#572 - Pickle Chili

30:17But what you know, you if you go in the military now, yeah, you're out in four years and you probably have a lot of skills. You know, you may it'll probably help you get up early, stay in shape, all these things that are going to really help shape the rest of your life. Right now, some people may have went to the military and say, Theo, you know what you're talking about? Fucking honky, you little fucking queer, you little gun pussy or whatever. That's fine. They can say those things. And I don't I haven't been. but for you you're saying that that's what you've thought of as your backup option you know now you might you know i don't know how long the military will be there you know depending on what they keep having our military carry out and the different actions that they have them do but i think it's a honorable thing i have a ton of respect for our military and uh and i don't think you would go wrong with that choice.

31:12So that's kind of where I'm at with it, you know. And if you went in there, you know, you'd probably make a lot of great friends and you'd learn things about yourself that you like and don't, and then you'd be done. And you're right, you'd only be 22 and a half years old. 23 years old. You have so much time. There's so much time. Man, I wasted a lot of time. And one of the things I wish I had done as a military, just because I think you don't also get those moments of camaraderie where you get to be around a bunch of other guys, you know. So those are just my thoughts. Recognize I have never been in the military, but I do think you have time to do that and do countless other things.

31:53And if you don't like welding, you know you don't like it, then maybe it is time for a backup trade to try or a backup option. What else is going on? Yo, I'm a girl and I like girls. I had a girlfriend for a while and recently I found out that. Okay, so you're a girl, you like girls and okay, carry on. And recently I found out that my mom's gay too. So now I don't know if I'm gay anymore. Oh, big facts, sister. Okay. Oh, once our parents start doing something, we don't want to do it anymore. So I think that all checks out. I think you're good. I think just trust your instincts, little mom. Here we got a call.

32:51Let's hear this one. You know, sometimes you land on hard times, man. and you just trying to get, you know, food to eat and a place to sleep or whatever. And I'm like, you know, I got a five-gallon bucket of pickles. And I'm feeling bananas from the 7-Eleven, man. I'm going in there and I'm pocketing these fucking bananas from the 7-Eleven. Yeah, those are free. How long can I last is what I'm thinking. I was just like, could I last two months on a five-gallon bucket of pickles and stealing bananas from 7-Eleven? Because I'm eating bananas and pickles. That's all I'm fucking eating. That's all I got to eat, man.

33:37That's all I got to live upon. Live upon, man. Yeah, motherfucker. BLM, dude. Look. Yeah. If life gives you pickles and bananas, bitch, mix them bitches. Okay. fuck yeah, dude. I mean, there's only so long you can be trapped somewhere with pickles and bananas and not put them bitches together, dude. Make some benicles, homie. You feel me? So, look, some picnanas, homie. I think that all checks out, brother. So I don't think there's any shame in it. You can always, once you get your feedback on you, go back to that 7-Eleven and give them money for those bananas. Let's hear a little more. You know, the world is a cruel place.

34:24The world is a cruel fucking place, man. And I realize that, man, when you're eating pickles and bananas just to survive. You like pickles on your bananas or what? You like pickles on your bananas? You like pickles on your bananas? Well, it blows my fucking mind that we can give so much foreign aid to places when we have people who are eating pickles and bananas. Actually, pickles and bananas are pretty good, so that's not what I mean. But yeah, you would think we'd be able to help our own people that are starving first over here. That's just kind of how I feel. I'm kind of an American. I'm a North America first kind of guy, I guess, because that's us and our neighbors.

35:03But what the fuck do I know? But yeah, man, honestly, you sound pretty healthy. You sound like you're doing pretty good. You ever hit a couple of high notes, dude? I think you're fine. I'd join a church choir, have somebody make some TikToks, See if you can start selling tickets on the road, brother. You're going to be fine. But yeah, sometimes we all get in tough moments. Trying to think of something where I was kind of down to my last dime. Oh, I do remember. I'd get that block of damn hamburger meat. That bitch came in a missile. that bitch they dropped that bitch off a c-130 that thing you know what i'm talking about it's shaped like a like both ends are kind of a wiener kind of like the front end of a wiener god that thing was heavy to carry it out like this you know and sometimes i'd mix it up by the damn dura flame logs and actually put that bitch in there and just cook that bitch and having to spoon it out the fire to eat it.

36:11Call the fire department. Hey, take some matches, huh?

36:20But yeah, man, it sounds like you're doing okay.

36:26Let's, what else is going on? What else can I tell you about that happened to me recently?

36:34Not much. Going to eat dinner with my neighbors. Looking forward to that. So, hitting the road for some more shows. Yeah, we went last week. Oh, Victoria Island, which is a beautiful, fascinating little, it's like this cold, white Hawaii off of the coast of Vancouver. But just great people, man, Canadians, and grateful to see them. I'm a Winnipeg Jets fan. Just letting everybody know that now, too. I don't want that to cause any issues between me and anybody else, but I'm a Winnipeg Jets fan. So I think their jerseys are fire, and I like their – they're doing good. And that's good. So, okay, I think that works.

37:29What else? Let's take this call right here. Hey, Theo. I hope you're doing well. I'm calling you today to see if I can get your perspective on something. My girlfriend of four years, she passed away five and a half months ago. She was not a surprise, but she had cancer. We thought that she had a little more time. but um yeah um since then i've spent most of my time by doing nothing you know um i would visit her grade every day for months which is good i guess for getting out of my apartment um but i would just let the time pass you know but um recently i've started uh going back to school full time and working again.

38:29And honestly, I feel like I'm just doing it because it's expected of me, you know, from people around me, my family and my peers. So maybe some people just expect me to move forward pretty fast, but, you know, I don't want to, you know. Well, thanks for the call, man. I'm sorry to hear about that. I can't even imagine that. in the sense of losing a girlfriend or a partner, spouse.

39:05I've lost people that I've loved.

39:11And yeah, it feels so impossible because I think it's so many things at once. It's like something is gone and then the finality and the viciousness of life is so evident. And at the same time, the preciousness of life and how beautiful life is that it could even exist, all that happens at the same time. And then it's not even about us really because they're the ones who has life has ended. So there's probably sometimes feelings of guilt that I had of like feeling bad. That's I'd lost someone, you know, or not being able to separate the feelings into, okay, I'm in pain or I miss them or I'm just loathing in my own sadness.

40:14I'm getting into self-pity. Like all those types of things happened. And I remember for me at the same time.

40:23And for one, it's just so much. And for two, it's hard to organize it and to even start to think and decide which feelings go where. I'd rather just sleep. I'd rather just hope that this goes away. I'd rather dream. I used to do that a lot. When my dad died, I would just try and dream a lot. because I felt like if I was dreaming, maybe I had a chance to like see him or that my feelings could be different or I could be living a completely different experience.

40:55So I think a lot of it is normal. And I bet it's hard to get back into the flow of something when you've lost like a partner because you probably think a lot of your life is having that partner there with you. and I think even if you're doing something just even if you don't feel it just have the practice of it until your feelings and your emotional wellness catch up with your actions because one day they will and you'll be glad that you had started doing these things yeah I don't really know what to say man I just appreciate you like just telling us what's going on. Hmm. Maybe some people could call in actually and share things that if you had some experience with the loss of a loved one, and I would say a wife, because this is a man calling, I believe.

41:58And so if you lost a wife or a girlfriend, you know, and they passed away, and if you have just maybe some experience with that, if you could call on the voicemail, 985-664-9503. We will come back to that on our next solo episode. I don't know when it'll be. It'll be within the next month, but we'll come back to that and see if we have some answers. Maybe we can get some suggestions from other people.

42:27But yeah, man, I hate to even leave you on this call.

42:33but yeah life is just sometimes it's just a lot of freaking pickles on your chili isn't it

42:46love you brother let's take another call it's hard to say when somebody's going through something like that you know but that's just also the oddness of the world it just keeps moving you can't stop it the world doesn't have any handlebars on it. Time just doesn't have any... It doesn't... You can't get your hands into it. That's the most painful part sometimes of everything.

43:14Let's take a call here. Hey, Theo. I'm having a really hard time right now. I'm 16 years old. I don't have a job. Nothing. I got my girlfriend pregnant. Okay. She just turned 18 actually not too long ago. I'm just kind of in this moment where I don't know what's coming for me in life. Like I feel like I failed myself because I made stupid adult decisions at such a young age. And it hurts me really bad.

43:59and I honestly just don't know what to do. I'm kind of in this moment where I feel like I've felt everybody around me, including my parents, and I'm just not going to be the dad that I'm supposed to be. And I'm just scared. I'm just looking for any advice. um well um at least she's not your cousin brother i'll start right there uh

44:33and people can say well that's just that's cruel to be joking but hey one last thing the guy's got to kind of think about right now um no man look first of all the fact that you're calling even to talk about this shows i think a level of maturity that is a lot of people wouldn't do. So, right? You're curious. You're looking at what's going on. You're evaluating where you're at and you're like, well, I want to get to a place where I feel either confident about this or I have some support in this. So how do I get there? Well, I'm going to reach out to other people and see what's going on. See if I can get some thoughts, some suggestions, even to somebody to listen to me.

45:12Yeah, that's young to be out there gunning like that, you know, just to be rooting through some trap out there with no visor on, daddy, you know, with no hoodie on. Yeah, but that's the world we're in. So I wouldn't be, you are where you are. You could also look at it as that God has gifted you guys with an opportunity.

45:36I think people will probably be disappointed maybe in where you're at because they don't want to see you miss out on opportunities for yourself that there might be less of if you have a child. That's probably what the disappointment is. I don't think it's disappointment in you having a child. It's probably disappointment that, well, this may affect your ability to chase some of your dreams or ideas because you have a responsibility now. Now, I'm sure that as time goes on and this child comes into the world, it's going to bring a lot of love into everybody's life. so don't think about just that man let me see what else did you say I feel like I felt everybody around me including my parents and I'm just not going to be the dad that I'm supposed to be well we don't know if you're going to be the dad that you're supposed to be you know that's ways still to be determined you know we don't know that hasn't happened yet so don't future trip like that shit the fact you care about this this much already i think you're probably gonna be a pretty caring guy you know and you're gonna have a i'm assuming a girlfriend or wife or her and her family as well are gonna help support this child so you didn't mention that that that's gonna be a fear um i think everything's gonna be okay dude i think it's gonna take some time i bet it's super scary, bro.

47:0416 years old and you're having a child, that's freaking, that's kind of scary. I think you gotta let this play out, man. I think you have a chance to be a young dad. Now, that'd be cool. Think about that. You're gonna get to do stuff with your kid that a lot of parents will not be able to do. So, get to play tetherball, get to do probably some racing quads, like some kind of high speed shit that some parents kind of age out of when their kids age into it. Probably be able to play video games, do some VR type shit. So there's going to be interesting stuff. But all I'm saying is that don't let all the fear take away all the possibility.

47:52Now you're probably going to have to grow up pretty quick. And there might be a part of your adolescence you're going to miss out on. Or it's going to be different or trickier. In fact, you're probably going to grow up pretty fast in some ways. But maybe that's what God needs you for. You know? You just don't know. We don't know what we're needed for in the future. So just hang in there, man. This isn't the end of the world. Hell, this is the beginning of a life that you're responsible for. So it's just, I know it's got to be scary. It's easy for me to say that. You know? I'm sure there's going to be moments where it's really scary.

48:28but try to squeeze into those moments of fear some possibility. Man, because that's cool, dude. You get to have a, you get to make a child. You get to have a child that you're going to take care of. So amen, brother, and God, God, luck, God, luck to you. Is pornography causing a problem in your life? Do you find yourself watching porno for longer periods of time and having trouble stopping? Is porn affecting your relationship or dating life? Well, you're certainly not alone. Watching pornography has become so commonplace today, and oftentimes men use porn to numb the pain of loneliness, boredom, anxiety, and depression.

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50:03To learn more about Valor Recovery, please visit them at www.valorrecoverycoaching.com or email them at admin at valorrecoverycoaching .com. Thank you. from time to time on this program, we talk with miracles, human beings that have, that are the corn of the, that are the cream of the death crop. People that have come so close to the grave, but managed to stay out of it. Big bosses, we call them big bosses. they call them in some um polynesian areas and today we're grateful to be able to talk with another miracle here there he is big dog matt how are you i'm living the dream man living the dream amen brother yeah we love to get to talk to people who've had miracle experiences in their lives and i just really appreciate your time today um how do you say your last name there brother tyberg mateus tyberg oh this angle makes me look so fat but that's okay oh that's fine man my sister's fat and that's perfectly fine mateus tyberg where are you located brother i live in calgary alberta oh yeah yeah a lot of good people up there eating steaks and just what are they doing mining for gold is that the gold area gold oil yeah memphis gold memphis gold yeah now uh you've had quite an experience in your life you've had a i've heard that you've had a couple miracles kind of occur in your life can you kind of take me through like some of that that situation yeah how did it start um well there's so many different situations i mean i've been at a party where i seen somebody that jumped me before so i told him let's run the fade or just apologize to me and i guess he didn't want to do that so he ended up chasing me and i tripped and i got stabbed 10 times at once oh two-thirds of the blood in my body my god brother i'm sorry to hear that thank you for for just telling us about that it's 10 times that's a lot i mean did they do you do you feel like that was a lot you feel like that was too many like how did you honestly you can't feel it because all of your nerves are on the top of your skin so it just feels like you're getting punched but you're bleeding you're leaking oh god brother and what do you how do you and if if two-thirds of you is gone what do you do at that point were you able to call uh the authorities or what do you do oh one of my buddies was on the phone with EMS and snapchatting it he was snapchatting also yeah oh dark times but you got to make content you know yeah and which hole do you plug say you have 10 stab wounds I guess they're referred to as by the government or whatever do you plug one up do you pick the most kind of active one what do you do there um honestly you don't really know what what to hold on to man i it was more my more or less my stomach hurt so that's why i was holding my stomach but i was half dead by the time i got to the hospital so did you pass out oh yeah wow and And did you have any experience?

54:01Do you remember anything when you passed down? Like, did you? I just remember because I was on Xanax, too. So I woke up in the hospital. And then, yeah, I woke up in the hospital. And then apparently you're only allowed two visitors at once. And eight people come at once to come visit me. So then they kicked me out of the hospital like three days after it happened. Because what, you guys were partying a little too much or whatever? Yeah, pretty much. And were you allowed a drink in the hospital or no? No, no, I wouldn't drink. They were just mad because all my friends showed up at once to see if I was okay.

54:40Wow, man. Yeah, a lot of people don't live through something like that, man. No, I've been hit by the C train. Oh, yeah, the best one is. Wait, hold on. You got hit by a. Well, what happened was is my buddy knew this foreign exchange student. And he gave money to these guys to try and buy him a pack of cigarettes. These guys are like 30 years old. They just told him to fuck off. We're keeping your money. So I decided to go up and punch him as hard as I could in the head. And I didn't realize the police are there. So I'm getting chased by this guy's buddy with like a foot long knife. I keep looking back, still getting chased by the guy with the knife.

55:24Then I look back, it's the cops chasing me. So I'm at one end of a semi and the cop is at the other end. Of a semi truck? Yeah. We're playing peekaboo to see where to go. I'm wearing a bright red Chicago Bulls jacket. Oh, yeah. And I'm freaking hammered. Dude, that's a fresh outfit, baby. Scotty dripping, huh? Yeah. And what happened was I ended up getting arrested for assault. I got bailed two weeks later. I'm at the same train station. that I punched the guy at. I'm hammered standing on the platform. And then I get sucker punched in the back of the head. And, oh, who is it? The guy stole that kid's 20 bucks.

56:10And then he just ended up pushing me like that, and I fell onto the train tracks. And the train was coming in. So I didn't know what to do. I just throw my body above the yellow line, and it caught my legs and dragged me like 15 feet. They like rip my shoes off, rip my pants in half. Oh, God, it's a pervert, basically. Yeah. Yeah, who knew that train was a pedophile also? That sounds like a bit much, huh? Dude, that's insane, man. So were you drunk or were you already impaired when the train hit you? Or what kind of condition were you in physically just at that point in your life? Oh, yeah. I was an everyday alcoholic.

56:55We would all, all the boys would meet. I got this question though. Sorry to interrupt you there, but what kind of train driver would hit a drunk guy? Did you ever speak with the driver? No. Well, the thing is, the C train's moving so fast, right? So it's coming to dock into the station to let everybody off. There's nothing he really could have done to... I don't know. You can see a white dude most of the time, you know, no matter what's going on. But damn, brother, I can't believe that. And so you were stabbed 10 times. You've been hit by a train. But God had more in store for you, didn't he? What else happened?

57:40The biggest one was the balcony because I ended up buying some cocaine that wasn't all cocaine. So there was meth in it. Oh, yeah, right. Them moguls got some bounce to them, huh? shit man every time i look through the little hole in my door there'd be four people outside with weapons trying to bust in that's what i would see i'm dragging the diorama kind of yeah i'm dragging the couch with the landlord on it to the front door to try and block it damn brother he told me to go to bed so i went to bed and woke up all i could do was get a glass of water i looked through that people in the door and the same thing people looks like people with guns are trying to bust in the apartment so i tried to go from my balcony over to the neighbors and i'm on the seventh floor so and who are the neighbors can we let's let's who are they there was nobody even in there that's why i was trying to get over to the okay and how far is that is that a jump you're trying to make or did you have a kind of a rope set up or anything like that Did you have a little trebuchet, anything?

58:54Shit. Like, if you reached across, you could pass a beer to your neighbor. So it wasn't that far. I just kind of was trying to leapfrog over. I know it's kind of stupid, but when you're fucked up like that. Well, it's a great idea. I mean, here's the thing. People don't realize that people that are wasted have done amazing things. You know, one of the guys, have you heard of Lewis and Clark? Uh, yeah, I think so. One of them was an addict and they discovered like a third of the North America. So let's don't, you can't always beat down on addicts. But so take me out there. You're on the balcony, you're high on cocaine.

59:33And what is your plan is to make that leap over to the other balcony? Yeah. And then the shitty, I guess the shittiest attempt ever. And was it windy? Was it windy? Yes, it was. Yeah. brother big maddie dude taking on the freaking boreas twins brother taking on the jet stream up there seventh floor maddie one shot and how do you make that leap dude tell me take me through that are you wearing shoes at first i stood up right on the thing and held my hand on the wall but i I was wobbling. Yeah. Okay. On the rail of it. So then I was wobbling. So I was like, oh shit, I'm going to fall. So I like crouched down to try and like leap like that.

1:00:24Oh yeah. Get some, uh, build up a little bit of energy or whatever. What is it called? Potential energy. You crouched down. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Leap my leap frog my way down all the way 70 feet. What happened? Did you bounce off the rail or you even hit the other balcony? Oh, I didn't even hit the other balcony. I'm sorry, dude. Sorry to laugh. There's a glitch in the audio. Yeah, no, it's all good. It's pretty. I laugh about it, dude. You play stupid games, you win stupid prizes, you know? Yeah, but that's one way to look at it, man. But I think another way to look at it is that you're a miracle, you know?

1:01:02A lot of people do not get to live through stabbings, through train hitings, through falling. How far do you fall? 70 feet. Okay. And take me, Jesus Christ. That's a lot. And take me through some of that. Like when you first hit the one, you, once you first realized you're not going to make the first balcony, were there lower balconies you could have grabbed? Uh, not when, cause damn, you fall so fast. I was 200 pounds at the time. And if you weigh 200 pounds and you go over fifth fall, 50 feet you go terminal velocity really so i yeah i hit the ground going terminal velocity for the last 20 feet big dog went down brother god dude and so what were some of your thoughts during that did you get into a certain position to absorb the impact or were you just kind of like letting were you praying what was going on when i fell down actually i've seen like some people on like the third or fourth or whatever floor it was they were outside smoking on their balcony oh that's pretty cool i hit the ground they look over at me and i tell them to bring me some liquor because i know i'm going to the hospital i can't move my damn body and i was an alcoholic at the time so god who survives that brother i don't know man i've honestly almost died even more times than that like when i was a baby i fell into a motel pool while my parents weren't there and i i was drowned pronounced dead and i came back so yeah well you must feel like god wants you here for a reason brother yeah what do you feel like that is after all this i mean that's countless times you've escaped death man you know a yeah you know forced to swim as a baby train hitting stabbing stabbing uh or high you know high amount stabbing 70 foot fall off of a balcony yeah i've been stabbed other times too but i think right i i understand what you're getting at but i think what do you feel like you're do you feel like you have a bigger purpose there's a reason a lot of people are not able to go through all that man you understand that's pretty miraculous.

1:03:24Do you understand that? Yeah. Amen, brother. And how are you doing today? What's your physical state today? I'm a tetraplegic, so I can, like, I can't feel or move anything chest down. I can move my arms, but my fingers are stuck like this. Oh, yeah. Kind of like Muhammad Ali or whatever. Yeah. But at the end of the day, I don't ever complain about it because, man, I'm the one who wanted to do coke, and I can't blame that on somebody else. I mean. And you're a survivor, brother. You're a damn survivor, dude. You're a damn, you know what I'm saying? You're a damn gravity monkey, dude. Do you think you will ever walk again, brother?

1:04:13Probably not, but I'm okay with that. I don't really. I love watching YouTube. There's so much. People come up with stuff every day. Oh, yeah. gives me something to do. Oh, yeah, you can watch people walk on YouTube all day if you want and take it easy, you know? Yeah. But, man, I just, yeah, I appreciate you just jumping on, and I appreciate you paying attention to the show. Yeah, we're going to come to Calgary, dude. You got to come out. I'd love to get to meet you out there. Yeah, I'm coming. I already got my VIP tickets, so. Sweet, bro. Well, yeah, we'll have to catch up, dude. I want to touch some magic limbs you got on your daddy.

1:04:52I'm going to rub the bitches for good luck. Hell yeah. Yeah. Where do you live these days, man? I live in, well, now I'm so crippled. I got to live in like a long-term care home. So I'm the youngest here. It's pretty much just older people. Any chicks in there or what? No, not really. Any disabled chicks. You got to pray to meet the one you want. That's what my friend told me the other day. He said, are you praying to meet the woman you want to meet? You know? yeah so i gotta start i kind of gave up because once you once you sever your spinal cord man you can't even bust a nut i've busted a nut since i fell from that balcony oh damn how how long before you had fallen did you busted a nut you think uh the day before amen brother i love it finish strong yeah finish and look man you're gonna bust one we're gonna we're gonna if we can do anything if we hear of anything that you know could help any elixirs or anything like that we'll see what we can do man but yeah dude that's that's if you can get hit by a train and still be alive or whatever you can you'll get another nut out oh yeah that would be nice amen brother well thank you so much dude give my best to everybody up there in calgary bro america's getting weird we're probably all going to come up there soon so uh save me room up there big dog yeah calgary is probably the best nicest city in canada i think so dude canada is so great man and it's safe too that's the best thing about your stories i noticed is that you didn't get shot in one of them yeah i've been shot at but but that don't count you got to come to america to get shot brother that's where we do so they won't let me across the border oh we'll see what we can do well look right now you're probably an insurance risk i would guess so yeah um but yeah dude that's a good thing about canada they got knives so you always stand a chance you know that's one thing i like yeah yeah at least you're not getting shot just killed instantly.

1:07:11Yeah, that's so bullshit and lame, dude. I mean, look at you. If you guys shot that first time, you wouldn't even got hit by a train. That's crazy to say, but the other stuff wouldn't even have happened. You wouldn't have had these other experiences, you know? Yeah. No doubt. You're like the worst evil Knievel in some ways, you know? Yeah. Sorry, dude. That's not funny. It's all good. It is funny dude i laugh at anything man if i didn't become a criminal before i would have became a comedian dude i just didn't have any father figure in my life so i was homeless 16 years old downtown selling weed so not making good choices but well you're alive today man yeah i do believe that you here for a purpose and even just sharing your story right here today man you know resilience is huge and um i think the future is bright brother i believe that and i'm just glad i got to talk to you today and well we got our first canadian miracle right there matt um type how do you say your last name tyberg matt tyberg right there ladies and gentlemen if you don't believe in miracles uh you got to believe in them now that's what i feel like and uh matt thanks for your time dude i look forward to catching up within a couple months all right awesome sounds good have a great day all right you too brother cheers man cheers matthew tyberg right there let's see if we got one more call that came in here uh hey theo this is willie boone what's up bro willie bones coming through baby breaker breaker one nine go through bones what's up gang yo man um i just got one question for you man.

1:09:01Like, um, I'm dealing with active addiction with, you know, the blow or whatever, but yeah. Doing cocaine, brother. I hear you. What's going on. And I'm just, just want some tips or some advice, man, on how I can keep this shit. Like there's that problems, man. I say, I'm going to stop. Never do. Sure. You know, you went through the same shit, but well, thanks for calling Willie. Um, the only things I know about this are, I don't think you can quit cocaine without quitting alcohol. That's, for me, that's what I've seen. I'm not saying that's everybody's case. I'm not, that's for me. For me, that's what I've seen.

1:09:42And then, let me think about what else. Yeah, I think you have to get into recovery. Now, if you're pretty bad off, first, you need to go to a detox. And then once you're clean, then you need to get into a recovery program. You know, maybe a 30-day or an inpatient, or then start to go to cocaine anonymous or alcoholics anonymous meetings with a friend. If you don't like cocaine anonymous meetings, I suggest alcoholics anonymous because there's more meetings and it's the same thing. Cocaine and alcohol aren't the same thing, but addiction is the same. So if you can, you can apply the same principles and you can talk to a sponsor about doing that.

1:10:19I wish I had some other cure for you. That's the only thing that I know that's ever helped me. So I wish you the best of luck, man. It's scary. You know what I realized too about drugs and For me, I was just too much of a pussy to do them, really. Some people could get all fucked up and have a blast. I couldn't do that. I'd get all fucked up and squirrel away. I'd hide in your fucking mailbox, bitch. U.P.S., boy. I'll hide in your cousin's ass, boy. Take everybody's temperature in there, dog. Praise God, man. Thank you for calling, brother. And thank you guys again for all the support. We may add a few more shows to this tour.

1:10:57We're almost done with it. And I just want to let you know that. And thank you to everybody that's come out. I can't even believe it. What else can I update you on? Oh, we're figuring out some of our stuff with the foundation and what we're going to do. Been doing some calls with different people and just figuring out how to, like, make a positive difference in the world or in our community starting there. So that's something that's exciting. I want it to be in the recovery space. I don't know what it all looks like. But in my spare time, I've been just discussing with other people who have done similar type things.

1:11:36And I just need to pray a little bit more and see if I can get more insight, you know, just to lead me to something.

1:11:46Because, yeah, I mean, there's causes for sure. There's lots of things, but I want to land in a space that I'm going to feel motivated to keep doing. One more call that came in. Hi, Theo. It's Lenore from Florida. Hey, Lenore from Florida. Thank you for calling. I'm calling to wish you a happy birthday. If I remember right, it's March 17th. anyway I'm sending you a big virtual hug I want you to know you're a very special person a shining light of not only laughs but of so much love and compassion I hope you're doing whatever makes you happy today keep shining your light love you Theo, gang thanks Eleanor, that's sweet of you I appreciate that

1:12:46yeah that's just sweet of you to say I feel

1:12:52you know I think I feel a little more purposeful sometimes in my life these days I think I think there was this moment kind of even when I had whenever we talked with Cat Williams on the episode and he said well I was talking about well I don't know about this I don't know about that he's like well what don't you know he's like you're here you're in this conversation right now You're in this moment. So to keep second-guessing everything, you're here. Right? I think there was something. I was like, I don't know if we should talk about that. He's like, well, when are we going to talk about it? We have to talk about it.

1:13:28We're here talking about it. you know in a lot of my life I've I've I've been standing in you know I've been standing in the in the water but not really ready to get wet but it's like I'm in the water you know but it's like I'm waiting for this there you know but there was this moment with him where he's just like, this is where you are. This is, and I don't mean me, but it's anybody. This is where this, it's, if it's happening now, it's happening now. Like the, you know, cause a lot of them, I'm always like, you know, this and later and then, and it's like, you know, so I do feel sometimes a little more purposeful.

1:14:16Um, I don't know even what that means exactly, but I just, I don't know. I start to feel a little bit more okay where I am, you know, and that yeah I believe that yeah I believe that God's given me a lot of neat stuff opportunity

1:14:37like you know I believe that you guys have helped me learn like how to express like my feelings and learn about

1:14:45yeah just thinking and feeling together we've done a lot of that on this program over the years

1:14:55and yeah I think at some point you know

1:15:01there are positives from that you know and so I think yeah that's where I feel I feel like a little bit like there's a reason that all this has kind of happened and that there's some positives and let's start to maybe see what those are and not just in me but just like, yeah, what can be done as a group? What can I start or be a part of starting? Or what can we be a part of starting that could be of service? You know, I don't know. I don't know exactly what I'm saying, but I'm able to say it now more than I felt like I was in the past and feel like that's where I'm supposed to be. So you got to feel lucky to be alive, you know, lucky to get to see certain things and I think America's getting weird and interesting and it's getting like good vs evil type shit and I'm here for that shit you know I think we've all always wanted to live in like in the Gryffindor vs Slytherin type shit type shit um so but anyway thank you thanks for the happy birthday wishes what did I do my buddy John Shahidi from Happy Dead sent me a gift.

1:16:25I haven't even opened it yet. Did my brother get me something? I don't know. My brother came in town too, and his buddy's friend was up here visiting their kid. Their kid was in show choir at the Grand Ole Opry, or at the Opry Mills, so I got to spend some time with them. What else did we do? Took mom to my favorite breakfast place. That was fun. um, oh, my mom did give me a gift. She got me an ounce of silver, you know, my mom was never a gold digger. She was a silver digger though. Shout out to silver diggers, dude. They don't end up with shit, but, you know, but they're not gold diggers, dude.

1:17:08But my mom, like, you know, she's ready for like the end of things. Right. So she's ready. She's like when the banks go awry and all everything falls apart online. You can have real silver and you can trade it for stuff. So she got me like an ounce of silver. So that was really cool. I never had that. And what else? Oh, I got a pair of boots. Bought myself a pair of boots that I really like. And what else did I do? Oh, I texted some of my friends that had the same birthday. Trying to think. Oh, I had to work. I had a podcast that I did with a hostage negotiator. That was pretty cool. So I got to do that.

1:17:54And did I? Is that when I did that? Yep. Yeah. So that's what I did, man. I did the things, yeah, that I like to do on my birthday. I think I went and worked out. I got to podcast. I got to listen to some music with my mom. And it was great. And I'm grateful to be here with you guys today. and yeah, thank you Lenore for the sweet message and I don't know what that was and thank you everybody for the support and yeah, the hotline is always if you need it 985-664-9503 and yeah, there's a light out there for all of us, man you know, for all types of people and life sometimes, you know, you just don't get it the way you want it But it's still I don't know Sometimes you gotta Meet it halfway man Sometimes you gotta Put your own Pickles on your chili brother But there's a light For all of us You guys be good To yourselves baby You deserve it man

1:19:02Whenever you're down Out in the cold Faceless and tired No worries I'm told Come take my hand And walk there with me I know a place where we can be free There is a light shining for you Who needs matches? I'm on fire! Hey! Two shots of fireball!

1:19:44The Bronx is burning! From the mountaintops and to the deepest valleys, we hear a voice calling you. Do the trump! And a rising star, and a diamond valley, can't you see? You can be free. I am the world, I have the world, I have the world. I'm on the stairs

1:20:47Thank you.