#654 - Something New - This Past Weekend w/ Theo Von: Summary & Transcript

In short

Gratitude for launching “Busboys” in theaters, then a “springtime / something new” theme that turns into stories about trying new experiences (Supercross, farmer’s market, birthday seafood), plus commentary on current events and listener calls about sobriety and breaking cycles.

Guest backgrounds

No formal guests. The episode includes hotline callers: (1) a DoorDash driver (Matt) seeking advice after finishing his delivery career; (2) Alex from Bethlehem, PA, celebrating 331 days sober while moving to Los Angeles; (3) a long-time listener (name not given) describing a loneliness/drinking cycle and asking how to change it.

Key claims

Trying new things refreshes life and helps people feel more alive. Supercross is inspiring because it’s kid-like fun and uses massive amounts of dirt (26 million pounds). The host criticizes Trump’s Easter Truth Social threat and fears advanced surveillance/tech could spread. Sweden’s crow vending machines are framed as a positive, society-improving idea.

Notable examples

A man watched “Busboys” alone with his shirt off; Richie hadn’t been to a movie in eight years. Supercross bikes are described as extremely powerful and crash-injury level intense. Farmer’s market includes “grass milk” and “moon milk.” Callers discuss sober community in LA and praying “into the roots” to change behavior.

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Chapters

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The Experience of Watching Busboys

0:45 to 2:33

Theo shares heartfelt stories about audience members who attended his movie screening.

“And, and I know that was a lot of people who, um, I got messages from my friend, Betsy, um, my teachers from growing up, um, just so many people, family, uh, and you guys, um, who are my family also.”

Springtime Reflections

3:06 to 4:48

Theo discusses the arrival of spring and the concept of new beginnings.

“I saw one bee fly right out of one flower and just right into another.”

Visiting Supercross

4:48 to 8:11

Theo recounts his first experience at a Supercross event and shares humorous observations.

“Now, I don't know if you've ever been to Supercross, you know, because there's, you know, we all know there's the cross and that's what Jesus died on.”

The Thrill of Supercross

8:11 to 11:36

Theo explains the excitement of the Supercross event and describes the bikes and racers.

“You're going to say, nah, man, miss me with that.”

A Day with Family and Community

11:36 to 14:02

Theo shares anecdotes about spending time with his stepdad and visiting a farmer's market.

“Stewart, he was in there, the boss, young boss.”

Reflections on Farmer's Markets

14:02 to 16:16

Explore the personal significance of visiting farmer's markets and the deeper connection to food.

“and seeing them with their families, you know, Especially a lot of farmer's markets, they start up around springtime.”

Trump, the Pope, and Political Concerns

16:16 to 20:22

Delve into a controversial tweet by Trump and its implications during Easter.

“Tuesday will be Power Plant Day and Bridge Day, all wrapped up in one in Iran.”

Innovative Ideas for a Better Society

20:22 to 24:44

Discuss creative inventions and concepts that could enhance societal well-being.

“All right, let's get into a little bit of news here.”

Listener Calls Introduction

28:00 to 28:20

Theo introduces the segment where he takes calls from listeners.

“or email them at admin at valorrecoverycoaching.com.”

Advice for a Retired DoorDasher

28:20 to 28:55

Theo discusses the journey of a listener who just retired from DoorDash and seeks advice.

“I just want to say, hey, I really appreciate you, man.”

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Humorous Reflections on Delivery Life

28:55 to 33:38

Theo humorously reflects on the life of a DoorDasher and offers encouragement and light-hearted advice.

“I feel like I hit the pinnacle, man, and it's really sad.”

Sober Journey Check-In

33:38 to 33:54

Theo speaks with a caller celebrating 331 days of sobriety and discusses challenges.

“I'm Alex and I'm from Bethlehem, Pennsylvania.”

Coping with Sobriety and New Environments

33:54 to 37:56

Theo and the caller discuss the challenges of sobriety, moving to LA, and finding community.

“and stay social in these atmospheres when becoming freshly sober.”

Finding Purpose and Recovery

37:56 to 40:08

The conversation shifts to finding purpose while navigating sobriety and personal growth.

“I think if you're brave enough to try something new like that and get out there, you'll figure that stuff out, dude.”

Final Thoughts and Caller's Journey

40:08 to 42:00

Theo wraps up the call, celebrating the caller's progress and encouraging continued growth.

“But yeah, what do you think has been, like, honestly, when you think about it and you're honest to yourself, what do you think has been the most helpful thing to you?”

Listener Appreciation and Call Introduction

42:00 to 44:30

Theo engages with a listener to express gratitude and set the stage for a deeper discussion.

“No, I appreciate you for reaching out, dude.”

Struggles with Loneliness and Cycle of Behavior

44:30 to 46:08

A caller shares feelings of loneliness and a repeating cycle of self-destructive behaviors.

“And I just wanted to know how you deal with this, how you get yourself out of this, how you get to a better life.”

Theo's Personal Reflections on Change

46:08 to 50:48

Theo shares his own experiences with struggle and coping mechanisms, discussing the importance of recognizing one's brokenness.

“I'll try to share, you know, I've been struggling, man.”

The Desire for Healing and New Stories

50:48 to 55:20

Theo explores the concept of wanting to be healed and discusses the difficulty of change, reflecting on his childhood and personal development.

“I don't but if there's a part of me that doesn't even want the best for me then that there's something inside of me that is off.”

Desiring a New Story

56:01 to 59:24

Theo reflects on his past narrative and his desire for change.

“you know and so anyway so it gave me all this energy it was like you know I'm gonna figure this out.”

Finding Support and Taking Action

59:24 to 1:02:50

Theo shares steps he has taken to support himself and break cycles.

“And I'm ready for like, yeah, and the scary part is I don't, I like, is who will I be if I let go of these things that I've always done and known some of these behaviors?”

Engaging with Listeners

1:02:50 to 1:04:03

Theo responds to a listener's call about struggles and shares thoughts.

Encouragement from a Listener

1:04:03 to 1:06:06

A listener shares an uplifting Bible verse and message of hope.

“out loud and just thanks for being honest, bro.”

Closing Thoughts and New Beginnings

1:06:06 to 1:08:01

Theo discusses the importance of new beginnings and self-acceptance.

“calling back and telling me this and yeah, we have to just do our best, you know, and pray.”

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0:00My God, I got to get a haircut before a hunter shoots me. This is a lot. I want to say just a message just to thank everybody for showing up, who was able to show up and check out Busboys in the movie theaters this weekend. It means a lot. you know uh we had just so many people that showed up and did something on social media showed some love um there was a guy who went by he got to the theater he was the only person there and so he sat in there with his shirt off and watched it uh which is pretty cool um my friend richie he's like dude i hadn't been to a movie in eight years and he went over there uh by himself and watched.

0:45And, and I know that was a lot of people who, um, I got messages from my friend, Betsy, um, my teachers from growing up, um, just so many people, family, uh, and you guys, um, who are my family also. And, uh, and yeah, just the support. I just felt supported. And it was just, it was, it felt a little spooky to try and do it, like to do something you hadn't done like and have everybody see it like the like you know like i'm gonna be a olympic diver or whatever and then everybody shows up for your first dive kind of shit so um anyway that might be a bad correlation but um but yeah just thank you so much and uh i appreciate you and um and uh and i appreciate that your support and i hope that uh in our lifetime um that i can return in the favor.

1:39Thank you. And if you haven't gotten to see it, busboysmovie.com is expanding to more theaters, I believe. And so you can check it out there. And if not, it'll be somewhere where you can watch it online after that. And yeah, thank you so much. Also, Lexington, Kentucky, the home of Paul Revere, baby. I'm coming back for three shows, one on Friday, May 1st, and then two shows on Saturday, May 2nd. That's the return of the Rat Tour, and I think that's the end. That'll be the end of it. I hope to see you there. You can get tickets only at theovon.com slash T-O-U-R. Gang, gang, baby. Buzz, buzz, baby.

2:26It's springtime. I talk about springtime a lot because it's a time kind of for something new. Um, and the bees, you see them bees out there and then bees, baby, then things, they, you know, I saw a bee the other day cause they're out there pollinating and they're pollinating bro. And that's when they're basically, uh, you know what I'm saying? They out there, you know, they listening to Cardi B they're doing, they're out there. They're out there. They're on spring break, baby, when they're pollinating. They're on spring break. They're out there. I saw one bee fly right out of one flower and just right into another.

3:10Didn't even wash his hands after being in the first one. I said, that's a lot for me, you know? And he just went one right into the next one, just cheating on a tulip with a daffodil. He didn't even, you know? And I could see he kind of stopped on the edge of the tulip. He's like, yeah, I'm going to call you. I'm going to holler at you. You know, I'm going to get at you. I got to go. I got to go to work or something. And then he kind of buzzed one way and then skrrt, bam. And he was laid up with a couple of daffodils over there, boy. Because bees, they don't, you know, they just, they just trying to get their rocks off out there.

3:48That's the truth. But we need them. We need bees out there. You know, I ain't trying to be a snitch, but I saw a bee and a wasp running a little two-man over there with a couple boogin' Vilias. You know? And them Vilias was boogin', homie. I mean, shorty had some pedals on her. You know what I'm saying, gang? I'm upstairs. But yeah, the springtime, man, I like the springtime. I like it because it just gives me a reminder just that there's something new can happen. That there's a refresh. You know, that there's a possibility. There's, you know, just that something new can happen. And I really like that.

4:45I like the springtime. And that's how I feel about it. And we went over to Supercross. Now, I don't know if you've ever been to Supercross, you know, because there's, you know, we all know there's the cross and that's what Jesus died on. And that's the most popular one. But, you know, and a little, well, a decent ways down from that, but still out there is Supercross. And that, you know, I didn't know, I didn't know anything about Supercross. I don't know if you know anything about it, but if you don't know anything about it, then that's how I am. Then we're the same because I didn't know anything about it, bro.

5:27But those bikes, man, I walked into, I went to Nissan Stadium. I went to Nissan Stadium. And Nissan Stadium, I thought you go in there, it's just a bunch of Nissans trying to, you know, looking for a place to park or a bunch of Asian dudes with a bunch of tricked out Nissans in there. you know because nissan is asian people don't realize that people think it's just just a word that doesn't even mean anything or but it's nissan

5:57yeah that's asian bro and so i thought it was going to be like that but um but the bikes man the bikes are just

6:13and then they have one little gay biker kind of pad by he'd be like the engine it's like you hear like and then a little gay biker be like oh who wants to come over to my place or whatever you're like damn that bike they got that thing tuned they got that thing tuned hot that thing's coming in hot boy he just wants mechanics to come over and help it that bike was just like i'm broke oh my engine's broken that's a trap baby b's in a trap that thing's a trap so they got that they kind of bait that that that bike gets put in because you got the other bikes just

6:59one guy broke his whole neck, leg, everything he broke everything he had he'd already broke I think his neck or something they'd taken part of his leg he said and put it in his neck and I'm like damn this bitch out here leg necking and then I think he cracked that bitch on one of the turns man but it's intense out there

7:25Hey, who wants to talk? Who wants to talk behind the gas tank? But anyway, a lot of different engines out there. But it was fascinating.

7:42And the bikes that they use, the motorbikes, they're bitching, man. Them bikes are bitching. and I didn't think I would like a dirt bike because first of all, it's got dirt on it. You know what I'm saying? If somebody tried to get you involved with selling you another item and they say, hey, you want this dirt shirt or whatever, you want this dirt baby carriage, you know what I'm saying? You want these dirt tits? You're going to say, nah, man, miss me with that. But a dirt bike, it just, I don't know. It broke the mold, I'll say that. Because if you look at the food, you know, the, what's it called when like a lion eats a dolphin or whatever the.

8:38The food chain. When you look at the food chain of transportation, you don't think about a dirt bike. mostly when you think of transportation you go you start at the top you think fighter jet plane tank um truck car skateboard piggyback i guess that's a mode of transportation kind of um yeah it won't get you far you know but you'll be you'll be better off than the guy you riding on when you pull up, you know. Then it goes dirt bike, hitchhiking, and just wishing you were somewhere else. And that's the echelons of transportation right there. But one thing I also loved about Supercross is they brought in 26 million pounds of dirt for the event.

9:38so when they made all the um triangles that's what it is when they made all those dirt triangles they had 26 million pounds of dirt so that's just incredible and then i said to the guy well what do y 'all do afterwards he's like well we store it at different places around town i said dang bro that's crazy they got that shit probably stored everywhere i say look rent out you you could rent out two corners of my house. I'll wrench out two corners over there. Stack a little bit of dirt in them bitches for$18, bro,$30,$40. That's what I'm living like. Because I'm saying if they got 26 million pounds of that to hide away, the guy said, yeah, we just, we store it around town and we come back and get it next year i'm like dang y 'all coming back if y 'all coming back to get that shit i'll charge you 61 i'll charge you 40 a month to keep that shit you keep eight pounds of that shit and i got a couple empty cupboards in the kitchen ain't nothing in them bitches one of them has a air fryer in it i will fill that bitch up i'll keep i'll fuck i'll keep 10 square inches of that damn dirt warm for you i'll get you i'll keep some of that shit warm for our air fry that shit.

11:01And we'll get you back some quality dirt, bro. And that's going to now be$50 a month. But that's the kind of business we need. If you come to my house, you say, look, hey, bro, hold a little bit of this dirt for me, bro. I got you, gang. That's who I am. But yeah, I had a nice time over there, man. And just to go do something different, do something new. I'd never been. I just got invited. I went over. I got to meet some of the drivers. Seth, there's a guy named Seth. A dude named Jet I met. Eli, he kept winning. And Mr. Stewart, he was in there, the boss, young boss. But yeah, these dudes, bro, it's just like, I think the thing that was the most neat to me about it was that it felt like you were just a kid.

11:59It felt like there's this kid thing of wanting to just ride your bike.

12:08And that was pretty magical in there. And yeah, people were just having a good time. I think it's a great thing to take your family to. I think you could go watch it. I don't work for them or anything. I just went and had a nice time. separately from that what did I do I went down and saw my stepdad and I got to take him out for his birthday and we went over there down where I'm from went to Mandeville Seafood over there I think they got some of the best seafood on the north so I think they they really get it done I like they got a fried shrimp po' boy that be that be hey and I walked in bro I could hear that fryer the fryer knew I was coming you could hear the fryer that deep fryer rub his hands together in the back of that beer he knew I'd walked in cause I get it boy I will take care of some fried shrimp so if you have a fried shrimp problem in your area hit my line twin but so that was nice and my stepdad and I sat over there it's not my real stepdad but he kind of just been a big influence in my life I live with their family for a long time and blessings to him

13:28what else is going on oh I went to the farmer's market and that was fun and I like that farmer's market. I like to see people making things and then you get to learn about the people that are doing it and it just feels like so much more of like a community than like an Amazon or something like that. Yeah. The comparison of getting something through Amazon and going to a farmer, it's not even a comparison. You know, just the energy you get from seeing people and seeing them with their families, you know, Especially a lot of farmer's markets, they start up around springtime. And I know everybody can't afford a farmer's market.

14:11I know some of the pricing is different. And some people, they don't have farmer's markets by them. But some people never even been to one.

14:26But, yeah, I just enjoyed it. Because also it gives me a different respect for the food. You know, if I buy something that I've learned about and that I know where it's come from, I think I engage with it differently.

14:45You know, like, I don't know. It's not, sometimes in my life, food has just been kind of, I don't know, I've just absorbed it or ate or whatever, just kind of nonchalantly. I don't know the customer. I don't know where this stuff's from. I don't know, you know, what it is, what it's made. I don't know anything about it. So what do I care? But then, yeah, I think this was interesting just to get some stuff. I got some milk over there. And they'll milk anything in that bit, though. I ain't going to lie. Things you never even, they got damn moon milk in that bitch. I'm like, dang. Somebody got up there and squeezed the biggest tit in the world, you feel me?

15:29got somebody was up there just pushing making that crescent drip homie um but they they got everything in there grass milk cat milk uh they was that somebody at uh just was just they had two dudes just milking each other a couple gay dudes over there bruh and i didn't say nothing and I didn't have any, you know, but I, you know, and they didn't even, yeah, but I ain't saying nothing, but, but I ain't saying nothing, and that's what it was, anyway, what else, um, but yeah, the fact they moved all that dirt in, it was just kind of fascinating to me, and just to learn something new, to do something new, it makes me feel more alive, kind of, because sometimes I get pretty set in my ways, um, we're gonna go to some calls and stuff, what else what do we got in the news Trevin anything that's you noticed did you see this Pope Leo and Trump beef Pope Leo and Trump oh yeah I mean this is unbelievable the where he's like the Pope is weak on crime that one yeah well after Trump's tweet on Easter you know just tweeting about the annihilation of people bring up the tweet so I can be clear on what it is if you see that Easter tweet.

16:53It's great. And this was on Truth Social. Tuesday will be Power Plant Day and Bridge Day, all wrapped up in one in Iran. There will be nothing like it. Open the fucking straight, you crazy bastards, or you'll be living in hell. Just watch. Praise be to Allah, President Trump. I mean, that's just, on Easter, that's unbelievable. You know, when people are hoping for something new. Literally on the day when people are hoping and are believing with their hearts as much as they can and are celebrating something new, a rebirth, a resurrection, a possibility. To write that, it's diabolical. It's insane.

17:38And I think my fear is that after Israel just moved from Gaza, then now it's Lebanon and it's Iran. they're on a time clock and I don't know why they're on a time clock but it's they've pressed the fast forward button on control at any cost and I don't want to get too deep into it because I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to feel I don't want to you know I want to I want to stay in a place of possibility for myself but I do fear that that that that my I think my biggest fear is that that stuff could come here you know with the technology that they're using to take on a lot of these crimes with the technology that they used to murder I mean it's in Gaza it's just like when in these places in the Middle East with the technology they're using they can if they can instill that here then we will be living under the watchful eye of like drones that could take you out if you don't if they don't like something you write on line.

18:46And that's scary. But when you're up against like things that seem this bizarre and insane, other things start to seem possible. And, um, and it's not, and what American is this helping besides the war, the industrial war complex what a man what american what hard work what guy who's trying to take care of uh of his family or a single mother who's a nurse who's going to work and has to get home and get to her kids ball game and and has to be both parents what what farmer is this helping what regular person is this helping i i just don't know i don't understand so yeah that's what that's what our president's up to and it's fucking baffling.

19:42And it's sick and it feels like he's just been compromised by Israel, by this dark government over there. And I don't know. It's fucking dark. It's dark. What can we talk about? Yeah, it's dark shit over there. It's dark shit. I just don't, I don't know. Where do we get some leaders?

20:13Yeah, where do we get some leaders? And how do we... I don't know. Fuck. I guess we start just by leading ourselves, huh? All right, let's get into a little bit of news here. What do we got, guys? So I don't know if you saw this, but Sweden has built vending machines for crows. Oh, wait. I did see this. I think I shared this a couple of months ago, maybe on TikTok. Yes, Sweden built a smart machine where crows trade trash for food, turning these clever birds into city cleaners. Corvids, the bird family that includes crows and ravens, are known for remarkable intelligence, including tool use, memory, and problem-solving skills.

20:58and controlled experiments, crows learn to drop cigarette filters into a specifically designed device and then that device dispensed food. That's what we need, bro. That's the kind of thing we need. You teach a crow, hey, go pick up this trash, put it in here, and then you get a little McNugget or something. Something crows eat, a little bird omelet or something. You get something like that. And that's the kind of things we need. and that's the kind of things I've been saying and praying for. You know, things that actually make society better, inventions that make society better. Rubber cars, I said that shit forever ago because you'll see a car accident, the only thing that survived it was the damn tires.

21:43Well, bitch, make the whole thing rubber. You could hit whoever the hell you want, dude. You could hit your damn wife when she's leaving the house if you want. If she's in her rubber car as well, just give her a little bump, let her know. let her know you got a little something for her when she gets back to the house you know me just give her a little bit of a love tap but yeah if everybody's in a rubber car you could damn you could get real on the way to work you know or what about pants I've always thought this would be a good invention pants that walk for you I'm talking about electronic pants and them bitches they'll go so you get in them and then you just tell you navigate on your phone yeah take me to 13th avenue or whatever and then bitch you just walk you could that way you can relax kind of because your pants are going to know when to stop and when to go you know what i'm saying you don't have to use all your muscles because your muscles can be calmer because the pants are going to get you there you can just relax let your pants take you for a walk you know and if you want to jog turn them bitches up if you're running late Cut them bitches loose, boy.

22:55They ain't got no governor on these jeans, baby girl. Cut them bitches loose. Or what about this? This was an adventure that I thought of. What if they had earrings? You buy your wife these earrings, and they whisper naughty stuff in her ear while she's at work. So then when she comes back to the house, you know what I'm saying? The ambiance has already been done. You know? She's at work. She's in the office or whatever. And you know, you hit her up. You send her a little message, you know? Wish I was there right now. I'll bend you over that little paper shredder or whatever. I want to hide in the recycling bin and lick your body or whatever.

23:41You could send little shit like that and then the earrings whisper it to her. Oh, I want to lick your body in the recycling bin. imagine that so we've been needing positive stuff I like the way they're getting birds involved in it let nature work because a lot of birds have been out of work them bitches have been out of work they used to be spies remember those Trevin yeah the birds aren't real initiative they're drones pigeons them bitches was working storks used to bring babies them bitches was at it who else the raven Edgar Allan Poe he was putting them bitches to work and now they got crows popping off doing recycling so yeah i'm glad to see this i'm glad to see an amelia back hustling man praise god i love that dude i love that so yeah so praise god man i love seeing this i love seeing birds get active boy get nature involved what if they had a little squirrel and his job was just to um come use his tail to buff your car.

24:55How great would that be? Somebody trains 30, 40 squirrels over there. You pull up, you stop, they clean it, and then they got 40 squirrels waxing that bitch with their tails, bro. Come on, let's go. This is the future we want, not doing genocides. This is the shit we need. Praise God, brother. If somebody's sending you that you up and it's 2 a.m., 3 a.m., 38 a.m., it don't matter. They hitting you up like that. Then you know they trying to keep it popping. That's where Blue Chew comes in. Blue Chew's been on a mission to get you bricked up. Bricked up. Call the contractor, homie. Call a mason because I'm freaking bricked up.

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28:20We got a call. Let's hit the hotline. As always, the hotline is 985-664-9503. Amen to that. Here we go. We got a call right here. Hey, Theo. I just want to say, hey, I really appreciate you, man. I just finished my career as a door dasher, and I listened to all your podcasts while I was doing my career as a door dasher. Let's go, brother. Congratulations, brother. Onward. I actually hit the pinnacle. I didn't know where to go after that. So I was calling in for some advice to see where you think a retired DoorDash should go, what I should do. I feel like I hit the pinnacle, man, and it's really sad.

29:10Hope you have a great day, man. Cheers. Well, first of all, brother, I want to say, can we get a couple guns salute for that guy just for his service? Ready. Aim. Fire.

29:36Amen, brother. I think the first thing you got to do, bro, you got to join the reserves, man. Take a break. Take a break. You are that hunger Santa, that door dash. You're that hunger Santa, homie. and your service is appreciated. I mean, there's probably not a porch in town you haven't just dropped a damn McNuggets on it or some Froyo'd or whatever. They're probably in an apartment. Welcome, Matt, you haven't set a little small sack of McDowbells or whatever or a couple of banana sundaes on that bitch or some takidos or some burritos. You've put all that. There probably ain't a dang. You probably have just a whole collection of photos of just a damn little sack of jack in the box just sitting right there near a mat that says home is where the heart is on it.

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30:38I mean, God, your phone must be full, brother. You have served your time. And we thank you for your service, man. I think you got to go into the reserves, bro. and every now and then they'll call you out you know we got to get 40 big macs or whatever or we got to get 40 um you know seed oil mac nuggets or whatever over to to this gymnasium they'll bring you up for shit like that or if there's a flood or whatever and they got to have somebody swim across a channel just to deliver just to deliver a damn uh blt to somebody they'll bring you out and you probably you probably got a little bit of ptsd i'm gonna say that right now you know i bet you got some ptsd i would apply i would apply to get some uh medical uh tuition to help you out with that because you deserve that shit I bet you'll just be driving through a neighborhood and you'll just run off, bro, and just deliver an invisible bag of something to an apartment.

31:44Just can't even help it. You know? I bet your wife might find you in the middle of the night. You out there ghost dashing. You just door dashing in your damn sleep. You out there walking backwards and shit. Wandering around a stranger's apartment complex with a damn sack of hot dogs and a side of fries, brother. Take a break. Take some time, baby. sit at home, let it unwind. Forget about all the trenches you've been in, dog. Get some peace time, baby. Hit the reserves, man. We thank you for your service, baby. Praise God. God, I can't even believe that, man. And I'm not even brave enough to serve, to be honest with you.

32:26That's what gets me. That's what gets me, man. And you got this dude 21 years as a door dasher. watched his friends probably probably watched friends just drowning in deep fryers and shit watched a friend just slip on a damn you know a cut a pickle or something that had fallen out of a bag and broke his leg broke his neck broke his broke his leg neck god you know we don't think about that we don't think when you lay in in bed at night that in the distance there are men running over hills, wandering through woods, swinging across vines with rivers filled with gators and bad bitches from Atlanta just to get a fucking sack of five guys to a damn Sig App house.

33:21We don't think about that shit. Lest we forget, man. So go forth, young soldier. go forth and get you some peace time, brother. Take a deep breath and get you some relaxation. And we'll keep you in our prayers, brother. Praise God. Thank you for your service. Fuck, dude. I'm Alex and I'm from Bethlehem, Pennsylvania. I actually saw you at Wind Creek, but... Oh, thank you for calling Alex. Onward. I even fucked up my sobriety day, but 331 days sober today and it's like the longest I've ever gone. Let's go, bro. 331 days. That's amazing, dog. Congrats. onward.

34:29and stay social in these atmospheres when becoming freshly sober. I don't know. I just feel dull and a little less enthusiastic as I might have been before. I don't know. A little less enthusiastic. Thank you so much for your call, brother. I appreciate that. Congratulations on 331 days. Let's go. Dude, that's so great. That's a long time. How do you keep it going? I mean, and look, you talked about, you know, newly sobering. You're not new. I mean, you all, I mean, look, I've been newly sober so many times. Let's call him up. Can we? Yep.

35:14Hello? Hey, Alex. Yeah. Hey, what's up, man? It's Theo. Oh, what's up, Theo? Not much, bro. I was just checking in. I just, I got your voicemail, dude. I just want to say congratulations, man. Do you still have your sober time? Yeah Let's go I'm so hyped How many days you got right now? Holy shit Theo Vaughn Are you for real? Yeah man I just got your voicemail dude No way That's crazy I was driving to LA Yeah that's what you said And I was like Fuck it I'm gonna call the hotline And say hello Oh my god Bro BLM homie That's what the fuck is up Hell yeah bro Um Dude that's great bro how are you feeling i feel good uh every day is a new day so you know it comes with some battles but i feel great today nice dude i know isn't it crazy how some days will feel great and then that other day comes you're like god i just want to pull my legs off and just hide them in somebody's ass bro yeah something like that sounds about right or you know what i'm saying or just you have days where you're like how could it how could it be so different than it was yesterday that's how I feel sometimes.

36:26Right, right. Yeah. What's the setup like there? Do you feel like nervous about being out there? Like what was the reason you were heading out to LA? I actually moved in here with my girlfriend. I wasn't really nervous to move out here. I'm kind of used to like being out in big crowds and shit, but I think it's just different now that I don't have substances to do anything, you know? And like being in LA, like the only things to do are really like at night, unless you do like, I don't know. Like, what do you do during the day? Yeah, you can hide from traffic. That's what I did. Yeah, the traffic sucks.

37:02Bro, that's real shit. I would hide from traffic, bro. What else did I like to do? Oh, I did like to go to the beach. I like to go, I mean, there's a ton of stuff, but I'm probably not the best person to ask. I would kind of isolate a little bit, or I would also, I worked a lot during the day, and I would try to hit meetings in the evening or something. yeah so but at least you got your girl there so that's exciting so you got one person there that you can connect with yeah no it's super dope and I have some friends that are out here too so it's like it's not the worst case scenario you know yeah so it's not it's definitely cool I'm just trying to figure out what it is throughout the day just in general to do like it doesn't even matter like if I'm in LA or not you could have a job you got a job I do yeah okay I manage an athlete and I'm a professional snowboarder as well oh that's right You mentioned that you snowboard, dude.

37:51My bad. Okay, good. No, it's all good. Yeah, dude. I think if you're brave enough to try something new like that and get out there, you'll figure that stuff out, dude. But I think, yeah, I think like, I mean, for me, I just noticed the more I can take care of myself, the more I can be involved in other people's lives. Like at least show up in other people's lives, you know? And then sometimes it's for better. And sometimes it's not, sometimes I don't do the best, but at least I can show up, you know? So if I'm taking care of myself. Yeah. I mean, that's how I feel too. Yeah. If I just do the things I need to do and stay off all the bad shit.

38:30Yeah. I kind of become a better person and being a good person and going to do things and being around other people feels a lot better, you know? Yeah. I don't know. I feel like less of a scumbag. I don't know. I'm trying to get all my thoughts. I'm honestly still mind blown. Dude, no worries. No, I think like, all right, let me think. I am too, bro. I think my energy has been weird today. I just like, Like some days I'm just like, I feel like kind of spastic. Yeah. Dude, I think though, but I will say this. Los Angeles has one of the best sober communities in the whole world, bro, out there. There's so many great meetings where you hear some freaking amazing speakers and shit out there.

39:06I mean, people that fucking, people that were eating their own fingers and shit. And like, dude, guys that were like, some dude cut his thumb off and filled it up with dope and put it in his own ass. Just people that are wild and, you know. people that are really looking for God the long way, you know, taking the long way to the Lord. Yeah. There's definitely a lot of those war stories. I feel like when you're in L.A. and you, like, look around, you can obviously tell that there's a strong homeless community, which means there's definitely a strong sober community. Yeah, because those communities— Does that even make sense?

39:36I mean, that kind of makes sense, though. Yeah. Oh, bro, because those communities, it's a thin line between those two communities a lot of times, bro. Yeah, for sure. Like, a lot of us are very— We've been close to that edge of just walking off into the oblivion. Dude, how about it? How about it? I've been battling this shit for so long. I can't even believe I've gotten this far. Amen. This is the longest you've had, huh? Yeah, way past the longest I've ever had. And what do you think has been the secret? I think the last time I did this, I only had a couple months. Hell yeah, dude. Sorry, I stepped in your shoes there.

40:10But yeah, what do you think has been, like, honestly, when you think about it and you're honest to yourself, what do you think has been the most helpful thing to you? Or what did you do differently? What did I do differently? I don't, you know what, dude? I did have a pretty scary heart situation that happened to me last year where I've had like two near-death experiences with a heart condition I didn't even know I really had. And I had to get two heart surgeries. And I think that kind of opened up my mind a little bit to it. and then but even then after I was done with the heart surgeries and my heart was kind of like back to normal per se because it was a pretty simple fix I was drinking so much and but I wasn't drugging as much and my girlfriend was like kind of telling me she's like hey like do you like realize how much you drink and then I just took a step back and realized and I think that's when it all finally came to me that like I've actually never stopped doing something you know I was always ODing when I was a bit younger in my lower 20s and I had no choice but to go to meetings and try and stay clean because my brother was also getting clean at the time so that was a whole thing yeah the story goes on forever man you know how it is but yeah and then sometimes we get tired of writing that story dude that's what I start to notice for myself man you know I get tired of writing that old story because like man I've written this you know like just I've written it a lot you know and so I want to change it but um cool man I got to finish taping this episode but But, yeah, dude, I just wanted to say, I just want to say I appreciate you calling in.

41:44Thanks for, like, just, like, yeah, including us in your drive across the country. And, yeah, dude, I'm glad that you got, like, dude, you're like one of those astronauts on Artemis or whatever. You're out in some new territory, bro, coming up on one year. That's wild. Yeah, dude, it's crazy. No, I appreciate you for reaching out, dude. And, obviously, I'm a super fan. I've been watching this shit or listening to this shit for years. Oh, thanks, bro. Yeah, but you were watching it last night. What song were you watching last night? Oh, yeah, the only Timothy Shalomay, because I didn't hear that one.

42:17But I usually listen every week. Oh, yeah, that dude's a G, bro. That guy's got so much charm in him. He's just full of damn charm. He's just a damn charm. Yeah. Like a damn charm animal. You know? Yeah, bro. Yeah, bro. No, but I appreciate you, Theo. Thank you so much, man. I've made my day. It's really, really dope. Oh, thanks, bro. Yeah, I appreciate you, dude. I appreciate you, too. And thanks for just sharing the message I think there's never too much of it I appreciate you man, have fun out there Give our best to your Old lady And good luck on a year man I know we'll see you there Alright, thank you so much Have a good one man Alright, praise bro, be good That's awesome dude You sound like an upbeat guy Dude it sounds like He sounds kind of like He just sound like he had a good energy huh yeah man i mean he's a snowboarder yeah dude you're yeah you were doing enough dude you can't be uh doing snow and riding on it you know i'm saying like you can't fuck i would lose my mind out there i'd be out there lost in the middle of the night just literally trying to snort up a damn mogul you know i'd get a brain freeze that's when you know you anyway let's get our head let's get some help um yeah blessings to you alex let's take another call here.

43:39Hey, Theo. Long time listener. First time caller. Man, I just wanted to call and say, I appreciate everything you do. And I was listening to your Ella Langley podcast about like, we all meet. She was saying how we all, this is our first go around, right? We're all just living for the first time. and I think I've been struggling lately with feeling like almost like I'm stuck in this cycle where you know you're alone you're lonely you're by yourself which you know sometimes isn't like the best thing for you to do but it's almost like a second nature it's just what you retreat to and then you you know you want to go out and you go out and you hang out with your buddies and you have sometimes like a wild night you get influenced by like what you think they want what you think the world want with instagram and all you know social media tells you to do so you're drinking you might even fucking get your nose a little bit dirty like you used to and uh you know you're trying to get all the girls numbers and like fucking you know have a have a grand old time and you're out all night and then uh you kind of wake up the next day feeling like shit and you're like i'm not even any closer to my goals i'm not getting where i need to be um but then you just kind of fucking retreat and then you do it all over again and uh i know you know i feel like maybe you once led through this and i think a lot of guys go through this and you know i've shut off social media i've tried to like i've gone through periods where i didn't drink for long long periods of time and uh i know you sometimes just always go back to this because then you're just like what's the point you know we're only you know that one go around on this like am i gonna like waste my youth I'm gonna waste my opportunities but I'm no closer my goals and I think I'm you know I lost my job last year and I'm supposed to be like studying and trying to get ahead for some stuff that's gonna give me a better job but a lot of time I just kind of let the days go by and now I'm stuck here you know by myself sitting in my room after the weekend I'm just fucking, I don't know, man, feeling down and I don't even know why.

45:54Okay. You know? And I just wanted to know how you deal with this, how you get yourself out of this, how you get to a better life. How do you get to a place where like, you're not just cycling through and you're actually moving toward things that you want. And I appreciate your advice. All right, Theo. Thanks, man. Thanks so much for the call. I don't think you said your name at the beginning, but thank you yeah the cycle of just like okay I'm going to do this and then I would kind of for me I would like I'm going to try that I would let myself down I would try and I would ask God to help me and I'd be like I would pray you know but I would just and it was the same thing and I appreciate your I appreciate you being so articulate in your call and doing your best to share as honestly as you could what was going on.

46:50I'll try to share, you know, I've been struggling, man. The past like couple years I've had, you know, it's been a struggle in certain ways with certain behaviors that I'm just not proud of, right? Or really just behaviors that I didn't want to do anymore.

47:10And I couldn't change it. I couldn't change the cycle. And even as I say this, I'm afraid that I'll fall back into those behaviors. But I'll tell you what for me has been helpful recently. And I'm sorry if I sound a little animated. I just, I've been like going through this in my own life recently, and it's on the tip of my thoughts and feelings. You know, sometimes I realized for myself, I would pray to God to help me get away from certain behaviors in my life. But at the same time that I was praying, there would be a part of me that knew I was probably going to do those things again. You know?

47:50That I was probably going to do those things again. Like, but God, please help me. I don't want to do this anymore. I don't want to have this behavior. But there'll be a little part of me that was like, I know even as I ask for God's help that I'm going to do it again. I would know that. so I started praying like this I started praying like God

48:16please help me with this you know this is a broken part of me that I bring to you I need help with it and then I would add to my prayer I would say and even God even as I pray to you right now there's a part of me that knows I'm probably lying to you there's a part of me that knows I'm going to do that behavior again. So can you come into that part of me and help me there? Help me in the part of me that knows as I pray that I am, that I'm lying.

48:51And I don't know if that sounds crazy or not, but, uh, but I started to think that like a connection between us and a higher power, it's so, it's such the realest it's like in my life it's one of the realest things that i've ever witnessed right like you go in like i'll be in meetings and uh or a recovery meetings or um and you see people's lives change you see something happen you see you see miracles right uh but that was what was happening you know it was i couldn't change i could i tried everything I tried everything to change I would tell myself I'm going to do it different I'm going to do it I couldn't do it I couldn't do it by myself and my whole life I'd done everything by myself I thought I thought I had

49:52and so something that's just been helping me recently is just praying differently you know because whatever's inside of me that's broken is really, it's manipulative and it's, you know, it would be good at pool because it's good at, it's good at the angles. But so, yeah, so I've just been praying that God comes into those parts of me, you know? Don't just come into like the water inside of me, come into the well, come into the walls of the well. come into the the the mortar whatever that's between the bricks that cause I'm cause I'm broken cause cause I'm broken all the way there you know and I don't mean that like in self pity I don't need I don't but if there's a part of me that doesn't even want the best for me then that there's something inside of me that is off.

51:02So that's something that's been helping me, uh, because some of it's been coming true and, um, I don't know if it's been coming true. I don't know if that's a term, but, uh, I don't know. I'm starting to just feel something different. And then I was also, I was, I was looking on this Bible, uh, and there's a story called John five, And it's about a guy who's at these pools. And some people follow the Bible. Some people don't. That's fine. This is just a story that I'm reciting here. And Jesus is at the pools and it's in Bethesda. And they're like, there's a sick man there and he's been sick for a long time.

51:46And Jesus asks him, do you want to be healed? He asks him, do you want to be healed? And that's a crazy question because, you know, if I get healed, then I'm different. You know, if somebody gets healed, they have a new story.

52:21so that's just been something that i've been having to ask myself it's like do i want to be healed do i really want something different

52:34and sometimes a lot of the answer is no i don't i want something different but i don't want to i don't know if i'm scared of i don't know what i am i don't know if i don't want to do what it takes to get i can't even tell what it is and uh

53:02it's hard for me some of this stuff is a little bit hard for me to say I don't even know why but I think I want a new story

53:13you know my story in my life and I'm sorry to make this about me but I'm just trying to share you know when I was growing up Like my mom, something was wrong with her. I love my mother, you know, but she didn't connect with me. She didn't like look at me and, uh, and she didn't, you know, she wouldn't hold me that much and she didn't look, she, she wouldn't look me in the eyes. Right. And, uh, and so as a kid, I felt like, I felt like something was wrong with me. You know, I felt like, oh, if the person that created me won't even look at me, then something must be so wrong with me.

54:04You know, and I've worked through a lot of this stuff. And so I'm kind of going down this lane. But it just gave me, it gave me like a lot of low self-worth. You know, it just gave me low self-worth. And honestly, it made it tough for me to even have a self because the only person that I only knew who I was if you reacted to me well, right? Like I became just a people pleaser because I didn't have any feelings of self-worth. So the only way I could get my worth was from you, right? From somebody else. And it made sense because I didn't have a me. You know, I didn't have a big sense of self. And so I got myself from who you thought I was.

54:46And I needed everybody to like me. I needed everybody to like me Because I didn't know if I didn't know if I didn't know if There was one person That didn't like me If one of the The The plate stopped spinning If it was all gonna fall down

55:03So anyway Sorry I'm kind of rambling but

55:09But the The thing that also happened was That whole All of that energy That negative energy That uncertainty The that became my story right and it gave me like a chip on my shoulder where it was like um you know i'm gonna show them i'll show these mother you know i'll be i'll do this and i'll you know it gave me all of that it gave me all of that energy like i'll prove to them i'll prove to somebody that i'm that i'm worth something i'm gonna make

55:43yeah I just want to look in somebody's eyes and have them be pleased with me that's what I that's what I wanted that's what I wanted I think it's all that any kid wants I wanted to just look in somebody's eyes and have them be pleased with me and um and it all that gave me a chip on my shoulder you know and so anyway so it gave me all this energy it was like you know I'm gonna figure this out. I'll do it myself. I'll figure, you know, and all that stuff served me well until I think just until now it's like, oh, I don't know. I'm just tired of living that story, man. I'm tired of that story.

56:28You know, I'm tired of that story. I just don't want that story anymore.

56:35you know it's been a good story and it served me well dang homie I'm I'm leaking

56:43it's been a good story and it served me well but I don't want that story anymore you know I want something different because the more I just tell that story it's just like

56:57you know I stay in that world I stay in that cycle for me. And I think I, um, yeah, so I want to have a, I think I, and it's scary to say that I want to have a new story because I'm so used to like how those other feelings work. I know who to be angry at. I know how to operate here and I know how to operate there and I know who to not give love to. And I, you know, I know how to make like love, like very conditional. I know how to like do all these. I know how to navigate to get this fucked up vehicle down the street, you know? Um, but I think I want a new story, dude. And it's crazy for me to even say that, but yeah, I think I want a new story.

57:48And, uh,

57:52and so that's one thing that I'm asking God for. Yeah. I'm asking God for a new story, right I'm asking God for the next part of my of me

58:04you know and being okay with saying I'm not I you know like these days you know my mother and I have a great relationship and we and I I love my mother this there's nothing I want more than my mother to be happy you know and it's funny because as she gets older she kind of turns in a little bit more like a child sometimes. And, uh,

58:32and you kind of like the roles kind of like, they, I guess they switch a little bit and you get to be, um, you get to try to be, uh, what you needed in a way. And it's pretty cool. And that's a gift. That's a gift from God, I think.

58:53and so yeah I want to be able to I just want to be able to I don't know I don't even know what I'm telling you dude Jesus Christ this guy's got to be like God why'd I call this idiot

59:12yeah so I think anyway that's what's been helping me and I never thought I would be saying some of this stuff But I'm glad that I am because I just, I'm ready for a new story. I'm ready for a new story. And I'm ready for like, yeah, and the scary part is I don't, I like, is who will I be if I let go of these things that I've always done and known some of these behaviors? If I even can let go of some of them. And I know I'm not going to get anything right or whatever. or not. There's no like, it just like, I don't know, man. I don't even know what I'm saying. I'm kind of tired.

59:56What can I, what can I suggest? Do you think Trevon or offer some thought? Do you have any thought about any of this? I think it's, it's really hard. And I think praying is a great first step if you don't know where to go or how to break a cycle. yeah yeah that that's it i just like yeah i just start like that's that's something that's helped me is i just started praying but i started praying like like as honestly as i could

1:00:24um and even honest past that like god you know uh these behaviors i don't like of mine will you help me even though I know that I might do them again even though I know I want to do them again will you come into the parts of me that want to do these behaviors again and help me there will you come just will you come you know will you come all the way to the I mean will you come to the but past the roots

1:01:06and yeah and it's just like i don't know and it's crazy to think that i i could like i could have a like i don't know

1:01:20yeah i don't know a lot of it's scary to me and some of this isn't making sense and i'm sorry man I think I'm just getting kind of burnt out. It's been a little, it's been a, I don't know what it's been, but I just, I'm glad that you care about what's going on. And yeah, to get out of the cycle, man, it's hard. And to show up for myself, other things that I've been doing is I've been getting up early. I've been doing some yoga. I've been doing a workout at home. I went and played basketball the other day with some friends. I hadn't done that in years, man. And you know what? I felt good. I left out of there.

1:01:52I went to an AA meeting and I started like, just like, I'm not bragging. I'm just saying I started getting active, you know? And I started coming to my own rescue a little bit, but I started just showing up for myself. And if I told somebody I'm gonna do something, then I came and did it.

1:02:13And I haven't, I've never done that a lot in my life, but for the past few weeks I've been doing it. And when I say something and then I do it, there's a part of me that hears that, right? And there's a part of me that starts to have like, okay, this guy is somebody who says he's going to do something and he does it. And so then part of me starts to build up that it's like I'm building somebody new, man. And I'm not trying to challenge you or anything. I'm just telling you kind of what's been working for me.

1:02:48and yeah, I know, anyway, this shit's all over the place,

1:02:55plenty of my vape, you know, I wish the church made vapes, dude, those things would slap, is that bad, trying to say that, they're basically, in like Catholic church, they got the incense, they're basically, they've been vaping, oh, dang, yeah, let me get a little bit, dude, if they freaking had a, you know, I got that frankincense, 3 ,000 puffs homie that thing would be popping but yeah I don't know I've just like I've sat in rooms and been in meetings and done this for like done that cycle a long time and right now something's feeling a little bit different and it's scary for me to even say that because there's a part of me that doesn't want things to be different but there's a part of me that's growing that wants to have a new story for me and I didn't think I could have a new story you know I think maybe in my head I did and shit but in my heart I didn't think that and so yeah but yeah thanks for calling dude and thanks for um thinking of us and yeah i don't know the answer to how to get out of the cycle i don't know uh and if i ever get all the way out i promise i'll share it with you um but yeah thanks for hitting the hotline and uh and yeah just thinking out loud and just thanks for being honest, bro.

1:04:15I felt like your call was really honest. Like this is what's going on and I'm tired of it. And what can I do? And I wish I had the answers for you.

1:04:26You know, I wish I had the answers for you, but that's all I got. All right. Let's hear this call. Hi, Theo. This is Quinn. Big fan of the show. I just wanted to share a Bible verse with you. It's Ecclesiastes 311. It's brought me a lot of comfort because the way things are lately, it's been pretty weird, pretty scary. Amen, bro. It's weirder than that. Onward. And I know that people who care deeply can kind of be affected by that fear deeply. So anyway, the Bible verse is this. He has made everything beautiful in his time. and he's put eternity into the human heart and no man can know his plan from beginning to end.

1:05:19That's pretty close. It's funny I got nervous for a voicemail but anyway everything is beautiful in God's time. Even if that's a reality we don't live in right now it will be a reality because God promises us that he'll make it beautiful and I know you've got eternity in your heart. you got that eternity mindset and you spread a lot of light so I know things are weird but it's all gonna be good so anywho I feel silly leaving this but I hope you have a great day and thanks for what you do bye type shit king that was like what if that was like the kid me calling back and telling me this and yeah, we have to just do our best, you know, and pray.

1:06:13I'm praying that God like helps me be a warrior. You know, I'm praying that God helps me be a warrior, you know, because we might need, we might need people that are, that are, that can be warriors. Now I don't, I'm not going to be like one of the front words, dude. I will be a warrior in the back. You heard me, bro. I'll be a warrior in the back eating chips and talking shit, boy. But still, bro, you still qualified. You can get that warrior payment. You still get that warrior check, that W check, bro. So I'll get that shit. But yeah, thank you guys for being a part of the episode. You guys be good to yourselves.

1:06:53You deserve it. And yeah, just thanks for giving me a place where I can come and share about things and that we can come and we can share about things. and yeah that's all I got Trevin anything you want to say not much from me it was a great one and yeah check out the movie if you guys can busboysmovie.com thanks Trevin and yeah and I was thinking this spring that's the thing man you know like a spring is a time for a new story you know so and I don't even know if I can stick with this some of these behaviors that are making me feel different I don't know even know if I can so I'm scared even to really talk about it to be honest with you but I don't know so many times I've been in spaces and I've been afraid to say that I feel like there's a possibility for something new for me I've been afraid to really say that and then I end up in the same spot so I think I'm at least just trying something different today and if that's you know if at the very least that's all that is and um then I'm trying something different trying something new um you guys be good to yourselves baby you deserve it praise God, baby.

1:08:00I'm upstairs.

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