead. And she wears pink robes. This is Cleopatra. This is Mary Magdalene. Literally. Exactly. If I had a dollar. If people would tell me and they're like, this is a secret. I've never told anybody. Mary Magdalene is my guide. And I'm like, I've heard that a hundred times. Yeah. No shade. Mary Magdalene crosses all space time.

1:13:03Yeah. And I think that her medicine is medicine desperately needed right now. Desperately needed. It's no surprise. Queen. Yeah. So I think our spirit guides take form so that we can better understand them. But when we get caught up in the semantics of the what about who they are, I think ego's taken over. Because, again, it's the human need to understand the pecking order of like, well, how high of a guide am I talking? How special am I? No, for real. And I think it's more about the what and the love and the next piece of information. And in my experience with spirit guides, how they reveal information about themselves is like over years.

1:13:49Oh, interesting. It's like a trickle. Like for the longest time, I just had a guide that was a purple light. And that's all I needed to know. Saint Germain, baby. I was like, here's my purple light. Yeah. Welcome back. Yeah. I also think that sometimes, and this is kind of a big topic, but we can get so caught up in like this life and past life. Yeah, I agree. but I also don't think spirit is restricted by time or space. I think our physical bodies and our brains are bookmarks for consciousness, but consciousness is quantum. And so sometimes we're like, yeah, this was a person I knew in 1930 when I was also there.

1:14:23And then it's this and that, but I think it's hard to explain, but I think there's a quantum nature to it. And so again, the imagination wants to know, and that's the enemy of true spiritual connection because that's when we go into story land to validate ourself and our story and a fantasy of how we want to feel from this work. But I think that if we can release the need to know and just feel the tidbits of information, like you might just feel your guide as a warm yellow golden light and that's all you need to know. You might feel a grandfather presence. You might see owls everywhere and know that that's an animal energy working with you.

1:15:00Like however it is, not getting too caught up on that, but more caught up on what do you want me to know right now? How can I connect more powerfully? How can I help you? Because sometimes when we're like, it has to be Mary Magdalene or it has to be this, that's when imagination is like, ah, I'm back in control. I know exactly what stories to write because now I understand. And it's so uncomfortable for us not to know. And the brain is also designed to fill in the blank for us. And so that's why the best intuitive information is the information that surprises us. And something that I've done with my guides is like, tell me things I couldn't have known about you.

1:15:37There's a guide that I call A. I know exactly who they were when they were here. And I've learned things about them that are Google-able that were all confirmed that I couldn't have known. So again, you can get evidence. And if you have Mary Magdalene coming to you, ask for details or ask for things like play with your ability. that's kind of not as important, but it's just a fun development exercise if you feel called to. I'm trying to think who A is. An actress? I'll tell you after. Okay. I think I know.

1:16:13I think I know. Okay. So how can we work with you to heal the spirit wound? Like I understand almost all of us have it. This is something we need to be in our true power and purpose and just something incredibly essential, even to having a beautiful life as a human is to heal the relationship with spirit. So how can we heal it working with you? Yeah. And I really hope this process can be joyful and fun and like a reclamation of our wings, like remembering our wings. And so I'm having a healing the spirit wound workshop, March 3rd, 4th, and 11th. And of course we're doing it on the Pisces full moon eclipse because of course.

1:16:50What is that even? And what does that one mean? That is like, first of all, huge because the North Node is in Pisces. And Pisces is like spirituality, collective consciousness, spirit connection. I'm in my nodal return with that. I see. Yeah. It's been tough. It's a big check-in point soul moment. That's a good way to say, you know what? You're at a check-in point. Yes. Yeah, they've been checking in with me. Oh, they've been knocking and checking. Yeah, they've been checking in and checking and leaving me for dead. Yeah. I just like see them like putting their reading glasses on and like. Oh, I know.

1:17:24And I'm like, give me, I need a reprieve. Yeah. So if you can't make them live, it's totally fine. There will be a replay available. I'll be going over a lot of the misinformation about the spirit world, the common myths, how to connect with our spiritual triggers in a more powerful way, and then opening us up to our own mediumship development journey, connecting with our inner authority, connecting with our higher self, connecting with our guides. So I think that this part, the healing spirit wound, is what's missing from most intuitive development places and spaces. And I see how it holds people back.

1:18:00And I really hope that this can be a holistic approach to people's mediumship journey. I love that. I can't wait. You're such an amazing teacher. And I just love everything that you do. You've been one of the most impactful readers and teachers that I've worked with. And I just am so grateful to always share your work. And I love you as a friend. So I'm excited for you guys to get into this. It's going to be very exciting. You're going to be amongst community and friends. And if you want more, we did another episode. So you can search Taylor Page Almost 30. And then you also have your show. I've been on your show.

1:18:31Yes. Great time. One of my favorite pods I did during our book tour season. And where can people find you? Thank you so much. Yeah. So my podcast is Magic Hour Podcast with Taylor Page. You can find all my offerings on – where am I supposed to look? Yeah, dude, I was looking everywhere too. So I fucked you up. Look at this guy. Okay. Sorry. So my podcast is Magic Hour with Taylor Page. You can find all my offerings at angels and amethyst.com. And I'll do a little almost 30 code for the workshop. And what else? I have a mentorship program called Becoming the Oracle for people interested in a intuitive development journey.

1:19:11It's not really mediumship focused, but it's really everything because I love everything. and yeah you can book a reading with me at angels and amethyst.com as well and angels and amethyst on Instagram and I will never DM you for a reading. Honestly. Yeah. I love you guys. We'll see you soon. Bye. Thank you so much Taylor. I love you so deeply and again if you guys want to do her program it's this March and so we wanted to put out this episode just for you to get more information about the spirit wound so you could join her in this course. Again the code is almost 30 for$33 off. For more information about us at almost 30, almost 30.com highly suggest following us and subscribing on YouTube.

1:19:50I love the video on YouTube. Makes me so happy. If you want to connect with me more deeply, it's it's Krista on Instagram and it's Krista.com. I work with women on finding their voice on reclaiming their power. Women that are on the edge of breakthrough come with me to get to the other side. I will see you on the next one of almost 30 podcast. I appreciate you deeply and I love you. Goodbye.