Choose the Love That Feels Safe, Mutual, and Real

0:05Walking away when you're disrespected is one of the most radical acts of self-worth there is. Decide today that you are no longer going to tolerate confusing behavior, inconsistent communication, complete emotional unavailability. that you are only going to surround yourself with people who support you, who are there for you, who inspire you, and certainly not people who drain you. See, we are wired to connect and we are wired to attach. And the need to feel chosen and to love is a beautiful thing, but it can be so overpowering that it leaves you very vulnerable. It tempts you to stay in situations and in relationships that completely erode your dignity.

0:59Self-respect says, I am walking away from anyone who refuses to treat me like I matter. And like I said, it can be very hard. That need to love to be loved is so, it's incredibly important. It's not going away. But you have to understand that the moment that you feel attracted to someone is the moment that you are incredibly vulnerable and at risk of throwing all your standards and your boundaries out the window. It is the moment where we can so easily justify behavior all in the name of connection. The moment we're attracted to someone is the moment that we are at risk of throwing all our self-respect out the window.

1:54Because when the need to be loved is stronger and more powerful than our self-love and self-respect, we will easily betray ourselves in the name of connection. We will betray ourselves to remain in something so that we don't have to feel any loss of connection. And this is a conundrum that many of us face. It is a human need. It is the strongest human need to be loved and to love. Connection and love are our strongest human need. But at what cost? You know, I had a friend who was seeing someone and he was totally wrong for her. and he would tell her, he would like tell her, yes, I'm going to pick you up at the airport and then not even show up, like literally just not even show up and call her the next day.

2:53Or he would say, I love you, but there was always a but after that. And he was also seeing other people and would never commit. And it would make, it would make her seem like it was her fault. And this brought out the worst in her too. She would start to play games too of like figuring out how to get him, or she would get so angry at him for not being the kind of person that she deserved, that she would then, you know, pull away. But then not walk away, pull away, in an attempt to bring him closer. So she got caught up in the whole game as well. But at the end of the day, the bottom line was she was continually being met with disrespect.

3:41And so she really had to explore what was causing all this. Why was she in this? And a lot of it had to do with the fact that she was feeling lonely. She felt untethered from her community. Work was not going very well for her. So she had to really explore why she was allowing this kind of disrespect. And she also had to explore the fact that she wasn't exposed to enough people who were in relationships where there was respect coming from both sides. And so she had to really teach herself. But the first step that she had to do was to walk away from this person who continually reminded her that she did not matter and that she had to stop the game that she was playing with both herself and him of trying to, like, strategize to get him to choose her.

4:42And she had to realize that pulling away was never the answer and walking away was always the answer. And the way that she walked away wasn't about finding all this self-worth first. It was just about recognizing that the way the things were going would never, ever lead to what she wanted, which was a loving, supportive, aligned, healthy partnership with someone. And it was the very act of walking away that she finally sent the message to herself and to everyone else that she loved herself enough to no longer engage with him and to no longer engage in that kind of relationship. But this can go well beyond romantic relationships.

5:35When we decide that we are only going to surround ourselves with people whose life trajectory aligns with our own, who can celebrate our wins with us, who can be supportive, who inspires us, then we completely change our lives. Because who we surround ourselves with pretty much determines who we become. And so choose your partner very, very wisely, but also choose your circle wisely, because there's nothing more important than surrounding yourself with people who treat you like you matter. A healthy relationship is going to challenge you, but not in the same way that unhealthy relationships have challenged you.

6:30Instead of the sleepless nights, the anxiety-ridden mornings, the sheer exhaustion that comes from trying to be good enough for someone, you are going to be challenged in a healthy relationship to look at your patterns, to not sabotage the relationship, to communicate more effectively, to sit with your discomfort. to show up and love someone when you're not particularly in the mood. A healthy relationship is going to challenge you to be a more mature person. Because ultimately, a relationship is a mirror. And it will always be reflecting back to you, your relationship with yourself. I have a friend who I've known for many, many years.

7:27And she's been married for a long time, like 16 years or something like that. And for the first several years of their relationship, every five to six months or so, she would call me or reach out to me and say, I don't know if I'm with the right person. I don't know if I made a mistake. I don't know what to do. And she would be really suffering because she didn't know if she should stay or she should go. She didn't know if she made a mistake. And I knew without a shadow of a doubt that her husband was perfect for her and she was perfect for him and that this was a relationship she should not walk away from.

8:12And so every time she came to me with this doubt, I would talk to her on the phone, I would sit with her and I would help her process. And eventually she would come to some sort of understanding and stay in the relationship, but then a few months later, it would come up again. And the only thing that stopped this pattern was when we realized that there was a pattern to all her ambivalence. It turned out that every single time she was doubting her amazing husband, not perfect, but amazing, and doubting her amazing relationship, not perfect, but really, really good. It coincided with her having a struggle inside of herself that had nothing to do with her relationship.

9:03Oftentimes, she would be struggling with her work, not feeling like as connected to her work, feeling sort of untethered from her purpose. Or she was exhausted from burning the candle from both ends. You know, sometimes she was having an argument or going through a really hard time with one or both of her parents or some other family member. The point is, every single time, she was feeling like something was really missing in her life or she was feeling incredibly overwhelmed and there were needs that were not being met that actually she was responsible for meeting. It had nothing to do with her partner, but she projected that restlessness and that discontent onto the marriage and onto our partner, which is what we do, by the way, until we get super hyper self-aware.

9:59And when she realized that that's what was going on, when those feelings of restlessness came up, those feelings of ambivalence came up, she knew now that instead of panicking, she could just take a beat, take a minute, go for a walk, and reflect on what was going on in her life, and if she was feeling disconnected from herself. But then she would practice identifying what was missing and to address it. And sometimes she would address it with her husband because she wanted her husband's advice or support or help, But she learned not to project her relationship with herself onto her relationship with her husband.

10:48And I'm not saying that every time you have ambivalence about whether or not you're with the right person, that it's because something is missing inside of you. Sometimes there's something legitimately off and wrong about the relationship. But what I am suggesting is if you want it to work, and it's by anyone's standards, quote-unquote healthy, right? There's nothing toxic or unhealthy about it. You have to be willing to look in the mirror and reflect on what's going on with you when you're starting to feel that restlessness. because when we're feeling down, when we're feeling disconnected from ourselves, when we're in a low mood, then the lens through which we see the world and the people inside of our world becomes distorted.

11:42It becomes tinted with that mood, with our internal state. And so sometimes it's just a matter of getting ourselves out of that state so that we can see the people who we love clearly. We can see ourselves clearly. And so when she started to reflect on this, what she realized was that her relationship would always be a mirror reflecting back to her relationship with herself. And sometimes what that means is learning how to meet your own needs, but sometimes what it reflects back to you and it reflects back to me, what it reflects back to all of us, is how we can do better, how we can show up better, how we can learn how to communicate better.

12:29Because I don't know anyone who doesn't need to improve their communication skills. We're not taught this in school. We're not taught how to communicate for the purpose of deeper intimacy and connection. We're taught how to communicate to make a point for clarity, to win an argument, to win a debate, we're not taught how to truly connect. And we're all doing the best that we can with the tools that we've been given by our parents and caregivers who are doing the best that they could. And so at the end of the day, even the best relationships are going to challenge you to look in the mirror, are going to challenge you to grow up, are going to challenge you to stop projecting and meeting your own needs.

13:14but please note that that is vastly different than an unhealthy relationship where the your connection is largely defined by anxiety and and feeling like you're just not good enough so the next time you're trying to figure out like if you're in something healthy or unhealthy Always take a look at your own behavior and ask yourself, do I feel safe? Do I feel safe to communicate with this person? Do I feel respected? Do I respect this person? And am I certain of the fact that we are on the same team? And if you can say yes to all of those things, and you're still feeling this sort of restlessness, look within first.

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16:25Chemistry is a very powerful force. It's important. I certainly would never pursue a relationship with someone with whom I had no chemistry. And I certainly would not suggest that you do that as well. It can also be incredibly unreliable. A relationship where it's not reciprocal, someone is emotionally unavailable for whatever reason, or you feel like there's one foot in and one foot out, is always going to give you a ton of anxiety. And that doesn't mean you're anxiously attached. But what could mean that there is an attachment wound somewhere at play is you keep clinging to this person, even though they are showing you all the signs that they are not available.

17:27You keep clinging to them even though your nervous system feels completely disregulated by being in the relationship. But perhaps even more importantly is this. You cling to them and the relationship and you never actually say what it is that you feel. instead you ignore the signs of what your body is trying to tell you you tell yourself lies some justifications of why you should stay in this or why you shouldn't say anything and more than anything else you invalidate your feelings and you make yourself and you you make yourself question yourself. And chemistry can be an amazing feeling, and we can feel very connected to someone, but it's just not enough, and it is never worth the anxiety.

18:29It means that you have to have a hard conversation. For some of you watching this, asserting what it is that you need, advocating for yourself in a relationship, is something incredibly foreign to you. And it's very, very foreign to many, many women. It's not all women. Of course, there are men in relationships who have a hard time advocating for themselves. Absolutely. But, you know, women are so conditioned to put everyone else's needs first. And if we don't, then we're not good. Then we're not kind. And one of the biggest lessons that women need to learn in a relationship is to advocate for themselves.

19:10But regardless, you have to have that hard conversation. It simply goes like this. I feel very connected to you. I really like you a lot. I have strong feelings for you. But I also feel like you are not fully in this. I don't feel secure. I don't feel certain of our connection, that we really have a future together. We don't talk about the future. Every time I try to talk about the future, you deflect. and this isn't feeling good for me anymore. I need to know how you feel. I need to know if you're on the same page as me. And if you're not, that is fine. But then we need to call it some version of that.

19:56Your heart might be being out of your chest. Your palms might be sweating. I suggest taking a walk, deep breaths, but you have to do it. And maybe even say, depending on the scenario, maybe fewer words, but there's a combination of vulnerability, which is you're saying how it is you feel about this person, and then you're also drawing the line in the sand, and then you're also giving them an opportunity to speak what it is that they need to speak. If they tell you something that you don't want to hear, the courage is in being able to say, thank you for telling me the truth this is over thank you for telling me the truth I don't think we should see each other anymore thank you for telling me the truth let's let's go our separate ways never is it an invitation to try to convince them of your value of your worth never is it an invitation of trying to convince them to love you.

21:04Never is it an invitation for you to try harder. It's never an invitation for that. It's an invitation for you to graciously accept the truth and then choose yourself by removing yourself from a situation that is only going to give you immense suffering if you continue with it. This is part of the hard conversations that we all have to have. And yes, it can be way more complicated if this is a long-term relationship, for which I have a lot of information on that on my podcast, Jillian on Love. But for right now, this is like, you're thinking like, first six months of seeing someone, you know, Even if you've been seeing someone longer than that and you just constantly feel like you're trying to be enough for someone.

22:05Stop trying to be enough for anyone and just have the conversation and say, this is what I feel. This is what I feel. What's going on with you? And draw that line in the sand and you don't have to be angry and you don't have to be mean and you don't have to be rude, but you do have to be resolute. and you will be so proud of yourself for doing that. And when you do do that, especially if it is something that you've never really done before and is incredibly hard for you, you are likely breaking a generational pattern. It is very likely that your mom or your dad or someone in your family tree, that they didn't have those hard conversations and you are finally, finally being someone who can advocate for their own needs and be courageous enough to hear what another person is telling you and not try to orchestrate a different outcome.

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24:49Just go to gogevity.com slash Jillian. That's G-O-G-E-V-I-T-I dot com slash Jillian. Don't let someone who couldn't love you well decide the future that you get to have. When someone breaks your heart, or even if just a relationship breaks your heart, a relationship ends, your nervous system does what it is designed to do to protect you. And so you build walls and you close off. It's all very understandable. But here's the thing. If you stay closed, if you deny yourself moving on, if you deny yourself the opportunity to love again and to be loved again, then you are giving all your power away to someone who's not even in your life anymore.

25:37You're giving the person who's no longer in your life authorship of your story. And in order to heal and in order to move on, you decide your future. You have to take back authorship of your story. You decide what happens next, not someone from your past. And I know that this is easier said than done, but is still probably one of the most important messages that I could ever give on the topic of breakups and heartbreak. Of course, in the beginning, when you're really hurt, regardless of who's to blame or what happened or if they broke your heart or the relationship just fell apart and became a mess, you are going to want to crawl into your shell and not let anyone get close to you again.

26:33And like I said, it is totally understandable. And in the beginning, maybe that's what we kind of have to do. But what I see over and over and over again is that people are so shut down. They are so closed off. And they're wondering why they can't meet that right person. And they're not recognizing that part of what is actually standing in the way is that they are so armored and closed off. And I want you to be a protector of your heart. I want you to be a warrior of your boundaries. I don't want you to just give your heart away to someone just because you have some chemistry. I don't want you to give your heart to someone just because you're lonely.

27:14I never want you to settle. And we have to be able to risk opening up again. Because if we don't, then we are letting our past define our present. We're letting our past define our future. and that guaranteed causes more suffering than the suffering from a breakup because it causes long-term suffering we can't move forward we feel stuck we're not feeling love again we're not getting into a relation relationship again and so it's so incredibly important that regardless of what happened in your past listen I had I had a marriage that fell apart many many years ago that to talk about in my book, but, and it was like so incredibly painful.

28:05You know, I went so deep into my shell. I went so deep. I mean, I had so much self-protection and I realized after some time had passed that if I really want to heal, I have to make the decision that I am the author of my story. And that just because something didn't last with someone who at the time I really loved, it does not mean that my story is over. You know, one of the hardest lessons we will ever face and we will ever have to accept is to accept when someone's part in our story is over. And we don't like to let go. We like to hold on. And but when we hold on to the past, we rob ourselves of so much of our life.

28:56We rob ourselves of beauty, of love, of new experiences. And I made a decision that I was not going to give someone who was no longer in my life that kind of control over how I lead my life. And that's ultimately what we all have to do. And yes, it is hard. And yes, you know, it's not about just letting anyone in. And yes, loving someone and letting someone close does come with a risk, but there is a greater risk in living your life so self-protective that you are actually repelling the very thing that you want and you don't even realize it. And it is far worse to go years into the future and then look back in your life and think, oh my God, I did not, I didn't live it the way that I really wanted to.

30:00I didn't let myself even have the experience of another relationship because of my past experience with this person. How much power did I give this person? You don't want to be in that position. You have to let go. And letting go is not an overnight process, but it is a decision. And the decision is, even though I am hurt, even though I am grieving, even though, you know, this happened and that happened and it's not fair and I wish it didn't happen, I'm going to make the decision to be proactive in my healing every single day. So instead of repeating the story of the breakup and what happened and what should have happened and what you should have said and what you wish you hadn't said and what they should have done, instead of constantly repeating that story, I'm going to live my life.

31:00I'm going to, when it's time, when it's appropriate, maybe it's six months, maybe it's five months, maybe this was a long-term relationship and you need a solid year. I'm going to get myself back out there again. I'm going to date again. I'm going to go slow. I'm going to bring the lessons that I learned from the past into my current reality. I'm going to spend time with friends. I'm going to pursue something that I've always wanted to pursue. I'm going to write a book. I'm going to book that trip. Whatever it is, you have to be proactive in your healing. And yes, time is an amazing healer. It really is.

31:44But you can expedite how quickly you get over someone when you decide to work with time and when you decide to be proactive in your healing so that, like I said, you are a collaborator with time. One chapter is closed. You still have many more chapters ahead of you. Make sure you are writing those chapters and not someone who's your ex. This episode of Jillian on Love is sponsored by Ritual. Okay, so recently my healthy eating went out the window. I was so busy preparing for a trip and so overwhelmed. I never want to be in this position again, but I was like literally like just like snacking on junk food all day.

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34:34And then we get into a relationship, and all our old patterns and fears come up. Fears of abandonment, fear of loss, fear of not being good enough. And that's not a bad sign. It is just a sign that you are human. Everyone has something. fears, insecurities, trauma. No one enters a relationship fully healed. Not one person. Your patterns, your insecurities, they are yours to own. But a partner either reinforces all your insecurities or they don't. And that's why who you choose matters. Because you're not just picking a partner. You're picking how you're going to feel about yourself every single day.

35:22Love heals. And when you're with someone who accepts you for who you are instead of judges you or criticizes you, you actually learn to love yourself more. That's not to say that we shouldn't be doing some healing work on our own. I have definitely given the advice to certain people, you know what? you need to take a timeout from dating. You need to take a timeout for being on a relationship because there are things that you really need to work on before you can actually participate in a relationship that's going to be healthy for you. And there have been times in my life where I'm like, you know what, I need to take a step back.

36:02Taking a step back is sometimes really necessary. Taking a step back and focusing on ourselves can be very, very necessary. And sometimes you just want to be single because it feels good. And you don't, you're not, maybe for the first time, you're not putting being in a relationship as like the number one priority in your life. And that can feel really good and really empowering. But when it comes to working on yourself, there is only so much working on yourself that you can do alone. because it's when you are close to someone and when the reality sets in that you love someone or you're falling in love with them and you could lose them.

36:52They could decide that they don't want to be in a relationship with you. You could, you know, one day start a fight and sabotage the relationship. Lots of things can happen. It's when we are faced with those kind of stakes that all the old stuff comes up. And when it does, that is your opportunity to take everything that you've reflected on when you were alone and attempting to heal or really wanting to have a season that was just all about you. That's when you want to take those lessons into that current moment, to that present moment, and react differently, respond differently. we have to be able to be confronted with the things that trigger us and decide a different way to behave.

37:50And sometimes we will fail, but then the real win is then apologizing and owning it and taking responsibility for it really quickly. The real win is having that hard conversation when you would normally avoid it. The real win is being patient until you can have that hard conversation so that both of you can sit down and make it productive. Of course, you feel healed and confident on your own. And if you are dating again and you're feeling your anxieties come up or you're feeling your insecurities come up, don't panic. It's part of the deal. Like, we just can't. It's not about avoiding relationships altogether.

38:38You have to have some faith in yourself that you've done the work and that you can do things differently. You absolutely can. And for all of you who feel a lot of anxiety, specifically in relationships, and then when you're single, you feel very confident and you feel like you're securely attached. And then as soon as you're dating, or as soon as you actually like someone and are attracted to someone, and there's some attachment forming and you feel the anxiety, remind yourself that you can just have a conversation that when you're, when you're in your head, you can just ask them, remember that you can speak to that trusted counsel who can help you stay grounded.

39:24Don't avoid it because it's bringing things up for you. Face it head on and recognize that if you really want to heal, if you really want to overcome, you overcome it with being with someone who is patient and you are patient with them. No one's responsible for healing you. And it is absolutely one of the most healing experiences that we can have being in a relationship with someone who's all in and we are all in with them. So don't deny yourself that privilege of being in a relationship, of moving on, of having that experience. Don't avoid yourself. confront yourself and challenge yourself to do things differently, to choose differently, and to grow.

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42:46And we don't give enough credit to people who do this. And look, it's easy to say, if you're on the outside looking in and you have a good friend who's been in a relationship with someone who's just, you know, horribly mismatched or just not a good person to them. And maybe you've been giving this person advice over and over and over weeks, months, and even years. Like, you have to leave this relationship. Like, when is this person going to wake up and choose themselves and get out of this? And it can be very frustrating and hard to watch someone we care about do this and stay in these relationships.

43:31And we think, like, isn't it just obvious to them? And it's not always so obvious. And it's incredibly terrifying. And you think that that's the best that you can do. And you don't really have a clear sense of what is tolerable versus intolerable in a relationship. And maybe you don't have a lot going on outside of the relationship. so you feel even more dependent on this connection, and you feel lonely when you're not in a relationship and you think this is better than nothing, that step of finally drawing the line in the sand and saying, you know what? I would rather face the unknown, or I'm going to face my fears of being alone, of not being good enough, of losing this connection, of thinking that maybe it's my fault.

44:25I'm going to risk all that because I know that to stay in this any longer means that I am going to continue to really sabotage my overall well-being. And I'm not going to do that anymore. I am going to choose myself. and I'm going to give myself a new lease on life, a new opportunity to live a life that feels right. And I'm going to give myself the opportunity to meet someone who's actually right for me. And I'm going to give myself the opportunity to work on other parts of my life so that I never find myself in this kind of scenario again. And so that takes courage. And I don't want you to take that lightly and just know that, you know, it's going to take everything you have to make this choice, but you will not regret leaving a relationship where you are disrespected, chronically disrespected.

45:38You are never going to regret that. But what you are going to really be proud of is yourself. And all I can say is trust your instinct. You know deep down when something is not right and something doesn't feel right. And you may miss this person. Allow yourself to grieve. But I promise you that the pain of grieving that relationship is going to be minuscule in comparison to the pain that you will experience knowing that you compromised your well-being and your precious time and energy in something that was terribly wrong for you. Jillian on Love is a Q-Code production, executive produced by David Henning and Steve Wilson, produced and edited by Travis Howe.

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