#316. Big Brother Acid Trips & Tourettes - Pete Bennett

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0:43So you can find the right doctor or dentist and book instantly. Taking care of your health just got easier. Download the ZocDoc app today and book that appointment on your to-do list. That's Z-O-C-D-O-C. ZocDoc. When did you first know you had Tourette's? I didn't know I had Tourette's. There was a... Hello. What's your journey been when you went to Big Brother in 2006? How did you get that opportunity? The opportunity happened because of a massive acid trip I had. What was the Big Brother experience like for you, knowing that you were live on air? The whole situation was, got to get on Big Brother.

1:25I got to raise awareness of Tourette's. What was it like for you leaving Big Brother and all of a sudden becoming super famous overnight? Could you deal with that? When you're using care, are you going, the more I use this, the more it's helping my Tourette's? It's a double-edged sword, isn't it? Sometimes I'm so stressed out, so anxiety-ridden. Big Brother became a toxic thing. Do you feel like you're getting close to someone in there? Yeah, Nicky Graham, always so hard to talk about because obviously what happened. Nicky Graham has died at the age of 38. How did you feel at that time?

2:26That's a good way to start, isn't it? Pete, welcome to the show, mate. Hello. You all right? Yeah, very good. Very good. All right, safe, Colin. Right. Fantastic. Nice one for making the effort coming down. Yeah, it's fine. I went to bed early and everything. Did you? No. Yeah. Earlier than usual. Let's roll all the way back. Oh, fuck. When did you first know you had Tourette's? Wait, I didn't know I had Tourette's. I knew it was something wrong, but to be diagnosed at 14 was when I knew I had Tourette's. I didn't even know what Tourette's was. but I knew something was wrong, you know what I mean?

2:59I was always twitching since I was five, I think. Yeah. You know, sniffing and shaking my head and stuff like that and I had this weird breathing thing and sometimes it gets me, sometimes it still comes. When I was a kid, I had these really bad episodes of not being able to breathe, but I was sort of like a bear hugging me and my mum being hugged by a bear and I called it the clamps or something. I made up a word for it, the clamps, I got the clamps again and I was just going, man, she just put me in the bath. try and calm me down. But when I was... When I was... What are you laughing at? No, it's fine.

3:35I don't mind. No, I like it. Honestly, I was joking. You can laugh. I like people laughing at me. I mean, I think it helps me feel better. I love it. I laugh with you. It is funny. I mean, I know some people don't think it's funny, but it's not funny, but that's how I accepted it. It was people laughing. So what was it like at school for you then? when um um yeah it was that it was shit no no it was it was wank actually see sometimes it's perfectly timed um but yeah um what was it oh yeah i was bullied for it because obviously i didn't know what was going on and yeah you have to fit in you have to fit in with um the school bullies yeah because i wasn't the popular kid let's put it that way you know i was a nut job and everyone would pick on me.

4:23But I was like really out there, a bit of a clown in schools and I still am a bit, you know what I mean? But yeah, it's just the way I am. When did you first, now you know when you got Tourette's. Wink! How did I, sorry. How would you explain Tourette's? Well, before I had it. Or afterwards? Afterwards. No, after, obviously I explained Tourette's afterwards because I went, well, after I got diagnosed, oh, actually, I got put in a special school. So, yeah, I got taken out of normal school because basically a bully helped me get diagnosed. I was in Thomas Talley School and I was sitting in class and this geezer was sitting next to me like, what are you doing, man?

5:06You know what I'm saying? And I was like, I'm just a bit ill. I didn't know how to explain what my twitches were. And he went, what, your mum puts you in school? Like, ill, is it? Is it? Come here. And he just got me a headlock and he got a pencil and he shoved it up my nose. and the rubber came off. So I pulled it out. I was like, oh, cheers, mate. Anyway, the rubber was stuck up there. I went home and my mum got bullied again and a pencil got put up my nose and the rubber came out. So, yeah, she took me to hospital because she was really worried I was going to choke on it in my sleep. So, cunt!

5:36I went to the hospital and, you know what I mean? I went to the, oh, he was there, he was sitting there and, yeah, I was still, I was doing all the twitching while he was looking up my nose. The rubber weren't there. so the doctor said the rub was gone but he's got Tourette's and that was it Bosh so thank you school bully for helping me get diagnosed they've got their perks some of them you know what I mean so he actually helped me so it was really good so that was really so it was great so that was it after that I was taken out of normal school because there was bullies everywhere and no yeah and I got put in a school with yeah it was special school so yeah I got picked up by a blue bus.

6:19What age were you when you went to special school? It was about 15. Oh, was it? Wait, wait. All right. I got diagnosed for 14. And then I was put in hospital because my Tourette's got full blown then. When I was 14, I got diagnosed. All full blown came out. I had the worst Tourette's ever reported in Europe. Because I went to Sir Mary Robertson. Her name was Professor Mary Robertson. Yeah. Cut. She was a... I'm not going to say it there. she was a nice lady a nice lady but she helped me no she was the professor we went to Tourette's meetings and all these everyone in there was fine giving it large portions to twitch her nut off and then you know it's like a Tourette's Mexican wave when one starts everyone goes it was crazy so yeah it was good fun no it wasn't really fun but it was it was wow so after after I got diagnosed with the worst Tourette's in Europe because I had 50 Twitches out of 55 cunt known Twitches known Twitches so So I'm 55, no, 50 out of 55 on Twitches.

7:19And there I was. So I was like, yeah, I'm the best ever. No, not really. But yeah, so I was, but then I got taken out of school because obviously it was too much for me to be in school because all the kids were, you know, they were all there just, I just didn't want to be picked on anymore. And yeah, I got put in, oh, first of all, I got put in a, cunt, hey, put in a, put in a school prison centre. It was for kids who were juvenile delinquents and teenage mums. I was put in there for a bit just to get out of normal school. And then after that, went to Parkwood Hall School. And every single person there had something like a mad syndrome.

8:01Did you feel more comfortable in your second school? I felt more comfortable in Parkwood Hall than a normal school. And how long were you in that school for? A couple of years, maybe, yeah. I was 16 to 17 I think maybe like that Just before you were diagnosed with Tourette's Yeah Were you at school shouting out All the names you're shouting out And our swear words No I was I used to get in trouble for Just being quite Just you know In class I get I seem to get in trouble quite a lot for some reason Wakeers And they used to They used to Yeah Kick me out of the class a lot And tell me off And stuff Because I was apparently a disruptive kid, but I wasn't.

8:43I was actually a really good boy. I was really good at my history and all that, and I was really good at my lessons and art especially. Did you ever play sport? No, I was always put in goal. Because I was crap at football. And obviously, I'd always be picked last. Picked last, you know. Wack you in goal. Yeah, I was in goal. I was the best goalie ever. I was like 12-0, bruv. You know what I mean? Because I was so shit at football. You know what I mean? Because I hated football anyway. I fucking hate it. Sorry, I don't like football, but I was actually really good in goal. I was always like really sharp reflexes and I used to save 12-0.

9:19I was like, yes, that was the only way I became popular in school was by being in goal. You know what I'm saying? Because, yeah, fucking hell. But that was... When you... Hello. Carry on. When you finished school, were you 18 and what did you decide to do then? Basically, Parkwood Hall School happened there and I was A-level A-levels right no not A-levels was it A-levels hang on a minute you got yeah A-level art in it because I was better than the art teacher in Parkwood Hall School right because I was a really good artist so they put me in Hextable School which was just for A-level and that was around the corner and I did A-level art there and they were right there actually they were pretty cool do you find your own you go I'm really creative I want to do art I want to get into music yeah I was already into music and art But yeah, that's true actually, because I started doing music since I was eight years old.

10:12My mum met a sound engineer called Dave, and then he's taught me how to use Cubase and stuff since I was eight years old. And that was one of the only things that sort of calmed my Tourette's down was making music. Yeah. So that was really good. So I was always doing music in the background, making tunes, you know what I mean, and I still do now. Today, I still carry on my able to making Hard House now. But anyway, so... Is that what you're into, Hard House? Yeah, I'm into Hard House. I used to go raving for years in Hon Hard House. And I like a bit of Psy Trance too. And I like techno and, you know, rave.

10:43I'm a bit of a rave. But I'm also into punk music because I make punk as well. I've got a band called Love Dogs and that. But, yeah, so I do a punk band called Love Dogs. And we released a track called Snail Killer recently, which was about accidentally killing snails. It's a really silly band, obviously. Have you got the lyrics to the Snail Killer? Yeah, yeah, yeah. Go on. I was walking at night, raining in the park. It was night time, so of course it was dark. I was thinking about what I'd have tomorrow for lunch. Then under my foot I heard a nasty crunch. I'm a snail killer. Nothing makes me iller when my feet hit the ground and I hear the crunchy sound.

11:18I'm a snail killer. Nothing makes me iller! Whoa! And then, yeah, so it's all about different ways of killing snails. One is, the next bit goes, I went with my girlfriend on a trip to France Couldn't read the menu so I took a chance Picked one at random, it was escargot When I saw my dinner I was ready to blow I'm a snail killer, nothing makes me iller When my feet hit the ground and I hear the crunchy sound I'm a snail killer, nothing makes me iller! Whoa! Follow the trail cause I kill snails Put me in jail, don't release me on bail I kill snails, put me in jail, don't release me on bail Cause my mind's so free Anyway Do you want to hear the last verse?

12:07Go on then Mowing the lawn on a sunny day Suicide snail gets in my way Shell blows up all over the place Shit I've got snails on my face I'm a snail killer Nothing makes me iller When my feet hit the ground And I hear the crunchy sound I'm a snail killer Nothing makes me iller Yeah Anyway apart from all that Wait cause I do Hard House as well what DJ? yeah I'm known as a DJ at the moment well I've written an album and yeah the album's yeah really because basically my drummer was too off his nut to play anymore God bless you Freddie but he set the drum kit on fire in the Concord too at the last final gig and I was like I got in so much trouble blow that fire out now I was like shit man it wasn't me I didn't even know I was going to do it I mean I got in so much shit and I was just like I can't have Freddie in the band anymore.

13:01But yeah, and yeah, so it kind of, the band has just stopped. So I'm making Hard House now. So who was in the band? Were you the first singer? Yeah, I make all the music, I make all the songs. My mate Gav, who's my guitarist, he helps me, you know, recall, so he plays all the, you know, we've caused it all, and so we've got demos there, and we're finishing, we've finished Nail Killer, next track's going to be superhero. So, yeah. So we worked together. I write songs and he helped and I arranged them and he arranged them too. So who was in the band? Me. You as lead singer. Basically. Who was on the drums?

13:42Wankers! Freddie. Well, he's not. And how did Freddie set a light to the drums? Well, basically, what he did, right, he was there with the Congo 2 and he's supposed to do a drum solo. It's like we do a song called Werewolf, Werewolf, right? And then, you know, at the end of the gigs we go, and now we have, welcome to the stage, it's Gavin, he does his guitar solo, and Miguel does his bass, and then we've got Freddie, and he goes, he's supposed to go, but instead he was like, and he got his fucking lighter fluid, and fucking set it on fire, and then he just done this really poxy fucking drum solo, and while the thing was on fire, and then through the tannoy, the Concord 2 was like, blow that fucking fire out now, I was like, shit.

14:27And then, because we could have set the whole place light. Anyway, I got a massive fucking complaint letter in my email. I was saying, we're very, very not impressed. I was like, yeah. And cool too, Brighton. Yeah, yeah, it's great. Is that where you're based, Brighton? Yeah, Brighton. Yeah, in Brighton. Cut! Have you been in Brighton for many years? Yeah, since 2000 or something. So I've been there 25 years. So I'm originally from Peckham. We lived in Pupstead. Yeah, I'm Peckham boy, innit? yeah Peckham's a tough place to be brought up yeah I know that's what I mean I was brought up in Peckham and I had Tourette's and it was like you know that must have been that must have been doubly hard to you at the time yeah it was hard yeah it was hard you know what I'm saying hard did any of them did any of the lads take to you warm to you um no only the geeks and weirdos you know that's the people you know just the yeah you know what I mean like weird people like me give me an example when you were there in Peckham some sort of bullying that you'd get because well it was quite racist back then actually I mean I'm not it was in the 80s and that so I remember yeah I don't want to go into all that sort of thing but you know I was in a one memory that sticks into mind was me at the adventure playground and I was on the big swing and then all the you know everyone jumps on the swing and they swing and it's called rounders I think and then all the black kids jumped on my head.

15:55So one, two, three, four. And it was like four on my head and I just fell on the floor and I remember my mum going, Oi, stop it. What are you doing? Get off my wife. You broke my son's neck. And then this one girl who was black said, Yeah, you're just having a go at them because we're black. And then everyone just started on us. And it was this big like, and I was like, that wasn't what happened. You know, it's like, why turn it into a racial thing when it wasn't? It was just, you know, she was just protecting me I could have got my head broken. And then it turned into a race war and it was horrible.

16:27So back in the 80s. Back in the 80s there. And when did you decide to move? Was your mum saying, come on, we've got to get our pecs? No, my mum met a bloke called Dave. And he was the one who was in drag when they met. He was a drag artist? No, he was just dressed up as a bird at a pub when they met. And she went, you've got true colours, don't you, night love? And he went, yeah, don't tell anyone. And that was it. And I didn't have a dad at that point. Mum and dad had split up. proper years ago. And he wrote music. My mum played loads of... My mum was like a massive session violinist in the 80s in the Communards and that and soft.

17:01She was in the Communards? Yeah, man. She was in the Communards. Yeah, I was brought up with Jimmy Somerville and all that lot. You know what I mean? Hey, wakers! So that's basically how, you know, musicians got together and they made loads of tunes, but they stayed at my house. But what was it? And then they moved out of Peckham because, yeah, I think he lived in Plumstead and then my mum moved in with him somewhere in Abbey Wood. So I moved to Abbey Wood and went to school there specials not special no no latter special schools I'm actually in a normal school now or was it no no hang on a minute I'm getting confused no I was no that was before I got diagnosed so yeah it was just yeah St.

17:35Paul's have you ever been related to like Keith from the Prodigy yeah yeah everyone says that man okay here's a good story this is crazy yeah glad you brought that up yeah cunt basically wankers right right when he died right this is really weird because I love I love Keith yeah absolutely it all started like this right I had a dream before going to the Prodigy gig in Brighton. Keith Flint came over to my house and he locked the door in Abbey Wood and opened the door and Keith Flint was there. Oh, I say, if we say Keith, and he went, yeah, I'm here for dinner. I was like, oh, yeah, wicked. I just made a roast dinner.

18:12And so, yeah, come in. Anyway, we sat down and had a roast dinner together in this dream. And I was like, wow, I woke up going, wow, that was a cool dream. I just had Keith Flint ready for dinner. No, like, a wicked dream. In the very next week, cunt, I went to the Brighton Doan, and, hee hee, cunt, there was a, there was a, wankers, there was a backstage, right, and I was there with the, what are they called again, the bouncer, right, the bouncer's there, and I knew him, so he let me sneak me in backstage. I was sitting there like, wicked, I'm going to go see him for free. Yeah, brilliant. But because I was backstage, the fucking Keith Lint walks through the door.

18:51I was like, whoa, God, I've got this Keith's here. So he actually walked through the door. So I got up with Keith. Hey, it's Pete. Hey, I had a dream that you came around for dinner last week and now you're here. And he went, and now I'm here. And I went, safe, man. I shook his hand. And there was this cameraman who got shuffling to get a camera together. I was like, can I take a picture of you guys? And then Keith went, nah, sorry, mate. I've got to do a gig. Yeah, so he just fucked off. And I was like, oh, shit, man. I just literally missed the opportunity. But it was so cool that the dream happened and then Keith happened in the same week.

19:26And so I've always had this, like, I don't know. He's been one of my inspirations. Apart from Billy Idol, that's Keith Flint. But when he died, mate, that kicked my ass. Because, mate, I love Keith. He was, he made people feel free. I don't know. It was weird. Like, his energy made people, oh, all the shit that's going on in the world. You listen to The Prodigy, you feel like everything's okay. You know, it's like he's got this healing, like, power vibe to get with him. And I loved the way he just, yeah, he was just the mate, the Don. He's the fucking Don. But the thing is, though, when he died, I remember the week.

20:00What year did he? I can't remember, but it was about four years ago, was it? Six years. Can you have a look when Kate from Prodigy died? Yeah, find out. He he cunt. When he died, right, I had lots of people all in the same week coming up to me, grabbing my shoulder and went, I thought you were dead. And I went, what? And there were loads of people like, whoa, what are you saying? Keith, Keith, raised from the dead. I'm like, no, I'm not, I'm Pete, man. I'm not Keith. But like, but, and it still happens now to this day. I used, yeah, people were constantly saying, are you Keith's brother? or, right, it all started as well when I was like, going to these festivals and these, these people, I was in Boomtown or something in the transfer.

20:42Anyway, all these kids come up to me and went, hey, whoa, I thought you were Keith and they're like, no, I'm Pete and they're like, mate, You literally look like Keith. And I was like, oh, wicked. And so he said to his mates at the back, he went, can you do me a favour, right? Go up to my mates and go, I'm a firestarter. Twisted firestarter. I went, yeah, come on then. So he tapped his mates on the shoulder and they went, I want you to meet someone. And they went, I'm a firestarter. And they all went, ah. They all went, fucking hell. And we all pissed. And it was really good fun. Was that Boomtown?

21:20I can't. Yeah, Boomtown. Good festival, that. Yeah, Boomtown. Really good. So that's what happened. So that kind of thing's been carrying on for years. All these people keep coming up to me and going, you should be the next front man. And then it's kind of spun me out a bit. Because it continually happens. What's your journey been? What's your journey been when you went to Big Brother in 2006? How did you get that opportunity? Well, let's have a look then. The opportunity, well, I just... How did it come your way? wankers can I just finish the story about that one more one more little Keith Flint the last wicked thing that happened at the Keith one of the prodigy concerts was that I was going to the toilet having a piss and someone walked in and was like and I had a heart attack because I had the actual Keith Flint top on this time the American flag I went to the audience and now they do tributes they do tributes for Keith now you know it's like when they play firestarter the the lasers come and they do the huge like thing and it's like and it's like it's like massive it's amazing but um they play firestarter um but at that the last prodigy gig i went to they were i was surrounded by some they were i don't know where they're from like on there and soon as firestarter played um these these blokes went oh my god it's chief quick get him up and firestarter started playing and they got me up And suddenly I was crowd surfing around, like, looking like Keith Flint with this.

22:51But it's been spinning my head out for years. Like, am I supposed to be the next front man? But then I realised it's never going to happen. I got a little bit in my head for a bit. I was like, shit, this is my destiny. Maybe I will be the next front man because I can pretty much put it off. But then it's never going to happen. They're never going to replace Keith or any new members of the prodigy because that's the prodigy. And they and whoever's that, there's no new members. you know but maybe if they ever did a biopic because I do acting as well maybe I'll audition for the role if they come knocking on your door what would you say yeah I'll definitely do what for the film if he does a biopic yeah I'll definitely do it because I'll do acting so in films and stuff so I'd love to give Keith a go you know if anyone's out there want to make a film I'm up for it I'll definitely give it a go so anyway but anyway the last one sorry I've got to keep going this is what Liam's mate found me in the crowd and he went, my God, you're Keith.

23:47And I was like, no, it's just me. Hello. And he went, you look just like you. He took a picture, sent it to Liam Howlett. And then Liam Howlett replied saying, who's that geezer? And his mate went, no, he looks just like Keith. And then Liam Howlett, no, that's Pete. That's Pete from Big Brother. And then I was like, yeah, man, Liam Howlett knows who I am. It's sick. And then I met Maxim in the back. And I was like, but I just literally shit my pants because I was so excited. And I met Maxim and I was like, hey, man, it's me. yeah, wicked, hello, can I have a picture? And I swear I must have smelt a shit because he gave me the funniest look.

24:20He's like, what's this shit-smelling Keith ripoff coming up to me asking for a picture? Anyway, let's go for that. When did you first get the opportunity to go into Big Brother? Was it 2006? It was 2005. But 2005, I went for a little audition. But I wasn't very confident with myself then. I kind of thought it would be a good idea, but I went there and I remember not feeling like I was that confident so I know why they didn't put me in then so I had two years off but in those two years it's a long story but basically the opportunity happened because of a massive acid trip I had I'm going to tell you the truth but that was yeah it all started when my friend died on the railway tracks called Jules and me and my wife at the time, my girlfriend, but anyway, yeah.

25:15Who was your girlfriend at the time? Oh, she wasn't my girlfriend then, but we got together after Big Brother, but her name was Cherry, she was a friend of mine, and he died in front of us anyway, we tried to get him off the tracks, and, um, it, um, it, um, yeah, I got electrocuted, and he, you know, he got cooked in front of me, it was pretty hardcore, like, it was part of my life, but it was really, like, fucking ruined my head, um, like, I've had, I had two years of, like, uh, trauma, uh p whatever p t yeah yeah and he said p did he then wait cuz um but yeah um yeah so but like what what happened what happened that night um we got high yeah we got high well i was only about 23 i think um in brighton yeah in brighton london road station and uh he used to uh yeah he used to celebrate the number 23 and um you know i was like all right safe and for some reason every 23rd he had a party and on this particular 23rd year of October we went out in the rain and we were playing in the mud off our nut on acid so yeah anyway long story short we were creeping around being nutters and yeah he basically crept over the railway we were next to a railway anyway we were like creeping like Gollum he ended up creeping onto the railway track and fucking for some reason decided to go over the third rail and that was that and i remember just seeing my mate go and and yeah and i remember that i was yeah we i screamed went over and tried to grab try to grab him off but yeah i got electrocuted like big time and luckily i got pushed off instead of stuck there but yeah since that and i and i I watched him cook for like an hour before the ambulance came and the fire brigade came.

27:04So yeah, that was my first big massive traumatic event. Wakers! But that sucked because I tried to save him and he died. So yeah. So this is the whole beginning of the story of how I got to win Big Brother. because this is like at New Year's Eve, for some reason, it was a side trance party and I ended up basically overdosing on acid back then because I was just fucking well, spilt down my arm sort of thing, you know what I mean? Yeah, and let's just say that I had a spiral to heaven experience and yeah it's a very it's in my book i write all about it's a very long story but the spiral to heaven is like uh i i i i yeah um i had a bad trip because i remembered what happened that in a month before that and i was in a real bad place in the in the uh in in the party and it was really bad i remembered what happened and i was like but then i had a little thing what would jules want me to do and i ended up um going he'd want me to have a amazing life he wouldn't want me to be sad so as As soon as I sort of like connected to that sort of thought, suddenly I sort of, it's like I cracked the meaning of life.

28:22And then the whole fucking party started clapping at me going, yeah, wicked Pete. And I was like, it was like crazy. Like they was like all connected. And then suddenly I just, everything started becoming a spiral, like a fractal spiral, which was like the universe unlocking itself. And everyone just was clapping and the music was. And then like, and next thing, So I started spinning around this party, and I suddenly shook right into the sky. And I looked down, and suddenly I was in a fractal spiral, like Jacob's Ladder, and I was meeting all the friends I've ever met in my life again, in one by one, and making peace with everyone.

28:58And it was like the beautiful... Wait, because... Yeah, it was like... It was a spiral to heaven, let's just say that. What's the name of your book? Pete, My Story. But anyway... Was that done pre or post Big Brother? This is before Big Brother. Okay. So this is what happened before Big Brother, which, anyway, so this is a long story. So I met everyone, made peace with everyone, went all the way up to the spiral, right? And it was just the most beautiful feeling because I was making peace with every soul that I've ever met. Everyone was in perfect, beautiful form, and it was just amazing. I was being warped up to heaven.

29:38Everything was being made peace, and my Tourette's was going. how did you feel at that time oh fucking ecstatic it was like absolutely like because if you can imagine all the shit that we go through in our brains and everything like that and all the all the insecurities all the self-doubt or the hate or self-loathing but also just the whole confusing way of is to be a human being uh because it is it's a mindfuck being a human but this was everything was being put to sleep it was it was making peace of everything it was like unraveling the cosmic like mind of being a human anyway so i met everyone making peace because they were all there for me, going up to heaven.

30:13Everyone was there for my very ending. But I finally, and I'm a dad again, and even Jim Carrey was there, and all the people I love, and Billy Idol, and all that, and Wobbly Bob, and all my best friends. Did you say you were a dad? Oh, yeah, my real dad, because I never really saw him much in my life, but anyway. Are you a dad? No, no, not yet. I don't think so, anyway. Wakers! So, finally get to the stop, and there was someone missing, and I was like, I just didn't know what was going on. I was there, it was all made to peace, but there was something missing, and suddenly I was like, I felt Jules from the guy on the railway track and I was like, I felt his presence.

30:45I was like, no way, it's Jules! And he came out of the clouds and he went, hey! I was like, fuck! So as soon as I saw Jules, he just came out and he grabbed me and he gave me the biggest hug so that before, seeing my mate get killed on the railway track and just fried and then suddenly seeing him there in heaven on the top of the spiral and then we grabbed each other and then suddenly we just started spinning around and the whole fucking thing started getting faster and faster we reached the very pinnacle of the spiral and i heard a big booming voice go there is such a place as heaven when i exploded into pink and blue sparkly souls that and it was this perfect ether of just a cosmic thought which was synchronized with each thought and it was beautifully synchronized and there was complete bliss and harmony and absolutely no no it was just the end of it was just absolute peace there's there was a there's an emotion called love but there's one called heaven which is absolute bliss and yeah wow it's the next but then i was there for i don't know how long was there could have been eternity it could have been but it felt like it was there but then i remember being dragged down do you do you like acid no as a drag no not anymore no man was that the last time yeah i don't do i fuck that no um no i don't i there was one it probably like one more little time i had a little tiny bit years ago yeah uh i might have just been shagging or something anyway could have been having a bit of you know kinky fun or something like that but um but no i don't touch it i don't get that far anymore yeah um that blowing my mind like that is actually i've seen it all i've seen enough i never want to go do i like having my feet on the ground now i don't ever like because if i do anything like that anymore any any any kind of i can't go no i i it's scary because i like i like being on the ground like my feet I like being grounded now I like but anytime I feel like you know I'm going getting lost away I'm like no no no I just like to I like to step back and be fucking like on the case because I'm on the case now like more than ever now I'm like no no because that was just the beginning of the story because he asked me how I won Big Brother but so this is before Big Brother that's how it started yeah so when you went into Big Brother what year was it?

32:552006 2006 okay and did you enjoy that experience? yes because it was all part of the spiral because i came out of heaven yeah when i got i was pulled down i got stuck in um i was in hell for two years because i remember coming out of heaven um waking up in hospital and two pigs oh i can't say that two policemen tourette's it's all deary me um anyway um they were there looking over me and i and i thought satan was going to come and and the first thing I said was like, oh my god, he's going to come get me and I said, where is he, where is he? But I was completely naked, I must have been arrested somewhere along the line because I was spinning around in a field somewhere off my nut so yeah, I mean, wow, I completely lost it so I forgot what happened, for those two years I forgot who I was I was some weirdo, I didn't know who I was then because my nickname was Perfect Pete at the time my mate named me that because, you know, it's my nickname but it caught on, but then I completely forgot who I was when I came out and I was pigtail Pete I cut my hair into silly pigtails and I was a complete nut I didn't know who I was I didn't know how to dance draw anymore I didn't know how to be myself I was complete opposite polar opposite of myself which was pigtail Pete it was a complete nutter and all I wanted to do was get back to heaven so those two years of being completely lost scared and I thought oh my god I've been sent down because I've done something wrong and I was completely mad I used to go up to people and go you were there you were there in heaven do you remember and they were like what but you were there what do you mean you don't remember and i was completely mad lost my mind so i was a an acid casualty for like two years before big brother but let's just put it this short short story is it's a really long story but it's really interesting but um i did a i uh yeah but on a year and a half into that um into that uh me trying to remember myself uh yeah i i got quite heavily into ket and um well yeah and i remember when i did it i remember um uh because it was an antidepressant you know yeah so ketamine yes an antidepressant and what feeling does ketamine it makes well it cheered me up and it stopped my Tourette's oh yeah so it was a very it was very difficult to not do it because when I'm like sober with Tourette's it can really kick my ass and it makes me very um stressed out and very sometimes suicidal I'm not gonna lie it kicks my ass sometimes so yeah I got into that and but the thing is at the same time it made me remember what had happened up there in heaven on the spiral and it made me remember.

35:21When you're using care, are you using it, are you going, the more I use this, the more it's helping my Tourette's? Well, it's a double-edged sword, isn't it? Because self-medicating is something that sometimes I have to do because sometimes I'm so stressed out, so anxiety-ridden because of the Tourette's and the twitches get that bad that I'm riving around in bed, not being able to breathe, twitching, hitting myself and stressed out, sometimes I'm like, fuck it. And, you know, it's my own survival. I don't, you know, but it's a double-edged sword because you don't want to be on Ket. I want to be sober.

35:58I want to be cracking up. But sometimes, you know, like anyone, there's nothing in the doctors that helps Tourette's at all. There's nothing. There's nothing out there. So out of everything that you've seen or tried or tested, you reckon Ket is the nicest one to make you feel far more? Well, it's just, well, for me, because I can't smoke weed either. I don't do anything, you know, because that makes me twitch. Okay. Everything makes me twitch my nut off. But there is a tranquilizer, you know. But so I did, yeah, I did, yeah. I have battled with that for years, you know. But, hey, what can I do?

36:33I'm a human being who's trying to survive with a really weird illness that, like, you know, can take me over sometimes. And when I have been that stressed, yeah, I know I have. If someone didn't know. Can't. If someone didn't know you had Tourette's and you're in a bar or something, have you ever got into trouble? They've not realized you've actually got Tourette's, but you're swearing. No. I mean, yeah, before Big Brother, I get loads of trouble. I was always, um, cunt.

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38:37Meow I'm like, I didn't, mate. It was caught Tourette's. And then, like, whatever. You were just faking it. Yeah, yeah, yeah. And then, you know. That must be hard, right? Oh, yeah, no, it's all right. I had this big black geezer behind me. He was, like, six foot tall. He was like, you stopped on my mate. And I was like, yes, then. What are you going to do now? So they fucked off. That was good. So that was lucky timing. Yeah, thank God for that. Tell me about this. Let's get into Big Brother. Yeah. What was the Big Brother experience like for you, knowing that you were live on air? Well, when I got in there, being live on air, I don't know.

39:09I liked it because the whole situation was got to get on Big Brother because I got to raise awareness of Tourette's. So me being on the telly was lush because I knew that me being on the telly was going to help raise awareness and also stop me getting bullied. So because I was getting bullied before Big Brother and then go on Big Brother, I was going to not be bullied anymore. because you had a lot of love on Big Brother because yeah I got loads of love on Big Brother and you ended up winning yeah I won this is the thing the story of Big Brother is I knew I was going to win because like I said when I was in hell coming out and trying to remember myself I took acid again I went down to hell on another spiral to hell got fucking yeah but I held on because I was going to go to hell because you know go up the spiral to heaven but then I went down to hell but I always had to drag myself out of hell on this other acid trip and then my mate from from a railway track came down in an apparition and he told me I was going to win Big Brother 7 and that's the way to get back to heaven.

40:10So what I'm trying to say is that's how I won Big Brother because I was at this party and I went spiral down came up he came down in an apparition I looked over into the because he told me that was the thing he said look over look over into the at that warehouse over there and it turned into the Big Brother house with fireworks coming out and I was like what? and he went that's how you get back to heaven you're going to win Big Brother 7, go and win. And I was like, okay, cool, okay. So I did it. As soon as I got back home, I went and auditioned for the next Big Brother, which is Big Brother 7, and I had this complete faith that I was going to win because I got told that I was going to win.

40:48So I went in straight away at Wembley, and went, hello, I'm Pete. And they went, oh, yeah, all right, give it a large. I went, no, this is me, I've got Tourette's, and this is the way I am, I'm really confident. and you know so they went okay so they gave me a star and I went straight to the very very last round and yeah I didn't have to do any games cunts I went straight there to the very last and I won straight well how long were you in Big Brother for? three and a half months cunts is that what it was? yeah only three and a half months yeah 14 weeks 14 weeks of yeah was that how long it is?

41:25I'm not very good at maths but yeah 14 weeks how would you explain to the listener what Big Brother's like when you're in it? Big Brother, yeah, it's really weird. Big Brother is like when you're in it, you don't really know. This is my first encounter with like how much your head gets fucked up. Like, I didn't realise that that was so fucked up because halfway through it, you get like, you get a, you get a, what's it called again? Psychiatrist come in and have a little chat with you. What did they say? Well they just They just Sort my brain out They just asked They just said Well you're in a lot of You're having a lot of trouble With the ladies aren't you And I was like Yeah I am Yeah and he kind of just He unraveled my brain And I came out Buzzing and talking again So I didn't realise How much Under a lot of pressure From all the birds Because apparently I was the most Fancy house in the house Fancy house Fancy man in the house At the time But because all that And apparently It was fucking my head up And I stopped talking For a bit And I went to A bit insular But so what I'm saying it's a war a mind war fucking hell a mind what's that word fuck's sake a mind field just shut up again I have no idea what am I saying so how much did you win for winning Big Brother right so anyway I came out of the house realised that the Big Brother I was a spiral so it was like oh my god it was a spiral and I won, it was an actual Spiral logo, so it was all part of the whole thing.

42:59There was a bloke in the thing called Spiral. So I won, because before Big Brother, I said to my mum, Mum, I'm going to go on Big Brother and win you the money. So, because she was working in McDonald's and she went, oh, go on then, Pete. So, yeah, I was, so I knew I was going to win my mum money and get her out of McDonald's because she was looking after me when I was a little boy and I won one pound, one pound and fifty. That was it, one hundred grand. Yeah, 100 grand. And, yeah, and I gave her it when I got out. We went to Camden and I gave her, yeah, I gave her a bank. Did you ask me how much?

43:37Yeah, yeah. So you gave your mum the 100 grand? Yeah, I gave her that. Oh, mate, that's lovely. Well, yeah, I gave her that. How close are you to your mum? Yeah, yeah, close, yeah, pretty close, yeah, yeah. Is she a good lady? Yeah, yeah, she's great, yeah, she's cool. She's very musical. Musical, yeah. Oh, yeah, she plays violin. and she's yeah she's great yeah she does cunt there she is do you want a number I'll give you a new I don't know did you tell me did you have a relationship after Big Brother with someone in Big Brother uh wankers um yeah no well as in as in was it after Big Brother or someone in there did you feel like you were getting close to someone in there yeah Nicky Nicky Graham was um the end of near the end was getting close to Nicky yes it was very hard always so hard to talk about because um you know obviously what happened you know what happened don't you no no well she oh yeah she died of um anorexia not about was it last year or something or something like that or maybe a year before i can't remember but yeah it's all it's so yeah so yeah it was that was that was hard man yeah because how long were you going out before not long because we were we were we were yeah we weren't suited outside we weren't really suited anywhere i think i think We were, we were, we gave it a go on the outside, but yeah, it didn't last long.

44:52It was, you know, yeah. Without Big Brother there saying, Nikki, come to the diary room. Telling her off. Yeah, it was, yeah. She was a wild card and so was I. So it didn't really work. What was it like for you leaving Big Brother and all of a sudden becoming super famous overnight when you left there? Could you deal with that? No, I dealt with being famous because, yeah, for some reason I must have, look, being someone who was very um unpopular in school um someone who's bullied constantly you know since i was a kid wait cuz um and um yeah being just yeah you know i mean imagine yeah you know yeah it must have been yeah you know it's like someone suddenly being very unpopular and then suddenly being super nice and popular yeah that's a lovely feeling for you Well, yeah, I guess like it's like I think when you when you don't get a lot of love when you're a kid, you must you crave it more when you're not when you're older, you become a bit of a love addict, you know, it's and then, yeah.

45:56So when so I guess, yeah, it was nice to feel accepted for one loved and instead of, you know, not bullied. So now people are like, yes, Pete, you're a legend outside instead of, you know, shouting abuse at me and stuff. So it's lush, really. Yes, you do, mate. Well, yeah, I guess I did it for selfish reasons, but also I did it for other people. So the people with Tourette's and other people who didn't feel it's acceptable. Yes, exactly. So I get loads of people saying how much I've helped them and stuff like that. And it's lush because it's like, not only did I help myself, I changed my reality.

46:29I've helped other people with not just Tourette's, but like people with, yeah, Down syndrome. There's people like that. And just, you know, even people just with ADHD, you know, and just nothing like, yeah, but it's this I helped a wide range of neurodiverse people uh feel accepted and yeah and also I've diagnosed quite a lot of people because they didn't know they had Tourette's before I got on the telly so yeah I helped myself helped everyone else helped my mum uh yeah I know it's good so I helped helped a lot of people and great sorted so that's nice I put it on the map it's okay to be different what opportunities have you had after big brother on where you've been in films have you've been on TV?

47:14What else has happened in your world? Well, I started

47:20because Big Brother kind of, there was a bit of a race row in it with the next celebrity Big Brother that came on with Shilpa Shetty and that. Well, all my work dried up so they wouldn't put me on telly. Why? Because I didn't want to go near Big Brother with a barge pole. Oh, you didn't? No, I did. I wanted to go on telly. I was like, yeah, he'll put me on telly. But I wasn't allowed to go on telly. I don't understand why. Why? Because Big Brother became a toxic thing you know it's like yeah what the year after yeah became like oh it was very like oh we can't always spit yeah so uh i ended up um go thinking well i would like to get into acting then you know so yeah i said to my bird at the time um my wife was it yeah um um i'm gonna be in i'm gonna start getting into acting so i said to her i'm gonna be in a zombie film next year and um i'm gonna start there you know it's got to start somewhere and she went all right yeah and then but then next year uh uh uh warren speed he he texted me on twitter and said you're right mate do you want to be in my zombie film and i was like see yes then here it is so i got i did my first ever zombie uh film um and uh it was called uh zombie women of satan 2 you know i mean and And all it was was birds with their tits out, basically, all the way through.

48:41But they were zombies. So, you know what I'm saying? So zombies, yeah. But it was just a start of me just, like, practicing on, you know, sort of low-budget horrors. Because I love horror. I'm really into horror films. Yeah. So I started doing acting. And now I still do films. my last little film I did was with Johnny Vegas and Ross Noble and yeah I was doing a scene with Bez from Happy Mondays so I've worked myself up for years and years doing all these little films, John Williams is one of my mates and I also did he's the director, he does the horror comedies, there's Warren Spee as well and then it's also Velton, I did my own sitcom yeah I made my own sitcom well I edited the sitcom, it's called Green Fingers so if you go on Amazon it's like I'm a gardener with um called Dez and I'm silly I'm quite daft and I do gardening and in Covid we uh um we filmed quite a lot of it didn't yeah we kind of like what's it like working with Bez what's he's amazing Bez is so funny man we got him really well and he was laughing his head off every time we we were doing our scenes like um you know he's off his nut it was fucking great and um so yeah we really like clicked uh he was he was laughing his head off every time i i did a twitch and he and he started like pretending to have Tourette's as well and he was like absolutely loving it and uh yeah check it out there's a there's a clip of us on my instagram and uh tiktok of me and bez having a having a laugh together and um yeah do you like it like could you you've got you've got such a really warm character and when you're meeting someone for new like we've never met before yeah and you've got your Tourette's and I've never heard someone say like and it makes it makes me laugh even though you're trying not to laugh yeah it's funny are you okay with that yeah yeah fine yeah yeah like is it does it find it it warms you to someone if they're having a bit of fun with you look man yeah everyone likes someone who makes them laugh I mean like I mean like everyone you know what I'm saying is like it was the only way since I was a kid that I felt accepted is when people laughed I don't know why but like it's much better than being ridiculed but laughing with you is the best yeah like I found it was the only way that I suddenly started to accept myself was when people laughed so before being like depressed and sad about having Tourette's yeah I remember it's Jim Carrey there he was and I thought we had Tourette's because I didn't have anyone to look up to but he was making silly faces and he was you know making like millions of dollars with his antics and I was very similar to that because I was quite a clown.

51:27I didn't, I was doing daft faces, but, um, but I was also very insecure and, uh, you know, and depressed. So I thought my life was over. When you get diagnosed with Tourette's, you think your life's over. But you were diagnosed with Tourette's at what age? Uh, 14. 14. Yeah, I was very depressed. Let's put it that way. But Jim Carrey, uh, I love that man. And, um, yeah, he's the best. Jim Carrey. If you've seen this, uh, uh, thank you so much for helping me accept my Tourette's. because he did actually make me accept my Tourette's and kind of, in a way, incorporated my Tourette's into my personality.

52:00So I started, you know, clown about a bit more and I became much more funny with it and used it to... I just thought, fuck it, I'm going to be myself and just not worry about what people think because before that, you know, I was a bit of a hermit. I'd stay at home and I was too scared to go into public because, you know, I'd get piss taken out of me and stuff. But since Jim Carrey held me, and then I just thought, fuck it, I'm not going to worry about what I think anymore. So I stepped over the barriers in my head and took myself off the drugs they described me. What drugs were they described in?

52:38I think it was Haldol, Peridol, Ritalin and Prozac. So I was on loads of drugs when I was a kid. So it got to start somewhere. Yeah. But I took myself off of the drugs, got into music But also I thought I'd just not be dosed up like that Because they didn't even work really And they didn't really work for me They just made me zombified Couldn't do any Isn't that mad? Like at that age, you're talking in the 80s Where someone's giving you three types of drugs And you don't know Like if it's working, if it's not working No, it wasn't working So yeah, I remember I just thought I was going to be myself Got off all the doctor's drugs and yeah, this is when I was about 14, I think, or 16.

53:21Yeah, I didn't take them. Yeah, I took myself off them. And I just went for it. I just went, right, I'm going to be me. I'm not going to not twitch. Because those drugs are trying to make you not twitch. But like... Did they slow the twitch down? They didn't do anything. They didn't do anything. They did not stop me twitching. Okay. Yeah, they didn't relax my muscles or anything. It would be interesting to find out what it did, what else it did. If it didn't stop you twitching, what else it did? well haloperidol is I think that's like anti-psychotic Ritalin is I think it's for ADHD people to concentrate more and Prozac is obviously because those drugs give you depressions so yeah so but I remember I started to faint a lot and hear voices so I was like maybe I'll take myself off of these and just crack on how old are you today?

54:07I'm 43 43 wakers what's been your world over the last few years? my world my world a few years oh therapy lots of therapy yeah what sort of therapy I don't know I go to I see a therapist Peter Peter I can't say his second name but his name's Peter too but he's great he's I've been there for nine years now okay once a week is it yeah once a week and what do you go what do you go and talk about oh everything that's in my head that's bothering me because you know yeah I can't obviously probably can't say what I talk about on here. What does bother you?

54:52Right, what bothers me, because about the world today, is that everyone is so, well, I find that we're getting lied to. It's horrible, isn't it? Do you know what I'm saying? Yeah, mate. We're getting lied to, everyone. It's bullshit. That's what I'm saying. And there's a lot of lies, and it's just, yeah. I think we're beautiful divine beings and we're made out of fucking stardust. We're vibrating on a level. We are, we're God. We're not, and this is it. This is so, it's so simple. We are fucking the universe. And it's fucking beautiful, man. We're here and it's just, that's it. You know what I mean?

55:33And then there's all these fucking lies trying to just divide us from the truth and like fear makers are all fucking full of fear and shit and making us just ill. We're ill, man, because of the fucking stupid government. God, seriously. And what's going on in, you know, Palestine right now? I'm sorry, but that's really fucking me up, man. I'm so pissed off about all that. It's just disgusting, man. And lately, that made me more suicidal than anything. I can't live in this world where people are doing that to other people. Have you ever thought about not watching the news? Yeah, I don't. I don't watch the news.

56:10So where do you get your information from? Well, sometimes just scrolling. I'm just scrolling. And then it's other people telling me about it. Are you ever aware that when you're scrolling, that little subconscious might say, stop scrolling. I don't want to be seeing what's going on because it's not good for my mind. Yeah, I do that all the time. I usually avoid all wars and I just get on with it because I know that it's there just to make us feel like shit as well. But this time, this one has definitely got me. It's one that crept through and I couldn't escape this one. It was just too, yeah.

56:39and yeah once that's in my head yeah I'm just so do you find it hard to get something out of your head when it's in your head wait because yes because I obsess I've got OCD I've got you know obviously that comes with Tourette and ADHD but when when a thought yeah and also it's scary you know you think that we're going to be blown up soon and you know this is the end and you know you're like fuck when are the bombs going to come and get us and do you believe there's going to be a World War 3 I think we're probably already in it you know in some weird way but it's probably more of a some sort of spiritual war that's happening and you know what I mean I feel there is some sort of something bubbling there's something spiritual a spiritual war going on and um yeah but there yeah but I don't know we're going to get any any any I don't think we're going to get blown up by the minute but I did think for a while we were going to but it's only a matter of time honestly it really is just a matter of time I think so have you been married before yeah once um wakers yeah after I got it was four weddings it was called it was on a show and we basically cunt flaps like we basically get like four I was in there with fucking cunt flikers mate I've been trying to hold it in for the last half for that one liner ah shit yes that's that's one of the ones that I try not to say but that's I've got three main ones.

58:08I got wankers, wank, and also cunt. But sometimes you get the special, the special, the special one, which I try not to say as much as, because it's the most offensive, but it's the best one. My favourite one to say because it's just so wrong. I love it. But yeah. Anyway, you did ask me a question. When did that start? When I was 16? I was put again. Hold on, hold on, hold on. I didn't ask you anything there. No, when I, you know, you said when did the Tourette's, When did the swearing start? You asked me that. No, no, no. I asked that about an hour ago, I think. But I've got a fact-trap. I think, mate, whatever it is, this is brilliant.

58:43I can't remember what topic we're on then. Punflaps. Punflaps. Yes. Is that your go-to for a banger, that one? So to speak. Yeah, yeah, yeah. No, I probably prefer less going on down there. Married. Oh, yeah, yeah. Speaking of which. Yeah, married. I was married so who did you get married to when Cherry her name was Gemma she was the girl that well you know when I talked about Jules earlier me and her pulled him off was she there yeah it was me and her so we kind of got bonded in a weird way how long have you married through trauma 11 years but we weren't together that long we were together after Big Brother she came and confessed her love to me and I was like yeah but yeah we didn't it didn't last but we still stayed friends How long was it before you proposed?

59:40Well, it was quite quickly. When we got together, I remember I got pissed in the back of a taxi after watching Spamalot, and I had a Kit Kat wrapper. You know, the tin foil thing? Anyway, I stuck it on her finger. When will you marry me? But, yeah, so that was really romantic. But what can you, you know, it's me. But she loved it. How long were you actually married for officially? Sorry, together for, even though you were married for 11? It was a bit of a time. I can't remember, actually. Was it like a couple of years or maybe? Well, no, we were together for a bit. Maybe we were together for, I can't remember.

1:00:18Was it a couple of years or anything? And then I asked her and then... It was really weird because like four weddings asked me if I was getting married. What's four weddings? It's like, cunt, cunt, quake, cunt. it's basically a show where it's like Come Dime With Me but right, instead of like making food you get married so I had Faye from Steps and was it Grant Mitchell's mum from EastEnders, Carol or something maybe, oh god I can't remember, I don't watch EastEnders but and then there was eeeh she was a page free bird but I can't remember her name, what was her name anyway we went to each wedding they had traditional weddings and i had a festival wedding you know um because i was and then the whole place became a sex party at the end it was mad even even even the even the production team was getting caught wait stop that uh i think he got fired but um it was so and they were there they would judge each other's weddings and um yeah um i lost obviously because but you can watch the show if you can ever find four weddings it's out there somewhere it used to get replayed but um i went to their weddings we wrote on their weddings on how you know good it was and how good the food was and even though i don't like traditional weddings i think they're really boring but uh i gave them quite good marks they came to my wedding they rinsed me out they hated everything about it i completely lost even though it was the best wedding ever like everything about that was the best wedding i've ever been at best party you know i had rats as bridesmaids uh my mum was playing the violin there was a massive monster sound system everyone was dressed up, we all bought our own food and everyone was shagging at the end, it was great, you know what I mean so, because yeah except me, actually I was the only person who didn't constipate constipate I was constipated at the end, I couldn't do anything no, we didn't constipate, because our bed was already being used by someone I think it was my mate Twitch, oi you shagging in the bed I was supposed to shagging, but we didn't shagging but maybe later and we shouldn't be saying that no sorry Cherry she don't mind she's cool are you still mates with Cherry today yeah definitely we're still best mates I haven't seen her for a while she's got a nice bloke now with a great big beard yeah safe no it's good we got divorced happily happily divorced we even did a little it was in the papers yeah it was nice we were happy we got divorced actually but sometimes she still calls me hubby just for a laugh and I'm like wifey you know what I mean so we yeah tell me about your music career at the moment Tell me about your house music.

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1:04:01Right, and here we go. So basically, Love Dogs has been on the back burner for a minute. Love Dogs is your band. Yeah, Love Dogs are my band. So we're trying to find maybe a new drummer, you know what I mean, and see what happens with the bassist because he's just got out of rehab. I don't know, he might need a bit of time to sober up. But yeah, he's doing well. He got out, he's all right, had to go hospital for a bit. Anyway, so that's there. Cunt! But while the band was, it's not, you know, yeah, it's not... What about your DJ? I've got to basically, yeah, so now what I'm doing is learning to DJ because I've written an album of hard house music because I used to be a raver, so I started...

1:04:46you know, that's the best. So in this time of me thinking, oh my God, I've got no band. I just started, I wrote this tune, right? Yeah. It goes, you can't stop me now. And yeah, my mate Danny Gilligan, he got sent it. And yeah, next thing you know, he's ringing me up going, Pete, what's this tune? I went, oh, I wrote it. He went, that's sick. What, you make Hard House? Yeah, I love Hard House. It's one of my old favourite, like, you know, rave music. Anyway, and he went, mate, I didn't know you could do this. So I'm like, yeah, I'll do it. I make electronic music. So he said, make some more. So I was like, yeah, okay.

1:05:28And he said, like, what we could do is we could make you an artist. Like, you know, I've got loads of connections in the industry. Mate, Pete Bennett, a DJ, what? This would be sick. So I went, well, okay, yeah, do it. So I just, I've cracked on, I've been super focused on writing a Hard House album for this whole, like, me coming out as a new artist DJ. That's a great idea. Yeah, it's great, imagine that. So we've been trying loads of names. Is there any Hard House DJs you look up to? Well, Tony DeVee, he was like, he's dead now, but he was one of the best ones, wasn't he? yeah he was yeah and I guess I really love well I love trade have you ever heard of trade it's actually a gay yeah a gay night isn't it yeah a gay night yeah what is that oh it's not on anymore I had DJ Fat Tony on oh really on the podcast he was talking about trade yeah yeah yeah I used to go to trade a lot and that's how I started with all the albums they were amazing you know yeah and that these are the that's the kind of sound was trade at term mills yeah term mills That's right.

1:06:40Yeah, yeah. Okay. I used to throw parties in turn. What's years ago? Did you? Oh, wicked. Oh, wicked. Nice one. Where's your, so what's your DJ name? Well, I think, yeah. We came up, we came up with loads of names for hours and hours. In the end, we decided on DJ Donkers. No one's taken it. But then we spoke to Tidy Tracks and they went, what are you changing Pete's name for? Why, why, why? You know, it's really hard to get a name out there. A new name, new DJ. Well, why don't you just, you know, use his name? DJ Pete Bennett DJ Pete Bennett yeah because then people know who I am and then I'll be out there and then I'll be playing all my own tunes yeah and yeah so that's the plan so I'm going up to Tidy Tracks tomorrow are you because apparently I'm getting signed because I wrote these two tracks in France recently and I wrote these two new bangers one's like a Tony DuBois remix if I can't have you I don't want nobody baby and then you know Hard House I did that and one called Make It Naughty anyway sent them to Tidy Tracks which was named Amadeus and they're like whoa come on then let's get Pete up in the studio let's fucking sign him up man let's sign him and they did be DJing and fucking write loads more tunes and get out there and make some money you know so hopefully this is the plan and well I'm not going to say hopefully because hopefully it will happen yes it will happen it will I'm not going to say hopefully because hopefully it's for dreamers this is real this is really going to happen and it's going to so I'm going to go there I'm going to sign I'm going to make some tunes I'm going to get out there I'm going to be a DJ soon so I'll see you on the dance floor you know what I mean amazing yeah I can't wait do you feel comfortable in Beyond the Decks no absolutely not I'll fucking shit myself fucking hell I'm much more better at being a front man yeah but you know this is a new thing so I'm great at being a you know elite singer elite singer punk yeah but yeah I mean because DJing is a new thing for me it's not like something I've always made tunes I've never DJed that much so I'm learning my ass off and I'm going to you know if I put my mind to something I'll get it done you know what I mean does Tourette's or the Twitch get in the way of you Jane at all of my what when you're DJing does it get in the way or anything like that or are you totally comfortable with it it's weird when you're focusing on making something your Tourette's calms down a bit wankers unless you make a mistake then it really triggers it but usually if you're on the case and you're making the tunes and that and yeah when you're hyper focused on something this is one of the cures for Tourette's is doing stuff so yeah yeah or a foot massage you know just saying I'm quite twitchy should I get my foot out anyway so um uh yeah so basically yeah you like yeah so it doesn't get in the way when you're doing stuff but when yeah yeah so but yeah so if you're DJ have you DJ'd in front of a crowd before um no I'm actually practicing in right now.

1:09:36Okay. So, but I've, what I've done is, I've done a load of, yeah, gigs. I've done almost, like, I've been, I've been in rock and roll, psychotic rock and roll bands, punk bands, and I do karaoke, and I've done comedy, but now I'm doing a whole new thing, which is DJ. So, I'm doing a new thing. So, yeah. I reckon you'll nail it, mate. Oh, yeah, I can do it. I reckon you'll nail it. I've done anything, everything. I've one big brother, I'm an actor, I do all this stuff shit, and now I've got, Now I'm trying to do something completely new. And yeah, I can do it. Daddy's got faith in me. I've got a good feeling that you're now.

1:10:08Thank you. Yeah, I know. I've got a good feeling. Yeah. No, I think this is beautiful. Because you know what it comes back to when you're like your mum being a musician. Yeah. You've grown up at music. And all of a sudden you're like, right, let me home in and become a DJ. Pete Bennett, you've got a good name. Yeah, it's right. It's quite punchy. It's punchy. Everyone knows who you are. E.B. And if they don't know who you are, they're going to find out who you are as quick as possible. Yeah. And if you're banging out good tunes and you're good behind the decks and you're a character, you'll have it off.

1:10:36Danny Gilligan, he's a good lad, Dan. He's brilliant. He's the one who's actually inspired me to do this. He's been on my back. I've only set up my arse now. Yeah, he's been on my back the whole way through this, supporting me to do it. Like, come on, Pete, you can do it. And I was like, so he's been egging me on. Well, he's the one who got you on this show. Yeah, he's been great. He's like, mate, dodge, I want to get him on the show. He's become my manager now. I'm a friend to a manager. He really has a great... He's got a good heart on him. Yeah, he's got good heart. And he's well connected.

1:11:04And he's well connected. And he's got... He thinks, you know, he's got a lot of belief in me. So I'm like, safe. That's all I need is someone to believe in me. And he's made me believe in myself. Do you believe in yourself that you'll become... Wakers! ...a really good DJ? Yeah, yeah. And they're living out of it. Oh, yes, absolutely. I've seen the whole thing. I manifest things as well. So when I see something like, you know, when I'm big brother, I super focus on manifesting what I so all the things like I told you when I said I'm going to be in a film next year and then it popped up yeah bang so whatever I want it kind of manifests manifesting is key people don't use it enough no because they don't realise that visualising what because they're full of fear and shit and all that crap that's going on around the world but we're actually creators yeah this has been fascinating really fascinating I really do appreciate you coming on I just want to ask one question is there anything out there anyone with Tourette's, any advice you could give them?

1:12:02Oh, right. Advice for Tourette's. That's hard, isn't it? Because I sometimes don't, well, it's really weird because I'll go deep here, right? Because I always used to be quite positive about Tourette's. Since I've been like 43 now, I have actually become a little bit more suffer-y. I don't know. I got told it would get better. Sometimes nowadays, it's getting worse. so um yeah it's a hard one because like you know sometimes i need someone to tell me everything's gonna be all right you know and uh i don't know no it's but yeah it's hard man but i could all i could say is hang in there man i don't know what to say it's hard because like but if you want me to help you with like stopping twitching um like get into some creativity use all that energy to um wake yes and that that does help but um just um yeah because that will help you your just so put your energy into creativity and it'll help your Tourette stop um also um yeah good foot massage it's really good when you're really twitchy honestly I have to give myself foot massages the whole time um to uh to to calm myself down um also don't be so scared of being yourself honestly just just really honestly that's what i'm saying fuck what people think don't don't be uh don't don't hide your true colors to the world because if you've never been yourself you you'll never have truly lived because you're just pretending to be someone else stop trying to fit in with our people and just be your own unique uh twitchy little self and um and uh yeah and then and then and then you know the real people will come the real tribe will come not don't be fake otherwise you'll attract fake people yeah be complete yourself and yeah you'll you'll attract your tribe and um what i'm trying to say yeah yeah just just yeah just be you because it's in a way tourette is a superpower too it's not it's not you know it's like you know you you become very creative it's very musical illness and it's very um yeah and yeah it is um um yeah Yeah, but try not to get, because lots of Tourette's are quite prone to addictions as well.

1:14:22It's all, you know, it's there. So just try and not, you know, become like me when I, because, yeah, because I did get, you know, I've battled with addiction. And, you know, I'm good nowadays, though. But I really did struggle with that. Seems like you're in a good place. Yeah, I'm in a really good place now. But, yeah, just be careful with all that addiction thing because, you know, I know Tourette's is really bad, but you can get lost in addiction with Tourette's because it is very, it's such a painful illness. And, you know, it can really, yeah, you know, what I'm trying to say. I hear what you're saying.

1:15:01Yeah, but, you know, it's hard to say stuff like that because nowadays it's really hard to say, oh, yeah, you know, saying that I have battled with addiction. it's hard to say this on camera and, and say that, oh yeah, I've done drugs because, because, but I have, I have used them, but to, to, to, to help my Tourette sometimes, but it has, it's double-edged disorders. Be really careful. Don't, everything in moderation. Don't, don't fucking fuck your life up. Don't let addiction take you over because it, yeah, just like concentrate on your fucking goals, man. And, and, and don't let, don't let that horrible addiction take you over and fuck your whole life up.

1:15:39Pete, I don't know. Yeah, I fucking know. And I love you. Pete, you're a really good soul. Do you know that? You're a lovely soul. Thanks, man, yeah. There you are. Cheers. You're a lovely human being. Oh, thanks, mate. I know I'm nice and that, but, you know. Yeah, I reckon I'm all right. There you are. No, I agree. I agree. I fucking agree with that. That's very good. Pete, you're a good man. No, you too. Thanks. I really appreciate you making the effort of coming down today. That's right. No, absolutely fine. and Wicked. I wish you all the best. You know, doing your DJ thing, I think that's going to be your next route.

1:16:13I think you're going to hit it off and come. Oh, yeah. Oh, yeah, definitely. I can see it and I'm going to get that out there. I'm going to get my band back on. So be a punk and a hard house artist sounds perfectly. Perfect. Yeah. So check out Snail Killer. It's on YouTube now. The actual music video. Where can people find you, Pete? Instagram. Instagram, TikTok and Facebook and yeah. YouTube. And YouTube a bit. Yeah. and well yeah love dogs as well on YouTube love dogs with a Z love dogs with a Z and then DJ Pete Bennett is coming out and yeah so Pete you're a gentleman I guess that's that then Pete you're a proper gentleman mate yeah oh should I have an arm wrestle go come on chickened out Pete I wish you all the best mate in everything you do you're a gentleman you too because what was that

1:17:10oh mate that was quality yeah was that fine yeah mate that was really good hi guys i really hope you enjoyed that as much as i did can you do us a favor and leave us a review as it massively helps us grow the show cheers guys