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Podcast Episode Summary: Vogue’s April Cover Star Doja Cat on Taxidermy, Touring, and Therapy Revelations
Podcast Information
- Title: The Run-Through with Vogue
- Hosts: Chloe Malle, Chioma Nnadi, and Nicole Phelps
- Episode Title: Vogue’s April Cover Star Doja Cat on Taxidermy, Touring, and Therapy Revelations
- Guest: Doja Cat, Vogue's April cover star
- Recording Date: Before March 18, 2023
- Release Date: March 23, 2023
Episode Overview In this episode, Doja Cat discusses her experience as Vogue’s April cover star, her current world tour for her latest album *Vie*, and personal insights into her life and mental health journey. She shares anecdotes about her Vogue cover shoot, her love for fashion, and her candid thoughts on therapy and self-acceptance.
Key Themes Discussed
- Fashion and Cover Shoot Experience
- Doja Cat reflects on her *Vogue* cover shoot, highlighting the collaborative efforts with photographer Willie Vanderperre and stylist Carlos Nazario.
- She shares her excitement about the glamorous aesthetic of the shoot while also mentioning her enjoyment of working with new people in the creative process.
- World Tour Insights
- Currently on tour for her album *Vie*, Doja Cat expresses feelings of fatigue and anxiety regarding her performances, emphasizing the importance of downtime in her schedule.
- She discusses her unique approach of wearing one outfit per show to "own the stage" and focus on performance rather than fashion gimmicks.
- Mental Health and Therapy
- Doja Cat reveals her weekly therapy sessions and opens up about her recent realizations regarding loneliness and the challenges of connecting with others in her industry.
- She also discusses her need to balance honesty and vulnerability in her public persona.
- Personal Interests and Lifestyle
- Doja shares her downtime activities, which include playing Fortnite and watching *Judy Justice*.
- She talks about her love for taxidermy, sharing a humorous anecdote about acquiring a bovine butt as part of her collection.
- Upcoming Projects and Inspirations
- The discussion touches on her involvement in the Met Gala host committee and her anticipation for collaborating with Yves Saint Laurent for the event.
- Doja Cat hints at future music projects while emphasizing the necessity of taking breaks to cultivate new creative works.
Notable Quotes
- “Downtime for me is, I put on a heating blanket and play Fortnite, or I watch Judy Justice.”
- “I think I learned a lot from about myself and also just how people work... I want to be around people and I don't like to be lonely.”
- “An artist can't do anything unless they do nothing... I do at some point very soon need to do nothing in order to cultivate something that is of substance.”
Conclusion This episode of *The Run-Through with Vogue* provides an in-depth look at Doja Cat's life beyond her music career, showcasing her reflections on fashion, the pressures of fame, and her ongoing journey of self-discovery. It illustrates her authenticity and willingness to share personal struggles while navigating the complexities of her artistic identity.
Recommendations For more insights and to enjoy the full conversation, listen to the complete episode on [Vogue](http://vogue.com).
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Additional Resources
- Vogue Subscription: For unlimited access to Vogue, visit [Vogue.com/springissue](https://vogue.com/springissue).
- Follow Doja Cat: Keep up with her latest updates through her social media platforms.
Episode Production Team
- Produced by: Chelsea Daniel, Alex DePalma, Alex John Burns
- Engineered by: Pran Bandy, James Yost
- Mixed by: Mike Kutchman
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Chapters
Tap a time to open that second in VODoja Cat's Home Decor and Taxidermy
3:09 to 4:36
Discussion about Doja Cat's home decor choices, including taxidermy.
“So I hope everyone enjoys our conversation with the incredibly talented Doja cat.”
Insights from Doja Cat's Vogue Shoot
4:36 to 8:51
Doja Cat shares experiences and insights from her Vogue photoshoot.
“I want to know what's your most recent taxidermic purchase?”
Doja Cat on Touring and Downtime
8:51 to 11:01
Doja Cat discusses her feelings about touring and her downtime activities.
“but the first night it was, the energy was just crazy.”
Doja Cat's Cats and Their Adventures
11:01 to 14:04
Conversation about Doja Cat's cats, their personalities, and a recent health scare.
“had a bite, maybe half actually of a brownie.”
Fashion Choices for V Tour
14:04 to 14:32
Doja Cat discusses her fashion choices for her V Tour performances.
“And I've really been into loose-fitting jeans, so I'm going to definitely take a look at what Macy's has in store there too.”
Inspiration Behind Stage Presence
14:32 to 18:09
Doja shares her thoughts on stage presence and performers that inspire her.
“I want to know about what you're wearing on your V Tour, because I thought it was very interesting that you're wearing one look per evening.”
The Journey of Creating 'V'
18:18 to 19:58
Doja Cat reflects on the creation of her album 'V' and its themes.
“because obviously it came sort of hot on the heels of scarlet which was a much more sort of rap focused album.”
Nostalgia and 80s Aesthetics
19:58 to 23:28
Doja discusses her connection to 80s music and aesthetics in her work.
“know really nothing of the 80s there's things I know about it but I'm a 90s baby I was born in 95 And I like wanted this feeling of nostalgia that isn't even honestly based in the 80s.”
Favorite Songs on Tour
23:28 to 24:28
Doja reveals her favorite songs to perform during her tour.
“people were making you know new equipment and and discovering new ways to do makeup like makeup was crazy in the 80s.”
Discussing Lipedema Awareness
24:34 to 28:00
Doja Cat talks openly about her experience with lipedema and its impact.
“I want to ask you, Doja, about your recent video where you talked about having lipoedema.”
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Doja Cat's Journey with Lipoedema
28:00 to 28:32
Doja Cat shares her personal experience with lipoedema and its impact on her life.
“So I - Have you since talked to someone besides yourself about it?”
The Impact of Social Media
28:33 to 29:59
Discussion on the dual nature of social media in Doja's career, including struggles and insights.
“And it's obviously, you know, been such a huge part of your career, a huge part of your success.”
Digital Hygiene and Mental Health
30:00 to 31:36
Doja Cat discusses her relationship with her phone and the importance of digital hygiene.
“Because I read, I listened on a podcast that you said that you hate looking at your phone first thing in the morning when you're in bed.”
Fashion Insights and Met Gala Anticipation
32:52 to 34:26
Exploring Doja Cat's love for fashion and her excitement for the upcoming Met Gala.
“And you're on the host committee for the Met Gala this year, which is super exciting.”
Fashion Risks and Comfort
34:27 to 35:49
Doja Cat reflects on her fearless fashion choices and the balance between comfort and style.
“And I definitely suffered from it minorly, but I, it's, it's been, I don't even want to call it a journey.”
Therapy and Personal Growth
35:50 to 42:07
Doja Cat shares her insights from therapy and the challenges of loneliness in her career.
“Sometimes it's better to be a lot more comfortable.”
Navigating Loneliness in the Spotlight
42:07 to 44:27
Doja Cat shares her feelings on loneliness and the challenges of forming genuine friendships in the music industry.
“I don't think anybody ever really wants to come to my house because it's so far.”
Vulnerability and Sincerity in Personal Growth
44:27 to 46:14
She discusses the importance of being vulnerable and sincere, particularly in her relationships and public persona.
“that you try to do one thing a day that scares you.”
Creative Process and Upcoming Projects
46:14 to 48:43
Doja Cat talks about her creative process, upcoming music, and the need for breaks to cultivate artistic substance.
“I uh, I don't use the meditation app, but it's just meditation.”
Current Interests: Media and Music
48:43 to 49:36
A discussion about Doja Cat's current media consumption, including YouTube channels and music she enjoys.
“I don't know if it's so much electronic but it is like a classical ensembles.”
Transcript
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2:26This is The Run Through. I'm Chloe Mao. And I'm Liam Hess, Senior Lifestyle Editor here at Vogue. Today we have our incredible cover star, a true superstar among us, Doja Cat. She is Vogue's April cover, and she is touring for her album V right now. She's heading to Rwanda this week. And she's also on the Met Gala Host Committee this year and co-hosting our upcoming Vogue Vintage Market. And we got to speak to Doja about her mental health journey. She does therapy twice a week. Very exciting. What she's watching. Oh, it was such a thrill to meet her beautiful Maine Coon cat, Axel. Very handsome boy.
3:09So I hope everyone enjoys our conversation with the incredibly talented Doja cat.
3:18Doja Cat:Oh my God, I'm on a podcast. Yay. Hello. Hi, podcast. Wait, hold on. I have to close. Where are you? I love the forsythia behind you. I am in my kitchen, in my dining room. Excellent. What are these cool chairs? Yeah, that's super cool. I forgot the name of the guy, but I found them on First Sibs, and they're, like, super rare, and I had to have them because I'm a hoarder. Wow. How many do you have? One, two, three, four. I think eight. Okay. Tell us the rest of your, like, house decoration process. Like, are you doing this yourself late at night on first dibs? Are you, do you enjoy it? Are you doing it piece by piece?
3:58Doja Cat:Yeah, I go piece by piece, but I'm also very impatient. And I think like when I first got in here, I just wanted like it to feel like home. And so there was a point where I got stuff and then I had to resell a lot of stuff and it wasn't right. And so I went with the house because the house has a lot of black iron on it already, like the door trimmings and everything. And so I just went with like this kind of weird, eclectic, French, gothic, black iron thing. And I have a lot of old stuff in here. Lots of taxidermy and things like that. Oh, yeah. I've heard about this today for the first time. I also love taxidermy.
4:37I want to know what's your most recent taxidermic purchase? My most recent taxidermic purchase.
4:45Doja Cat:Or acquisition. it was it's people aren't gonna like this i think i i need to learn to not really care what the internet thinks at this moment um but i got the butt of oh i care too much i care too much what people think i got the ass of a of a bovine oh why does one acquire that ass of a bovine um yeah uh i actually don't know it was at a place with asses of bovines wow it doesn't sound like it's de roll in paris uh yeah no it's it's kind of almost safari a little bit too and i have a lot of like uh cowhide rugs in like you know zebra tiger you know things like that wow that's a lots of animals here.
5:39Well, Doja, welcome to the run through, by the way. We are so excited to have you. And I'm also delighted by your Zoom name, which is Nasty Wench. Can you tell us about that? Well, I'm a nasty wench.
5:56Doja Cat:I think a lot of people would agree. I'm a horrible witch and just a nasty little wench. We are very excited because when this episode airs, your Vogue cover will have just been released. We are recording this a few days beforehand, but it will be Wednesday, March 18th. And it is so fantastic. I love this cover and the whole shoot so much. I want to hear about your experience of the shoot, but it was shot in New York City with Carlos Nazario styling it and Willie Vanderpier photographing it. And it's this very glamorous sort of old icon vibe that I just think that they did such a great job with.
6:38But tell me, what was the most surprising thing about the shoot for you? What was the most fun part of the shoot? Most surprising and fun part? I think, like, I think it was just working with new people. I think I'm always really curious as to, like, how different people work together. And it's fun to just get to know new people and get to know them in an environment that they thrive in. That they kind of, you know what I mean? Like that's, everybody was just in their own element that day. And I think it was beautiful to see and be part of. And Carlos was fabulous. He's very easy to work with.
7:24I think we just got along very quickly.
7:28Doja Cat:And I mean, right off the bat, I mean. What was your favorite look that you wore? My favorite look? I wish I could tell you because the thing is you take these pictures and then you leave the set and then it's months later and you don't remember it. Well, I'll tell you my favorite look, which was the vermilion satin Givenchy trench coat that you did. Okay. Okay. It's like this beautiful blood red color. And you did it two versions, one with like a Marilyn wig and one without. And we all gasped when we saw those photos come in. I love that one. That one was really, really stunning. And that was different because we shot off the set, essentially.
8:14Doja Cat:Like it was kind of just in the corner of the room. And I thought that felt really nice. It like juxtaposed with the very formal look and then the sort of dinginess of the room. And I thought that was really cool. And of course, this isn't the first time we're meeting. I was very honored to be asked by Chloe to write this story. And also very lucky to head down, down under in December and spend a couple of days with Dojo and her team as she was touring there in Sydney. I went to see the first night. Well, I went both nights to see the show, but the first night it was, the energy was just crazy.
8:56It was sold out. and I can't believe that you're still going. To me, it feels like eons ago, but that was just the beginning for you. You're touring all the way through till this December. How are you feeling right now at this stage of the V World Tour? I'm burnt out. I'm tired. I have gotten some time to myself at home and it's been really, really nice. But I think the leading up to
9:25Doja Cat:is one of the hardest parts because it's, I think that's just anxiety in a nutshell is sort of thinking about the future, overthinking the future. So it's nerve wracking and I'm tired and I can't wait to be out on the stage, but it's just the process getting to, right? So I'm trying to, you know, take it easy and it's not, it's not going to be, the thing is, It's not going to be too much because my management and everyone, my team just understands that I need that time in between shows. So it's not so back to back and relentless as maybe one would think. What does the downtime look like for you?
10:10Like, are you on the couch watching Real Housewives?
10:14Doja Cat:Downtime for me is I kind of just put on a heating blanket and play Fortnite or I watch Judy Justice. Ooh, I don't know about Judy Justice. It's the new Judge Judy. Oh, my God. I didn't know there was a new Judge Judy. Yeah, it's so good. Oh, my God. No, I love Judge Judy. So I'm extremely excited about this. She's fabulous. She's so sharp. every time i've spoken to you at home as well you've been you've been with your cats you've been tending to your kittens i think last time one of them was sick is he doing any better now yeah he so oh who was sick i think he ate a cookie you said he was like a real cookie feed okay yeah so so i have a baby and he um he's a main coon polydactyl and he had a bite, maybe half actually of a brownie.
11:10Doja Cat:Wow. The chocolate thankfully was good quality. This was at night. So I was like, Oh my God, what vet is going to answer the phone? Like, there's just no way. But there was an instant like response from this online sort of vet thing. You can like call someone, they'll pick up the phone at like 11. I honestly, I don't know if it's legit, but it felt legit enough for me to have a peace of mind. I think it was, I think that it was legit but i called them they were like what kind of chocolate was it and because it wasn't like super processed it was like eggs flour and chocolate that was fascinating that chocolate quality makes a difference yeah like if it's fake chocolate like really crappy candy like that's usually what can make the cats really and dogs really sick but thankfully he didn't have enough to get sick.
12:01Doja Cat:And he's just also, here he comes. What a handsome boy. Do you see him? I see his beautiful tail. Gorgeous. Can you go through your cat names? Yeah, so his name's Axel. He's named after my last cat who passed away in July of last year. His name's Alex. So I swapped the letters And then I have an adult named Ray. Oh, excellent. My aunt's name was Ray who passed away, but he just looks like a Ray to me. I don't know what made me. Is he also a Maine Coon? I love Maine Coons. He is an oriental shorthair. The Run-Thru will be back with Doja Cat after the break.
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13:36Okay, guys, it's finally spring. I'm so excited. I've been wearing my Penny Lane coat all winter. And while I do love it, I am so ready to be wearing layers and more fun outfits this season. I think Macy's is the perfect place to find all of my spring wardrobe essentials. They have great brands from Steve Madden and BCBG, where I can probably find some of those fun sheer layers I'm looking for. And I've really been into loose-fitting jeans, so I'm going to definitely take a look at what Macy's has in store there too. I know a lot of people are into barrel cut. I'm more into a relaxed fit jean.
14:17So I definitely will check that out at Macy's. I'm so ready to make the switch to spring and so glad that Macy's is here for it.
14:32I want to know about what you're wearing on your V Tour, because I thought it was very interesting that you're wearing one look per evening. Was that a decision from the beginning? Was that something that was about like making a statement every night or was it more logistics based? I think it's it's logistics based, but it's also like. I mean, people are there to see me and I don't want to get so lost in the I love bits and things that are, you know, like little cute, fun, gimmicky little things and stunts and things like
15:08Doja Cat:that. But I think for this, I mostly just wanted to own the stage and I wanted to know what it felt like to own a stage and be kind of more at one and not have to be caught up in the fashion of it all. So we went really hard with just one outfit. And, you know, it's fun every night. We don't really know what we're going to do. Really? Yeah. Yeah, I mean, some stuff is custom, but I love to take the custom and then like scramble it with the other things. And we have lots of crates, lots of underwear, lots of bras, lots of gloves, hats and silly things to play with. And so that's usually it was like a mania that I wanted to touch on in my in my mind.
15:53So do you already know what you're going to be wearing next week?
15:57Doja Cat:No, I have no idea. But you know what? I have somewhat of an idea just because there's custom that I love through and through, but I'm looking at sketches at the moment and it's not, it's like I don't know exactly what it looks like. I just see the sketches and I go, I want to wear that head to toe. I'm not changing anything, but we'll see once I see it. Is there a favorite look of the tour so far? My favorite look of the tour? I mean, I love Japan. I think that when it comes to makeup, like I'm really, really into makeup, maybe even into makeup more than fashion. But I think, yeah, the makeup for that was just, it was another world for me.
16:42I feel like a door opened that night when it came to something about Tokyo makes me just want to discover different parts of myself.
16:52Doja Cat:And that night was definitely one of those moments. And speaking of owning the stage, yeah, as I mentioned, I was lucky enough to see you two nights in a row and it was pretty extraordinary. I mean, you barely paused to breathe. It was like you were just going song after song after song. and you're such a powerful performer and you know and so present and it it was really astonishing to witness but i mean are there any what what kind of like headspace are you in when you're on stage are there any kind of performers you'd like to channel like especially on this tour given all of the sort of 80s references yeah i think that i think about certain things that i've seen that i don't i don't know i know nina hagan is like a massive inspiration to me and tell if someone's not familiar with nina hagan how would you sort of give them a quick debrief she's the queen of punk i think like when i think punk i think vivian westwood i think nina hagan and i think a little bit joan jet a little bit of joan jet just a little bit like i just think i think um yeah that that was a really nina was a huge inspiration for me for this tour she's otherworldly and has just given a lot to to music and and a lot to my mind and tell us a little bit more about v as a record as well because obviously it came sort of hot on the heels of scarlet which was a much more sort of rap focused album.
18:32It maybe had more of an aggressive sound. And then with V, you know, it's more pop leaning. And I know we spoke a little bit about Scarlett almost being something that you had to get out of your system a little bit. And yeah, I mean, and V, it seems like an album that was made with, it's an album about romance. It feels like you were in a much sort of happier, a more grounded place while you were making it um and yeah just give us the backstory i suppose
19:03Doja Cat:on how the album came to be sure um i i remember i was doing a lot of different r &b songs before i got into the whole the spiel like i i didn't really know what i wanted to do at first but i knew that I wanted to talk about love and my relationships and I was in a relationship that I I think I learned a lot from about myself and also just how people work and that was the baseline was the was the meaning of it but the the music aspect only came in about like man it took like months to get to a point of being like this is I want to do something that feels 80s because I know really nothing of the 80s there's things I know about it but I'm a 90s baby I was born in 95 And I like wanted this feeling of nostalgia that isn't even honestly based in the 80s.
20:15It's based in like my childhood. But when I describe this, I'm usually talking about like how when we were kids in the 90s, you saw a lot of like of the entail, like the trail off of like 80s architecture, 80s fashion. um you know 80s music because we were going into a new era in in the 90s it's different from the 80s obviously but there's a lot of things like when I was in school I would you know play with old toys that were probably from the 80s things that you know things like that and seeing adults and how the way adults dressed like I was really inspired by that and also the music like the music was still huge from the 80s in the 90s um artists from the 80s had their kind of like they had their their glow up in the 90s in a way it's like they were figuring out who they were in the 80s and then they they adapted to the 90s in a different way so it's it's weird because the album does feel super 80s but it really is kind of this you know wanting to understand the beginning of where I came from and there's this sort of like the kids like calling it a core but there's like a a core like it's like um man what is it sort of it's kind of related to dream core it's kind of related what is dream core dream core is uh it's like a sub-genre of aesthetic that is rooted in our dreams as children oh wow that we don't really remember till we see it in an image in reality it's like a they'll show you like a um a grainy or a kind of washed out image of like a house on a hill that's alone and it's like there's a there's something very lonely about it and i i touched on this a little bit it's like liminal so liminal space is like this sort of sub category of an aesthetic and it it that's kind of what it is it's like that what we remember as maybe millennials or maybe um I think some gen z maybe kind of kind of feel that way too but it's I wanted to sort of touch that in a way in pockets in my album and then there's some moments that are super on the nose 80s like really but I I know a lot of artists have done the 80s in different ways but the way I wanted to do it was sort of um in a tacky way like I wanted to I wanted that 80s tack I wanted that 80s like sex and the 80s cocaine and the 80s like just everything that felt felt kind of whimsical and silly in a way because the 80s was all about discovery of of different scents and people were making you know synthesizers that were like i'm rambling a little bit but people were making you know new equipment and and discovering new ways to do makeup like makeup was crazy in the 80s.
23:44You compare it to the 50s. It's just like bizarre. It really is. And so I wanted to really touch that. I wanted to be there. What was your favorite song to perform on tour? Was is there like one that every night you're like, oh, yes. My favorite song. It's so weird. I think about, you know, I love doing all mine because it's so different from everything else. um it's like an accent song in a way off the project and I think I yeah that's probably one of my favorite but take me dancing is another one that I'm like I just I love to be able to get out all my energy on that but there's so many that I love that I love doing amen there's a section of Amen.
24:29And I'm doing a cover of I'm a Man. I want to ask you, Doja, about your recent video where you talked about having lipoedema. How did you decide to share that? Yeah. So I cannot sleep at the moment because of all of the buildup to tour. It's so weird because I'm tired, but I'm not.
24:55Doja Cat:I don't know. I just can't sleep. So I'm up at 1 a.m. having thoughts. Okay, what's your sleep hygiene process? Like, what helps you sleep? I'll take two Benadryl if I'm panicking. Okay. If I need to be up tomorrow, I need to go to sleep. I'll take like two Benadryl or one. And you don't have a Benadryl hangover? I do. I do. Okay. I end up having it. But the thing is, when we start, like usually if I have to be up, it'll be, I just deal with it. Okay. But I have like a show at night. So like I don't mind having the hangover in the morning. Got it. You know what I mean? So what was the, oh yeah, the lipedema thing.
25:35So I was just up and I was like, I saw a surgeon. I got recommended something on YouTube about lipedema. And a surgeon was talking about it. Can you tell people what it is for those who don't know? So, Lipidema is a disease that is usually caused by hereditary stuff. It's passed down and it occurs mostly in women. And it happens on the lower half of the body typically, but a lot of people get it in their arms as well. but it's a stubborn fat that with any type of working out or eating, it doesn't matter what you do. That fat is going to stay there. And there are different stages where the fat can sort of migrate and grow and take this form that's kind of like a column-like shape in the legs.
26:31So instead of having sort of the normal curve to the leg, the fat will take on a look of almost like you have the legs of a baby. Wow. So you can have really like big knees with like kind of a baby face knees, what I call it. Like I have little, my, I used to have, or I still kind of have like little baby's faces in my knees, but it was pretty bad in my early, in my early twenties. and um it it can be a problem because there's other social things that come into play with with lipedema like when I was much younger I had a lot of people like unwanted attention because I had a really big butt and so my butt was so big that it was just like kind of like every morning going to middle school going to school it would be like oh her butt is like Like people just like pointing and walking and, and, and people would be like, wow, your body's so crazy.
27:28You're, this is incredible. Like, how is your waist so small and your butt so big? And meanwhile, I'm like, why is my waist so small and my butt is so big? Like I, I couldn't, like, I just didn't want that attention on me and it made me extremely uncomfortable and self-conscious. and I just wasn't comfortable with it for a long time. And so I saw those pictures of different people with different stages of lipoedema and I came to a conclusion, I self-diagnosed. We love that. That I am stage two.
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28:05Doja Cat:I am stage two. I am, yeah, I have lipoedema. So I - Have you since talked to someone besides yourself about it? And not, you know, not really. I haven't really talked to anybody in the last couple of days about it. I just felt like I had that little epiphany and then I posted the TikTok and then I was surprised at how much it took off and how many people have it. And in terms of your decision to like share that on social media, I mean, it's something that we, I think, talked about quite a lot was your relationship with social media. And it's obviously, you know, been such a huge part of your career, a huge part of your success.
28:48It's sort of like fueled your creativity at times. At other times, it's been maybe like more of a hindrance than a help. Where are you at with that right now? I know that when we when we first spoke, you were deleting Twitter off your phone. And I don't think you've been back on it since. so oh yeah no i uh i'm back on i deleted twitter i just kept myself away from it because i remember in the beginning of tour i was obviously like panicking i was like oh my god this is the beginning of my tour so i'm in australia and or it wasn't the beginning it was just the beginning of that australian leg oh no it was it was it was so i was like oh really really on edge and And I remember I like went off on Twitter and I was like, I'm only doing this because I am incredibly like either insecure or just not in the headspace to, I think I was like, who's perceiving me?
29:45And that was sort of where, where that was like, all right, I need to just get off Twitter. That's all I need to do. So yeah, I deleted it. But then I, I've been on Twitter in the last couple of weeks for sure. I'm back on. What's your digital hygiene? Because I read, I listened on a podcast that you said that you hate looking at your phone first thing in the morning when you're in bed. Yeah. Are you off that? No, I look at my phone. I don't really, the alarm goes off. So I'm kind of repelled from it just from right off the bat. So that, that works a good morning for me is eight 30 and I wake up and the, the, whatever the alarm goes off.
30:25I shut it up and I go brush my teeth and I go do other things that I need to do with my life okay um but a bad morning for me as I open up my phone and I'm thinking about the day before and I'm like what did I do on TikTok what did I do what are people saying what so there's that you know do you brick your phone what's a what's bricking this could be good for you I don't do it, but I am sort of tempted. I know what you're talking about. It's like a physical thing that you put on your phone and it locks it. Oh, wait, I don't know what you're talking about. Right, Liam? You put it somewhere in your house.
31:05Oh, right. I don't know what I'm talking about.
31:08Doja Cat:I don't need to do that. I don't need to do that. I just, I get it. And I think it's really, really smart because our phones are taking a toll on our mental health. And it's a new thing. and humans have not adapted to rectangles with pictures coming out of them that are moving. So I think just deleting certain apps when you start to feel like, all right, this is starting to become a problem. That's been my hygiene.
31:41The Run-Through will be back with Doja Cat after the break.
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32:52One of my favorite parts about working on the story was learning about how much you love fashion and also speaking to designers that you've worked with very closely over the years about your intuition for fashion and your wonderful stylist, Brett, as well. And you're on the host committee for the Met Gala this year, which is super exciting. We can't wait to see what you're going to wear. and have you started, I'm presuming, some of those conversations already? How are you thinking about the theme? Are there any sort of teasers or anything that you can give us at this stage? Yeah. I have not a clue.
33:29I don't know what's going on other than I'm working with Yves Saint Laurent,
33:34Doja Cat:and I'm so excited about that. I don't know what we're doing as far as the physical feeling of it, but yeah, I'm just excited to work with them, And I always loved them and I love them more and more every day. The word that kept coming up when I was speaking to Brett and to all of these designers was that you're when it comes to fashion, you're fearless and you're certainly like not afraid to take a risk. And have you always been like that since you were a kid? Have you always had that sort of mindset when it comes to getting dressed in the morning? Unfortunately, yes, I have. So I mean, I've gotten a lot of flack since I was in middle school, I think even.
34:17Doja Cat:And I remember my mom told me when I was a baby that when she tried to dress me, I was like, you cannot dress me, I'm dressing myself. Wow. So there was that. And I definitely suffered from it minorly, but I, it's, it's been, I don't even want to call it a journey. It's not that it's a, it's, it's a little bit of a curse, but good things come of it. And that's all that really matters. I think that I'm learning and I, yeah, I just, you know, I think we see things and there's so many different moving parts. Like Brett and I, things that we want to materialize. And then, you know, there's so many different parts that come into play with it.
35:07And everything I've done with Met Gala, I've loved. But as far as like certain things like comfortability, that's something I'm trying to learn because it's weird. It's like some people just have an inclination to be like, I don't want to wear that because it hurts. I don't have that. I will wear knives all over my body if it looks good. And I need to take into account my mind when I'm wearing something. How do I feel in it physically? And it's, yeah, I think sometimes it's okay to be uncomfortable. Sometimes it's great to be uncomfortable.
35:50Doja Cat:Sometimes it's better to be a lot more comfortable. Everyone always has a crazy first Met story or a Met regret. Oh, 100%. You want one right now? Let's hear your Met regret. I wore a which I wish Brett maybe could enlighten me on what this how many carrots this damn thing was but it was a huge diamond and I had it I think it was oh I think it was Masika I think it was I don't know um but I wore it on my forehead and this was the cat look and I remember when I wore that I had a hood that had the ears attached to it. This is Oscar de la Renta. And the hood was attached to a dress. It was all one piece.
36:41Doja Cat:And the dress was covered in like thousands, tens of thousands, what I think, of beads. And the beads weigh a certain amount after a while, plus the fabric. You've got lining. You've got the, you got all these things going on that make the dress so heavy. And so now I have the beads, which are now resting across the skin of my forehead. And then I have the necklace that we put under the hood. Oh my God. That's going across my forehead and a V shape down the middle of my face. And so the metal that was between the hood and my skin of the necklace was pressing down and making all this pressure and at first you're like oh this is fabulous look at this I feel fine it's a little tight but that's okay when it comes to the head and I know this was wigs but I didn't take this to into account that night it's just so sensitive and I over time had like a but can I cuss I don't know yeah go for it I had a horrible fucking horrible ice pick headache just like all this pressure holding this dress my forehead and all the veins and that that run throughout the head were just supporting all of those beads thousands and tens of thousands of beads um between these metal oh problems going it's just sounds like wearing knives it was it it was a little yeah yeah a little bit wow when the shows are happening like we just all got back from fashion month are you looking at the collections is that something that's exciting to you are you letting your stylist Brett bring that to you during fashion week yeah I think like the only time that I'm looking really is if I am there right so if I'm involved in it in some way I'll be like at a show and I'm seeing everything but there's also it's like not I can't avoid it because of who I am if I'm on TikTok or Instagram it's getting recommended to me because I love fashion so it's going to come up even if you don't like fashion it's going to come up because it's huge so I I do see things and if I'm really interested in something I go to my favorite brands which I have like my four favorite and I kind of check up on them but I don't really look into other brands that are popping during during fashion week usually and I remember being sort of surprised by what those four brands were just because they're so different to like the looks that you're wearing on stage and what I think of in terms of your red carpet style you know I think you were saying some of your will you tell us what are your what are your favorite brands well they're my safety net because that's what i want to look like if i don't want to be seen right and i want to also feel chic right because i'm always going out of my way and looking insane on stage but i love proenza schooler um and i love kate i love the row i love um who is she phoebe philo as well so those are like my four those are my four girls that i cannot get enough of i love vince as well um and uh if i had to more kooky if i had to get a little more kooky i love i like bottega i like uh i'll leave it at bottega what are the sort of holy grail items in your closet right now what are you wearing every day on repeat um i love and you know what because it's hot this only i change by season so if something it's hot outside and it's sunny i don't want to wear the colors that i wear during winter which is usually um like navy and gray and white and cream and black and i'll do like a white t-shirt black jeans nice belt from the row and then I'll do a sick boot like a nasty little little leather black boot that's super and I'm boring and I need to be boring because I can't I cannot live my job can't be my life my job can be my job my career can be my career I need a separation between the two so i'm very like understated when i'm when i'm dressing every day but you're looking at me and i'm in a bright mint green i did this for you i love it tell us about this oh this is um sleeper um and i love sleeper they're cute that's when i'm feeling cutesy this is spring for me it's giving spring it's a like how would you describe this it's like cartoon grass green and it's a linen long sleeved oh this is a beautiful dance like a big big kind of peasant sleeve yeah yeah i love sleeper i love sleeper for when it's getting a little more springy and happy outside i do want to talk about i was very excited that you go to therapy twice a week very pro therapy i listened on a podcast that you said that you go to learn more about yourself what have you learned about yourself recently in therapy i have learned without oversharing obviously i think i think in a nutshell i can't tell you recently but i can tell you in a nutshell i just i want to be around people and i don't like to be lonely my my job is very lonely and uh it comes with being around people who you love but to be fair I mean you are you are employing these people it doesn't mean they love you any less doesn't mean that you love them any less it just means that it's it there is a barrier and it that is something that's really hard to come to terms with in certain moments when I mean I I had always had an issue with I had not always I think when I was much younger like a little girl I was I had friends and they'd come over and I'd hang out with my friends we go to Universal Studios blah blah blah but like hey don't eat that um what's eating he's eating my um pussy willows i'm like i'm so glad i asked pause so
43:27Doja Cat:so he's not scared of anything i'm like the least scary person on the planet no um it's incredibly lonely i'm lonely i want people to embrace me i kind of live out in a I live in sort of far from everyone. I don't think anybody ever really wants to come to my house because it's so far. But it's also just hard making friends. I don't want to have friends in the industry. So I don't. Sometimes I try. Sometimes I'm like, well, why wouldn't I? I mean, I can relate to them. But I just, it's something that I'm going to struggle with. and I've got to, I got to figure it out. I don't think it'll ever be fully figured out, but it's just something that I, you know, I got to understand better in order to change things.
44:26Do you, I like that you said that you try to do one thing a day that scares you. What did you do today that was scary? Yeah.
44:36Doja Cat:Oh, what's it going to be? I have no idea. But I know the one thing it's like, what's usually with boys and I talk about, I talk about men with my therapist a lot and I think like I have a really big um trust issue with um with guys and sorry I kind of look sorry my cat is playing with um my assistant's hair and it's amazing men like I just you know it's like even with people I think it honestly goes for for everyone but being vulnerable with certain people like I tried to do it on TikTok recently and be sincere I think sincerity is really hard for me at certain moments and my fans can attest to that like I think a lot of people have witnessed me in moments where I'm not being sincere and I think it it only does really good things for me when I can be when I can I can express myself in all honesty.
45:43Doja Cat:And for the most part, I mean, I can be honest, but I'm not always. I just am not always. Because in the moment, like knee jerk, I just, I want to be safe. And the way I've learned to be safe is to not be honest and not be forthcoming. And so So it's something that I really value, and I'm really excited to incorporate that into my life. And before we wrap things up as well, I wanted to ask, we've spoken about the album, we've spoken about the tour, and you also sort of spoke to me a little about the next project that you're working on, which it still seems it sounded to me like it hasn't quite assumed its final form yet whether it's going to be a deluxe of v or an ep but is there anything that you can sort of uh tease or reveal about that at this stage i want to but i think that it's hard i think it's a little hard at the moment because i'm just i'm focusing a lot on everything else and so i i do want to put out music soon um at the moment i know that i need a break like i said i'm i'm tired and an artist can't do anything unless they do nothing and i do at some point very soon need to do nothing in order to cultivate something that is is of substance but yeah i mean that's that's your non-answer for you i like that non-answer it was deft uh dojo i want to know what are you watching right now reading listening to i am watching there's a channel on youtube called astrum and now for me it's just white noise at first i was really interested in the universe but i feel like i've heard everything and watched every video but i watch a lot of um cosmology and a lot of space stuff interesting so i'm really really into that what else are you reading anything i don't read and i wish i read okay it's like the girl that i wish i was was the girl who did yoga and read books and goes to ballet oh my god and goes to ballet are you listening to anything right now i am listening to meditation sounds all night Wow, what's your meditation app?
48:17Doja Cat:I uh, I don't use the meditation app, but it's just meditation. It's not even a guided. It's just um, it's just music So i'll go on itunes and there's one there's a spa Like playlist and there's a meditation playlist and I play either that or the other It's really hard to listen to music right now. I don't know why I need to get to the bottom of it um, hopefully going to africa will inspire something because I have actually today as of today wanted to listen to more um of the japanese house weirdly enough okay so so i was listening to that today i was listening to hillary duff's new music today and i was comparing the two and i was like oh my gosh this feels like the same world and i i don't know kind of like that sound listening to salt a little bit today what's salt Salt is S-A-U-L-T and it's classical electronic classical kind of music.
49:17Doja Cat:I don't know if it's so much electronic but it is like a classical ensembles. It's quite genre bending. Okay. Liam said it's genre bending. Okay, we love to bend. It's fun. Doja, Thank you so much for joining us. We love seeing you with your beautiful, sunny tree in the background and lime sleeper. All right. And then hold on one second. I got something for you. Thank you. He also says... Oh, wait. I need to take a picture. Oh, is this Axel? This is Axel. What a handsome boy. Oh, gorgeous. Thank you, guys. I really appreciate it.
50:10That's it for The Run-Through. See you next week.
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Doja Cat is Vogue’s April cover star and is currently touring her latest album, Vie, worldwide through the rest of the year. She joined The Run-Through from her dining room in Los Angeles, accompanied by her unbelievably cute cat named Axel.
Doja shared some behind-the-scenes moments from her Vogue cover shoot, shot by Willie Vanderperre and styled by Carlos Nazario, and talked about her favorite looks from the session. Apart from the excitement of the Vie tour, the cover shoot and co-hosting Vogue’s upcoming Vintage Market, Doja says she’s just plain tired.
“Downtime for me is, I put on a heating blanket and play Fortnite, or I watch Judy Justice,” she says.
But she is also thinking about everything all at once: the one outfit per tour show (logistics, yes, but also her intention to own the stage, not get lost in it), the Nina Hagen influence running underneath the whole production, the sketches for next week's look that she keeps staring at without quite knowing what they'll become. She’s on the the Met Gala host committee this year, but she has yet to decide what her look will be.
Doja also shared some of the revelations she’s had during her twice-weekly therapy sessions, along with her surprisingly understated go-to fashion brands when she’s not on-stage. Check out vogue.com for her April cover story and listen to the full conversation above!
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