Martine Syms

16 Sep 2026 · 1 h 24 min · 23 chapters

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In short

Martine Syms discusses her multidisciplinary art practice (publishing, photography, video, installation, performance), her conceptual approach to entrepreneurship, and how myths, religion, and AI shape her work. She also talks about fashion as identity, her childhood influences, and projects like her sitcom She Mad and the film The African Desperate (showing on MUBI). She explains her AI character Teenie and her interest in suffering, cruelty, and “anti-sadism” in systems.

Guest backgrounds

Martine Syms is a conceptual artist and filmmaker. She opened a project-based shop/gallery called Golden Age after graduating from SAIC. She made a solo show at MoMA at age 30. Her work spans multiple mediums and includes fashion collaborations and text-based garments.

Key claims

“Conceptual entrepreneur” was a term she coined at 19; she later accepted it. She frames myths as unreliable, making them useful for thinking about trauma and suffering. She uses AI to explore a “depraved” side of humanity and to model shadow selves. She argues efficiency-driven systems can become sadistic unless “anti-sadism” is programmed.

Notable examples

Teenie (a swearing, mean 3D shadow persona); her hoodie text “You are not a machine”; her video Bitch Zone inspired by a Tyra Banks etiquette camp; her interest in the Book of Job; Walter De Maria’s Lightning Field; and her film line “I’m attracted to that that disgusts me.”

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Martine's Fashion Choices

1:24 to 2:30

Martine discusses her outfit choices and the significance of her clothing.

“My shirt is Sarah Aphrodite and I've kind of been, I go through phases of wearing the same clothes a lot and this shirt has been one of the things I've been wearing all the time.”

Exploring Identity and Art

2:30 to 4:30

Martine reflects on her identity as a conceptual entrepreneur and her artistic influences.

“And you had a solo show at MoMA when you were 30.”

The Concept of Original Sin

4:30 to 7:58

Martine shares her thoughts on mythology, sin, and the influence of Greek mythology.

“questions about yourself and your identity.”

Personal Experiences with the Paranormal

7:58 to 11:43

Discussion on Martine's encounters with the paranormal and how it affects her work.

“I felt like looking at your art, there was some sort of, I could imagine that somehow in your repertoire.”

Childhood Creativity and Identity

11:43 to 14:01

Martine reminisces about her childhood creativity in making clothes and shaping her identity.

“And I think about sort of like the idea of original sin as just being what we call trauma now.”

Personal Fashion Journey

14:01 to 22:54

Explore the childhood experiences and influences on Martine's fashion sense.

“And I was wondering, is there something that you made again and again?”

Teenie and AI Exploration

23:04 to 28:09

Discussion on Martine's creation of a 3D model and her reflections on AI.

“another week, another new episode of Bird's Eye View.”

Exploring Cruelty in AI and Humanity

28:09 to 31:09

Learn about the intersection of AI, human cruelty, and the philosophical implications.

“Like you talk about the slave trade and the Holocaust.”

The Impact of a Strict Upbringing

31:09 to 34:09

Discover how a strict upbringing and parental influence shaped the guest's identity and creativity.

“Because your parents homeschooled you and encouraged you to be an artist.”

Experiences at Etiquette Camp

34:09 to 38:49

Uncover the surprising and often traumatic lessons learned at an etiquette camp led by Tyra Banks.

“and like uh great taste in music and always listening to music and my mom was an rn she was a nurse first in an er then in labor and delivery for a long time and she wrote.”
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The Influence of Astrology in Fashion

38:49 to 42:03

Explore how astrology plays a role in the guest's life and creative processes, particularly in the fashion industry.

“But at the time, I think, yeah, I was 12 or 13.”

Astrology Conversations and Personal Insights

42:03 to 44:18

Explore the host's deep interest in astrology and its influence on personal life.

“i use an app called time passages oh where i have everyone's chart all my friends charts and everything and i look at my transits and yeah i mean i love mrs brada And she's fab.”

Cameras and Photography Discussions

44:18 to 48:25

Delve into the nuances of photography and the artistic process behind it.

“That was actually what kicked off my podcast era.”

Fashion Statements and Personal Expression

49:52 to 54:07

Discuss the significance of wearable art and powerful statements in fashion.

“It would be an obligation on the part of Secretary Hegseth and President Trump to say, look, here's why these officers didn't meet our standards.”

Experiences at Walter de Maria's Lightning Field

54:07 to 56:00

Reflect on the profound personal experience at the art installation and its implications.

“always wanted a I heard about that like some decades ago and thought about it so much and And then when I saw that you'd visited and in your talk at Deer, is it pronounced Deer?”

Exploring the Concept of Lightning in Art

56:00 to 57:50

Discussing the metaphor of lightning in relation to sculpture and perception.

“And he was like, I was really trying to chat with him.”

Attraction to Disgust

57:50 to 1:00:00

Examining the idea of being attracted to things that disgust us and self-awareness.

“I mean, and I wonder, are you attracted to things that disgust you?”

The Role of Narcissism in Art

1:00:00 to 1:04:50

Discussing the necessity of narcissism in the artistic process and its implications.

“But I think because sometimes I think about the studio as, like, almost like this space of shame where you're just, like, sitting in there.”

Fashion Choices and Personal Identity

1:04:50 to 1:10:03

Delving into how personal style and fashion choices reflect identity and mood.

“And you said I've always been very particular about the way I dress.”

The Impact of First Impressions

1:10:03 to 1:13:26

Explore how physical appearance can influence attraction and relationships.

“But essentially, I had made out, not even made out, a kiss.”

Artistic Inspiration and Creative Process

1:13:26 to 1:19:17

Learn about Martine Syms' creative journey and the influences behind her work.

“I've had that feeling, certainly, especially when I was like in my tender days.”

Nostalgia in Modern Media

1:19:17 to 1:23:53

Discuss the evolution of reality TV and its impact on personal narratives.

“We shot earlier this year in New Orleans, and it was great.”

Closing Remarks with Martine Syms

1:24:00 to 1:24:21

Martine Syms reflects on her experience on the podcast and upcoming exhibitions.

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1:16Welcome to Fashion Neurosis, Martine Sims. Thank you. Happy to be here. Can you tell me what you're wearing today and why you chose these particular clothes? I'm wearing a necklace by Medea. My shirt is Sarah Aphrodite and I've kind of been, I go through phases of wearing the same clothes a lot and this shirt has been one of the things I've been wearing all the time. My skirt is from Prada. I wanted to wear a mini skirt to accentuate my legs and my boots are margela and they were on a shoot um i did with hayley wolins she had these shoes and i was like oh my god these are perfect i have to find them so they became like a bit of a hunt for me and then i found them i love them they're so comfortable yeah like the perfect boot i might have to go on a hunt with those boots i've always wanted to meet hayley well how do you say her name hayley wallens yeah she's such a brilliant stylist she is so good she's a genius yeah i love her how about your underwear my underwear from intimacy i don't know where the bra my mom actually gave me this bra really i don't know i think she bought it there's a place that was in monrovia california called wizard of bras first it was in pasadena and they went out of business but that was like where i got my first bra so i think she bought all this stuff when they went out of business and this is one of the one she got for me it's really and then i'm wearing can't see them but red intimacy underwear and the matching nail with the bra oh yeah this is my friend johanna was like i never do a red actually this is maybe the first time in my life really but my friend johanna was like it's a power color and you need to be cunty for this opening yes so go red so i did it she gave me like some color choices it's feeling good it's really good no it's very refined i love the arrangement of west's one color connects with another it's it's a sophisticated and the unexpected combinations yeah good and the red is kind of like a motif in one of the pieces that'll be in my show so i was like yeah i'm gonna i'm gonna flow with the red because you're an artist who works in multiple mediums publishing photography video installation and performance.

4:17And you had a solo show at MoMA when you were 30. And your feature film, The African Desperate, is showing on MUBI. And you made a sitcom called She Mad. You must be used to questions about yourself and your identity. And you describe yourself as a conceptual entrepreneur. And I wondered, what does that mean? And how does that help us to understand your work? Yes, the conceptual entrepreneur was a phrase that I came up with when I was 19. I graduated from the School of the Art Institute of Chicago, and I opened a kind of project-based shop that was called Golden Age. And when I was leaving Art Institute, at the time, the school was very, like, painting-heavy.

5:16focused that was kind of the main department so I left kind of feeling like I wasn't necessarily an artist but I was very good at organizing things and writing so I create I opened like a gallery space and I still thought of it sort of as a creative practice so I came up with that term inspired by Sol LeWitt, who had a quote that was something like, he makes the machine that makes the art. So I was kind of like, okay, well, that was his definition for conceptual art. So I thought, okay, I'm going to make this space or this project that would be a machine that makes art. But I've gone in and out of it.

6:06I used to hate it. It was a long time where I was like, oh, God, I tried to get it off my Wikipedia and my search results. And when we were doing press for African Desperate, the publicist, I was like, my number one goal, get rid of conceptual entrepreneur. But I've kind of accepted it at this point. It's like, I do understand what I was thinking. Yeah, because at that moment, did you think you may not be a maker, that you may be an instigator? Yeah, I thought of myself more maybe going down like arts admin. I was applying to business schools, which was really insane. Thank God I didn't get anywhere.

6:56I went to visit Stanford at one point and I was like bored out of my fucking mind in the seminar. I was like, I think you like economics, not business. But yeah, I was like, maybe I'll be more like a curator or like I worked at a gallery at the time. So I was thinking like, yeah. But everyone who would come in the shop would always be like, so is this your art project? And I was like, no, it's a business. But it was an art project. Yeah. And it took me a while to realize that. It's great that they saw that and kept reminding you to be an artist and not a business person. You were raised going to church, but you said that you hated it and preferred mythology.

7:48And my school was really big on mythology. And I wondered, did you have a favorite God and what story you thought about the most. And also, yesterday I heard this story that I've never heard from Greek mythology that Zeus originally created humans with four arms and four legs and a head with two faces, but fearing the power, he split them apart, condemning them to spend the rest of their lives searching for their other half. I felt like looking at your art, there was some sort of, I could imagine that somehow in your repertoire. Have you ever heard of that story? I've only heard the second part where you're looking for your other half.

8:41But I didn't realize there was like a forearm, double face creature. creature but i think about that a lot i guess in terms of like in my artwork there's a lot of avatars of myself or sort of like proxies or in things i write like shadow selves i'm very interested in sin yes my favorite topic uh i've kind of decided the book of job has become my favorite story and what is that story in a nutshell it's basically job is a good christian he has a beautiful family with like four daughters and four sons and cattle and land and a beautiful wife and he's wealthy and he fears God. And then Satan asked God, how do you know Job really believes in you?

9:50Because his life is so good. And God is like, I don't know, he's one of my faves. And then the devil's like, well, can I kind of fuck with him and see if he really believes? And then God says, yes, just don't kill him. So the devil kills his kids, all his cattle, his wife, and leaves him kind of with all these sores like he's a leper. And then three of his friends come to visit him, friends in quotes. And they're kind of like, you had to have done something wrong. God doesn't just like pick on people. And Job's like, I didn't. I've kept my side of the street clean. And basically, he kind of like, there's seven days of silence before his three friends talk.

10:39And then they each think he's done something wrong. Maybe he didn't know what he did wrong, but he's done something. And then in the end, God talks as this like voice from the whirlwind. That's basically about how Job's kind of just a human and can't compete with God. and how dare he question his actions. And it's actually such an insane poem. There's a translation by an author, Stephen Mitchell, that I've really been enjoying. But I was really interested in the devil always. I would have nightmares about the devil when I was growing up. And I remember, like when I was a kid, and one I remember really vividly, the devil was saying this whole speech to me and he used the word sophisticated.

11:32But I didn't know that word. And then I remember waking up and kind of trying to look it up and being like, how could I know this word I don't actually know? So, yeah. And I think about sort of like the idea of original sin as just being what we call trauma now. But it can only exist if you have one God. But if you have multiple gods, it's just their whims. So that's, I think, what I like about the myths. Right, yeah. They're so unreliable that makes them seem less. I suppose if I think about all the Greek gods, you just have to go with their characters rather than thinking everything's because you've done something wrong.

12:26Yeah. Yeah, they just could be jealous or could be lustful or angry. You know, they're just having fun. Yeah. We're subject to their whims. But I like that. I kind of like mythologizing people or mundane things or thinking about moments of pop culture that can feel almost like mythological, like being in your own myth. is that something that how do you get the spark to generate that do you sort of see something or feel something and then build a little myth around it how do I get the spark

13:22I well I have a lot of like what feels like paranormal things that happen to me So I do feel like it's just always present. Is it a recurring paradigm? Yeah, it's a recurring way of living where I'm encountering sort of like beings and magic and, yeah, mythological creatures in my day to day. Or that's how I think about it. Yeah, because you made a lot of your own clothes when you were a child. And I was wondering, is there something that you made again and again? Or were you experimenting with the clothing more? And were you looking to shape your identity with the clothes you were making? Yeah, I was always very picky about what I wore.

14:27and sort of like territorial, wanting to be the only person wearing it. Once when I was a kid, I had this bathing suit I was really into. And then my mom had told our neighbor where we got it. And so she was wearing it the next time we were going to go swimming. And I like lost my mind. And I was like yelling at her to take it off. And then as I was angry with her, I realized that my mom must have been the person to tell them. And then I was like really felt betrayed by her. And I was kind of like, how dare you? Even though it's probably like TJ Maxx or something. But I was like, how dare you reveal where we got this?

15:17and yeah I liked um there's kind of in LA like a area called the alley that's kind of similar to like canal street in New York where you can find bootlegs but also like dead stock and like I like shopping there and I like shopping at thrift stores really early like I sort of was like a little kid dressed like Gen X, like having like a mechanic shirt on or like old Boy Scout shirts. I remember one time when I was in middle school, someone bought a Boy Scout shirt off me on the bus because they said it was like a rare one. And yeah, when I started sewing, it was mostly to make dolls. I was really into dolls and miniatures and I had American girl doll I had an Addy but I didn't like to dress her in the slave clothes so I would make I would buy the other Molly was like the post-war most contemporary one so I'd buy like Molly's stuff and dress her in it and then I started sewing and then And, yeah, I just started altering my clothes so it was like nobody else was wearing them.

16:40And kind of like middle school, high school, I started to, like, screen print slogans on them, which I guess is something I still do. Yeah. One I had for a long time was this hoodie that said, like, you are not a machine. That's really good. which people would always be very curious about. You're not a machine. I could see them reading it. Yeah, I just wanted to have my own look, I think, from an early age. Because was there something that you longed for as a child that you thought would sort of complete you? I longed to be an adult. Yeah, I wasn't really into childhood. You know, I mean, it wasn't bad, but I always wanted to have money and drive.

17:41And like, yeah, I just wanted a kind of independence. I would be those kind of kids who are like trailing way behind their family at the mall or something or movie theaters, like pretending they're there alone. Yeah. Even though clearly they're not because they're a child, but I liked the feeling of that, yeah. I kind of wanted my own life, yeah, yeah. Some of the artists that you cite as early influences are John Waters and Diane Arbus and William Eggleston. And I wondered why you thought or you think that Diane Arbus and William Eggleston still influence young people after all this time. Do you think it's because they show ordinary and enormous suffering without any self-pity?

18:41Yeah. I mean, I think also to your point about mythology, I think with Arbus, she did create these kind of characters through people she was encountering every day in kind of mundane context. but the way she composed them probably also the way she spoke with them to figure out the shooting um i remember yeah seeing a very really early show of hers that really stuck with me and eggleston same thing i think it was the color the color was so specific um not that i would have been able to say that when I saw it, but I can definitely look back and think his palette and his sort of world building was a lot to do with his specific color choices.

19:42And then also thinking if he's like developing those photos, those are, it's like a physical thing he's doing. yeah and um the other john waters i just was like i mean i love him i still love him i worship him yeah he's so fun and funny and i think like i always had this dark sense of humor like a real gallows humor and you know my dad would be like i had a bad attitude I mean, I do have a bad attitude, I guess. But John Waters seemed to exemplify that. And also it was like, I love the idea of just making stuff with your friends. That was inspiring to me. So I, from watching his films, would start to do that with my friends.

20:42Just gather everybody and try to make something. and yeah I also later I didn't realize this but at Mocha when I visited there was a Renee Green installation it's called like Funk Import Export Office and I really loved it but it wasn't until after college that I realized it was her work um when I found out more about her and I was just like doing my own research. And then I also found an old notebook during COVID that said, Richard Prince, remember this artist. You like him. Yes. Which I'm sure my screen printing, I graduated high school very early, and I went to Pasadena City College, and I took a lot of art classes specifically like printmaking because all the printmaking people worked at Gemini who had done all these prints for like many famous artists.

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23:41Because as a child, you taught yourself coding, which is the language used to communicate with a computer. I'm sort of saying that to myself, really, because I've never understood what it actually meant. But you created a 3D model of yourself called Teenie. And is Teenie like having an imaginary friend, except it's not imaginary? me teeny is like a little devil on my shoulder it's like i i actually have a tattoo on my left shoulder that says evil and that's kind of where i imagine teeny sitting right and i think when i was working on that project i was doing a lot of in in exploration sort of research with ai and I was in a few different like fellowship programs.

24:33I was in one that was called Transformations of the Human. It was about forms of intelligence and I was in Google's Artist and Machine Intelligence because I was really interested in trying to copy my voice, which at the time was very hard to do. And the voice is kind of like a fingerprint. it's like everything you go through how your body's shaped how your specific organs are produce your voice so it's like you know now now it's easy to copy but at the time it was harder yeah and yeah so I just started to play around uh with this animated version of myself because I mean, I used to be in a lot more of my videos because I was always available.

25:29And it was very, I don't sleep very well. So it's like something I could work on at 2 a.m. You know what I mean? And yeah, I was interested in kind of using AI, like training it on things I was ashamed of, things I wouldn't talk about because at the time everybody was really like look at AI is making Mozart AI can paint a painting and I was like interested in maybe a more depraved side of humanity and seeing if it could learn that so that's kind of how Teenie came about as as as my shadow personification of my shadow that's so kind of unexpected yeah like she swears and she's kind of mean and the first uh 2018 at sadie cole's i had a show called my thick being which was kind of thinking about um now i'm forgetting the author's name but there was this mechanical engineer that wrote this book about sort of like how we combat efficiency and how efficiency is tied to like you know the holocaust and the slave trade and it but it's this value and it was about making like friction and thickness and And also there's an Adrian Piper piece called Mythic Being.

27:10So I kind of liked My Thick Being. Also because, in all honesty, that was my username on this site called Fab Swingers. My Thick Being. And then I was like, oh, I like this. This is fun. This is a good title. um so i yeah but the show was like you would interact with teeny and you could text with her and yeah she was sort of grumpy but also funny yeah and insightful but uh yeah but that was very early kind of experiment with it and in some ways i was like Like it took a lot and I remember feeling at the opening like I could have faked this and no one would have known. Because with the, you know, the idea of depraved AI, were you curious about people's capacity for cruelty?

28:20Like you talk about the slave trade and the Holocaust. And was that, and like even, you know, thinking about Diane Arbus and William Eggleston, there's such a sense of loneliness and what's happened to people and how people survive such extreme treatment. yeah I'm always interested I guess in suffering in a kind of Buddhist way although one of my friends always jokes that I'm Russian in that way or I'm just like life is suffering and we must deal with it but um I think in one of these uh kind of think tank fellowship programs I was in And one of the originators of AI was talking about that basically it's making certain calculations and it makes the most efficient ones, which are often sadistic.

29:28And he said something to the effect of we had to program an anti-sadism line. And that really stuck with me. because I guess if it's being modeled off of humans, you know, and I'm not someone who's like humans are inherently evil, but I do think that sort of systems are kind of inherently evil. But that really stuck with me, that you would have to program it out because if it would learn the most efficient path, it's often the most sadistic. so as efficiency and all the ways that can mean becomes most important to people then they're also operating in a sadistic way it's so interesting god yeah that kind of yeah that's kind of how i started thinking about it and i think yeah alienation is definitely a theme.

30:34Sometimes I talk about I'm interested in people's journeys underworld to the mythological because I think it's a necessary part of life. And also you understand that people continue to find a way to survive. You know, this is an Anna Nicole Smith quote, but she says, like, people say shit happens and then you die, but they should say shit happens and then you live because that's what it's more like. Yeah, that's really good. Yeah. Because your parents homeschooled you and encouraged you to be an artist. And they sounded wonderful when I was reading all that stuff. But I wondered, it goes against the dictum of the Philip Larkin poem, they fuck you up, your mom and dad, and being a necessity to be a creative person.

31:39Did you have a need to rebel against them? Yeah, I mean, they fucked me up in their own ways. You know, we've come a long way. We've come a long, long way. But my parents were very strict. They were very strict. It was very patriarchal, sort of traditional household. And a lot of respectability politics, which I definitely rebelled against in my style of dress. I used to love, I mean, I still love like a super torn up shirt. I have one that's just like so perfect, the color, the way it's torn. But my parents, if I would try to go out like that, they would tell me I looked homeless and make me change.

32:31But yeah, they were very strict, honestly. And I went to church a lot, at least two times a week, Sundays and Wednesdays, sometimes more. I wasn't allowed to watch MTV, which meant that I watched it every second I could. We weren't allowed to watch The Simpsons because it was disrespectful to the father. The father was an idiot, Simpsons, and that was bad. We shouldn't have that in our mind, the father is who you respect and follow. I don't know. I could go on, you know what I mean? I'm getting the picture. Yeah, but they were, yeah, like at one point I couldn't go out on Saturdays because my dad would say I'd be tired for church on Sunday, no matter what time I would come home.

33:25But then when I was old enough to get a job, my first job, well, I babysat. I was like the church babysitter, so that was my first job. But then I was, I worked at Dairy Queen Orange Julius in the Santa Anita Mall. And I would specifically request Sundays so that I didn't have to go to church. And I remember one time my dad was like, they have to respect your religious beliefs. It's against the law for them to go. I don't know. They just keep booking me Sundays. I don't know what's happening. But they were, I called them kind of like working class hippies. They may be under different circumstances.

34:06They were both very creative. uh my dad was a civil engineer he was a surveyor for la county but he was really good at drawing and like uh great taste in music and always listening to music and my mom was an rn she was a nurse first in an er then in labor and delivery for a long time and she wrote. And when I was younger, she would take me to her, you know, she had an agent. She was trying to write a book. You know, she had written it. She was trying to get a book out there. She went to writing classes. And I remember going to them when I was younger with her, just kind of sitting and doing the writing too.

34:53So I think like they were always very creative and all my cameras, my dad had all these cameras. That's how I started taking photos is I just started taking his cameras and learning how to use them. And yeah, I was really into trying to take period images for some reason. So I would try to go thrift stores and find older clothing and then make my sister or my friends or something kind of play out a scene and shoot them. And yeah, L.A. had a really strong repertory cinema scene at the time. so there was all kinds of movies I could always go see. And since I was homeschooled, I had a lot of free time, especially like around the age I would be in high school.

35:43So I spent a lot of time with the movies. And at 13, you were sent to an etiquette camp led by Cara Banks. So you described it as a traumatic experience, and later you turned it into a work called Bitch Zone. and what was the etiquette that they were teaching you there? I think they would describe it as a empowerment.

36:14T-zone. I really would love to work with Tyra on some sort of reenactment or film of this, but I don't, oh, I know how I got it. My mom was working at a nonprofit called The Birthing Project, and T-Zone sent a call out to, I don't know, probably some inner city youth. And my mom saw it through her job, and then she was like, you should apply to this. And I was like, I don't want to apply to that. I don't like modeling. I thought it was like a modeling camp. but she made me they made me write essay for it and then I got in and it was like a week sleepaway camp in Santa Barbara um where you did like ropes courses and ropes yeah like you know like truss falls and like rock climbing, like jumping off a pole and like stuff like that.

37:33And then every night she would kind of hold court and do like a lecture or like a fireside chat. That's where I'm looking for like fireside chat about insecurities or like Like Grace or like when she was a model. This was before her talk show. This was before America's Next Top Model. But she had obviously was a very well-known model at the time. Yeah, she was amazing. And it was fun. It was funny. Like I had a good cabin. There was one girl in my cabin who was an amazing singer. sometimes I try to google her and see if she's still singing her name is Charlene but um yeah I don't know there's another girl named Sasha I remember I was one of the younger kids but it was like 12 to 18 I think and And I don't know, it was such a funny experience.

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38:47But the funniest night to me, which I sort of immortalized in B-Zone, was we did what I've come to learn was an exercise. But at the time, I think, yeah, I was 12 or 13. I didn't know what we were doing, but we were split up into racial groups. Although there was like a few categories that would be questionable these days. You know, there was kind of like an other group and like a mixed group. And anyway, and you were supposed to say like one thing, one stereotype about your group and then one stereotype about another group. And that kind of passed it on to that group. But obviously there was no like facilitators.

39:32It was like Tyra Banks leading this. And it got really heated really quickly. And like everyone was crying and upset. And even when they were describing the rules, I remember being like, this seems like a bad idea. Yeah. A very bad idea. But it stuck with me. And I made a video about it. So it was fun. Yeah, we had a media day, too. A day where all this press came. We got a lot of free shit, like bags and makeup and books. And, like, you know, we were all – I kept joking that I was going to pretend I was poor because that was what it seemed like they wanted you to do. All the girls were mostly middle class, but it seemed very, like, the way the reporters were talking to us.

40:25And – They wanted some tragedy. Yeah, they wanted some tragedy, and I was happy to give it to them. I liked lying. I liked – I loved lying. I lied a lot as a kid. I was like, yeah, what? Yes, it's been really hard. Yeah, I'm a single mom. Whatever, whatever would come to my mind. But then for kind of a while afterwards, we would have these meetups. Like we went to WNBA games. We went. And I went to her first taping of her show, which was really weird. Will Smith was on it. And I was seated in the front row. He kept staring at me. I think he was just choosing a focal point. But I just remember the whole time being like, I just keep staring at Will Smith.

41:24But yeah, it was fun. I have a lot of funny photos from that time. Yeah. because you've directed fashion campaigns for Louis Vuitton Prada and you described Mrs. Prada as chill and then you said okay maybe not chill but I'm not chill either and you said Mrs. Prada was like oh you're a Taurus me too and it sounded like quite a tender thing for her to say and how important are star signs to you and do you use any of the apps like co-star or the pattern oh i'm so deep into astrology i can't i can't do the pop astrology i use an app called time passages oh where i have everyone's chart all my friends charts and everything and i look at my transits and yeah i mean i love mrs brada And she's fab.

42:25She's amazing. But she was like, when we had this convo, it was on Zoom, but she was in this very like, oh, my God. It's a Kubrick film, but now I'm blanking on it. Where there's a big table. There's a big table around. It was very like United Nations, but just me and her talking. which is the dr strange yes dr strange love exactly dr strange love that was what it felt like like i was like she was in a dr strange love room and i was in my studio but when she recognized my taurian nature i think she understood the chill not chill yeah you know That's the Taurus, basically. It's always both of them.

43:22Yeah. My moon is in Taurus. What are your three? What are your three? I'm Aries with moon in Taurus and Leo rising. Oh, I'm also Leo rising. Oh, great. So it's good you do this show, you know, because the struggle of Leo rising, is that they're supposed to be in the spotlight, but often when they're the rising, they don't like it. Yes. So I've been trying to – I had a really great reading with this – I call him an Irish druid whose name's Andrew.

44:08He's amazing, though. But he was like, really like, I have to lean into the sun. And I have to lean into the Leo more. So I've been trying. That was actually what kicked off my podcast era. Really? Yeah. Yeah. His encouragement that I have to just do it. It's kind of exciting when someone encourages. My shrink encourages me in that respect to be more visible. but I don't know which of the other star signs are trying to encourage my hiding out, which is my kind of instant position, like be on the side or the best friend of. Yeah. It could be also the placement. I'm like, now I want to look at your chart.

45:01I will do that later. Yes, I can't wait. I mean, I'm not really, I say I'm not into star signs, but in the end, anything that's any kind of communication thread is great. And I love it when someone just throws it out there. Yeah. I find it's like a useful framework, you know. I don't, like, trust it blindly, but I do always find it funny when someone's so, like, against it. Yeah, yeah. I'm like, okay, okay. Also, it's silly in a kind of really sympathetic way. And then I find I have things like loads of Scorpios in my life I love. especially men my son my ex-husband my boyfriend my first love yeah scorpios are sexy yeah i have i have that with aquarius everyone i've ever been in love with has been an aquarius really yeah i don't with the way the taurus and aquarius kind of like inverted but yeah i'm drawn to them Sometimes I'm like, before I even know, I'm just like, if I feel that strong pull, I'm like, you're an Aquarius, aren't you?

46:25Oh, God. I'll never get that right. Yeah. I love the photograph taken of you by Hedy Slimane. And I wondered, did he ask you any questions? He's quite known to be a silent person. Yeah. We ended up talking about cameras, actually. Yeah. and like why he likes black and white, which kind of maybe to our Arbus was about it being, he didn't use this word, but other world, you know, like different than how we're seeing stuff and the contrast. And I'm always very nosy about what cameras people are using. so I'm very like I'm just laughing as I was thinking about years ago Frank Ocean was doing his like tour Spike Jones was directing it and I was like really keyed into all the cameras and the show I thought it looked so good and then like immediately I didn't know Spike was directing it but right after backstage he was the first person I ran into and I was like of course you directed this and then I was like what cameras are you using and he showed me like his list his set list with all the cameras and I was like okay taking a photo of that I'm just nosy in that way I mean so yeah we talked a lot about cameras and shooting and I like I like it's similar to directing you know it's like I've shadowed for a few people but you kind of just have to do it.

48:08You don't get that much practice. You practice by doing it. And talking with people and I'm not the most, I am not that gregarious. So it's like when I'm shooting people, I think that's why I love a zoom lens. I don't necessarily want to go up and have this whole conversation. so I like to know how different people approach it and approach their subjects yeah it's like a recipe isn't it it's so much vital information so fascinating so like any good millennial I have a love-hate relationship with Gen Z it's the phenomenon rattling millennials they just look at you they want something bigger themselves Lifestyle is a priority.

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51:18That's kind of about like honestly just enjoying the small things in life and saying fuck it about all the rest of it. And it was actually part of my horoscope. That's how I just thought about that. That's how I found that poem. So it was Rob Bresney, Free Will Astrology, a West Coast legend. It was in a Taurus horoscope at one point that it was like, Taurus, you need to embrace this. To hell with your suffering, blah, blah, blah. And I think maybe that's why I relate to the Book of Job. I can get very like, why me? I'm being punished. I'm being punished by the gods right now, which probably led me down the path I'm on in good ways.

52:19But that's where that came from. And then, yeah, Pam, I've known them for a long time. We lived in Paris at the same time, though I kind of knew them. We really have all these Australian friends. I don't know why or how. so yeah we did I think we did three I think we did three capsules yeah um and a lot of it I repurposed other artworks that had text in them or documentation of it and I think most of the time I'd like I just love it when you're walking through the street or like in New York you know when someone has this like graphic on the back of their shirt and I like I love bootlegs I love mistranslations of stuff like I think yeah like the alley that I mentioned I used to have a studio over there signage like street signage I was a very early reader and I would read all the signs and so I feel like that kind of it's like a sign to me yeah yeah yeah I find that I love I love a protest because the things that you sometimes see people are wearing are so distilled and it's so powerful and sometimes when you walk down the street and you see someone in something and they you just have an exchange yeah look and you know everything and I love that me too it's fun tears because you you um visited Walter de Maria's lightning field yeah which I've always wanted a I heard about that like some decades ago and thought about it so much and And then when I saw that you'd visited and in your talk at Deer, is it pronounced Deer?

54:22In your talk at Deer, you said that you told your shrink that you identified with the rod and not with the lightning. Yeah. And I thought that seemed like a good sign. I wondered what you were thinking. Yeah, I was really taken by the rods and also just that it was kind of a bucket list thing for me. I think I went for my 37th birth? No, 36, something like that. It was a birthday present, though, that a friend took me as a birthday gift. And so my birthday was like over the course of the time we were there. And it was so beautiful, especially like the sunset. The sunrise and the sunset is like one of the most dramatic things I've ever seen where one side is totally dark and then one side is still day.

55:26And because of how far out it is, there's no light pollution, all the stars. Everything is so vivid. And I just kept walking the path at different times of the day. And the ways that they're altered are kind of like optical to keep it, to make it look straight, like you could put a piece of paper on it. Yeah, I just kept thinking about the rods. Also, I really wanted to go during lightning season. Yeah. And we were there during lightning season. But the caretaker who drove us out had been the same caretaker since the start of the project before it was even finished. And he was like, I was really trying to chat with him.

56:10I think because he didn't want to chat. But I was like, this man knows so much. He must tell me. So I was asking him a lot of questions because I was up in the front with him. And I was asking him about the lightning. And he was kind of like, it's very rare for there to be lightning. And I was like, oh, it's like conceptual. You know, like the lightning is kind of like in your head. And like when you're walking around it, I mean, it does happen sometimes, but it doesn't take away any of the beauty. It didn't feel any less that there was no lightning. So I think that's kind of part of what I was thinking about of like the kind of potentiality that's in sculpture.

56:53and they disappear over the course of the day because of the way the light is. And then, yeah, my shrink was like, why is it that you identify with the rod and not the lightning? And I was like, I don't know. It's quite Taurus, the rod, isn't it? Yeah. Yeah, I was like, I don't know. Didn't even really think about it. I probably was like, the lightning's conceptual, man. It's a good idea, though, because, I mean, all I know is such an incredible idea, a lightning field. Yeah. It's like a sort of sacrifice that you go to sacrifice yourself on the off chance. But clearly that doesn't happen very often.

57:39Yeah, it's really beautiful. I highly recommend it. Yeah, I'd love to go. There's a line from your film, The African Desperate, in which the main character says, I'm attracted to that that disgusts me. I mean, and I wonder, are you attracted to things that disgust you? Definitely.

58:05I'm trying to be less attracted to it. But another thing my shrink said to me recently is that I suffer fools because I find it amusing, to be honest. I love a weird scene. I like to see things play out. I'm a curious cat. But another, I mean, you're catching the five, but another psychic of mine was like, you have to stop entertaining this. Next time you're bored, watch a fucking movie. and I've been trying to take that in stride but yeah I find I mean repulsion is sort of attraction yeah yeah I agree it's interesting yeah and also what starts off as being repellent can sometimes not be repellent when you allow it it just becomes part of something else and it's it's not so kind of such a threat yeah now that's a good point you kind of neutralize it or humanize it yeah yeah i read that you said narcissism is very important to an artist and i don't think you can even start to be an artist if you're not somewhat narcissistic And I wondered why narcissistic rather than very selfish?

59:41Hmm. I remember that. That was GQ because they made it a big headline. That was like, be a narcissist. Why did I say that? What was I thinking? Well, I do think it's like, you know, there's a spectrum of narcissism. I think it's become one of those overused, like, gaslight, like, pop psychology terms. But I think because sometimes I think about the studio as, like, almost like this space of shame where you're just, like, sitting in there. You know, it can be other things, too, but sometimes you're just, like, stupid, stupid, stupid. But also, like, I don't know, you kind of have to work through all that to, like, get to something.

1:00:34And the pursuit of, like, doing that, because it is kind of a journey of self-knowledge or self in some ways, can be a bit narcissistic, you know. Or, like, I have friends. I'm thinking of one friend in particular who's always like, you just disappear before you have a show. Like you're gone. No one hears from you. No one does that, which I guess could be selfish too, but I don't think they're mutually exclusive. But I think the specific, like, looking, you know, looking into the pond, contemplating, looking into your blank canvas or, like, whatever you're working on, blank page, there's a bit of narcissism just to think that anyone else would care, which I think you need.

1:01:28I think you need a healthy dose of it. Yeah, yeah. Because you have to make people care about it. But yeah, just to think someone's going to care what I'm writing or doing right now. Yeah, it's a little silly. Then I suppose narcissism has so many, I mean, I don't really know much about it, except for everyone uses it now. but it always seems to suggest that it's selfishness without noticing the expense or the tax on someone else or some people close to you. And my father was pretty selfish about his art, and he said, art is selfish, and I have to put it before anything else. but he seemed aware that he was selfish and he didn't make up for it.

1:02:24Yeah, that there's consequences to it. Sometimes I think about that. Yeah. Yeah, I am making a choice often to be in my studio or working on something rather than doing other things. And, yeah, it can have consequences. is, you know, same as like musician friends. It's like being on tour all the time. You don't see people as much or you don't see the same people as much. And I do think that's part of being an artist. You know, it's one of the, I don't know, constraints. Yeah. It's one of the conditions in some ways. You just have to be spending a lot of time in your studio, whatever form that takes.

1:03:08But, yeah, I think narcissism is also – I do think there are a lot of, like, true narcissists in our world as well, though, let me be clear. But I think part of that is turning everything into being about you. Yeah. That, like, not being aware that – Some people really don't care what you're doing. Yeah. And their reaction may have nothing to do with you. But I think, yeah, on the spectrum, thankfully I'm not that type. No. Just a bit selfish, just a bit focused. I do agree my art is kind of the priority in my life. But that seems like a good thing because there's so many assaults on, you know, distracting you, one from making something, everything, you know, hoovering, eating a nut, you know, just anything but getting down to it.

1:04:28So I think it's a great thing to be selfish in the cause of something. Yeah. I can't imagine not doing it at this point, like the practice side of it at least. Yeah. Yeah. And you said I've always been very particular about the way I dress. And where do you start with an outfit?

1:05:01Well, I can be very obsessive about articles of clothing. They become almost like, I don't know, they're the only thing that feels comfortable to me. I think part of that is I can have really extreme body dysmorphia. And they'll be like, okay, this feels good. this I like to wear I like the fabric I like the cut um which has nothing necessarily do with like it being flattering or anything like that it's just there's something about the garment that I like and I'll wear it over and over and over again and then so if I'm in that kind of like groove that's our starting point right but I really enjoy getting dressed and sometimes I joke that the more depressed I am the more nice I look yeah and so I can relate that I kind of just I don't know I really try on a million clothes like way too many clothes every morning like throwing stuff not that until I feel I genuinely feel kind of like a like click yeah like okay that's it today but sometimes I crack myself up I'll have like such a huge pile I'm like you're not even going anywhere i mean like today did you start with the boot or because it's such a an immaculate outfit it's so beautiful how you've put this look together and i'm like where did she start you could have started anywhere it's so i started with the shirt because yeah this is my go-to shirt right now and if I'm somewhere I don't I actually never wear a bra really except for style reasons yeah yeah I only wear it for fashion the day-to-day I never ever wear a bra I just I stopped on a while ago and I don't care I feel fine sometimes you want the silhouette you know but otherwise no um but i was like so sometimes if i don't want this to be so exposed i turn it around oh yeah so my the heart's on my back which is also a fun parting thing leaving somewhere that's lovely um and then i tried on a bunch of outfits with some friends And kind of like before I go do a show, I will do like a style out.

1:07:40What a good. Just so I know I have a sense of like what I want to wear to the things I'm going to and the dinner and the opening and that kind of thing.

1:07:54Yeah, it's kind of like one of those procrastination but like essential tasks to being like I'm in the show. And so, yeah, I knew I wanted to show my legs. But I'm wearing a lot of shorts because it's summer. But then this was the skirt that everyone liked. And I hadn't worn this one in a while, but I used to wear this skirt a lot too. And because Prada has great skirts. I have another, like, knee length wool, not the nylon. But it's perfect. It's so wearable. and then I was going to wear maybe these red heels that felt like too much red and maybe too much Prada though I do love Prada I wear a lot of it but then I changed into like six other outfits and then I came back to this I was like maybe I want to be more business so I put on some trousers I love a suit also because it's you look really nice but you're so comfortable you're basically wearing sweatpants so i was like oh maybe i want to be more cozy and like warm but and then i had this vikera shirt that's kind of like cone boobs like madonna style oh wow so i was just going through a few things and then ultimately i came back to the first choice yeah I was like yeah this is right this is right yeah don't shake it and if you fancy someone and don't like something they're wearing does it kill your attraction oh it's so hard it's so hard yes it's really I think of two I think of two very specific instances one although I will say I've always been a flip-flop hater, but I've embraced it this year.

1:09:54This year, I've been wearing the square toe Javianas around the neighborhood, around the Upper West Side, as I walk in the dog, and I feel so free. I'm like, oh, this is what everyone's talking about, but I've always been uh not into germs so i could never do it but i'm medicated i'm in a good place i finally felt the freedom of a flip-flop the square toe i didn't know that yeah the square toe javianas are where it's at okay um need to go there but i yeah there's one guy who i was kind of like, I mean, he had a real blown out portion of our romance. But essentially, I had made out, not even made out, a kiss.

1:10:45We shared a kiss at a party and then hadn't talked in like five or six years and then reconnected. I didn't even know his name or anything at this party. Anyway, when we reconnected, it was cute. It was like a fun little moment. We had breakfast. and then like he came over he cooked breakfast it was cute then the next day I ran into him at a gallery I could hear his voice when I walked in and I was like how weird I've never seen him at any gallery or anything and this was one I was right by my studio so I was like how odd and then I walked in and he was wearing these flip-flops and his toes were so disgusting and it really just I feel it was God.

1:11:35It was God saying, no, Martine. No. And it did. It shut down. I couldn't look back. Then another person who was a writer that I was kind of into, I hung out with him and he came and he was wearing a, very ill-fitting blazer, terrible color, terrible fabric, over like a hoodie. And yeah, I'm sounding so judgmental, but I am. Yes. So I can't lie. Turned off. I was, it's really turned off. I was like, wow, that's how you dress. That's insane. but it's only when people try and fail. I think if you just are like, I don't care about clothes, then it wouldn't give me the ick as much. Yeah, yeah. It's such a strange thing how sometimes there it is and it doesn't matter and sometimes it's like a switch that there's no turning back from.

1:12:52It's fascinating. Yeah. And if you do override it, which I have done in the past, it always has terrible consequences. It's like it comes back to haunt you to say, you should have paid attention when you thought you had to close. I remember someone opening the door and this guy I was seeing was the worst outfit. It was like he was in the chorus of a pantomime. And I just wanted to shut the door immediately. Yes, yes. I just didn't anyway. I've had that feeling, certainly, especially when I was like in my tender days. I've definitely rounded a corner and saw the person before they saw me and been like, would it be terrible if I just ran away?

1:13:47But I'm very good at leaving situations. That's one of my strong suits. When I got to go, I got to go. Yeah, that's really good. I just, I don't have, maybe from all my years of church, that used up all my stamina. That's an interesting notion. Well, that's where you learn to have a cutoff point. Yeah. So now if I have that feeling, I'm like, I got to get out of here. Yeah. Yeah. And you've got an exhibition opening at Sadie Cole's gallery here in London with a piece that I really love called Relo. And it seemed to me almost like an episode of a miniseries, though through such an eccentric lens about the values of the characters in it.

1:14:42And there's a moment at the start of the film where the 14-year-old boy is responding to a questionnaire. And one of the things he says is, I'm also a follower and not a leader. And it's quite a striking thing to know about himself. And he also says sex is not important to him to have in the near future. And what's the message? That is actually his real answers from his real questionnaires applying to be part of the real world. And the film is based on kind of an anecdote I knew for a long time from one of my best friends, Brent David Freeney, who he works with a lot of musicians. Like he's working with Madonna right now on Hall Confessions 2.

1:15:38Oh, wow. But he's a lifelong pop stan. And we shared a studio for a long time in Los Angeles. And our first kind of bonding was over the real world. We had both been like really big fans of the show. And they used to make these books after every season. And we both had like our books when we moved into the studio. Oh, wow. From when we were like kids. And I was like, oh, you liked that? I liked that. What season was your favorite season? This and that. And he kind of revealed that he was still friends with one of the cast members. And then like one of my favorites, which is Melissa Beck, Nay Howard.

1:16:25She was in New Orleans season nine.

1:16:33And years later, I kind of found out his mom was digitizing footage during COVID and sent him a video of them going to the real world house. And like the first part of it actually, though, was just him receiving a letter from Melissa. Yeah. So I knew they had become pen pals and that they were still friends and this kind of thing, but I didn't know the whole story. And his mom sent this clip that was like seven minutes of him freaking out receiving this letter. And as soon as I saw it, I was just like, oh, I want to make this as a film. It's kind of like perfect cinema. And it took a minute. Normally I use material from my own life of where it intersects with history and sort of pop culture.

1:17:30Or where it mimics or repeats something that I may have seen on TV or in a movie. You know, I'm kind of interested in those as like ways we learn, things we copy. And images that we're obsessed with or I was obsessed with. And so it took a while to work on them to get them to let me do it. I had to kind of like build the case. But a couple, you know, we went to New Orleans to visit. He kind of drove me around. We had grown up. He hadn't really been back much. He moved during Katrina. So all his family moved. So we, like, took a trip, kind of a research trip. And, like, I was just talking to him.

1:18:19And we were going to the house. and his mom found more footage of them actually driving to go, like, scope the house out. Yeah, it was so good. Yeah, I started to just, like, put it together from there and, like, work on the script and work on the story and being in New Orleans. You know, I love going to a friend's hometown with them and kind of getting that kind of tour. It's always really insightful and things that they wouldn't tell you, not out of omission, but just out of forgetting or not thinking about when you're in that space when it comes to life. And I think a lot of the ways I shoot is very site-specific.

1:19:03It's important for me to kind of like immediately go to the place and put myself there and see who I'll meet and talk to and work with. Yeah, it was really fun. We shot earlier this year in New Orleans, and it was great. I love it there. It's a great city and a lot of talented people. So it's fun. And working with Melissa, hearing her perspective on what it was. So it's kind of a nice loop in a way because my thesis project for college was actually about the real world. Really? Yeah. That was, you know, 20 years ago. Before I, I hadn't really made the link until I finished the project. But I was like, oh, how crazy.

1:19:54I'm like circled back. Yeah, it's really good. There's so many moments. Like when you're talking about the site specific and when the way you film the house, it's like we're suddenly seeing an ancient temple. Yeah. And the lighting. And then when he says towards the end where he says, I need this, I crave this. And it's like, oh, my God, whatever. It could be about anything, but it's so passionate and it's so striking the way he's not interested in sex, but all his craving and need is being in this real world or somehow being affected by it. Yeah. I think it's like Eros still, you know, that desire.

1:20:53Yeah. And through this person who in some ways he became, it became his target because that was the person he saw on the news. Like when he saw the news segment they were shooting. But it could have been anybody in some way, you know. But she became this projection, this kind of figurehead of how he wanted to live. Yeah. And I think that that was the interesting thread between the two of them. Because when I talked to her, she was like in a similar place a few years before to Brent. And even when they interacted, you know, she was only 21, I think. And she had moved from kind of a smaller town in the South.

1:21:46and she thought it was going to be this freedom and that was kind of what was marketed or like told to them and I think that's what Brent keyed into as well because he talks about he's told me that like once he was able to make contact with her he felt like he could do anything and it was like a year or two later he was in LA you know because she had moved to LA so that was the place to go and it kind of it kind of like set him on this path and I think yeah it's been interesting to talk to her about her own experience about it especially because it was before I mean reality tv now is such a it's everything you know it completely changed so it was fun it was fun and really interesting just thinking about that moment because that was before survivors before reality TV was a category.

1:22:43And there's so many weird threads. But yeah, it's a cool, I'm really happy with the way it turned out. And even the making of it being period, I was working with this young actor and he didn't know how to flip a magazine, which really, he was crazy. I was like you know we used to like get a magazine and before you like scoured every page you would just kind of like flip through it and then I was like flipping through it and I show it to him and then I'm like okay here and then he couldn't really like do the fan and I had to keep showing it to him and then he was like what's this half weird half page and I was like oh those were like perfumes perfumes and business ads and but everybody was like he was like oh I've never really seen a magazine god that's like this is crazy Darwin is like sped up yeah he was like where did you get all these old magazines I was like they're mine oh my god they're my collection well it's a brilliant piece I can't wait to see it in in the gallery thank you yeah it'll also be at London Film Festival oh great really I look forward to that thank you so much Martine Sims for being on Fashion Neurosis it's been amazing to talk to you yeah this has been so great thank you so much

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From the publisher

Martine Syms is a multidisciplinary artist working across film, video, photography, and publishing.

Born and raised in California, she studied at the School of the Art Institute of Chicago and gained an MFA from Bard College. From 2007 to 2012, she co-directed Golden Age, an artist-run space in Chicago, and had her first solo exhibition at Bridget Donaghue gallery in New York in 2015. She has exhibited at international art institutions including the ICA, MoMA, Sadie Coles HQ, and the Walker Art Museum.

Syms has published several books including PICTURES 2014-2024 and SHE MAD, and has her own publishing imprint, Dominica Publishing, which publishes artist books and zines.

Syms practice combines conceptual grit, humour and social commentary. Her videos and installations are highly technical, reflecting her acute attention to detail in cinematography, sound and editing. Syms uses filmmaking as a means of storytelling to uncover personal and societal truths and employs sound to foster dialogue and form/perform identities. In 2023, she made her feature directorial debut with The African Desperate, and is premiering her new film RW-LO in a solo show at Sadie Coles HQ in September 2026.

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