Gen Z and God: Is the Church Answering Young People's Prayers? (Lamorna Ash)

30 Jul 2026 · 1 h 5 min · 26 chapters

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In short

Young adults’ renewed interest in Christianity in Britain, framed as a countercultural search for meaning, community, and authority amid loneliness, digital distraction, and political uncertainty.

Guest background

Lamorna Ashe is a writer and journalist who spent 2021 traveling around Britain documenting young Christian converts. She interviewed people across denominations, including evangelical festivals, Quaker meetings, monastic communities, and a silent Jesuit retreat.

Key claims

The “quiet revival” statistics were overstated/debunked, but interest and anecdotal conversions are real. Christianity’s appeal is partly countercultural because it’s no longer treated as establishment. Social media introduces faith via peers (“gentleness,” outfits, vox pops), though it can feel manipulative or certainty-driven. Different denominations offer different “solutions” to modern life, and some converts are temperamentally predisposed to religious experience.

Notable examples

“Damien” had an intense conversion, then church-hopping across denominations; a young nun said she became a nun because she “didn’t want to miss” her life; a bipolar man found a church that interpreted his mental health as spiritual warfare.

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Lamorna Ashe's Journey into Christianity

3:42 to 4:32

Lamorna Ashe shares her experiences researching young Christian converts and their search for meaning.

“evangelical festivals, she went to Quaker meetings, she stayed with monastic communities and went on a silent Jesuit retreat.”

Exploring Personal Experiences of Faith

4:32 to 6:00

Discussion on personal experiences with faith and the appeal of Christianity for young adults.

“So I hope you enjoy my conversation with Lamorna Ashe.”

Challenging Stereotypes about Nuns and Faith

6:00 to 7:45

Lamorna discusses her changing perspective on nuns and their role in modern faith.

“I don't think I really understood how many denominations there were.”

Counter-Cultural Aspects of Modern Christianity

7:45 to 8:27

The conversation explores how young people's search for faith is now seen as counter-cultural.

“So I guess looking back, it's not entirely surprising that you wrote a book about Christianity or not as surprising as it maybe initially seemed.”

The Diverse Expressions of Faith Among Young Christians

8:27 to 10:21

Discussion on the varied experiences and beliefs among young Christians.

Christianity's Appeal in Today’s Society

10:21 to 12:20

Exploring the renewed interest in Christianity and its relevance in contemporary society.

“Someone I always think about is a young nun I met who, again, I mean, I had so many convictions about what things were going to mean.”

The Evolving Nature of Faith and Community

12:20 to 14:00

A reflection on how community and faith are evolving among the younger generation.

“people are finding christianity something now quite counter-cultural 50 years ago i think christian the Christian church in Britain, the Anglican church was almost the definition of the establishment.”

Exploring Quakerism and its Radical Equality

14:00 to 16:49

Discusses the unique aspects of Quakerism and its appeal to young activists seeking equality.

“but I understand that your ways of living are actually the foolish thing.”

The Quest for Meaning in Modern Christianity

16:50 to 18:57

Examines the growing interest in Christianity among young people and its cultural implications.

“I think those statistics have been somewhat debunked and rolled back now.”

Revival or Individual Stories: A Cultural Snapshot

18:58 to 22:34

Explores the debate around recent statistical claims of revival in Christianity and personal faith journeys.

“So even if those stats have been debunked and it's more like anecdotal evidence, like Quakers do tell me that they've got more young people coming in.”
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The New Atheism and its Limitations

22:35 to 26:06

Discusses the shortcomings of the New Atheism movement and the complex landscape of faith today.

“Or just to get beyond the like really simplistic, monolithic form of Christianity is just, you know, was a colonial handmaiden and therefore is no good to us anymore.”

Religion's Role in Addressing Contemporary Issues

26:07 to 28:00

Looks at how religious leaders, particularly the Pope, are addressing current societal challenges and their relevance to youth.

“things, but like, this sense that there wouldn't be wars in the same way.”

Exploring the Radical Nature of Christianity for Youth

28:00 to 29:29

Discover how young people view Christianity as a catalyst for political action and community.

“And so I think it probably is deeply surprising.”

The Unique Rituals and Community of Churches

29:30 to 31:59

Learn about the importance of rituals in religious settings and their impact on community bonding.

“Another way to look at this question is each form of Christianity is so distinct from the others that I think you'd get a huge range of answers.”

Christian Influencers and Social Media's Role

32:00 to 35:25

Understand the influence of social media on young people's perceptions of Christianity.

“and wine and feel part of something and again i think that there's very few social institutions that have quite that beauty in their rituals.”

Searching for Identity Through Religion

35:26 to 37:22

Explore how young people seek identity through Christianity and the challenges they face.

“And actually there's this sense of beyond it being an identity, it's something that you have to work at.”

Churches' Strategies to Engage Youth

37:23 to 39:43

Examine how different churches attempt to attract and retain young people.

“And so for someone like that, and I find it really hard because I don't have that kind of brain.”

The Growth of Diverse Christian Communities

39:44 to 41:27

Discover how cultural backgrounds influence the formation and growth of Christian communities.

“But young people who are moved to go to Quaker meetings, I think what they say broadly is that the quiet is beautiful.”

The Intersection of Politics and Christianity

41:28 to 42:00

Discuss the relationship between right-wing politics and Christianity in modern society.

“community and identity come into that in a different way.”

Christianity's Political Resurgence

42:00 to 45:00

Explore the intersection of far-right movements and Christianity in politics.

“As the book came out, that was when Danny Kruger left the Conservatives to go to reform.”

The Appeal of Conservative Christianity to Young Men

45:00 to 47:40

Discuss how conservative Christianity appeals to young men amidst societal changes.

“turn up in their churches and they have to debunk or disabuse them of some of these notions of what they think they're going to find within the Orthodox Church.”

Young Women and Their Journey with Christianity

47:40 to 50:40

Examine young women's experiences and shifts within Christianity and feminism.

“Are there things that young women on the left are finding in Christianity that might find a bit of a counterpoint to that story about conservative young men and orthodoxy for instance?”

Personal Reflections on Exploring Christianity

50:40 to 54:40

Delve into the host's personal journey and evolving views on Christianity.

“still feels that they can really engage with the beauty of that and not feel that that's lost within that space and then can come out and have quite a different politics from the people around them.”

Finding Meaning in Religious Practices

54:40 to 56:05

Understand the search for meaning and presence through religious practices.

“And I don't think that's enough to really hold to faith for the kind of person I am who's easily distracted by things.”

Exploring the Search for Presence in Faith

56:05 to 1:02:36

Discover how individuals find peace and presence in religious spaces, particularly within Christianity.

“And I'm kind of interested to know why for you and for the people who you were talking to, it was specifically Christianity.”

The Changing Perception of Christianity Among Gen Z

1:02:36 to 1:06:02

Learn about how Gen Z experiences Christianity differently compared to previous generations and the impact of social media on religious engagement.

“I think the first one is the way that Christianity has changed in the way it appears in people's lives.”
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2:28Hello and welcome to Radical, conversations about the underlying forces reshaping our world and the radical ideas that could define the future. I'm James Marriott. I'm a writer for The Times newspaper and, as you might remember, a former guest on this podcast. This week, I want to talk about something that has intrigued me recently, the relationship between young people and religion. In recent British history, Christianity has been rapidly fading away. The Christian church has drifted from the centre of national life towards its margins, as churches have emptied and the authority of religious leaders has waned.

3:04The story we usually hear is that Christianity is an anachronism, an outdated and rather dusty system of belief that is becoming less relevant to each passing generation. But not everyone agrees. In her 20s, the writer Lamona Ash spent years meeting and documenting the experiences of today's generation of Christian converts, young adults who've turned to the church for answers to their very modern anxieties. She spent a year travelling around Britain and immersing herself in a dizzying range of religious experience, places and communities to find out why young people from all kinds of backgrounds are looking for God.

3:41She went to evangelical festivals, she went to Quaker meetings, she stayed with monastic communities and went on a silent Jesuit retreat. She began her journey as a curious and rather sceptical observer, but as she went along things got increasingly personal and she started to see the appeal of Christianity for herself. Lamorna documented her experiences in her book, Don't Forget We're Here Forever, which asks what Christianity might offer that secular society cannot. I want to ask her what answers younger generations are finding in Christianity for the problems in their lives. Are they searching for meaning?

4:19Or are they looking for ritual, community and certainty in a disorienting digital culture that often leaves us lonely, anxious and unsure of what to believe? And is this the beginning of a genuine religious revival or just a good old-fashioned rebellion against the modern world? So I hope you enjoy my conversation with Lamorna Ashe. Lamorna, thanks so much for joining us on Radical. Thank you for having me, James. It's good to be here. I wanted to start by asking you, what first got you interested in researching young people and Christianity? It started in 2021 when I was looking for a piece to write and just a kind of classic jobbing journalist looking for something exciting.

5:03And I heard this story about two guys who I'd known from university who are a comedy double act and they both simultaneously converted to Christianity and decided they wanted to become priests. and from a very kind of secular friendship group or definitely a very secular background, to me this felt so wildly surprising, so against what I thought my generation was, that I reached out to them and then started interviewing them about their faith and became, in a way that hadn't been for quite a few years, completely fascinated with everything they were saying, most of all with the mechanics of a conversion, like what it really means to convert and you're looking at figures like Paul who have a sudden moment or Augustine, the sudden moment, all these slow conversions or conversions that then have sort of backsliding.

5:43And I followed them for like a year almost, interviewing them about their faith as it accelerated, took them in new directions, caused their lives various upheavals. And then from there I was just like, oh, if this is happening with two people I know, there must be other people. And also I got obsessed with, I don't think I really understood how many denominations there were. And I was sort of doing all these charts of like, I'd like to speak to a Quaker and Eastern Orthodox and a Baptist and Anabaptist. And so it just went from there and just became something that, yeah completely took over my brain it is such a fascinating story i'm interested to know what experience did you have of christianity before you started talking to people about it like how religious was your upbringing i mean very kind of typical of my generation 90s child in britain white went to a church of england primary school and had what i now understand before i knew the denominations i wouldn't had quite an evangelical headmistress at one point who said it was idolatrous to touch wood and I remember age eight thinking somehow something's gone wrong even there that like surely we understand there's something a kind of magical capacity that we can't immediately say what is the wrong kind of um praying or or responding to the world and what's the correct kind um so I knew the Lord's Prayer because my mum taught it to me and I'd say it every night and then had a really great religious teacher at secondary school RS teacher who was part of the first tranche of women ordained in the Church of England in 1994.

7:05And she got me into Christianity through things like Gerard Manley Hopkins. And suddenly I was being shown a form of faith that had doubt and darkness and difficulty. And I found that fascinating. And then I got confirmed when I was like 14, 15. And it might have been because I thought it was an interesting thing to do. And I described it in what I thought was a cool way as a preventative measure to my friends. But at the same time, underneath kind of posturing, there was always some deeper interest in what that would mean in case one day I did need that. And I'm not sure quite what I meant by that at the time.

7:35And I also had a Quaker grandmother. So I had this sense of Quakerism as being this part of my family that I didn't know much about, but I had an understanding of it as being very distinct from other denominations. So I guess looking back, it's not entirely surprising that you wrote a book about Christianity or not as surprising as it maybe initially seemed. Maybe. Someone was saying about Olivia Lange's books that they begin every time as if it was the only thing she was ever going to write and I wonder how much there's the kind of narrativising of one's own life to be like of course I was always led in this direction but I think I don't I think really if you asked any person they would have some brushing with faith growing up because despite what we say about it being a secular country even if it's like you know whichever religion your family comes from there's something there whether it's a grandparent whether it's like a kind of family friend whether it is you've gone to funerals more than an average young person that means that you've come close to areas where there's religious faith.

8:30When you were going out and visiting lots of religious communities and people on different paths of conversion, what were the experiences you found that most overturned your assumptions about what you were going to find when you started looking for Christianity in the modern world? One that I've been thinking about a lot recently is someone I interviewed very early in the book, a man called Damien, who I've been thinking about because it's been useful to use him to think about my own relationship with faith now kind of in the aftermath of the book and he was someone who a friend put me in touch with and said I think you'll be interested in him and I went down to his house on the coast and he had been very against Christianity as a young person and then had this and to the extent where he would sort of go around and he was like I would fight the Christian society at school on intellectual grounds others did it on sort of coolness I did on intellectual grounds and then he had a radical like sort of Damascene conversion where he felt the whole universe smiled at him at once and he went oh god I'm gonna have to become a Christian now what a nightmare that that's the truth I've seen the truth and then spent his teenage or his 20s just going from church to church every single denomination this kind of like widening aperture rather than saying I found the correct denomination and all the other ones are foolish which you often find it's so factional bits of Christianity and then he sort of started to lose his faith but he realized that on the other side of that loss it didn't look the same anymore and he started to think that actually for him there wasn't as much of a difference between atheism and christianity as we've set up linguistically that actually that's sort of something that's happened over time where we have to kind of create these boundaries to say you've got it wrong and i've got it right and so he sort of sees he uses poetry to think about like ways of like holding complexity together so he had this very strange unusual outside of church form of christianity and i think a lot of young people now have this personal vision of faith that doesn't really require going to a church.

10:22Someone I always think about is a young nun I met who, again, I mean, I had so many convictions about what things were going to mean. And I thought that becoming a nun meant choosing to miss your life. And this young nun, actually, she's a postulant, like a trainee nun in Walsingham in Norfolk said to me, I became a nun because I didn't want to live. I didn't want to miss my life. I wanted to actually live it. And that threw open this idea for me of what I thought religion would be which in some ways i thought was a narrowing and i kind of went away from that um it was an easter retreat thinking there's all these ways that i my life's littered with distractions mostly technological that are causing me to miss my life whereas someone who in in this particular convent you don't have your phone for a year there is this like refocusing into the world um and i just this week there's some nuns who've gone viral in california in a monastery because young people have been so amazed on TikTok that they pray every night at midnight they have a vigil for the whole world and all the people that are suffering and all these young people going I think again thinking that so much the world is about sort of self-serving and thinking about prayer is like prosperity gospel where you're just praying for your own well-being and and wealth and then them being like oh hang on there's nuns who are like they're doing this strange thing of praying for the world so I think nuns have been a kind of lasting real interested in me because again I thought of them as like a singular mass and every single nun of course is at a complete different route there and a very particular form of faith too.

11:48I find that nun phenomenon when I wrote an article about this a while ago and I encountered nun TikTok oh yeah and I was like there are just nuns making TikToks which to me seemed to somewhat contradict my idea of what being a nun was about but I guess they've got to be in the modern era they're getting the message out there the paradox yeah there's just a book that came out called convent wisdom which was two scholars talking about um things that can help you in the 21st century by looking to nuns of the 16th century like it does seem to be this constant thing of saying the present feels horrendous where can we look in the past for a different mode of being or authority all that i think brings me back to a really interesting theme of this idea that young people are finding christianity something now quite counter-cultural 50 years ago i think christian the Christian church in Britain, the Anglican church was almost the definition of the establishment.

12:38My sense is that people just don't see it that way anymore. Maybe that is why it feels a little bit more like an option. Yeah, I think that is true. And it brings up this wider interesting fact that Christianity may be kind of this eternal truth, as a Christian would put it. But also it's so at the whims of the cultural and the political and the social as well, that if young people are not being told they have to become Christians, and therefore it's something that loses all flavour of the transcendental because it's just something you learn by rote and suddenly is something that you have to go searching for, then that could be really valuable.

13:13It makes me think about the Anabaptists who they were kind of the first ones, the first denomination that were saying you shouldn't be baptised as a baby, you should wait until you choose like a baptism of true belief and I think there's something about young people now who haven't had to sit through that and looking for it And I think that countercultural thing, that countercultural phenomenon that could be used to explain what's happening if there is a kind of growth in Christianity in Britain, it goes across both ends of the political spectrum as well. that there's a lot of more young right-wing men who get called sort of orthobros who are more interested in Eastern Orthodox Christianity because they're like, I reject the liberal modern moment and instead I want to return to this version of reality, this kind of truth that everyone else has said is foolish, but I understand that your ways of living are actually the foolish thing.

14:03And then for like a young Quaker, there's someone I interviewed for my book, this young Quaker called Lawrence, who is an atheist Quaker, which is actually not that unusual within Quakerism. It's kind of this faith, this part of Christianity that has a lot more space and a lot less of Christian symbolism even when you enter the meeting house. And for him, I don't know if you'd define it as countercultural, but certainly he does a lot within kind of political movements and protests and organising, and he's always looking for this radical equality that doesn't exist. And then he says in the Quaker meeting, because it's founded on radical equality, it is this one space where he can almost see what he would want the world to look like.

14:43So I guess it's countercultural there too that it's non-hierarchical like since the Civil War period it was the Quakers who were going around and yelling at priests and Anglican churches and saying you have no authority at all. The thing that really struck me when I was writing about this was that Christianity suddenly had this had this almost exotic appeal that things like Buddhism had once had to people in the 1960s perhaps that people were just finding in it something that felt really alien. I mean, I guess looking at a nun on TikTok, that does seem like completely outside the way that you would live.

15:11Yes, I think that is, I suppose, so both those. So whether it's the 60s looking at Buddhism and that kind of sense that you could not move towards Christianity or like the Beatles looking at Hinduism and these sort of constant moments or like Jung looking at different forms of spirituality. It's still this sense of like perhaps a universal kind of permanent longing that humans have for some greater sense of meaning. and then it is we have these institutions and these old religions and which feel more available in the moment and if like the 80s and 90s in the noughties as well particularly in the Catholic church but American church and most churches the big sexual abuse scandals that just seem to make it impossible for a young person with a political conscience to want to enter into Christianity it seems so tainted and marred that you couldn't do that similarly like 50s, 60s America once the Pope brought up an encyclical about that, you know, abortion should be completely illegal.

16:04For so many young people who had been Catholic, they were leaving the church in droves. So it's both like this kind of constant longing that people have, and they try and look at which faith they might be able to join. And then also at the moment, I guess one thing that's happening to say, think about Catholics is having Pope Leo XIV, who is speaking out outwardly against Trump constantly, saying that you know that uh christ would never condone violence speaking out against the iran war and suddenly again this meaning when you've got this political this more political pope who's speaking out about sort of um the need for like oppressed people to rise up to protect the rights of migrants and workers that does mean that young people who for a while thought that the catholic church was just too wrecked for them to enter into then suddenly it's something that they can perhaps begin to believe in again i guess it's maybe worth clarifying what exactly we're talking about here because there was a feeling for a while and when I wrote my piece this came up a lot that there was this thing called the quiet revival that we were getting more and more Christians and there was a genuine movement of young people converting to Christianity that was statistically measurable and you could see that x percent more people are going to church.

17:09I think those statistics have been somewhat debunked and rolled back now. What exactly is the movement we're talking about here? Is it a revival of interest? Is it a kind of cultural thing? How would you describe the phenomenon that we are talking about here? Oh, it's so knotty. It's so hard because I think also that what's interesting is that Christians, particularly more evangelical, charismatic Christians, are always looking for revivals. There was like the Toronto Airport blessing in the 90s and often like the desire for religious revival outstrips the facts. so it makes a lot of sense that when these stats came out that were quite a small number of people and yeah as we found out that that you got there were some people were answering incorrectly or there's just like it just wasn't reliable data it ran and ran as a story most of all in places like premier christianity and christianity today because a sign of revival is a relief like finally this is happening and everyone will become christians um and then i suppose then like mass media gets interested too because it's just surprising um how strange that their generations were so certain from new atheism that this would never happen.

18:11And it was funny because my book was coming out as it was happening. And people were like, oh, this is what you were writing about. And I was like, well, no, I was looking more at the countercultural thing of seeing why young people were doing this. But then it's hard to work out if that has then caused that those stats coming out have caused some revival, some interest. Something I know that is that some young people, particularly in the pandemic, I spoke to a lot of young people who converted within the pandemic of this sense of having this kind of private space for contemplation much like being in a convent or a monastery and thinking what am I doing here and maybe not having the kind of judgment or questioning of your peers and you could enter a church space online as they did these sort of zoom services and so I think that was one thing that causes it and also just like the horrors and fears of the pandemic of so many people losing their lives and then people again when there's like these moments of upheaval the world becomes more religious in whatever whatever faith that would be.

19:03So even if those stats have been debunked and it's more like anecdotal evidence, like Quakers do tell me that they've got more young people coming in. Eastern Orthodox priests have told me that, again, anecdotally they've got more young people in. But there is some appetite for trying to work something out for yourself that maybe again speaks to the sense of where is authority in the present day? What can I believe in? So much that comes out is AI slop. I don't trust the government. where can I put my my kind of beliefs in and then turning to old literature and maybe again it's that and I suppose you've probably thought about this lots of like the slight resistance that young people are starting to have to the kind of phones that are put to their hands and being told that you know this is sufficient for you you've got the whole world in here and saying actually it's not how can I go back to something older with a different kind of authority and kind of spiritual roots and literary roots.

19:57How good a metric do you think your book is for wider trends about Christianity? Do you think it can tell us anything about what's going on in Christianity today? Or is it just individual stories? And if it is just individual stories, what can people who aren't Christians get out of it, do you think? I hope it's not a good metric. I didn't ever intend it to be the kind of book that tells you this is what's happening and why. I just don't think, I think I ask like as a writer what my thesis is. I never really go in with a thesis. My sense is that I want to assemble as many stories that hopefully conflict with one another as possible.

20:35And in a way, it's just like you're taking a quick temperature read of a moment without saying, and this proves this is where we're going, because I have no idea and I'm not really interested in those kinds of answers. And so I think it is that strangeness of it then being, then also the other side that is evidently I am also moving within the cultural rivers. and the fact that I wanted to do this book as other people were beginning to speak about this as these writers were making this book Convent Wisdom and lots of people were thinking about faith maybe during the pandemic. Evidently, I'm part of that as well.

21:05So I think in that way, perhaps it's kind of nice whatever happens in the future for each book that comes out to be this record of this particular moment that might be this little spark in the dark that then goes away again. Although spark in the dark makes it sound like Christianity is just a positive force in it. I don't necessarily think it is. if it is just a collection of stories that's kind of all I ever really want to read like I was just reading Talking to Women by Nell Dunn this book of the 60s and it's just a series of interviews with women about what their lives are like and how they get through life and of course that's not relevant to this moment and yet at the same time to have these extra time capsules of things and how people struggled with the same questions 60 years ago and I hope that in my writing too that whether you're religious or not what I'm always looking for I've realized the question I'm always asking is how do you survive life?

21:53Whatever I seem to be writing about is just trying to work out how people are making it through with all the difficult things that happen. And for a lot of people I interviewed who have the usual terrible sufferings that one goes through in life, different forms of faith have been ways through for them. And I hope it speaks that way to other religions as well. Certainly for me, the coolest thing the book has done is allowed me to have more of a dialogue with people with other faiths because I at least have some, I have like the rudiments of the language. So I can understand a bit more when someone tells me what it's like to kind of have a crisis of faith or to have a really sort of solid faith.

22:26I know a little bit more how that might feel. And that feels really exciting and allows me more kind of depth in conversations. And maybe if the book does its job, then that will allow other people to have those conversations as well with other people. Or just to get beyond the like really simplistic, monolithic form of Christianity is just, you know, was a colonial handmaiden and therefore is no good to us anymore. It was that and it was something that allowed all these, or as an institution allowed, these terrible, terrible, unforgivable child abuse scandals. And yet there's always counter-currents going on all the time.

22:58And I would like the book to sort of open up and like show how sort of what a fractal Christianity is of just getting more and more complicated and smaller in all sorts of different directions. I do think there's a definite striking cultural change, which is that when I was about 16 years old, to my considerable embarrassment. I was an incredibly fervent atheist. And I thought Richard Dawkins had presented us with the answers to absolutely everything and everyone's going to become an atheist and this was a monodirectional thing we were never going to go back on. That was a kind of movement known as the new atheism.

23:26What do you think that movement got wrong or failed to account for? Why have the dreams of my 16-year-old self not come true? Well, maybe it's because it appealed to sort of 16-year-olds. You know, when you're 16, you do have these black and whites. I mean, I think I kept my black and white in my 20s as well and seemed to finally have realized the world is way more complex than I thought it was when I was young and thought I knew what on earth was going on. And I really don't. But I the argument against atheism that I sort of tend to parrot is that the the form of God that Dawkins took aim at was the one that was most easy to destroy, which is like just a literalist reading of the Bible.

24:03And it's very easy to prove via science that a literatist reading the Bible, the timings don't work, the way the world happened didn't work. We can use evolution as a kind of proof against it. so I think one thing is that realizing that actually as soon as you again start going into denominations there's so much more complexity in terms of like these multiple lenses people have to believe one thing you know even those who are a Pentecostal Christian might believe in faith healing on one level but still would go to the doctor if something was wrong that what Dawkins lacked was any nuance about how people experience faith personally I think the other thing is that young people now are growing up in so much more of a pluralistic society and to sit in a classroom with multiple people of different faiths and to say I'm an atheist and you're completely wrong I just don't think that's how young people operate with one another anymore because if they're seeing someone and taking and if they are a more serious generation again the need to take seriously the person next to your peers faith and then I think retrospectively that then means a young person who sees that the way that like Islam like provides this like meaning and rooting and community and relationship with God for their friends suddenly they think oh my family were Christian some generations back maybe I'll read that spiritual literature as well and so maybe that's something that's kind of helping us move away from like this new atheism the kind of simplicity of faith we have to say that Richard Dawkins isn't here and he might push back on that But I do think there is a general point that maybe secular society has failed to provide answers to things like meaning and community and the non-rational side of life.

25:40And do you think there was just a bit of a void there that young people, and perhaps especially in a time that feels like turbulent and lonely, new answers were needed or maybe the old answers had to come back? I think it's the old answer. I suppose that to think of, I just speak, when I speak to people who are in their 20s and 30s and the 90s, and this sense of like, end of history, but also in that moment of like, capitalism on fire, people being able to afford properties, it's seeming like, again, this isn't the more affluent end of things, but like, this sense that there wouldn't be wars in the same way.

26:11and for the generation that have come of age and you know naughties 2010s 2020s just like in terms of these horrors that are coming and obviously every generation thinks at some point that the world is going to end but there is this um cluster now of terrifying things and i think saying capitalism as it goes you know we just will allow people to get richer and richer and the billionaires are going to work the world out for us and that that is so evident now that that's not how things go they're looking in other spaces for truth and meaning um and to bring up the um yeah poet leah the 14th extraordinary encyclical about about ai what's so fascinating about that is um this idea of like religion again as being something that can speak truth to power and i think we haven't seen that for a long time because so often religious leaders cozy up to um whoever is kind of the leaders of countries.

27:03And instead seeing within that encyclical, the Pope saying, it's so dangerous for kind of like this kind of constant acceleration and what is it going to do to humanity? What is it going to do to human rights and the dignity of humanity? And I think that must be a real comfort to people because it's just a really useful argument to say again, what makes us distinctly human and matter? Why should we care about one another and everyone around us? And that feels like a much more compelling argument than anyone a politician could make. And do you think there's much of a response from young people to what the Pope said about AI?

27:35I mean, I've heard again anecdotally that there is kind of like delight in the Pope of just the surprise of you have a sense of what you think the Pope would say on certain things. And we know, you know, they're kind of like poor record on things like LGBTQ rights. And over the years, again, you're kind of like against sort of like the Cold War and sort of turning against, just at this point when there was like a kind of reactionary form of what the Catholic Church looked like globally or internationally. And so I think it probably is deeply surprising. And then when you read that encyclical, it's also speaking to this thread that's always been there in Catholicism, that you can see the plowshare movement both in the US and the UK and liberation theology in the 70s and 80s.

28:17And maybe what that's doing for young people is saying, oh, I want to look at the Bible now because I can see that it's possible to read the Gospels as a way of like demanding us to make political action, like direct action. And then going to those texts that they thought they had a number on, this is something I experienced anyway, and seeing there's so much more complexity, there's so much more radicality than they'd presumed. And if people are turning to Christianity for human connection or meaning, why does it have to be Christianity? Why couldn't people go to a sports club or join a political party?

28:51Why is that the solution? Yeah. I think about this a lot with my friends because we were trying to talk about what the difference is between us hanging out together and there's this real love between all of us and going to a religious service of any faith. And thinking that there's something about rituals that allow things to feel more necessary and important and slightly outside of ordinary time that seem to kind of melt the usual hierarchies and kind of difficulties we have with one another. So I would say things like weddings and funerals do something similar. They mark time really distinctly.

29:24And perhaps they remind you of the kind of importance of humanity and always have the spiritual dimension, whether they're religious or not. Another way to look at this question is each form of Christianity is so distinct from the others that I think you'd get a huge range of answers. So I do spend probably more time than I should looking at Christian influences on Instagram. And so many of those young people who convert and kind of speak about this, front camera talk about the um the personal relationship with christ that if you have this very like imminent um charismatic spirit infused form of christianity i assume it must mean that you feel like you have this person with you at all times who is supporting you in your life and therefore that is so distinct from um joining a sports club and feeling sort of connected but also those things can fall apart like there was that book the year of the rat this year last year talking about like the points at which far right people feel that they can join in community and it makes them feel less alone rather than just being kind of a keyboard warrior.

30:26But it's not a very good thing to found a community on because there's no care and a kind of shared morality. And I think that must be the other thing with churches. Certainly my experience of going to quite liberal Anglican churches and Quaker meetings is that they are spaces in which, and Catholic, when I've gone to Catholic churches as well, you have to think about what you're doing here. you join with people of all different generations which again is quite unlike most social gatherings and you're asked to kind of confess and think about how you failed to live up to what you wanted your life to be that week and to me when I was younger perhaps I wouldn't want that but now I find it so useful for anything to put some kind of like breaks on my life and say hang on what are you doing and I think the beauty of that and then the beauty of just the other elements of a service of of whether it is the shared silence for Quaker meeting how unlike any other part of the world that is um but also in in an anglican service i go to that there is poetry you're hearing like you know thousands years old psalms um you're hearing someone trying to wrestle through what that means that they're you're doing the sign of peace together these little rituals that you don't get in other places or i met this young man who was a conspiracy he kind of self-described as a conspiracy theorist and he really kind of lost a lot of people during the pandemic and was deeply lonely and then started listening to youtube videos of this quite um uh conservative eastern orthodox priest and then he went to an eastern orthodox service on easter day and suddenly having felt so isolated um i'm not sure they were like upholding what you're meant to do in covid but they all kind of shook hands and held him and um he had the eucharist and he was able to take bread and wine and feel part of something and again i think that there's very few social institutions that have quite that beauty in their rituals.

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32:09I'm so interested in this phenomenon of Christian influences. I've heard people say that, or Christians would say, the traditional media is very secular. If you want to get your message out, it's quite hard. Whereas on social media, there's suddenly a level playing field. And if you are a Christian, you can start a TikTok or you can go onto Twitter and you can reach people that way. How big was this phenomenon of Christian influences? And how, I mean, were they driving conversions that you saw? It seems to be, or it seems to be that that's the way that young people come across faith in general, first of all, now.

32:41If they're not going to a religious service with Christianity, they're not going to a church service with a parent, that might be the place that they will find it. It's people their age who look like them, who are weekly going to church and saying that their entire life is dedicated to Christ. But I, yeah, when I look at them, there's sort of, there's a kind of gentleness to some of them. And it's just like everyone doing their church fits, like the outfits they wore to church that week. or they're often in like Liverpool Street Station just going up to young people and kind of doing those like on the fly vox pops and saying, do you wish there was more to life?

33:13And everyone answers yes. And do you wish you had a personal relationship with Christ? And young people say, I mean, that would be amazing if I could get there. So it's kind of interesting. And I'm always, there's bits of it that sometimes feel manipulative to me as well of like seeking out people who are more vulnerable. And I find the certainty of it really challenging as well of like we've decided and we are the people of God and you aren't. and we have to convert you is something that maybe speaks to my sensibility that I find challenging. But I think what I've seen, I mean, the Quakers have quite a big social media following now, but it does seem to be that more charismatic, conservative forms of Christianity prosper more on social media.

33:49Is there an identity thing too? Do you think people are looking for an identity in the world and a label or something that they can say, this is who I am, this is what I believe? Do you think that's a part of the appeal? I think probably. I mean, who of us doesn't want to sometimes be able to like quickly say who we are? But I think that would maybe be an original reason. So there was, yeah, Bishop Arrheny, who is a bishop within, he's I think the Bishop of London for the Russian church outside of Russia, who did this big piece last year saying that you will not find in the Orthodox church the form of masculinity that you're looking for, that kind of we're outside of this political thing.

34:25if you come into us saying I'm looking for like this raw macho masculinity you won't find it so I think maybe what sometimes happens is that young people looking for identity and again when I think back to 19 year old me it was just all stabs in the dark in search for identity not to ever be condescending to young people but you are working out for the first time and then actually when you enter into these churches any any form of denomination probably what you're finding is more complicated than just an identity that it might be a kind of um useful to say now i can call myself a christian but then i suppose the work begins then after you've converted of how do i stay here what does it mean if i'm following the gospel how does that work in my day-to-day life as well my friend recently and and he entered christianity through um aa which i guess is like another big route into faith um because those the frameworks are christian you don't have to call the kind of higher power God, but often people do end up in that direction.

35:19And he was saying, people say, how come you're a Christian? He says, oh, I'm a Christian because I pray. And they say, isn't it meant the other way around? You pray because you're a Christian. And actually there's this sense of beyond it being an identity, it's something that you have to work at. It's a kind of daily practice in order to make yourself that person.

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36:06something that really struck me when i've written about this is that i think i've gone in with a bit of a colonist mindset and i've gone to people and said look you're a christian you must be seeking answers to the problem of modern loneliness or digital distraction or these other trends that colonists love to talk about and the kind of response that surprised me was people saying oh no, I heard Jesus speaking to me or I had a vision. And the thought that I came away with was, is there just a constant of people who are probably temperamentally more religious in any generation? And that's being expressed in a particular way now.

36:41I mean, you just think there are just always some people who are just going to have a religious temperament. And that's a lot of what we're seeing. I guess that's what William James would argue. In the varieties of religious experience he talks about this idea about six old people and happy sold people but in my head most people are probably six old but that some of us are more poorest than others to the religious experience for him it's then he always says that it's by the fruits not the roots of that experience like where does that then take you next but i think it would be i think it's and i've thought about this a lot in terms of what denomination people end up as well that so much of it is about temperament of how do you interact with the world what kind of god are you able to see or know because we're all so distinct psychologically in that way and so i'm sure that is the case that you know i met um someone i interviewed for the book alex who he is bipolar and had been sectioned multiple times and was one of many people who kind of gets lost within his experience of mental health and couldn't really be held by the nhs and he went into a church and they said oh yeah you know we have a whole kind of demonology understanding here and what you're having here is spiritual warfare within your mind and we can help you by praying.

37:48And so for someone like that, and I find it really hard because I don't have that kind of brain. And so all I can say is, or I can try and say I believe in your belief. I'm not sure if you can believe in someone else's belief or if that's a kind of contradiction in terms, but at least, yeah, I think I know enough people, particularly in times of trouble who I interviewed, who, you know, a young woman who'd never had a religious experience, although she did call herself a Christian, who she had a really difficult birth and heard God say that she'd be okay. And it must be that maybe it is, maybe a Christian would say that those are moments when you need it where the divine does come down.

38:21And maybe a psychologist would say that some of us are more temperamentally open to seeing strangeness and things that the rest of us don't have at our disposal. I mean, I really do think there's a lot in the idea that we're just people who have religious temperament. But if some of this is driven by these trends of loneliness and anxiety and digital distraction. Do you think churches are doing a good job of trying to find solutions to those things for young people? Is there a real effort of the Anglican church or the Catholic church to say, look, you're 24 years old, you have a particular set of problems in your life and we're here for those problems.

38:53Is there a church that's doing that particularly well, for instance? I don't know enough. I often get asked by priests, like what should we do to kind of get young people and keep them? And I'm like, I don't have any answers for you with that. But my sense is that by offering spaces that are free, that often have like tea and coffee afterwards, where maybe you would get to meet people of different ages, you have at the very least a kind of quiet moment where people are quite kind and generous to you when you walk in and make an effort with welcoming. That probably for a young person who's struggling, maybe who hasn't been out very much, could be a huge deal, like a huge shift for them.

39:28I think with Quaker meetings, what I hear from young people who end up at Quaker meetings, and I think a lot of, it's hard to know about retention as well, and the stats don't get that across, of is this a momentary thing? Will this last? I mean, as we know, there's not a growth in young people attending church, but there is a growth in interest, and I wonder if this will be a temporary thing or not. But young people who are moved to go to Quaker meetings, I think what they say broadly is that the quiet is beautiful. They might also turn up because the Quakers were the first denomination to call what's happening in Palestine a genocide.

39:59They were the first denomination to say that queer people could get married within a Quaker meeting. So having these outward signs that project what your political beliefs are can be really useful for a young person who might otherwise be really iffy about Christianity for good reasons. Like it's colonial past, it's LGBTQ, terrible record and sex abuse record. but I think they do struggle with retention a bit because there isn't that demand of you've got to come back and I think to me that's really important like as soon as there is a sort of pressure and weight upon a person to do it then it's not coming from them so that's challenging too but I think they do struggle with saying oh young people come and go whereas more charismatic what sometimes get called like full fat versions of Christianity that say if you convert you'll be saved and if not you will not be saved and church is a vital part of that that perhaps could be seen as manipulative i mean they think it's true so perhaps not within within that system but maybe that is a better way of holding on to people and i think the only churches that are growing um again maybe the stats are a bit confused but black majority pentecostal churches which have this like again this sort of like big connection and there's this warmth and openness and vibrancy and intensity and sticking together with your community that I'm sure is very different from a very dull Anglican church in the middle of the countryside that's sort of quiet and windy and no one really comes to and the priest doesn't talk to you.

41:23And similarly, I think the Chinese church has been growing within Britain as well and this space of like perhaps if you're living in different places, community and identity come into that in a different way. And again, maybe it's like a more welcoming space for people who might experience racism in other parts of the UK. On the subject of politics, the most visible political aspect of Christianity at the moment seems to me at least to be this sort of right wing political Christianity. And I was interested, how much did you get into that? And how much is that genuine Christianity and how much is that just a cosmetic thing that you see on social media?

41:59Yeah, I mean, I don't think I ever could ascertain or like try and determine whose Christianity is cosmetic and whose is true because it feels like it has to be kind of understood internally. Whilst I was writing the book, there were like little movements like the BNP have often used a bit of Christianity and kind of, you know, sort of go to Iona for their Christmas messages and say, this is the, you know, the root of Britishness. As the book came out, that was when Danny Kruger left the Conservatives to go to reform. And for him, you know, he'd had meetings with J.D. Vance and Christianity is kind of the centre of his politics.

42:31He wants to bring Christianity back into politics. politics, James Orr, who similarly is a very conservative Christian, who again has the kind of connections with these right wing Christian groups in America, they were suddenly coming on the ascendancy. So I hadn't really seen it before that. But it was definitely I had all my like, Christian Google alerts on whilst the book was coming out, and it was just suddenly every day. So Tommy Robinson last year converted to Christianity in prison via his pastor, Ricky Doolan. And in an article, I think it was in Prospect, Ricky Doolan had said that Tommy Robinson had first become interested in the idea of using Christianity when he'd seen the way that Christianity was used in far-right marches in Poland, but certainly suddenly using this symbolism of crusader Christianity, you know, deus volt on banners that unite the kingdom rally last year in September, which is what Pete Hegseth has tattooed on his bicep, maybe, but saying that this is a zero-sum game.

43:25It's Islam or it's Christianity. So we have to protect ourselves. And I guess it's in a way that Christianity wasn't in the new atheism period. It wasn't linked with patriotism in quite the same way. Suddenly it's this thing of, oh, if there's going to be mosques, they'll probably get rid of our churches. And I remember there was a podcast last year at the Unite the Kingdom rally. It was Helen Pidd from The Guardian. And she'd say, and which if you go to church? And none of these men who were dressed up as crusader Christians went to church at all or really had an understanding of what faith might mean.

43:56And do you think it's right to say that this more conservative kind of Christianity that you see online has a particular appeal to young men? And if so, what is it offering them? Yeah, I wonder how much this is like something the media grabs a hold of, of saying this feels like a kind of interesting countercultural trend to follow. Certainly from what I've read and do also follow some young Orthodox Christians on Instagram as well, that there is this, the way that it's articulated is that liberalism, wokeism is this kind of like terrible perversion perversion of what correct gender roles are and men don't know how they're meant to live in society anymore and their kind of rights or at least their status is being eroded and again orthodoxy is as strange a part of christianity as any other and and there's so much um kind of fascinating biblical readings within it but this sort of simplification of saying it's about tradition and it's a rejection of all that comes since and if you become an orthodox christian your wife will stay at home and you can once again feel like a man.

44:56And as these Eastern Orthodox priests have been saying, that's not what this is. And they say there's severe young men, as they call them, turn up in their churches and they have to debunk or disabuse them of some of these notions of what they think they're going to find within the Orthodox Church. And these Orthodox young men you're seeing on Instagram, these were converts, people who'd converted to Orthodox Christianity? Yeah, sometimes from other bits of Christianity. I read a piece that was about, in fact, it was a BBC radio program that was a young man who'd been Anglican. And what he was attracted to was the idea of it being the original Christianity.

45:29This is the OG form. I want truth and I want the most ancient version of it because that feels the most correct one. And so I think that might be a kind of an interesting thing or a reason for some people, an impulse for some people. And then for others, yeah, it seems to be a kind of straight conversion of I have felt lost and alone, as you were saying earlier, that we sometimes look at that, these kind of social problems that might lead people to Christianity and seeing orthodoxy as an answer to that. It struck me that when I was looking into this, I got the impression that for some young men, they were thinking everybody else has an identity label.

46:01Where's mine? And Christianity and Christian civilization was a pretty obvious one for them. And that was part of the attraction. Do you think that's part of it? Yeah, I'm sure that is. I'm sure that is. And I guess that there's a real sadness in that, that there's so much separation of groups now that people feel that they really can't. I mean, you know, this is we've been talking about this. Everyone's been talking about this for years now. But this feeling of like this growing gulf between different kinds of people and different identities. And that, yeah, if you do feel that you've ended up in one where you're stuck online.

46:33I mean, as an Orthodox priest said to me, as he's like, put down your phone and come and see that it might be for a young man who is like, yeah, where do I fit? that this is a space where you're told that you that you do fit and then to give a slightly more generous reading again this this orthodox priest I spoke to he was like what is missing from so much of contemporary society is like this kind of salvific element of saying that your your suffering has meaning and you'll be supported and if the other side of like what we talk about with young men is that you know higher suicide rates or real unhappiness like the inability to express emotions maybe that's a distinctly british problem that maybe not all men have but suddenly that there is this sense of not being able to be expressive and within faith suddenly having this space where you can talk about your suffering and have it within a greater framework of meaning and be supported by people around you and held that must be quite an extraordinary thing and you know weep in the back of a service where in so many spaces that's how you're told you can't behave as a man so we've been speaking about the appeal of christianity to conservative young men and we know from statistics that young men are more likely to be conservative than young women and young women are more left-wing.

47:43Is there a corollary to this story? Are there things that young women on the left are finding in Christianity that might find a bit of a counterpoint to that story about conservative young men and orthodoxy for instance? I think definitely. I think that one story that came to mind was I just read this book Will and Attention by Megan O 'Geeblen who's an American writer and the book's about to come out and she was brought up Christian fundamentalist and then had this kind of radical loss of faith because I think for a lot of young women who are brought up in more conservative churches where their gender roles are really particular, they're falling away from it.

48:18It can be quite dramatic in coming of age and being like, oh no, this is a place in which I will not be listened to in right-wing churches. I might not be able to, you know, I can't minister. There's a kind of crackdown on, in certain like Baptist churches that say, we never want women to be able to be priests. So maybe like a young woman coming to a kind of political consciousness about feminism would move away. But this writer, Megan O 'Geebelin, she then turned to Catholicism. And in it, she did find that something we've been talking about is this like political rootedness of this sense of putting morality at the heart of things.

48:52And for her, for a while, that really held. And then the priest that she was meeting with, who was sort of helping her towards conversion, started saying, but I think God wants you to have children. so there are suddenly these moments in like areas of the catholic church for instance where you can just completely reject it and ignore it and i know like young queer women and trans people men and women who who go to catholic churches and are able to ignore the bits that to them go against their identity and still find enough value and meaning of it to to stay i think that's quite a beautiful thing within christianity again of not needing to be somewhere where everyone agrees with you politically, that you go there for the mass, with your full identity, with who you are, and you share in that with people who might not even believe that you ought to be able to express what your identity is, or your sexuality, or your sexual orientation is.

49:43And then you can walk away from that and kind of be in spaces where you are affirmed. I think I have found that quite a lot of young women go to Quaker meetings, again, for this, because historically, again, in the Civil War period, Quaker women were allowed to speak within meetings because this idea of the inner light that is in all of us channels equally through men and through women. So I actually had this radical moment where it was a space for women to speak. And still there is that equality in those spaces. And I think, again, if women are more pole, more left wing than men, that churches that are vocal about politics are maybe a place where they'd find their homes in more easily.

50:22But then again, I think also I'm really interested in the fact that in Protestantism you talk about your politics much more. It's sort of you can really tell when you go into a church where they sit politically. And then maybe in Orthodox churches and Catholic churches, that can often be worn more quietly. And so maybe someone who has more political left-wing views still feels that they can really engage with the beauty of that and not feel that that's lost within that space and then can come out and have quite a different politics from the people around them. I'm also really interested to get you to talk about your personal journey, like where you started out with Christianity when you began looking into young people getting interested in religion and how your views in Christianity developed as you went on that journey?

51:01So when I first started interviewing people, I was so green that I would be horrified to listen back to the interviews because I just was like, I was splattering them, splattering is a weird way to put it. I was strafing them with questions just again and again and saying, you know, but do you believe in the resurrection? And they say, yes. And I say, do you believe that like Mary was a virgin and do you believe in the enunciation? They say, yes. and I just had no idea how to get inside what Christianity might mean because it felt so alien to me. And I find it really fascinating now. Like, actually, my boyfriend yesterday said, oh, my friends keep asking if you're actually a Christian.

51:35I don't know how to answer. And I was like, it's so funny because they're coming probably at it maybe where I was a few years ago where it's this opaque block of, like, behind there are Christians. I don't know what they're like, but you must be someone very different if you've ended up over there. and I think over time as I've come across so many different forms of faith that articulate themselves so differently within each person when someone says they're a Christian I want to know so many more questions but I have any understanding what that would mean and what they believe how they believe but as the book went on I had this really stupid joke version for the book which I'd actually got from Joshua Cohen I'd read that he sort of said that sometimes the silliest idea for a book kind of like tagline for yourself can be quite fun to play with and I thought can I become a Christian in a year is quite a funny tagline for myself and I was being facetious but I was also really aware that anytime you dedicate yourself wholly to research maybe there's a kind of anthropological element of this and quite honestly and earnestly as you can listen to what people think about faith it's going to start shifting your views because you're going to be coming closer to people and so I had this moment kind of midway through the research period where I was on the island of Iona in the Inhebrides.

52:48And I was going through a terrible time and my mum was just starting to get ill and I was just really struggling and deeply unhappy. And I was so struck by the service that it was like this release valve in me and I wept. And for that week in this separate place that is known as a thin place, sort of by this Celtic Christian idea of places where there's a thinner membrane between heaven and earth. And the sermons were beautiful. And I was like, oh, I can do this. I can believe in God. I can feel it. and that thing of like I'm having religious temperament I was desperately looking for strangeness and little things that would prove to me that I was in the right going in the right direction and I bought a St John's cross and then I came back to London and it all fell away really fast because I couldn't preserve the rituals and the attention to it and it felt like the whole process of the book was that kind of constant movement towards and coming back which I think a more converted or a converted Christian or just a serious Christian would say you're not you're not really there at all because there's more doubt than there is faith and someone who has a more doubt-ridden faith might say well yeah it is this constant ebb and flow and it requires practice and I really like my friend saying that line about um to I'm a Christian because I pray and I know that when I now I had this moment when the book came out where I was completely horrified by having to talk about my own experience of Christianity which is I know ironic because I was asking so many people about it whilst writing but I suddenly felt so foolish trying to explain whether I believed in the resurrection because I couldn't answer the yes or no.

54:17It felt like inappropriate language to discuss such big, confusing, complex questions that I was only just beginning to dwell with. And so I kind of renounced it for a little bit. I was like, I can't handle it. I don't want to go near. And then slowly started going back to church. And I went to a Quaker meeting a couple of weeks ago and an Anglican church a couple of weeks before that. But it's really only now and then. And I don't think that's enough to really hold to faith for the kind of person I am who's easily distracted by things. And for you, what was the thing that began to seem attractive about Christianity, having come in as basically an outsider?

54:52Oh, so much. I guess I think it really was related to it feeling outside normal life, that there was this sense of strangeness that felt like at times to me a spirituality that I could understand as God. I found prayer, whether I could fully believe in it or not, what prayer did or what the relationship was. The idea of addressing my thoughts to God, particularly when suffering, felt so valuable and so unlike any other way of operating in the world that I normally had. There was something about this space that there was the seriousness of it that I found profoundly moving. and again maybe those things when I was moved to tears in a service or was able to connect to someone afterwards because we'd been in some way opened up by trying to deal with this like greater meaning it just felt very profound in a way that whilst walking through the world and you know being in a rush and being distracted all the time I struggle with I think I'm at the moment I've been reading more Simone Vale again um and thinking about and I know and again she's massively in vogue at the moment I wonder if that's an interesting trend too of again about attention this desire of you know that unmixed attention is is a kind of approximation of prayer of looking for spaces when you don't feel like you're barely here you're barely present but instead are grounded and in the world and then your thoughts can kind of maybe mount up higher um I think that to me was really compelling I just interviewed a woman who is a photographer Susie Howell who has done this amazing photography book about spending time in a convent and she was going to visit these nuns looking for presents but looking to photograph it which I found a nice comparison of me trying to go and look for ways of kind of expressing it in words and for her the reason she went to the convent was she was like I'm always in the past or the future I'm never in the present and she went to a convent Christmas service and she just saw how at peace and present the nuns seemed to be and she's kind of been seeking for that ever since and I think you do see that sometimes when you go to these religious spaces and you look at someone you think oh you have discovered a way to live that I would really like.

56:59And I'm kind of interested to know why for you and for the people who you were talking to, it was specifically Christianity. I know that other people have said to me something similar is going on in Buddhism. You are getting converts to Islam in some universities. What was distinct about Christianity as opposed to other religions, I guess, for you and the people you're talking to? Well, yeah, I was speaking to a young Muslim guy recently about finding this more like he went to university and having had the kind of the faith of his childhood finding a more intellectual form of it or like choosing how to engage politically and like this there is this kind of shift in lots of places where young people are saying how can I not vernacularize this for myself but how can I take what I was given and told was total truth and as I come of age and again maybe see things online and kind of find these really amazing sort of ad hoc speakers about different faiths how can I take that and find something from it for me the reason I chose just to think about Christianity was because it was the only faith that had any connection to my to my childhood or to my to my ancestry and I think so much the book what I wanted to do was try and at least wrestle with Christianity and I felt I had more rights to wrestle with a faith that was kind of the faith of the biggest faith within my country even as it declines is still like the biggest faith in britain meaning that like i think i would find it way harder to i mean actually impossible to go and try and write a book about islam and say by the end of it this is what i've discovered about islam not that i ever kind of come to conclusions with my writing any really but it just it just didn't feel like the right thing to do and i thought for a moment about trying to do all the abrahamic religions but it would just take so many years those texts are so complicated all of them that's your career sorted forever each abrahamic religion There we go.

58:45No, no, I think I can't. I think it's not my job. When I was speaking to this young guy, I was like, I think you should obviously write this book about Islam and discover as many different forms of it and write something about having this space and it not just being online talking about it, but to really dwell with the text and wrestle with them and turn those into books feels like such a valuable, necessary thing. Apparently all these new religious imprints are kind of opening up in Britain to respond to this demand for faith. I really hope they're going to get lots of these books that take this wider survey and spend time with different faiths across Britain.

59:16The last question I wanted to ask you was that for people like me, who I think are basically never going to believe in God, never going to become Christians, barring some dramatic conversion experience, is there anything that we can get out of Christianity or the kinds of Christianity that you've explored that we might be able to benefit from without necessarily having to believe in God? well I was going to ask when you went to churches when you were writing a piece about it did you have how did you find that experience at what did you get out of it then I found it extremely interesting the thing that really struck me was again what I was saying that um I'd assumed this was like a cultural thing they liked the music people wanted a community the idea that people could be genuinely fervent about religious belief I've I think you're just not exposed to that particular genre of emotion like at all in a secular society and although I can't say that it like resonated with me i didn't understand there was like a sphere of human experience which i just rarely considered and didn't think about and i think some people probably did just need in a way that i don't feel like i do uh so that was strange i could kind of see that people wanted it if that makes sense yeah and i think you know you can you can track it within or like find it kind of um held within poetry of it's so much devotional poetry of the years and and to go back to the Psalms themselves about this it's so extraordinary to read of like someone struggling and like horrified with the kind of distance they feel from God and then coming closer and to go back to Hopkins of that the absolute awe and wonder he sees in everything because of God because of the God the way God moves through everything I think it's so astonishing and that I'm also really taken by when I hear people who have that kind of faith I still feel that astonishment a lot in the world that maybe now I'd have a religious framework you could call it that like these moments when you do feel like you're accessing a different version of reality.

1:01:03Often it's when you're with someone you love that suddenly something opens up, you feel this like connectivity, maybe like the way Virginia Woolf talked about, like this sort of veil behind what we're seeing, where there is this kind of like beautiful interconnectedness. I think for anyone to read the Bible is like a really great thing to do, just because it's like a fascinating text. It's the beginning of so much. I mean, I guess loads of people at the moment are probably reading the Odyssey because of the film coming out. And similarly, these texts that you suddenly realise are the origins of so much of our storytelling.

1:01:34And you don't need to have any belief at all to be amazed by the stories in Genesis and to take them for yourself and say, how can I play with that in other places? And then I suppose so many of us will come into contact with some form of religion in funerals and in marriages. Obviously, you have secular versions, but I think that's something that anyone can take value in. And it's kind of amazing that there is someone trained, hopefully well, to hold moments of intense grief well. And to say these things that these are people who are really familiar with death. And that's really valuable. And I think also just going into churches for their beauty and also for a quiet moment.

1:02:14And lighting a candle, even if you don't believe, can sometimes have this value to it of saying, I am doing something that's a ritual that is giving me the space to think about someone I'm really worried about. I think anyone can engage with and can be a fun thing too or fun things wrong but can be something that you might want to try I don't want to suddenly sound like I'm proselytizing because I don't think anyone needs to do that I don't think you're proselytizing at all that's a lovely note on which to end Lamorna Rash thanks so much for coming in and talking to us thank you for having me it's been really fun so we've just said goodbye to Lamorna a few really interesting things I think jump out to me from that conversation.

1:02:52I think the first one is the way that Christianity has changed in the way it appears in people's lives. I think probably if you're in middle age or older, you've experienced the Christian church as this institutional thing. You've grown up with it, you've gone to chapel at school, or you've been dragged to church by your parents. I think it's hard to underestimate how different it probably appears to people in their 20s, Gen Z, who are probably, I think, almost the first generation in history who are one step removed from religion. So they're not the first generation of people who become secular.

1:03:23They have secular parents. And I think to that generation, it does seem very plausible to me that Christianity, rather than seeming like this obligatory, institutional thing that you have to turn up to and is a boring, tedious part of the fabric of national life in the establishment, suddenly seems weird and alien. And I think you might almost say has some of the exoticism that you'd associate with traditionally religions that have been adopted by Western truth seekers, things like Buddhism, Hinduism, which, you know, is still going strong. And I think Christianity, as it's become less mainstream, has been able to acquire some of the appeal of those religions that have been traditionally associated with the counterculture.

1:04:06I mean, you know, to speak to Lamorna, she is not a particularly establishment person, I think, and she's kind of attests to that. the other thing that I think is fascinating in the way that young people are encountering christianity in their lives is this phenomenon of christian influences which lamorna mentioned I actually remember my girlfriend once showing me some videos of these tiktok nuns and I was just astonished that these people had so many views likes comments this wasn't some sort of dusty little corner of the internet where they were posting their videos to no response like people were interested in it and I know that certainly when I've written about this and spoken to Christians, people have said to me that something they feel is that our traditional mainstream media is quite secular and tends not to accommodate too many religious voices.

1:04:51Or if you are wanting to put forward your political views, you'll tend not to be asked about your religious views as well. Their case was that social media provides, they would say, a more level playing field where they can go and get their voices out there and they can talk. And if their ideas appeal, they're competing among a load of other voices. And whether or not you think that's a good thing, I think that is self-evidently true. I think when you look at some of the I mean really quite unusually popular Christian influencers out there on social media dancing nuns are not coming to a mainstream TV station near you and I think that's a really important change and if you're looking for that you can find it in a way that perhaps wasn't true 20 years ago and I think it's not for everyone and from our conversation I don't think it seems like we're all going to undergo mass reconversion to Christianity.

1:05:39But evidently, there is among at least some people an appetite for it. And if they want to find it, there are channels for them to find it. And Lamorna herself is a case in point. People who want this stuff are getting it. If you want to hear more about the state of Christianity in Britain today, check out Reverend Giles Fraser's recent Radio 4 series, Churchgoing. That's it for this episode. To make sure you don't miss future conversations, you can subscribe to Radical on BBC Sounds. That's it from me, but there will be another episode of Radical coming very soon. Goodbye.

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From the publisher

This week, James Marriott speaks to the writer Lamorna Ash about her journey through the changing world of British Christianity.

Raised with little religious belief, Lamorna spent a year visiting churches, festivals, monasteries and Christian communities across the country. What began as an investigation into why young people were rediscovering faith gradually became a much more personal search for meaning and belief. James and Lamorna discuss the decline of organised religion, the loneliness and uncertainty of modern life, and Christianity’s surprising appeal to a new generation with diverse beliefs and politics. Is Britain witnessing a genuine religious revival? And could answers to very modern problems be found in our old, religious institutions?

Next week, Sophia Smith Galer speaks to David Runciman, an honorary Professor of Politics at the University of Cambridge, about his very radical proposal to lower the voting age to six years old.

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