E552 Vigilante Christmas

30:18All right, what else do we have here? Oh, people sent in some Cat Williams's right here, and people are finding them everywhere. And that's beautiful. Let's see what they sent in for us. Because, you know, I got my K-dub out already. I got him in the living room. That's my little angel. Oh, they put this one right near the Barbies. This Cat Williams is trying to meet a white girl. Look at this one. A Cat Williams somebody put. Gang, baby, that's one. And then, whoa, whoa. This one off that scissor, baby. This one has been sipping, boy. Wow. This one definitely on the clock hiding at work. I've seen this one before.

31:01Dang. This one off that Henny, baby. Damn, boy. Let's see one right here. Oh, this one hiding, too. I've seen this one at work at lunch, hiding out in between a couple boxes or whatever. And this one got a little eight ball on him, too. What is that eight ball? No, what is that thing called, Trevin? Snow globe? snow globe thank you but yeah and then this one right here sketch sent me this one there's one and that's cat williams and uh that's cat williams and cam newton hanging out right there we caught them on the edge of the store over there by uh the appliance area air conditioning hvac all that so they they over there mingling or whatever We're talking shop.

31:55Okay, what else we got? We got some more art. TikTok is on the verge of getting banned. The Supreme Court will hear arguments over the law that could ban TikTok in the U.S. if it's not sold. Who is the owner of TikTok? I want to see if he would come on here. I think it's Chow Shane or something. I think it's Chow Shane. Chow Zichu? Oh, shit.

32:27yes shalls eat you shalls eat you yeah we got to get him in here because i want to know what the truth is and i would like to say to you shalls eat you if you're willing to come on maybe we would love to have you in here just to learn a little bit about it right here the supreme court said we'll hear arguments next month over the constitutionality of the federal law that could ban tiktok in the united states if its chinese parent company doesn't sell it the law enacted in april said a january 19th deadline for tiktok to be sold or else face a ban in the united states the popular social media platform has more than 170 million users in the u.s the high court will also hear arguments from content creators who rely on the platform for income and some tiktok users president-elect donald trump who once supported a ban but then pledged during the campaign to save tiktok has said his administration would take a look at the situation.

33:20Trump met with TikTok CEO Xiaozi Chu on Friday. The case pits free speech rights against the government's stated aims of protecting national security. The government ain't protecting national security. I think at this point we can all recognize they don't really have our security in their sights. You know what I'm saying? They'll let anybody, they don't want somebody getting your information off TikTok, but they'll let somebody just come across the willy nilly come into the country. Willy nilly. And I say that only because we've met with border patrol agents and we've, that's the truth. There's no, you can sugarcoat it any way you want.

34:07So I don't believe that. I believe that they don't want people sharing the truth about the genocide in Palestine and that's why that they're doing it. I believe that that's what it is. And TikTok is one of those places where people can still do that. And they want to own it. They want to own it, dude. Suppressing. Yes, suppressing. Thank you so much. Yes, and I think, yeah. I mean, and people say, thank you. And people say like, well, we don't want China to have our information. All these, they all have our, what are they? I don't understand sometimes what that means. You know, like, what do you have my information?

34:52I have like six pieces of information. There's no way you don't have them. I've put them into some of the probably shadiest sites on the web. You got them. You know, I don't even, people have our information. What do you, I'm scared they're going to get my DoorDash order. They've got, they have our information. so then it's just what don't they want us to see right what don't they want us to see because if they can control what they what we see they'll control what we know or what we believe maybe i don't know do i sound crazy i don't know doesn't matter while both are in the and there is a and there's a difference between the tiktok in China and the TikTok in USA.

35:40While both, it says right here, while both are owned by the same company, ByteDance, TikTok in China, called Douyin, Douyin, D-O-U-Y-I-N, Douyin, is significantly different from the version available in America, with a much stricter focus on child-friendly content, including educational videos and stricter time limits due to stricter Chinese government regulations regarding online content for minors, whereas the American version is considered more open and has a wider variety of content with less restrictions on viewing time

36:14it's more open as a wider variety so i understand like they want to keep like the chinese government probably keeps theirs more informative and then you know america it's just we like the fat we like the funny you know just like we don't want to learn as much it's not as much of our nature a lot of us you know we're more tempted by the other stuff and so that's what we kind of consume and enjoy but that seems like a crazy but I just don't buy the content I just don't buy that they're getting going to get our information what are you going to get my shoe size what are you going to get my address in college or something you know what are you going to get what vitamins what are you going to get that's what it's like you know we don't they're going to get our information?

37:02I can't think of anything that I haven't already put into a computer probably. So I think they have our information. But what do I know, dude? I don't fucking know, dude. I'll smoke a bag of my own in nuts, homie. I don't give a shit, boy. I will eat the fucking shingles off your house. Yeah, I will. All right. What else do we have? We got some calls that came in. Any more news? Oh, Columbus Funeral Home, the first to operate in America with a liquor license. Columbus, Ohio, a north side funeral home, could soon serve mourners in a new way. Alcohol. Wow. Welcome to Ireland. That's what we're talking about.

37:44Funerals. Evergreen Funeral Cremation and Reception is set to open next year. They apply for a liquor license and could soon be serving people during services. That's nice. The mission is to make the process of a very difficult time a little easier. My role in this position is to be kind of a party planner for the dead. That's what Hunter Triplett told WSYX. Triplett wants to shed the business's reputation of being dark and morbid by offering manageable prices and the option for mourners to raise a toast to a lost loved one with a bar. That's fair. Interesting. We will be serving alcohol when people are on the premises and remain on the premises.

38:26Yeah, because imagine that somebody leaves a funeral, car accident, deceased. So these people are kind of, I don't know what that's called, double dipping or whatever. It seems like it. So, but hey, that's the kind of America we should, you know. But we got to ban TikTok because it's getting your information.

38:52What else? Oh, New York considering special hotline just for CEOs to report alleged threats to their safety after the Brian Thompson killing. For those of you who do not know it, Brian Thompson was the matriarch or whatever. Brian Thompson, that's not the right word. He was the CEO of UnitedHealthcare, I believe it's called. UnitedHealthcare. He was gunned down in the middle of Manhattan earlier this month.

39:27And so New York Governor Kathy Hockle is considering creating a special hotline just for CEOs to report alleged threats to their safety. A hotline. That sounds like some CEO is going to call a hotline. I think they know now. Like they would all call it. because it feels like they just got, there's no point in the hollering. You got it. The threat to the safety is there. You know, somebody had been popping off. Somebody pulled that Draco out on somebody, you know, because they wouldn't do the, you know, they was wrenching somebody's mother over the medical bills and stuff. You knew it was going to happen, I feel like.

40:12And I feel like this is where we're starting to get in society where you're going to start to see vigilantism. Now, some people can just say it's murder. Some people can say it's vigilantism, you know, and it could be both. That's the thing as well. But you're just going to see, yeah, at a certain point, that's going to happen. You know, you're seeing people take things into their hands because institutions like the government or won't do it. That's what you're starting to see. You're seeing it everywhere. You know, you started to see it during COVID when Dave Portanoi was handed, they were helping out, they were helping out small businesses while the government, while COVID people were, they were shutting them down.

41:04So you started to see private people or regular people taking action to do things that you would think that your government would do, right? And I think at a certain point, you would think that your government would keep you safe from toxic insurance programs, and they aren't. Medical debt is the leading cause of bankruptcy in America. So you think about the stress and all that causes, it's horrible. It's horrible. But meanwhile, we have billions of dollars to give somewhere else. It's just fucking people are sick of things. And then you start to see people take things into their own hands that their government should be doing for them.

41:52So how do you guys feel about vigilantism or, you know, is that a crazy thing to say? I mean, obviously it is murder. It is a crime. So that is no doubt. but sometimes there are crimes that people do because there's no choice. We give that excuse when people rob a Shoney's or whatever, or you rob a taco Vesper or whatever. some guy selling fucking Mexican off of the back of a damn bird scooter or whatever, some fucking lime, some fucking little lime monster, you know, slinging that shit, homie, you know, slinging that shit. But anyway, I'm fucking rambling. I think I'm getting a little bit into the news, but I'm just I'm interested.

42:49What do you guys think about vigilante ism? Do you think this is just murder? Do you think that we're going to see more of that as time goes on. Um, yeah, because at some point if something bends enough, the fucking shit's going to start to get weird. And I kind of, I like weird shit. You know what I'm saying? I like weird shit, bro. I've been involved in some misconnections with the devil, brother. Um, but I, I love how the government thinks a hotline is going to help, bitch. That's the same thing you gave to people that were having problems with the insurance company in the first place. You gave them a call a hotline.

43:33Motherfucker, his mom, your mom's, mom's been on hold with insurance for two hours. Now she got to call another hotline to complain about it. Get fucked. That's what I say, bro. That's what I say. And when people start to realize the truth, bro, Well, shit gets, that's wild. That's what I say, man. Damn, that shit got me agitated. And I'm between insurance companies right now, so I better calm down, dude. And that's the truth. I think my new policy goes in on the first or whatever. So anyway, let's get to some calls, man. Sorry I've been rambling. I know I've been kind of vocal about shit. But maybe I'm not sorry.

44:15I don't give a, I don't know what I'm doing, dude. I don't know. It's been a long year and shit does make me agitated sometimes. I've had three coffees today. You know, I watched a SEC team play football. I'm feeling hyped. We got a video call in right here that came in. As always, the hotline is 985-664-9503. And you can submit videos as well through the website. Here we go. You want potty? And what did you say after that? Gang, gang. Gang, gang. Maybe there's a young kid right there. and if he potties or whatever if he does pissing or does uh booty work they let him say gang gang and that's beautiful praise god good to see these young fellas um right here uh what up theo my name is dallas what's up dallas good to see uh good to hear you brother let's hear more i'm driving home right now what i do for a living is i i set up christmas lights for people.

45:21So some might call me a spreader of joy. You know, I'm a joy spreader. Spread that holiday greeting. Okay, brother. Thank you. Yeah. And putting the lights up. I looked into it. It's a little pricey. I looked into it. It's a little pricey. I'd rather just get home and wish they were up for about a month and then just then it's January or whatever. But I do feel you and I get jealous when I see homes that have them up. And when I if I get a wife next year, or I don't work as much, I'm going to put some up. But onward, man, I'm sorry I'm making this about me, brother. Let's hear more. But what I'm trying to get to is that, you know, I do it all morning, all night long.

46:02Sometimes I'm getting home at 3 in the morning and doing that again at 7 in the morning. So it's long days. Yeah, brother. Well, you can't, you know, if you're trying to change the whole mood of a neighborhood, it's going to take time, man. You know what I'm saying? Romano's macaroni grill wasn't built in a day or whatever they say, man. I don't know what that saying is. Onward. And I feel like I'm giving all the joy, but I don't have the joy being replenished within my temple, my body. So I don't know. What is your advice on how to? I'll tell you how. You got to do a little peep in time and maybe you right there.

46:46You right there, brother. You know what I'm saying? You write the devil just put you on the windowsill, boy. You elf on a shelf of lust, brother. You got an excuse to be on the ladder. You know how hard it is to climb up that ladder with no excuse to be in someone's yard, brother? And you just tell them you're bird watching or something? You're just staring into their fucking window?

47:15Yeah, dude, you're getting paid to peep in time, brother. What are you talking about? Change your attitude. Start lurking and slurping, homie. You know what I'm saying? Get tipped out big, dog. You feel me? Skrrt. How much is that doggy in the window? Get over there and get you some, boy. Oh, with that ladder, boy. Get out there, brother. You know what I'm saying? Slurp, daddy. All right. Let's hear another call that is coming about Christmas. Hi, Theo. It's Destiny from Mississippi. Hey, Stephanie from Mississippi over there. And I'll be going to Natchez, Mississippi, actually, for a night to spend time with some family that I used to live with over there.

48:09My buddy Richard Sharp, his family. And just blessed to get to see them again. Gang, onward. I'm sitting here racking my brain trying to figure out what I should get my eight-year-old son for Christmas. I mean, you were a boy once. You were eight once. So, yeah, I just wanted to know your thoughts about that. Thank you, man. Love you. Bye. Love you, too. Thank you so much for calling. That's a good question. What do you get an eight-year-old boy? Hmm, and he's just a boy probably. I wonder how tall he is. How long is an eight-year-old? Let me look that up really quick. Okay.

48:51How long is an eight-year-old soccer game? What? That's ridiculous. Who's looking up that shit? It says between 47 and 54 inches tall. Shit. How long is that? How long?

49:11How much is that? 50 feet. Sorry, 50 inches is four feet. Okay, so we're looking at four feet tall. Something that's four feet tall. what do you get it fuck that's a damn wiener dog it's you know that you got living with you um yeah an eight-year-old you know what i think there was some things my mom would get us that were fun things but then she would get us things that were like um kind of creative like thinking things as well you know and i really liked that like we would get like puzzles or um different type of stuff, clay. One year, we didn't have any money. My mom got us a couple, she got us everybody these two liter sodas, these big old big dog.

49:56You remember them bitches? When they first came out with them bitches. And one year, they came out with a damn three liter soda. Bring that bitch up. God dang, boy! Bro, you rolled into my neighborhood with a fucking three liter soda, bro? We ride here.

50:16you don't want it anyway we're right here we ready bro that bitch was a gang banger so that you know that's the kind of shit i get that little bastard a three liter soda baby shake that bitch up but i think also some jewelry get him something man i'm a i'm a ice my family out probably with some stuff from Kohl's or maybe some backwoods shirts or whatever, you know, different shit. What is it called? Full body fits. Maybe some backwoods fits or something. So yeah, I think, but that an eight year old, I like something though that he has to think or something you can also maybe do with him. There's got to be like a fun, like a good game or something or a shovel too or a treasure map get him like a something maybe hide something for him and get him that treasure uh get him a treasure a shovel treasure getter because yeah then you have him dig up something and maybe it's nothing right but oh well that's life huh that's life shorty better to learn it now.

51:40Work hard, bro. You ain't getting shit. But no, I think also a big hug, maybe take him to a nice movie. Ooh, what about this? What if you get him like a gift card to a movie theater and then he gets to pick out some movies he wants to go see? So maybe that could be something where you get to read the movies to him and be like, well, these are the movies they have for your age. And then he gets to pick one and choose it. And then it's him making a choice and feeling like he has a choice in if you guys get to spend time together or not. I think that would have been something that I probably would have enjoyed, you know.

52:18You know, my mom took me to Wendy's once when we were kids, and I remember that. And that's nice. That was something nice as well. Destiny is that lady's name. And yeah, and just Merry Christmas to you and your son. I'm glad you guys get to do some fun stuff together. What's something else? I think something like that is nice where he gets a say-so in it and then it's a choice he made. So that kind of builds up his ability to think and ask like, okay, well, what are the choices, right? Maybe. What do I know? Eight-year-old kid might not – he might want to just sip trank or whatever and sit in a fucking sedan in the parking lot.

53:00I have no idea what kids are doing now. um yeah we got a call that came in right here as always the hotline 985-664-9503 what's up there this is Wells from South Carolina I had a question for you I was just wondering me and my buddies went to a casino up here at Kings Mountain one of the Native American casinos you guys went to a Native American casino okay thank you I was just astounded by the amount of Asians here not to be racist or anything but like It's not racist to see Asians, brother. Let me tell you that. It's not racist to see Asians. You see Asians, what are you going to do? Not see them or whatever?

53:40Pretend you're going to rip your eyes out of your head? No, it's okay to see Asians, brother. Let's see more. Sorry, let's hear more. The amount of Asians that were at this casino were just insane, dude. I mean, you know, it was pretty cool. but have you ever experienced that Asians are prolific gamblers? Yeah, I've seen a lot of that, man. Haidala! The one guy was yelling, I remember. There was a it was a basketball or something, I remember walking through a casino one time and they had an Asian fellow over there. Haidala! Haidala! He kept yelling. Haidala! And yeah, they love it. Asians like that risk.

54:25They like the fucking risk, man. because I think Asians, they just, they like the, they like the risk, they like the smoke. They like the smoke and they like the risk, you know. Hey, what's up, you know. Hey, I'm Asian. So, yeah, dude, they fucking, yeah, Asians, bro. Hey, what are you doing, huh? I'm gambling. Hey. You know. So yeah, Asians love that shit, bro. Hey, bro, put four Asians in a box. What do you got? People that gamble. Praise God, baby.

55:14Here we go. We got a call that came in right here. Onward. Hey, Theovan. My name is Miles. I have a brother. Hey, Miles, and thank you for calling, and I'm glad that you have a brother, man. Let's hear some more. That X really gay. How do I ask him if he's gay without pissing him off? Thank you, bro. Well, I think you could do it in a gift way. You know? You could do it in a gift way. Like a note or something. You put a note in a package, a little note, and you write it, draw it, or whatever. And it says, like, are you? and then it just has like two guys hugging or whatever, you know. But then he's just going to think that you're just asking if he's in the Navy or whatever.

56:05So you got to, I'm trying to think of how do you do it.

56:11I think you just got to tickle him or not until he tells you if he's gay or not. That's what my uncle would do. you just because of gay you know because that's how you even get gay somebody just tickles you so damn much your whole spirit just kind of fucking just spoils into just wanting to meet some guys somewhere so I think you gotta figure it out brother I don't know dude why would you even call and ask me that I don't know I mean I appreciate you calling sorry I shouldn't say that I appreciate you calling man you know and I'm sorry you're dealing with that but I'm glad you care. I remember, I thought my brother would try to make love to me when we were children, you know that, and I'd be scared, and so at night, I remember, I had me a little bag, a little sack of jingle bells, you know, a couple J-bells, and I'd lay down at night, and I'd balance some J-bells on my body, and so if he tried to come get me, it would, you know,

57:12you could set off the alarm, you know, so what else um oh what do I want for Christmas I am getting a book that I know I asked for I got a couple vitamins I'm getting this mic arm maybe fixed um what else I'm trying to maybe take a little trip to the beach or something but I don't know yet uh and And yeah, I'm going to spend Christmas in Louisiana. So I'm excited about that in Baton Rouge and Covington, Mandeville, New Orleans, just around the hood. So grateful for that to see some of my friends and family. So those are things that are going on with me. Let me play a call right here. Hey, what's up, Theo?

58:09I'm a huge fan. I listen to your podcasts at work all the time. Thank you, brother. Thank you for checking it out. And yeah, I feel fortunate that we get to keep doing this. My question is, I was in the military for five years and I was in Japan and I had a fiance of five years. And when I came home, I found out she cheated on me a year ago. Should I give her another chance since, I mean, I wasn't home all the time. I'd come home once a week every year or should I just move on? Thanks gang gang. You know, I think that's a great question. I think you got to look at the reality of it. If you're home once a week for a year, that's tough.

58:46Now, she broke her word. Some people are young, and at certain times, they just, their word isn't really as strong because they are still putting their word together. And I'm not justifying everybody's behavior, everybody's behavior. I'm not justifying my own behavior even. But there's definitely a different, you know, you're still, you're learning some things. And people say, well, you're learning in your 20s. Yeah, you are. Yeah, you're learning how to be in a long distance, all that stuff. You're figuring it out. Sometimes you're afraid to hurt somebody's feelings, and that's why you don't tell them, even though it's selfish because it hurts them in a longer way.

59:24But you don't know that. You're figuring it out sometimes.

59:31So I think it's possible. I've had friends that have forgiven the loved one or significant other for sexual indiscrepancies and then they packaged it up. And now you can hear them, you know, you'll invite, I won't even invite them over because they'll be in there thumping, brother. They'll be in there just slurping. So I think that's part of it. But yeah, I think, and look, you can always try it and see how it goes. but the weird thing and i've done this where you forgive somebody but then you keep bringing that shit up that isn't good it feels good but it's not cool so that's the thing you can't do if you forgive you have to forgive man you have to forgive because otherwise you're just letting somebody hold you're just you're basically holding a card you're saying i'm going to hold this card that i can use whenever i want and that's even that's worse than choosing to forgive or not to forgive you know that's you then saying I want this power I want this power to uh control how the situation goes constantly um and I'll notice that in my own life over certain times sometimes I'll I want to keep a level of communication I want to keep a little enough distance where I can kind of

1:00:53like if I think somebody might be like have an issue or might be upset about instead of bringing it up and talking and getting it out I'd rather almost sometimes this is not the best part of me that wants to do this but there's a part of me sometimes that would it almost rather let them be unsure you know because it let them be unsure if our relationship is okay because it gives me some sort of power you know um it gives me some sort of control perceived control in my own head and um and that's a sick part of me that operates that way and it's not always or anything and it's definitely been more in the past but i have noticed that behavior in myself at times if i'm not doing well or not taking care of myself um i'd rather keep things on thin ice because because I'm used to that's where I do well I'm okay on thin ice how you gonna be out here you know it's that kind of shit so but holding a grudge yeah holding a grudge type shit but yeah man I wish you the best luck I think it's nice of you to call and ask about it man and also we all figure things out as we go so don't be too hard on yourself either you know um

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1:08:23stringing up these lines

1:08:28anyway uh onward thank you um been going through a little bit of a rough patch lost my job lost my house um about a year after getting a divorce okay rough patch lost your job and your home man i'm sorry to hear that and it's been about a year since your divorce um so i'm fighting for my kid right now. Things just ain't getting easier, man. You're in a court battle for your child, you're saying, and things aren't getting easier. My rope's in. I just need to figure out how to be a person again. Been through rehab three times. Last time, things seem to be sticking pretty good, so there's that. But, man, why does it seem like everybody gets to be happy but me?

1:09:15I'm just at a loss with it, man. I've worked hard my whole life. Keep going and going. Everything just keeps slipping and slipping. And I just, I don't know what to do anymore, man. Things are just getting way out of control for what I can handle. Amen, brother. I appreciate you reaching out and just saying, hey, seeing what's going on. Yeah, dude, I've definitely, you know, God. I've felt down in the dumps. I think everybody has at some point. You know, and yeah, when the chips keep falling the other way, you know. When the Asian guy keeps winning all the gambling stuff. Full house. Korea.

1:10:09Yeah, man. I, you know, I'll tell you a couple things, man. And this is that I've had it noticed in myself. So there was times. There was times when I only noticed the rough shit in my life. I only noticed it. I'm not saying this happened to you. But that self-pity became my alcohol. Anytime I needed this, I'd feel sorry for myself. Well, let me open up another can if I feel sorry for myself. I'm not saying this is what you're doing at all. this just reminded me of this for myself and i mean that wholeheartedly bro i would just slurp a six pack of self-pity that was my drug this is wrong i can't not you know and once when that hit me i was like oh shit man i'm you know i'm i'm washing myself in bath water i'm getting i'm doing the thing i'm supposed to do to take care of myself i'm getting this stuff off of me and out of my system but then i'm i got a straw in my own bath water and i was sitting there just slizzurping on my own sadness all the time now i'm not saying that's what you're doing but i noticed from myself that my that self-pity became a drug for me um what else man let me think of something else um

1:11:31you know that's a lot man because a lot of what you're saying has real emotional attachment to it. You're trying to get your kids out of your house. That's a lot of upheaval. And I think some of that probably just takes time.

1:11:50But yeah, I'm sorry, man. That's also a lot. That's a lot. And so I think just give yourself some grace to not also put the pressure on yourself to feel great. It's a lot of tough stuff going on. You know, the other day I was upset about something. I wanted to call and just fucking rearrange the tits on somebody. I wanted to switch them bitches, put the FM one on the AM dial and vice versa. I was just pissed at this lady.

1:12:23But instead, I just sat in my car for a little bit. I breathed. That's why God gave me this big note. And he's like, breathe, motherfucker. What are you doing? you out here just fucking just taking chances bitch i told i'm showing you you know do a eight ball of air buddy we'd meet you know g up um and i had me a couple charleston shoes there i found out my corridor and ate them bitches and um oh and then i just went to a meeting and after that after that I even called my brother I said hey man I can't if I call this person right now I'm going to lose my mind he said well wait till later because I was attaching all this other shit to my day I was attaching all this old these feelings and stuff to my day and to that next thing I was bringing a whole trailer full of bullshit and I was going to hitch it to this one moment about the way things had gone down with this woman.

1:13:31It wasn't like a dating. It was a work thing. But it was all me. It was all my shit, you know, that I was bringing extra to what would have just, and then when I finally was chill, later on it was a normal conversation, and it was actually positive. So it could be positive. I don't know what I'm telling you, man. I'm just telling you, I'm just, yeah, man, I'm sorry that you're dealing with that, and it's a tough time of year, and it's the holidays. And, uh, but you're not alone, man. You know, we're only alone when we find ourselves alone. We got to remember to get out there too. Nobody's going to come and just help us be on alone.

1:14:08We have to do it, you know? And they say that old saying, you know, nothing changes if nothing changes, you know? So if I want something to be different, I have to do something different.

1:14:23And I'm not preaching at you. I'm listening. and I'm basically just talking to myself right on. But yeah, man, I love you and keep your head up and next year will be a different year. You know, next year will be a different year. And don't leave before the miracle happens. You know that saying, that's what they say. But Merry Christmas. Thank you for being a supporter of this podcast. Thank you for letting me be a part of your life.

1:14:52I'm gonna make some New Year's resolutions, something nothing too heavy just some things like some goals for the new year you know we want to do more ways to give back and i'm excited about that we're finally putting a foundation together so that's really exciting um and so we're going to be able to find ways to do that and uh what else i think to just learn more from um people that can help us learn you know i want to learn more and get more information and learn more about myself too. You know, and try not to do everything by myself. You know, that's one of my things I struggle with. Sometimes I just want to do it all alone.

1:15:36But the saddest thing I've realized when you do everything alone, after it's done, there's nobody to talk to about it. There's nobody to share with, you know. but anyway, not trying to end on a dour note. Um, Oh yeah. We went out Christmas carol in the other day, you know, um, I'd been wanting to get out and do it. And it was, uh, just some guys from the gym. We put a little squad together and went out there and hit the streets. And, uh, we had a couple of bangers, a couple of songs we, we had to give up in just in the middle of it. Um, there was one church group that was having a dinner. They invited us in for some cookies and, uh, select meets and stuff.

1:16:21And it was good, man. It was, we did a good job. We did a good job out there. We just put some songs together and just walked the streets and just went up to people's doors and knocked. And yeah, people were happy. They had somebody had a dog that saw us as well. And so people and animals were really enjoying it. And one went Alzheimer's, saw us. And then, I don't know if she saw us or not, fucking we was there. But we enjoyed it, man. And anyway, I just want to wish everybody a Merry Christmas. You guys take care of each other. Take care of your loved ones. Sorry if I sound preachy today. I feel really preachy.

1:17:02I don't mean to. I got to go do some work after this, and that's okay. You know, sometimes I struggle with like I'll get up and I'll be like, I have to do that. I have to do this instead of like, you know, I get to do this. People say that all the time, but it's like I really have to take that moment more and try to look at my own perspective. Like this is life. You know, this is life. And you get to do it. And so how do I want to feel about it, right?

1:17:37Yeah, and that's something I got to – how do I want to feel about it? And sometimes I'll still choose. I want to feel pissed about it. I want to feel bad about it. you know and then it's like well why why do I want to feel that way I want to feel bad about it I want to feel pissed about it

1:17:57because then it's really just me advertising I want you to feel how I feel right that's kind of what it is there's something inside of me that I want you to feel you know it's like oh it's not fair that I have to feel bad you should feel it so I'm going to bring that energy out of myself and I think more often than not if I can try to get a little bit more around like well let me find a good part of me let me find a part of me that's hopeful that's grateful that's that fighting chance let me find that part of me inside of me and bring that part to the front of me because that's also a part of me just as the part of me is that wants you to see like the part of me that has pain, there's a part of me that has pride, you know, and that has hope.

1:18:51And that is a part of me too that sometimes I don't summon that part of me enough to the front of myself. And there's no judgment in that. I'm just kind of thinking and realizing it. Like I almost want to bring sometimes a little bit of a victimhood.

1:19:09I don't know if it's a victimhood, But I want somebody to recognize something.

1:19:19But there's also a part of me that's like, I got this. I can do this. I'm okay. I can handle this. I love myself. I love someone. I love someone. So these are my hopes. These are my dreams. Let me walk out into the world with that. let me bring that let that be the mirror that people see when they come up to me and then I'll probably get more reflection out of the world than I would like than when I show up the other way but anyway man I love you guys and just thank you for coming out to the shows this year and being so supportive and yeah and be good to yourselves man you guys deserve it let's go out on one this is also these are all from Epidemic Sounds is where we get our music from you can listen to these bangers in there this is The Christmas Spirit by the Snowy Hill Singers and you guys be good to yourselves what a fun year I think we tried to have you know and I just pray that we can have a good one next year too You know, we got this baby.

1:20:39Praise God, baby gang

1:20:55I hate that shit. Let me get one more That was an antithesis of what I just said

1:21:07Sorry, dude. All right, let's hear this one, guys. Love y 'all. Oh, yeah, baby. Turn them lights off, baby. Turn them on, actually. I got to find my shoes. Yeah.

1:21:25Oh, God, boy.

1:21:30Oh, yeah. Let me put some lotion on your legs, big daddy. I remember this old guy in our neighborhood would let us lotion his legs up, or his son would let him. This man would let us lotion up his dad's legs. His dad had been in the war, I think, or in a fire or something, and he would let us put the lotion on him when we were young.

1:22:01This reminds me of that

1:22:11Alright, that ain't it either Jesus Christ, that's sad Let's see one more that we got here Let's try this one

1:22:23Oh yeah Hey, what's up? Not much, dog I want to go gambling Hey, I gamble I gamble

1:22:45Hawaii Five-O Merry Christmas, everybody. This is the peaceful Christmas waltz by Von Meyer. Von Meyer. No relative of mine.

1:23:15in a special this sounds like somebody kind of dancing their way up to heaven just on the different stairs and that may be my buddy Donnie Ader big like to say peace and blessings to my buddy Donnie Ader. He's headed to heaven. And he sold big rig truck and tractor supplies over there. On the Louisiana border, baby. God bless you, brother.

1:24:03Merry Christmas, everyone. Gang.