A Drug Addict's Divine Deal That Changed Everything | Nicky Jam EP 836

0:00Hi, my name is Lewis Howes and welcome to the Daily Motivation Show.

0:12When did you start to create a relationship with God, or what is your faith like today? Well, the thing is, Puerto Ricans, we're very, very Christians. You know, like, we believe in God a lot. We have a lot of, you know, we have a lot of faith in God. And a lot of people in this world today, a lot of people do not think about God. I don't care about God. I've realized that back in the days. There's a whole bunch of singers, Daddy Yankee, Farruko, they're in church right now, and they're worshiping God, and they're giving the word. They're spreading God's word around the world, and people are making fun of it like it's a joke.

0:53I come from everywhere. You couldn't even joke about that. So it's always been for me. God has always been, like, first for me. Even if I don't go to church, I have a very big connection with God. Really? I respect God and I know that God exists because I'm living proof. Because I remember that I told God on my knees, I said, God, there's a whole bunch of talent out there, but none of them got the talent I have. Please, please help me conquer back my career. And I felt that God told me, stop doing drugs and I'll give you everything back. Wow. He didn't give me everything back. He gave me$150 ,000 more.

1:39And if you saw where I came from and the hole that I was and what I went through and how my mom was in drugs and prostitution and my dad was a drug addict and I was a drug addict and I was in jail at the same time that my dad was in jail because they caught my dad off that case that I told you the same time I went to jail. you can't be in a deeper hole than that and then doing hollywood movies and doing the world cup and and owning owning businesses and having more than five number one hits globally come on you think that's a coincidence wow so what was that conversation like or do you have a consistent conversation with god yeah if i tell you i pray i'm alive i do not crank it i have add and to pray you really have to have patience yeah I just talk to God what do you say everything I like God I know I messed up I'm sorry I need your help here I need you to help me with this uh tell me just guide me tell me what I have to do I know that I'm messing up like I have a conversation with God like he's my friend I don't have a I don't sit down and pray because I know there's codes of praying you can't just sit down and ask for stuff you have to first thank God for what you have then second you have to ask for other people's petition what they want and then you talk about yourself that's the right way that's the bible way to uh to i don't have patience for that right and it's not that i'm selfish yeah yeah i'm not selfish at all it's just that i'm i have add like i'm really i'm the type of guy that that i feel like i could talk if i talk to somebody and the first minute it's not interesting, you're going to lose me.

3:27You're going to lose me and I'm going to be zombie with you for a long time. And you're going to talk, just talk, and I'm not really going to listen. That's just the way I am. I don't know, it's because it could be probably the genius part of me because of the music, because I'm always thinking about stuff and my mind goes$150 ,000 per hour. I said$150 ,000. You're making$150 ,000 an hour too. I can make that too. I mean, we don't really need that, but reality. The reality of everything is... So you made a pact with God, it sounds like. Yeah. You made a pact. You made a promise. Yeah, I made a promise.

4:06I ain't saying that I haven't broken my promise a whole bunch of times. I ain't saying that I'm perfect. I ain't saying that I'm not messing up. I still have my skeletons in the closet. I still have my problems from the past attacking me right now. Really? You know what I'm saying? Yeah, of course. I mean. They're still coming after you. They come back, yeah. Really? They come back, man. I mean, come on. Look. What does that feel like? I saw my mom do crack cocaine. I saw my mom do stuff that people normally don't see. I saw my dad do drugs. You watched it as a kid. I watched it as a kid. I saw people getting killed in my face in Puerto Rico in the hood, like normally, like every kid will see.

4:50and as a teenager, I saw a lot of people die, best friends. I saw my best friend die in my face, in my face. See, when somebody goes to war, they get PTSD, right? And they get treatment for PTSD. The reality is there's no really treatment for PTSD because most of them, they stay messed up. They come from the war. Okay, so what's the difference from a guy that goes to the war from a kid that sees the war from his house and sees what's going on in the streets and see his mom going where she goes through and all that, we still have PTSD. Ain't nobody telling us we have PTSD. Ain't nobody studying us.

5:28But of course, I saw the traumas that I have or the stuff that I've seen. So yeah, I could be clean a whole bunch of years, but I ain't saying that sometimes I have my alcohol days when I go crazy. You know what I'm saying? Like till this day, I smoke weed because I need to deal with the anxiety. You need a release. You need some calm. Because I have a lot of anxiety problems. I've been here standing down, and you can see I've moved my leg. I can't stop moving my leg. I used to be like that a lot, just constantly shaking my knees, constantly anxiety and trauma. I always do that. I move 24 hours a day.

6:02I can't stop. My girl says I have a motor up my... Have you ever looked into ways to heal the trauma emotionally? Well, I thought telling my story was going to help me in Netflix, and it helped me a little bit. but you still have those problems. You know, I don't think you ever heal it completely. I think you get better.

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