The 3B's (Boobs, Breakdowns + Belly)

0:14Hello, everybody. Welcome back to another episode of my sister's diary. This is a podcast where it feels like you've snuck into your sister's diary and found her unfiltered stories, confessions, and thoughts she'd never say out loud. Welcome back, you guys. I'm so sorry that this episode is coming out a couple days late. I had a crazy week last week, and honestly, it's because I am not good at planning, and I just, I do things on a whim, and you know, it messes up my plans because I also procrastinate a lot and I tend to, I usually record episodes on like Sunday, edit it on Monday, have it released on Tuesday.

0:52That way I'm like kind of caught up if anything, you know, crazy happens and I need to talk about it on the podcast. But I decided kind of last minute that I was going to go visit my grandma on, let's see, I left on Friday. Yeah, I left on Friday, right? Yes. Yes. I left on Friday, Friday night, Saturday and Sunday. Yes. Sorry. I have to think I left on Friday and then I didn't get back till Monday. And so I really just didn't have time. I mean, I could have recorded like late Monday night and just like thrown an episode together, but I didn't want to do that to you guys. I wanted to have something good planned.

1:27And I also just didn't do my due diligence before I left for my grandma's and I didn't have what I needed prepped to even do an episode on Monday. So that's why it's coming out on Thursday. So I appreciate you guys being patient and understanding. I mean, I don't know that because it hasn't came out yet, but I'm assuming you guys are being patient and understanding. And yeah, I'm here. I'm still here. We're still getting an episode out, but it's a little bit late. So let me tell you, let me tell you a little bit about my weekend. So I decided, like I said, last minute to go down to visit my grandma.

2:03and I decided at the same time that would be a fantastic time to wean my baby and the reason I decided this was because I'd been trying to give him a bottle or a sippy or something for like two months for so long and he just refused it and honestly I was just kind of being lazy about it like I probably could have forced him harder I mean actually no he would like scream and cry and just like push me away and scratch my face and it wasn't going well because and then he would just lift up my shirt because he's like I know the goods are right there like why are you trying to give me this nasty bottle when I know the good stuff's right here so that was not working for me so I decided that the the best thing to do for him and for me was to just rip off the band-aid and do it cold turkey and you know looking back I'm like okay was I really ready I don't know I don't know if I was really ready but at the same time I I don't know that it would get any easier like emotionally or physically even I don't think it would get easier if I just kept going for so long I think it would just be harder for him and for me um let me tell you though I had a really hard time mentally with this way way harder than I thought like I knew it was going to be hard because this is most likely our last baby.

3:25I mean, that's what we're planning on, you know, whatever. But it's, I, so I knew it would be hard. I knew it'd be hard to kind of end this phase of life with him. Like he's not really a baby baby anymore. And like, that was my last time nursing. And so like, I had like this moment with him where I fed him for the last time. I took some notes, I took some videos and like had a little moment. And so I thought I was ready. You know, I really thought I was ready to do this. I knew I'd probably cry a little bit, but my gosh, I did not expect the like wave of emotion that hit me that first night that I was gone.

3:58And my mom was staying with my grandma that night. And then I was staying by myself at this other place. And so I was all by myself. And it was the first time I'd ever been away from my baby. And in like 15 months, that's really seriously how long it is. And like, not even one night, I'd never been one night away from him and that was the first night that I never nursed him to sleep like every single night I'd always nursed him to sleep so that was that was hard I just kind of had like this I'll be honest I was really sad and I cried pretty hard and I was like you know I don't know if I can do this like I in my mind I was like planning right then I was like okay I'm gonna go home and I'm just gonna start nursing again because like I don't want I don't want to stop but I didn't I pushed through And I think being in like physical pain too, because it's so painful to cut off cold turkey.

4:49I wasn't nursing him very often during the day. It was only like three times maybe. And, but I didn't expect that like I was still making so much milk. And I did take a pump with me and I pumped only when I had to, but it was really freaking painful. Like I could not put my arms down because it hurts so bad. It felt like when my milk came in, maybe not quite as strong as that, but pretty dang close. And I went and got some Sudafed and I started taking that. It didn't really help that much. My mom had some Advil that I took and that helped, I think, just the pain and like inflammation. But yeah, it was really freaking hard.

5:32It was really hard physically and emotionally. It's still hard emotionally for me. Like I just can't think about it too much because then I'll start crying again. And I'm not going to cry on this podcast. I'm not going to do that to you guys because I am an ugly crier. Both like physically, like I look ugly and I can't talk. I physically cannot talk when I'm crying. And if I do, it's like or like really, really high pitch and you can't even hear me. So I'm not going to do that to you guys. Let me tell you, though, a couple of things about when you have children. If you've never had a child before and you're wondering, like, what's some things that I need to know that no one will tell me?

6:14I'll tell you a couple things in regards to nursing or, like, your milk coming in. Even if you don't nurse, your milk will still probably come in. I don't think I know of anybody. I know what happens. I know there's people whose milk never comes in, and that's totally normal, too. But, like, I don't personally know anybody who hasn't had their milk come in after they've had a baby. so let me tell you let me tell you some things uh your boobs like I've said they'll hurt so bad they will hurt so so bad like unbelievably bad you think getting punched in the boob hurts it's worse than that it's like you have two freaking rocks they're literally rock solid I'm not even kidding rock solid rocks on the front of you and they probably weigh seven pounds each I'm not exaggerating.

7:00They're so heavy. So heavy. And yeah, they'll hurt really bad. And you won't be able to put your arms down because guess what? You have milk ducts in your armpits. Isn't that crazy? Isn't that crazy? I'm like, why do I need to make milk in my pits? It doesn't make any sense. I don't need milk in my pits. My ta-tas are big enough to hold everything that my baby needs. I I promise. Okay. Also, when you are trying to get your milk to dry up, don't put heat on them. Don't do it. I know you can Google it and they'll be like, okay, put heat on your boobs. Or if you ask somebody who's nursed like an older person, that used to be what they tell you.

7:41They used to say use a heat compress. That encourages more milk. Don't do that. You know what feels even better, ice. Get some ice packs. This is what I did. This is what I did. I got, I have, I had two sports bras on, two really tight sports bras, and then I would put these ice packs on, like, in between them. So I just had them sitting on my chest, and it felt so freaking good. But on my drive home, on my drive home from seeing my grandma, I was not doing good, because I was like, you know, I don't need to pump anymore. So that day, I decided not to pump, which was a six-hour drive back to my house and I decided not to pump for whatever freaking reason.

8:16And I, the Sudafed was not working. The Advil was not working. I, it hurt so bad. Like I could barely drive. So I hopped on Instagram and I asked you guys like, what do you do? And most of you guys said cabbage leaves. So I stopped at this like middle of nowhere town and went to their grocery store and got cabbage and Mucinex. And they probably thought I was crazy. This crazy lady who's in their small town coming to buy another thing of cabbage and some mucinex. They probably like call the police. And yeah, I did that. I took the mucinex right away. I put the cabbage leaves on my boobs and it was immediate, immediate relief.

8:53It felt so good. I was like, you know what? I'm fine now. I'm really good. And I didn't do the ice packs until I got home because I didn't have ice packs with me. So then once I got home, I did the ice packs instead of the cabbage because because it turns out cabbage stinks and when it's on your chest it you can smell it because it's like right by your nose so I didn't love that but it did provide a lot of relief all right are you guys are you guys sick of hearing about my boobs are you because you know I could talk about it forever but I think we should move on so let's move on from that um I'll just wrap up by saying if you are like going through the phases with your kids and you've reached the end of a phase like this is most likely the end of I say most likely because like I could change my mind and I don't want to be that person who's like no we never we said we never ever have kids ever again I could change my mind I don't anticipate changing my mind but I could so anyway um if you're ending a phase, it's okay to grieve that phase.

10:00It's normal. You don't have to push your feelings down. We'll feel them. It'll be okay. All right, let's move on to Taylor Frankie Paul. Let's talk about Taylor Frankie Paul being the bachelorette. I, this might be an unpopular opinion. I don't think this is a good idea. I think it might make for good television, but at the same time, you know, I want to see a love story and I'm not sure that this is going to work out. I'm just not too sure about that because I don't think she's had enough time being by her. I don't think it's even been a year since she's been single. And I think she needs a little more time to figure that out.

10:41And obviously I cannot speak for her. That is not my place. But at the same time, just like watching what I've seen on the screen, I'm like, okay, you need a little bit of time to like heal and not depend on men and whatever. So that's just my hot take, I guess, is I don't know that it's going to go well. I think it will be a lot of drama for sure. A lot of drama. And I really do hope she finds somebody who is like perfect for her. Truly, truly, truly. I love a love story. Some of my favorite seasons of The Bachelorette or Bachelor are when they find someone and they're still with them. Like Joey's season.

11:16Love that season. Let's see. Well, I loved Hannah Brown's season, but that was for different reasons. It's because Tyler Cameron was on there. But yeah, anyway, I love the love story. I love when they work out. That's my favorite part of it all. So hopefully it'll, it'll work out. People were saying, people were, were kind of guessing that she would be the Bachelorette. And I was like, no, like there's absolutely no way they're not going to do that. First of all, isn't there like a weird crossover? Like it's Hulu and ABC? Are they one in the same? I don't know. Seems kind of odd for her to go on another reality TV show.

11:55Like, how's that going to work with Secret Lives of Mormon Wives? Is she just going to take a break from that? Or are they going to, is the whole show going to take a break from that? I don't know. We'll see what happens. We will definitely see what happens. And do I think Dakota will show up? I hope not. I really hope not. And if he does, I hope it's like a, hey, I'm rooting for you. Like, just do whatever you need to do. I really hope he doesn't. But like, I know that they're going to try to get him on. I know producers are going to be like, this is going to be great television if we get him to come on.

12:27And I know they're going to try. I really hope he says no, because they need like, we need to put that in the past. It's clear that they're not going to work out. I think there's too many hurt feelings between the two of them. It's just not it's not going to work out. So we just need to kind of move on from that. Of course, I was rooting for them. Like I wanted them to work out, but it really just seems like it's not going to, and there's just too much bad blood between the two of them. So I think he needs to move on. I think she needs to move on. The other thing I was thinking of is, are they only going to have contestants from Utah?

12:58Because, or will it be the same as like other seasons where people are from all over? Because the Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, I guess it isn't specific to Utah, but it seems like in order for the filming to work they'd have to stay in kind of the same spot like they'd have to be close to one another so if she were to find somebody in like minnesota and he's like well i can't move is she gonna move to minnesota and then is she just gonna be done with secret lives of mormon i don't know or are they going to try and find people more local because that would be crazy utah has been just popping off lately like we've got taylor frankie Paul, Bachelorette, we've got Secret Lives of Mormon Wives, we've got like the whole cast of Dancing with the Stars, we've got everything.

13:41And speaking of Dancing with the Stars, let's, let's talk about that. Actually, no, let's talk about the Secret Lives of Mormon Wives trailer first. And then we'll jump right into Dancing with the Stars. Secret Lives of Mormon Wives trailer. I feel like we kind of already know what's going to happen. Like it's already all happened kind of in the media. And we already know like all the speculation and everything. the only thing we don't know for sure is like who cheated on who or if there was any cheating with the whole jesse and dem to me jordan i can't remember the other guy's name marcio mark mario i don't know whatever his name is we don't know exactly what's gonna happen but it does seem like jesse and her husband were separated and it appears they're back together i think actually actually i don't know because i haven't really been paying that that close attention to her now that I think about it I don't think I've seen him on her page very much anyway I don't it kind of feels like old news I'm like kind of over it and I don't know I it seems like the the trailer was kind of mostly focused on that I guess we will see what happens but um another prediction I have is I think Jen and Zach have left the church I I'm pretty sure uh I won't tell you why I speculate that, but I think that they might have left the church.

14:56That's just my, my guess. And maybe not, maybe they didn't. It's whatever people want to do. I don't care if they stayed or if they left. Um, is there, you guys think there's beef between Macy and Michaela or their babies having literally the same name? Because I think I, if my best friend named her baby, the exact same thing as mine, I think I would, um, actually, yeah, no, I think it might be weird. Maybe they're not. Like, to me, it sounded like their babies, both, like, both of their babies' names were Charlotte, right? Because they kind of post that TikTok where they're like, they have the same names, but, like, one of them goes by Charlie and one of them goes by Lottie, but they're both named Charlotte.

15:37And I'm like, okay, that's literally the same thing. But, like, if you're going to call somebody by a nickname, why not just name them the nickname? You know what I'm saying? Like, if you're going to call somebody, you're like, oh, her name's Joe Santa or something, and we're just going to call her Joe. And like, you're planning on calling her Joe for the rest of her life. Why not just name her Joe? I don't understand. I mean, I'm coming from my like full given name is Samantha. And I'm not Samantha because I've been called Sam my whole life. So I don't know. It feels kind of weird. I don't know where I'm going with that.

16:10But anyway, do you guys think there's beef between the two of them? Because I think that might be kind of a touchy subject, but at the same time, they're not going to go by Charlotte. So maybe it doesn't matter. And honestly, names are just names. So who freaking cares? People who get like super offended about someone having their baby name, I'm like, get over it, honestly, because it doesn't really matter that much. It's just a name. All right. Let's dive into Dancing with the Stars. I am really excited about the season. I think we have a stacked cast, truly. I think we're getting as the show is getting bigger.

16:46I mean, it's a big show. It's been on forever. But like as it's getting more attention now, like it kind of went snooze fest there for a while. And now it's like coming back. And I'm excited. We have some pretty, pretty big people. Well, I don't know. Some people who don't watch reality TV are probably like, who the heck are all these people? But if you watch reality TV, and you kind of follow pop culture and social media, there's a lot of people on here who you would know. I'm just going to kind of go through everybody's dance. I'm not going to spend a ton of time talking about each one, but I do want to talk about every dance.

17:21So let's do that. First off, though, Kirian Inaba was not there, and I can't say that I missed her. I was just kind of over her last season because her scoring was so inconsistent. She would play favorites hard, and her feedback was, like, not super constructive. It was more like, here's everything you did wrong. And I'm not going to tell you. Well, no, actually, it wasn't. She didn't really give like, you need to do this better. She's like, you, there's just something missing. Like, you just need to do better. And they're like, well, please just tell me exactly what it is like that. That seems like her feedback is just kind of like vague and ambiguous.

17:58And they people have to figure it out on their own. And I just need her to be a little bit more specific and not play favorites so hard. So I do feel bad that she was sick and that she had to miss the first show, but I think it was okay with just Derek and Bruno. I love them. It was a little chaotic. Maybe Carrie Ann actually serves as kind of a, I don't know, what's the word I'm thinking of? She reels them in, I guess. I don't know. Okay, let's just go to the first couple that we saw dance, which was Jordan, Childs, and Ezra. And I was hoping for, I say hoping, I feel like we did get, but I'm glad that Ezra has somebody who seems like they actually care about dancing and doing better and like having a good time.

18:49So I'm excited for that for him. Going first on the very first week, I think you're just bound to get a low score because they don't want to come out with like a banger. And so I think that I think they did good. They did the salsa to break my soul by Beyonce. And they did good. It definitely was a little bit stiff, but she's a gymnast. So I kind of expected that. And I think she has work to do, but they got fives, two fives. And I don't know, I feel like maybe they should have got one six. I don't know. Maybe not. But I feel like they did pretty good. And yeah, I'll talk more about that in a minute, maybe compared to other people's scores okay next one was Dylan Efron and Daniela I okay he got the exact same score as Jordan Ezra and well actually no they probably did pretty pretty close they did the cha-cha-cha to Milkshake which was a really weird song choice because it was it was supposed to be a song that like represented them and tell me how Milkshake represents Dylan Efron I don't know I I didn't hate it.

19:54Like, it's a catchy song. It was fun. But it was just an interesting choice for sure. I think they did really good. He has potential for sure. It kind of gave me Joey vibes from last season. And I think he'll go decently far. I don't know if I could say that I think he'll win, but I think he'll go pretty far. They also got two fives, which I don't know. I'm glad the judges are not coming out with huge like really high scores like they did last season like they came out with really high scores in the very beginning and then they kind of had nowhere to go like they started getting tens like week three and I don't feel like that's going to happen this time which I think will help this the stars improve more because they'll actually be like I want my score to go up you know what I'm saying and it'll be instead of just like because last time I feel like they got the same exact score every time like it was always sevens or always eights and it's kind of hard to bump up from that but like when you start lower and have more constructive feedback at the beginning I think there's more more places to go okay next one was Elaine and Alan doing the cha-cha-cha two woman by Kesha I thought this was so good I loved watching her I think she's iconic I freaking love the parent trap I was so excited to see her on the screen I love the opening or she had like the whole Meredith Blake thing going on and I think it was really good.

21:19I'm excited to see her and see what she can do. Next one was Whitney and Mark and they were doing the tango to Golden and they did, I was expecting, I was expecting them to freaking kill it and you know I think they did. I think they did great. I think that there is room to grow for sure but I think there's room to grow with all these people. I didn't expect anybody to be perfect but I think that these guys are going to go far. I do because I think Whitney has a huge fan base and so does Mark, which is kind of a stacked couple, if you ask me. Like Whitney and Mark together, I don't know. They're going to get a lot of fan votes regardless of their dance.

21:58But I also think she's really talented and will go pretty far. Next one was Barron and Brit. And I can't lie, I wasn't expecting a lot because normally, like the male athletes just don't really do that well, don't have a lot of rhythm for the most part. I know there's been exceptions for sure, but I was actually pretty, pretty impressed with him. He did really well. He did the Cha Cha Cha to You Can't Touch This by MC Hammer, which was a fantastic song choice. It was perfect. And I loved his hammer pants. They were an excellent touch. They got two fives, which I thought was fitting and it was good.

22:35I forgot to say Whitney and Mark score and Elaine and Ellen. Alain and Alan got two sixes Whitney and Mark got seven and an eight which I don't think it was meant to be an eight because Bruno accidentally knocked like locked it in as an eight but he did a seven so there's some there's some controversy on that but either way they got a 15 and yeah Baron and Britt I thought they did great I can't wait to see him do some more I hope they don't go home early I hope people kind of jump on the Baron train and realize that he has potential so yeah, we'll see how that goes. Next one was Alex and Val doing the cha-cha-ta-to circus by Britney Spears.

23:13And I, I didn't, I honestly don't follow Alex Earl very closely. So I didn't really know what to expect. I thought she did good. I thought she was really stiff and looked a little bit awkward, but I do think that she's going to go far because I think she has a huge fan base and so does Val. And I think she has a lot of potential. Like you can tell she really wants it. she's working hard. And yeah, I think it'll be good. Bruno's comment about her legs was, I mean, he's right. She has great legs and they're super long, but I'm like, you know, we don't need to comment on women's bodies every single time.

23:49Okay, next one. Scott and Riley doing the tango to Abracadabra by Lady Gaga. I thought this one was really, really good as well. I like this pairing. I think Scott and Riley will be really good together. I can't say I was blown away by any means. Like I honestly, it's kind of hard to remember their dance. It was, it was pretty forgettable to me, but I do think they have potential for sure. And I think he'll stick around for a while. Okay. Next one was Danielle and Pasha and they, okay. Scott and Riley got a 10 and Alex and Val got a seven or a 13. Sorry. I keep forgetting to say the scores. Danielle and Pasha, they got a 12.

24:26They got two sixes. They did the tango two stronger by Kelly Clarkson. and I was really excited to see her as well I honestly am not a huge boy meets world fan I didn't really watch it very much growing up but just watching like her intro package and I love Pasha he's I just love him I follow I mean I don't follow him but like I see him on TikTok all the time from Daniela and all that stuff and yeah I really like this pair and I think they'll do well I keep saying that about everybody honestly I I wish that we could keep people around for longer, but obviously we can't have a double elimination next week, so we'll see what happens.

25:02Okay, next one was Jen and Jan Wan. I can't remember how you pronounce his name. I'm totally butchering it for sure. They got 12. They got two sixes. They did a salsa to, I can't say the word, by Bad Bunny. I don't know what the name is. New Neuville. I am stupid. I'm sorry, but the judge's critique for them was that there was way too many lifts, and I agree. There was way too many lists. He's new. I understand that. He's going to have a little bit of a learning curve. She just had a baby and he was like flipping her all over the place. And I'm like, is this safe? Who knows? Maybe that was better for her.

25:40I don't know. But I, again, I'm really excited to see Jen. I think she's really talented and I think she's going to go far as well. Okay. Next one, Corey and Jenna, they got a nine, a four and a five. That was the lowest score. Well, no there's it was a tied for the low score they did the tango by by they did the tango too it's still rock and roll to me by billy jill and cory's hair kills me it is so bleach blonde it's like the perfect white blonde i don't know how he gets it to be that color but i saw a tiktok where they compared him to jack frost from the santa claus and it was so spot on so spot on he also reminds me a little bit of the porcupine from seeing.

26:20Just throwing that out there. I think he did. I think he did good. You can tell he's excited. I loved his energy. I love that he said, like, this will help him with his posture, with his scoliosis, and he's excited to do it. So, I just love when people are excited. I love it, and I'm here for it. Okay, next one, Brandon and Lauren. They got a 13, a 7, and a 6. They did the tango to Yes And by Ariana Grande, and I was I mean I wasn't shocked because she is in fifth harmony and she does a little bit of dancing but she did so so good I can't I was expecting a little bit of a higher score like I would have maybe like a seven and a seven I don't know I think she might have deserved two sevens for sure but she did really good I'm really excited to see her go I think she's gonna go pretty far.

27:11I love Brandon. He's one of my favorites for sure. And yeah, that's all I really have to say about that. Next one was Andy and Emma. And I love Andy. He is so funny. I just love watching him. His intro package was fun. Emma seems like she's so, so sweet. And she always gets paired with kind of like the older gentleman. And I don't know if it's just because she's so sweet. I don't know if she requests this or if it just kind of happens the way it happens. But I don't know. I think she does really well with it. And I thought her choreography was great. Obviously, he has some work to do, but like everybody does.

27:47Everybody does. And we'll see. I think he might be one of the first ones to go home. Although I would like to see him more because I think he's funny. Okay, next one was Hilaria and Gleb. And they got a 14, 7 and 7. They did the cha-cha-cha to Let's Get Loud by Jennifer Lopez. She did amazing. Truly, she did so good. I didn't realize that she was like kind of already a ballroom dancer, though, which is kind of weird to me that they would have her on I guess her and Whitney what everyone's everyone's freaking out because Whitney has past dance experience um I don't know I don't I can't say I really care that much because I'm just here to watch a good show so whatever but yeah I I didn't really know what to expect I don't know a lot about Hilaria Hillary I don't know however you say her name.

28:32I don't know a lot about her, but it was pretty impressed with her. Okay, last one was Robert and Whitney, and they got a 15, an 8, and a 7, and they did the jive to Born to be Wild, and I was expecting it to be good, but I was not expecting it to be this good. They did amazing. I think they should have gotten two 8s for sure, but again, it's kind of nice to start out with lower scores because then we can see more improvement and, like, there's somewhere to go. So the seven, I'm okay with that. But they did so good. He is gonna go far, for sure. He could win the whole thing. We'll see how next week goes.