Looking Back: A Dangerous Quest for Food in Gaza

0:00Today on State of the World, looking back at a dangerous quest for food in Gaza.

0:10You're listening to State of the World from NPR. We bring you the day's most vital international stories, up close where they're happening. I'm Greg Dixon. As we say goodbye to 2025, our international reporters are looking back at some of the stories they covered in the last year. Anas Baba is NPR's reporter in Gaza. Here's Anas telling us about his most memorable report from 2025. There are stories you cover as a journalist. And then, there are stories you live. This one was both. By June, Gaza was starving after many months of war, siege, daily air strikes and forced displacement. We were not just reporting on famine, we were inside it.

0:54I had lost nearly a third of my body weight, my hands were shaking constantly, my body felt light and fragile. But the decision to document the hunger wasn't driven by physical need. It came from a place much deeper. Anger, helplessness, and responsibility. That week, I decided to walk to one of the so-called aid distribution sites run by the Gaza Humanitarian Foundation, or so-called the GHF. It was the only channel allowed to bring aid into Gaza under a heavily restricted deal involving Israel and a few international actors. On paper, it was meant to relieve suffering. But on the ground, it became a death zone for hundreds of Palestinians.

1:36My mic wasn't on me, only my phone. But my fear wasn't hidden. I was scared. Not of dying. I had made peace with that a long time ago. But of coming back with nothing. No food, no story, no proof of what we are being forced to endure. I was the only journalist to walk that road. maybe because it didn't feel like journalism anymore. A warning, the story you're about to hear contains the sounds of gunfire and descriptions of violence. Here's Anas' report about seeking food at a distribution site in Gaza in June, which was told with NPR's Daniel Estrin. Strict Israeli controls on food entering Gaza have driven widespread hunger.

2:20Our colleague Anas Baba has lost a third of his body weight during the war. He's been eating one small meal a day, rationing his food supplies until they ran out three weeks ago. I cannot find the basics, just like flour, cooking oil, lentils. Israel bans international journalists from independent access to Gaza. Baba is from Gaza and has been reporting for NPR throughout 20 months of war, reporting on the war and living through it, experiencing hunger and observing what it does to a person's body. Women faint in the street. Children faint in the street. Hunger is a little bit of an addiction.

3:03Once you feel that your stomach, your brain, your body is craving something, you will not be afraid of anything. And you can do anything to bring food for your children and for yourself. Last Monday evening, he and his cousin walked for hours to get food at a new distribution site run by private American contractors with a group called the Gaza Humanitarian Foundation, or GHF. It's truly a day in my life that I will never, ever forget. We packed a small, like, backpack, water, bandages, first aid kit. Others tuck a large empty sack under their belt on one hip and on the other. And the other side is a knife to protect themselves from the looters and the bandits.

3:54Around midnight, Baba joined large crowds waiting to approach the food site. GHF has changing hours and opens and closes the site at very short notice, they say to prevent crowd surges. But to get there, you have to pass through an Israeli military zone. Baba says some edge close to get to the front of the crowd before the site opens, despite the risk of Israeli soldiers perceiving them as a threat.

4:25This is the moment where everyone here says that the GHF site is open and now it's 1.30 after midnight. So all of the cars turns on the engine and they started to race each other motorcycles and between them there is people running between the cars. I saw some people that are being crashed. I see some people that they were literally underneath the cars. He ran with the crowd, but when they got close to the site, they were shocked to find an Israeli tank. The crowd was wrong. The food site was not yet open. Every single person started to retreat and run, and the tank did not even wait a second.

5:06Baba recorded the gunfire from a distance. He and his cousin threw themselves to the ground. And I heard the gunshots and the people screaming that they are injured. And others saying that my brother died. And others were screaming, my friend died. It's still, in the meantime, 1.48. And the gunfire didn't stop. And I can see in front of me that people are still waiting. They're not leaving. The Israeli military told NPR people gathered near the site and adjacent to Israeli IDF troops. Quote, reports of injured individuals as a result of IDF fire in the area were received. The details are under review.

5:53At 2 a.m., the gunfire just stopped and we told ourselves maybe this is a sign from them. We were going to go for another run. I stepped in bodies and they didn't stop. This is another run. This time, the GHF site was open. Baba watched large crowds tear down a fence to reach boxes of food sitting on wooden pallets. I grabbed my cell phone and started to record what I'm seeing in front of me. And people enter, fighting each other to take as much as possible. A woman in her 40s with her son. And that woman, Sweety, with an angry face, She was holding two knives in her own hands, and she was screaming at everyone, do not even touch my son or the food.

6:47It didn't used to be this kind of free-for-all. For most of the war, there were hundreds of aid distribution centers across Gaza. UN agencies would send a text message when it was your turn to pick up food, and everyone got some. Israel and the U.S. accused Hamas of diverting that aid, So they set up the GHF to keep Hamas away. But at the GHF site, Baba saw people he believes were Hamas members, based on their looks, taking food for their families. GHF told NPR it's impossible to screen for individuals affiliated with Hamas, but said it was preventing Hamas from controlling the flow of aid. GHF also said it forbids Palestinians from filming U.S.

7:30contractors at the site. People came to me telling me, look at your forehead. There is three laser points, green laser points, on my head from the American contractors. And one of them said out loud with the speaker, no filming is allowed. Asked about this reporting, GHF acknowledged the concern that the changing hours could expose people to potential Israeli military fire. The military says it's opened new roads and created new signage. GHF says Hamas has wounded and killed people en route to their sites and has killed and threatened Palestinians working with them. 170 rights groups and aid groups have called for the GHF system to be dismantled.

8:16At the distribution site, Baba grabbed whatever food he could find tossed on the ground. Beans, cooking oil, biscuits. I boiled five kilograms of rice. It was open with some sand on it, but I didn't care. It's food, they can wash it. His cousin got trampled on the ground by the crowds, and he helped pull him up. Then they fought upstream through a river of people, trying to leave with their bags of food. Walking back, they were stopped by four masked thieves. They were having big knives, and they told us, you do have two options. Give us half of what you had, okay, or we're going to harm you. When the thieves refused to negotiate, Baba and his cousin threw two bags of food at the thieves and ran away with enough food to give their relatives.

9:03Baba was left with about a week and a half of supplies for himself.

9:10Later that morning, Baba went to the hospital. Health officials said more than 200 people were wounded and 26 killed outside the food site. There is no white shrouds in the hospitals in the meantime. The dead bodies that lying on the ground were covered by the same sacks that they were taken to fill it up with food. Every day GHF has opened its food distribution sites, including today, Gaza health officials say hungry people seeking food have been killed. And many people return from the sites empty-handed. That's NPR's Daniel Estrin in Tel Aviv, along with Anas Baba in Gaza, reporting in June of 2025.

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