935: Your Intuition Was Never Wrong, You Just Weren't Taught How to Read It

23:37I won't tell too much about it in case anyone does it with me in the future. But it was so telling because you think that you're drawing this thing, but it's actually your energy is permeating the page. And then everyone folded it up and we gave it back out to everyone. And they interpreted each other's pictures without knowing whose it was. And everyone was giggling and laughing. And some people were having a hard time being in their intuition because they're like, I just see the page. And feel what the emotion is. Feel what the different segments are. You know, talk, like think it through and but also feel it through.

24:09So afterwards, then I took all the pages and I started reading for people. And the very first one was so potent that something that came out of the reading was something that she had never shared publicly outside of therapy at all. And we held such beautiful space there for her to just release that. And it was like she left something behind in that cabinet that day. Like her business took off, her life took off after that. But it was it started it off. Right. she was the first one to cry. And then it just, and I said, like, tears are sacred. I'm so honored when tears fall in my presence, because it feels like you're safe to release this and it's energy and emotion.

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27:06And I used to, I need to work with you. I need to learn more about you. And my coach was in the room and she's like, this is what she does for me. And I was like, oh my God. Like, I felt like I was receiving so much from that day that it was very overwhelming for me because my own wounds are, I give and give and give, right? I give to receive, like, you know, receive belonging and accolades and things like that. But this felt like so much. It was so beautiful. And then you contacted me and we worked together for a year. And I got to, like, really know your chart and your human design. I do human design and astrology combined coaching.

27:41And it was so fabulous because there were so many things that came up for you that year. And I could feel like as we're leading into now, because it's been two years, right? You're going into the second year after our work together. but I knew that you were disengaging from something. And it's one of the hardest times to be in an entrepreneur's life. We call it a 12th house year, which is funny because I just came out of my 12th house year. So you were a guiding light for me. And your 12th house is your final house in astrology where it is like a disengaging, a dissolving. It's like the cocoon stage.

28:14And I think we often romanticize transformation and transition in spirituality. But one thing that I think that nobody talks about is it sucks. like it effing sucks because you're disengaging from all the things that you thought your identity was and nothing that you thought you loved you love anymore you know friendships are changing your body is changing your business is changing and you feel like you're going crazy because nothing that you had passion for before is making you feel passionate anymore and that's on purpose that's a 12-year cycle in astrology that we all go through so this is why i love astrology so much because it has these cycles and meanings that we can understand.

28:53Like my girlfriend right now, if you're born at the beginning of Aquarius, you are going through it. Like Pluto is going over your son, which means that you are literally, you're peeling away your identity. And it's a painful process. So if you know a beginning degree Aquarius, go give her a hug. Give her some love. But my girlfriend, my best friend, you know, she's a beginning degrees Aquarius, a powerful shaman. And she said, if I didn't know you and I didn't know astrology, I would think I was going crazy. Like literally I had to check myself into an institution. But she said, because I understand what's happening for me, I'm letting go of things that I thought I once loved.

29:31And like, she literally wants to like give away all her clothes. You know, like you just went through a massive reorganization of your wardrobe, right? To align back to your true colors. And like, you're coming into a really knowing of yourself now in this cycle of your life, which I think is so beautiful. I'm so honored that I got to walk through you through that phase because I could say to you, like, this is coming. This is okay. You're meant to release these things. And even though you've built it over the last 12 years and think, like, can I let this go? And I think that goes to also, like, thinking that you're going to get it wrong.

30:02You can't get it wrong. That's the mind playing a trick on you. There's no such thing as wrong. There's the scenic route to get to your goal or there's a fast route. And we all want the fast route, right? But we're going through, if you're not listening to your intuition, you will go the scenic route. you're still going to get to the end result. And the end result for you was a disengagement from the past to something more that's coming to your heart. And I kept asking, like, you'll know it when it comes. Has it come yet? And you're like, no, I have no idea. Yeah. I want to go back and listen to everything from before because I bet it all makes perfect sense now.

30:38Can I tell the funny story about how you said you're going to learn a new way of doing business, please. Oh my gosh. So I was prepping for this retreat and I'm going to keep it kind of ambiguous in this story. And she told us like, you are going to learn a new way to do business. And I was like, yes, give me the strategies. Like I am so here for this. And she was like, you're meant to be there. This timing is perfect. This is all aligned. It's all aligned. And so I go to this retreat, not really knowing what anything is going to be. and it's with a dear friend of mine who's leading it, who is so smart, right?

31:15And I'll just bring it up because she would love it. So my friend, Natalie Ellis is running it. And as a friend, she's like, come, come to this retreat. It was a CEO mama retreat. And so I'm thinking, okay, I'm going to leave with this new strategy and I'm going to come out. So I'm like two days into this and I am like there with my freaking notebook and my pencil waiting. And Natalie is really into nervous system resetting and feminine energy. And I felt so uncomfortable at so much of this. And I can say this because she knew it. I mean, if I didn't know her personally, I would have left because we were doing a lot of feminine and divine energy things like ecstatic dancing and doing like a lot of like, you know, like seeing each other and inner child work and all these things that just felt like, oh my gosh, like I literally was like texting my friend Amy, like I am dying right now, but I am committed to this process.

32:10I'm going to stay here. I'm going to learn a new way to do business. And so on the final day, we have this like strategy session and I got great takeaways, but like nothing that felt life-changing. And I was like, where is the new way of doing business? And I remember being envious of the women who were embodied, like who really didn't care what anybody thought of their dancing, who really were felt safe to just be in their feminine energy. And I remember messaging you from the airport and being like, Oh my gosh, I get it. I get it. Like this was so uncomfortable for me because I have been operating from my masculinity, this, this idea of force, right?

32:57Even in that story of the woman who moves to Vancouver Island, just forcing things to happen in the way I wanted them to happen that I didn't even know there was another side to the coin. And I literally just remember voice messaging you and being like, I get it. The whole weekend I was waiting for it to show up in a way that I thought, yes, in the way of a notebook and a pen. And it was a feeling and a way of being and a way of operating that totally transformed and has softened me into this version of myself, but I couldn't see it then. And so that is just one story of like the intervention, but it makes me want to go back and listen to things because there were things that you said that you saw that I could not see for myself that didn't make sense that now are the embodiment of who I am and what I'm doing and what I want to do next too.

33:52It's I love that. And I think I kept saying to you, like, I feel like something is going to come up from this humanitarian side of you. And a lot of people wouldn't know how humanitarian you truly are and what you do for your community and what you donate and all those things. And that's your humbleness, which I love so much about you too. But this Aries nature. So for those of you who don't know, you know, Jenna is an Aries and she is, but when I met you, that fiery Aries was, is under wraps a bit. Like, I think it's like, it's very humanitarian. It is the pioneer and bold. I mean, of course, an entrepreneur, but this part of you that's really gets to shine her fiery light was under this dome of shoulds of, I need to appear this way and do these things.

34:34And you told me the story of how you were a diver, you know, in hate water, hate water made you do that. And that, that conditioning of the good girl, the achieve to receive, like, I know that goes back. And one thing I love is you also had a therapist during our time at work, you still do. And I was like, you need to talk to your therapist about this. You need to talk to your therapist about this. Because it's that can dive deeper into where did this come from? Because until you release this part of you that wants to prove that you're smart, and that you're doing things the right way, and you're a good person, then you'll never step into your true authentic expression of your soul, which I think is now what's emerging from you.

35:11And it's this humanitarian side, like you releasing everything that you did at that retreat, brought in the chickens, brought in the greenhouse, brought in like all of these nesting parts of you that five years ago, Jenna, would think you're absolutely crazy balls for doing, having chickens in here. Oh, but you love these chickens so much. Like that is so exactly, you're coming into your divine feminine and it's not weakness, it's actually power. and it's the power to change worlds. And this is where the intuition lies within our divine feminine. And I know I'm here to usher in the rise of the divine feminine back because we are so out of equilibrium.

35:48Like I'm so passionate. I have a Sagittarius moon, so my fire is about to come out. But women have abdicated their authority and their power to people thinking that this is the way you should do it. You shouldn't release your business because that's not smart. But you're not actually releasing your business. You're moving into a pivot. You're changing into something else. You get to grow and evolve. But that place of evolution, of transformation sucks. It sucks so bad. I think the universe doesn't, nobody tells you about that. You know, when you have a baby, everyone's like, oh, you're going to be a mother.

36:20Now in people, I'm like, you know what? The beginning stages absolutely suck. You're going to have to poop on the table. Okay. I'm telling you, no one told me that. When you're pushing a baby out, there's poop that comes out. And people, my husband wiped it away. And I'm like, don't test the poop. No one told me that. And I'm like, no, I'm going to tell you all the things. but I'm going to walk with you through that. So my girlfriend who I love, you know, you have girlfriends like this in your life too, which is who see you. And we were always having brunch with her and she said, you know who you are?

36:47She told, you're the light in the dark corridors of transition. You're the person that shines their light so that people can find their way to their next door that they're going to open. And I was like, oh, that's amazing. Like, thank you. But it's what I feel like I think it was the most accurate description of my gifts is that I can help you walk through those doors. And with not, you know, it's not an easy time as you felt it. Like it's your identity is literally being stripped away because what's coming, you cannot take those things into the next stage of your life. And so as you step now into your second house here, it's about your resources, your money, your what are you putting your energy, your time, your money into?

37:28And is it really feeding your goals and values anymore? And so there is going to be a disengaging from the way you've done things in the past. And that's a good thing. You know, when we make it feel like we're wrong or we're doing a bad thing or, you know, if I do, you know, let go of this business, you know, women entrepreneurs can, you know, test to. I mean, we had a conversation over an app where I was like, I feel like I'm pivoting. And you're like, oh, tell me the juicy details. What is that? I think I'm helping women entrepreneurs. You're like, that's not a pivot, she tell. You've already been doing that.

38:00That's a different way to define the work you've done. It was like, but no, I'm a psychic medium. Like, no, no, like, that's not actually a pivot. And I was like, okay, are you sure? Yes. Because it felt so different. Well, and that's what's so funny to me is like, I feel like I have reinvented myself so many times at this point, that nothing surprises me. But I think that it has been such a entanglement of, you know, what is expected? And what am I good at? What I've been told I'm good at and what is performance and where do I feel like I'm performing and not actually being and separating all of those pieces out.

38:43And I mean, that is hard work, right? Because it is, it's going back to old wounds. It's going back to the childlike version of you. It's going back to the way you were formed and shaped. It's going back to what people told you you should do or what you are good at. And so like, I think that is where the hardest work is, but I also think that's where like the juiciest parts of life exist, you know? The gold, that's where the gold emerges. You know, I almost imagine it as in my grief support counseling certification, there was a story that was told to us that the Buddhist monasteries in India and in China, they had these gold statues of Buddha.

39:21And during the times of war, invading armies would melt these statues and take them. So to protect them, they would put mud on it to make it look like a mud statue. and they would shore it up and fortify it. And over time, because of vows of silence, they forgot to share that these are actually gold statues. So everyone just thought that these are mud statues and it's very humble, you know, Buddhist monks to have these mud statues of Buddha. And they were doing a big renovation to a big temple in India, southern China. And they had to try to move the statues big. It was like many, many feet high.

39:55And so they had to get a crane in to haul this statue and the statue bumped against the wall and it cracked. And when it cracked, the gold came through. And they saw that this was actually a gold statue. And when they started to go around to the monasteries, they realized these are actually gold statues. So there's a saying in grief is that, you know, what grief does, what transformation does, but grief accompanies every single transformation, every transition, grief is coming, because you have to release parts of yourself that are no longer congruent with who you're becoming. And the grief is actually stripping away these layers, this conditioning, these projections that have been put upon you by your earliest caregivers, your school, your teachers, your everything, social media.

40:34And you come back to the gold that is your spirit. That's your soul. And that's the place that I love to live in, right? That intuition is the tool of the soul. It's your compass to where you want to go. And so if you don't go back to your intuition, you don't trust yourself, then you're always going to be abdicating your authority to somebody else. And that's why I think intuition work is really the core of our rising as women. And it is the core work that we have to do as women entrepreneurs, because every decision you make that's not in alignment with your intuition, you are going to go the scenic route.

41:05Like you're still going to get to your destination, but it's going to be painful. And sometimes we need painful to, you know, that's the way we're conditioned to live. But it doesn't have to be painful. It can be ease filled. And we get to have abundance and there's enough to go around for everybody. And I think I just love your your heart so much. And I think this this new era in your life is just it's what the world needs. Thank you. It really is, because we need more women like you pulling in that direction. You know, for me, I'm a I'm a very I have a very activist heart. And when I saw you posting on social media about the starving children and pieces like that, you saw I was in your DMs pretty quick.

41:46And I was like, yes, yes. Like this is exactly where your humanitarian heart is leading. I was a little biased, of course, because I love you. And I also have a very fierce humanitarian heart. But it's so hard to speak up because I was going through the comments and I saw people, why didn't you speak up when this happened? And why not? And it's like your pain. You can just see all the pain in the comments, right? And it just my heart was hurting for all these people. so many women that I'm like, you're coming for another woman who's speaking up against an atrocity because she didn't speak up for your atrocity.

42:20Like, I really want you to hear your own. I wish we had like a TV show that went around and talked to these people about their pain. And we healed the world in this way, because this division is like, it's sometimes it's really hard to take as a healer, because you're like, is my light enough to help this world heal? and as I see like you turning on your light in this direction and many many others are too I know you're going to be a beacon of light that's going to welcome other women to stand in solidarity and move in this direction you're giving people permission to follow their heart as you follow yours too so I just want to see I say I see you and I think you are such an amazing human I'm glad to be on this earth with you once again in another lifetime together and I can say it's only just the beginning.

43:09I feel that. And I feel like you said something to you where you were like, when we met, like I was under the mud, really. Like if you think of that analogy where it's like, I was under the mud of judgment and messing up online and being public and all of these different things and being criticized and being picked apart and having my looks picked apart and everything right scrutinized. And it's like, now I'm just going to be this gold little Buddha belly because I don't care. You can try to cancel me, but I'll cancel myself before you ever get the chance because this is just one form of activism.

43:45And my real activism has been happening offline for many years. And now I'm finally feeling the courage of like, if you want to try to write me off, go for it. But I will either cancel myself or you can't cancel me. You know, like it's just knowing that. Are you available for a reframe? Because that's also an old pattern that I will judge myself so harshly so that you can never judge me. I actually used to say that in my teens. That you can't hurt me because I hurt myself way more. That is not a badge of love. That's a badge of judgment. I will judge myself harder than you and that's not going to hurt me as much.

44:21You can't hurt me as much as hurt myself. And what love would say to that is I'm not available for that anymore. You cannot cancel me. You cannot hurt me because you don't have the permission or power to do so. And as soon as you take that magnet out of you, because we are magnets always pulling in from our environment, right? So law of attraction. We attract that which we are. So if there is a part of you that's like, well, fine, I'm just going to criticize myself so no one else can criticize. No, I just mean I'll pull myself out of the race before you can. Like I have divine ownership over that choice.

44:52I love that. And I am not available for that anymore. I'm not available. I'll give you an example. When I first launched my website and my Facebook page, actually, I was like such a big deal because I was still working in corporate. And it was called Story of Spirit because I tell the story of spirit. And that's my, you know, she tells story. And I hit publish on my Facebook page and I closed it. I was so scared because I'm like, people are going to judge me and all the things. And then I went back two hours later and I opened it and I had hundreds, hundreds of messages and comments from people I've gone to school with.

45:24I was so worried that they're going to be like, you're a fraud. Like, I know you. I went to school with you. But people were like, in grade five, remember when you were the palm reader at the school festival and you were lined up? Like, I knew then you were a psychic. Congratulations on coming out of the closet. Like, it was message after message like that. I knew it. We knew it. Or someone had said, because it's you, I trust this to be true for you because I know your heart and I know who you are. And I was like, wow. And then I got the trolls. You know what the trolls said? Is your name even real?

45:52I thought this was a writing page, the story of your spirit, like writing about your story. You're such a phony. You're trying to bait people in. You're baiting and switching people. And I was like, what? This is my real name. And I was in the comments going, no, this is my real name. I married it. My husband's name is Jason Story. Like I married the name. And they're like, no, no, you're just a phony bananas. And no matter what I said, they would just continue. And it was this, again, this prover energy that I had for so long. And it comes up every now and again, sneaky little B. And I was like, OK, I'm no longer open to criticism about my name.

46:25You can go right off. Bye. And I blocked and deleted, blocked and deleted. And it felt so freeing. And I heard this universe said, congratulations, you just hit your next checkpoint. And it's these moments in time when you're just not even available for it. Like you're not, that button is gone. You know, you can't push that button because I don't have it anymore. Right. My husband has a big thing around jerk. Right. Probably shouldn't be saying this on a podcast. But the word jerk would just send him when we started like dating. And I was like, what is that? Like, I don't call them, like, we don't use that language with each other.

46:57But someone would say or someone in a car or whatever. And I was like, what is it about that word? I don't care. You can call me a jerk. And I'm like, that's a nice word from the 80s. Whatever, buddy. Right? Like, but it's such a button for you. And he's like, I don't know. And I'm like, that's not enough for me. So I started to dig over the years. And I was like, I get it. Because his dad used to call people little jerks when he didn't like them when he was little. So he associated with men who, people his dad doesn't like. And that's not him. His dad loves him. So that word brings up a visceral reaction.

47:27So when I said that, I said, do you understand that this is connected back to your dad? And he's like, like what? And I said, because your dad uses that word, you associated with people that are not good. And so when someone calls that to you, you have a visceral reaction. We all have words like that for us, right? And if it was like something about my weight, I was very sensitive about my weight growing up. So if someone called me anything to do with my weight, I probably would have shrunk. But at this moment in time in my life, I'm no longer available for those words. So you can call it to me and I'll probably laugh because I'm like, I see you, you can't manipulate me.

47:59So the more we come back to our true nature, that gold essence, you're never going to be open for that again. Like you're so convicted in, I know you know where you're going and what you want to do and your belief in self, you have such a strong family. I think it's one of the biggest gifts that you gave yourself in this lifetime. I love your family so much. And you also have such a gift of having them all still alive, right? Like you recently lost your grandfather who transitioned to spirit, but you have such a different relationship with him now because you have this awareness of him in spirit.

48:32He comes to visit you often, right? And I know that because he's standing with you right now, but we won't get into that piece of it. But I feel like this new stage of your life is you're bringing all of these gifts with you and you have all these wonderful supports, including me. And no matter what happens, you are so strong and convicted that no one, whatever, you could have an opinion on what I'm doing, but you're not doing it. You're just sitting there talking about it. So I see your pain because you feel like you can't do this too. And I'm going to invite you to come do it too. It's the difference of leaving from love versus fear.

49:05Dang. Snaps for that one. Where can everybody find you and work with you and learn more about you? Give us all the places. Oh my gosh, I just want to help every woman step back into their intuition. Like, I think the easiest way is my website, shetellstory.com. But I wanted to really help the women listening to this to come back to their intuition. It was really a conviction for me that if you don't have your intuition, you are really following your mind. And the mind is easily conditioned by all the mud, you know, that's in your life. And so I wanted to create an intuition activation meditation.

49:43Now, I know I can already hear, I can feel the groans from certain people listening, like, oh, meditations, here we are. But actually what a meditation is, is just listening to my voice. Think of it as an activation. You're just listening to my voice and I'm leading you down a story and you just feel it in your body or just listening to it or see if you can visualize it or not. The way that I write my meditations is that it kind of hits all the senses so that even if you're not a visual person, it doesn't matter. It will still come in. And by the end of the meditation, you can feel your intuition stronger and stronger the more you do it.

50:18So a version of that was sent to you when we first started working together. And I noticed such a shift in you and your ability to step back into your intuition faster and faster and faster, which has eased your transition to this new phase of life that's coming in for you. So, yeah, 100%. I have that. We're going to, I think, put it in the show notes, I think we mentioned. So please like do the meditation and feel the difference for yourself. And if you don't feel it, no problem. You know what? I'm unattached. But when I say what I say to I like to say to my intuition students is build your book of evidence.

50:52Build your book of evidence. So when your intuition works or you get this nudge and you said yes to it and you see what happens, write that in your little journal. And if it doesn't work out and you went against it or you went against it, then write it in your journal. Or if you did it and it didn't work out, you know, quote unquote, in the way, write it in your journal and ask yourself, what is this meant to teach me? What am I meant to learn from this? Because everything is happening in divine perfect time. It's all perfect. It's all right. When we think we have to get it right, we're in the mind.

51:20So all this to say is that would be amazing. I think if I can help you that way. And then, of course, you know, if you're on social media, I'm very active on socials. I'm such an extrovert. So I love I'm in my DMs all the time and I love to meet new people. So just say hi. And you met me from the Jenna show. And I would be like, what did you learn? What did you take away? I'll ask you that question. So I just want to say thank you for having me here and such an honor to be in your heart. When you told me that you wanted to have me on here, I cried. because it was such a heartfelt, you know, relational, like non-transactional request.

52:01And I could feel your heart coming through. And I just want to say thank you. And I love you. And I'm so honored to be your friend in this lifetime again. Back at you. You changed my life. You were worth the three hour drive in the snow where I was holding my mom's hand thinking we are going to die. Absolutely worth it to the moon and back. Thank you for coming on the show today. I love you. I swear I could do eight episodes with that woman. She has been such an amazing voice and presence in my life. I'm so glad I said yes to that beautiful conference in Canada so that I could meet her. And she has just been a very consistent person helping me uncover the gold underneath all of the mud.

52:43I'm so grateful to walk on the planet with her and to do life alongside of her and to be led by her through some of the dark valleys. But I'm so excited to step into the light even more. Thank you so much for listening to this episode of the podcast. If you know someone who could benefit, please be a great friend and send it to them. And of course, until next time, gold diggers, keep on digging your biggest goals. Thanks for listening to the gold digger podcast. I hope today left you inspired and equipped with something you can put into action as you build a business that truly supports your life.

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